well its never until life is right in your face that u realize that you must take a step forward even if it looks to others as if you are going in reverse. there are so many things i have to deal with as far as work(i was told last week that the job i had before the accident wasnt available at this time, so i tried to file for unemployment only to find out that i dont qualify bc i havent worked in 2 years), living situation, and most of all life in general. i wont be going to london in july bc at this point there are to many things in my own life that need to be dealt with. i understand that most of you will question about my relationship and i ask you to please respect our privacy. my head has been all over the place trying to figure this out .its sad to say but my life will never be the same, all i can do is try and make is the best it can be. i need to focus all of my time and effort doing so. .i wont be answering any questions, so please do not ask. this is hard enough as it is. i mean no disrespect and dont care for judgements or advice. This is real life stuff, not chat drama.