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Sigh.Gotta vent, yo.
I've doubled the dosage of my meds, but I haven't seen any improvement.
As a matter of fact, I'm back-sliding.
I've all but quit going to school.
I barely make it to work.
The "good guy" that I've been seeing has pushed me away, saying (like the string of guys before him) that it isn't me, it's him.
I've been much more attentive the last year, trying to discern my own faults and responsibilities in my relationships with others; trying to more aware of my patterns and amend my mistakes. I thought I was really making headway and had chosen someone that was very different from the last few people I had been with, but the results are the same.
The common denominator here is me. So I ask what I do wrong so I don't make the same mistakes next time. I get the same answers from every guy: "You're great; You don't do anything wrong; It's not you; If I wanted a serious relationship right now I would be with you;" etc. and blah-blah.
I wish I could believe that, but I don't.
Sigh.Gotta vent, yo.
I've doubled the dosage of my meds, but I haven't seen any improvement.
As a matter of fact, I'm back-sliding.
I've all but quit going to school.
I barely make it to work.
The "good guy" that I've been seeing has pushed me away, saying (like the string of guys before him) that it isn't me, it's him.
I've been much more attentive the last year, trying to discern my own faults and responsibilities in my relationships with others; trying to more aware of my patterns and amend my mistakes. I thought I was really making headway and had chosen someone that was very different from the last few people I had been with, but the results are the same.
The common denominator here is me. So I ask what I do wrong so I don't make the same mistakes next time. I get the same answers from every guy: "You're great; You don't do anything wrong; It's not you; If I wanted a serious relationship right now I would be with you;" etc. and blah-blah.
I wish I could believe that, but I don't.
