well its never until life is right in your face that u realize that you must take a step forward even if it looks to others as if you are going in reverse. there are so many things i have to deal with as far as work(i was told last week that the job i had before the accident wasnt available at this time, so i tried to file for unemployment only to find out that i dont qualify bc i havent worked in 2 years), living situation, and most of all life in general. i wont be going to london in july bc at this point there are to many things in my own life that need to be dealt with. i understand that most of you will question about my relationship and i ask you to please respect our privacy. my head has been all over the place trying to figure this out .its sad to say but my life will never be the same, all i can do is try and make is the best it can be. i need to focus all of my time and effort doing so. .i wont be answering any questions, so please do not ask. this is hard enough as it is. i mean no disrespect and dont care for judgements or advice. This is real life stuff, not chat drama.
50 days until i see reuben_...the days are going pretty fast i suppose. just wish i was able to spend more time there with her...
i remember when i was a little kid driving with my mom, nowhere special comes to mind just driving. music turned up my mom singing at the top of her lungs looking over every so often to smile and laugh with me. i thought she was crazy. lol. little did i know then that those were the times i would cherish most. today is her birthday and all i can think of is taking a drive with her and me singing at the top of my lungs happy birthday to her. sadly she passed 4 years ago. so this one is for mom(no i wont be singing lol) a little luther, bc she would always have him playing no matter in the car, house...it didnt matter
somethings just are meant to be...the way she looks at me makes me melt. i can only hope that i make her feel the same way. its such a great feeling to have. its been far to long since i have felt this way and i dont want it to go away..i dont want her to go away <3
things do come around and make sense eventually....things do come around around, but things still trouble me.
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