i'm so nervous for tomorrow.
i'm scared of denial and rejection.
i want to be a SuicideGirl so i can be so much more confident in my skin. i don't care about the money.
i want to prove to people that body mods are beautiful, and we're not monsters because we like to decorate ourselves.
going pink would make me so happy, and happiness is what i long for at the moment.
these past few months have sucked so bad, and i just want a little bit of a pick me up.
i'm scared of denial and rejection.
i want to be a SuicideGirl so i can be so much more confident in my skin. i don't care about the money.
i want to prove to people that body mods are beautiful, and we're not monsters because we like to decorate ourselves.
going pink would make me so happy, and happiness is what i long for at the moment.
these past few months have sucked so bad, and i just want a little bit of a pick me up.
morphine and shel silverstein.
sunshine and inspiration.
whatchu know about dat lyfe doe.
sunshine and inspiration.
whatchu know about dat lyfe doe.
hey guys,
i have a little sister. she lives far from me so i never get to see her, but i talk to her every single day...
lately she's been talking about suicide more than usual.
i think she attempted and succeeded either last night or this morning.
i'm hoping that there's just a small reason as to why she hasn't contacted me back today, but the last text that i got from her last night, was her saying goodbye.
so, i'm sitting here listening to Pierce the Veil. When i went to their show a month and a half ago, they played my favorite song, and vic said "i know that you all have a friend that might not be doing well, and that they might be thinking about taking their own lives, make it a point to ask them how they are and if their doing okay.this song is for them"
automatically i thought of my sister.
my favorite band, my favorite song, and now my best friend, little sister and one of the most important people in my life are all bundled together in my head.
it made me think, as i listened to the lyrics and watched my idols perform:
i wish that my sister were right there with me, because they're her favorite too.
but she's so far away and going through hell that i wish i could save her from.
i ended up crying during that song.
i'm listening to the song now, hoping and praying that my sister is okay, but i'm terrified.
send good vibes and thoughts and keep your fingers crossed please.
i just needed to vent a little.
i have a little sister. she lives far from me so i never get to see her, but i talk to her every single day...
lately she's been talking about suicide more than usual.
i think she attempted and succeeded either last night or this morning.
i'm hoping that there's just a small reason as to why she hasn't contacted me back today, but the last text that i got from her last night, was her saying goodbye.
so, i'm sitting here listening to Pierce the Veil. When i went to their show a month and a half ago, they played my favorite song, and vic said "i know that you all have a friend that might not be doing well, and that they might be thinking about taking their own lives, make it a point to ask them how they are and if their doing okay.this song is for them"
automatically i thought of my sister.
my favorite band, my favorite song, and now my best friend, little sister and one of the most important people in my life are all bundled together in my head.
it made me think, as i listened to the lyrics and watched my idols perform:
i wish that my sister were right there with me, because they're her favorite too.
but she's so far away and going through hell that i wish i could save her from.
i ended up crying during that song.
i'm listening to the song now, hoping and praying that my sister is okay, but i'm terrified.
send good vibes and thoughts and keep your fingers crossed please.
i just needed to vent a little.
