I'm so frustrated with life right now, I don't know if I should quit my job, scream out loud, or just go to bed.
I think a huge part of my problem is that I always think about other people before myself. I'm sure that's a good quality to have, but it isn't really helping my mind. I wish choices were easier to make. Sometimes I just wish other people would make my decisions for me.
I wish I were secure
I think a huge part of my problem is that I always think about other people before myself. I'm sure that's a good quality to have, but it isn't really helping my mind. I wish choices were easier to make. Sometimes I just wish other people would make my decisions for me.
I wish I were secure
I bought a Jeep on Sunday. This is probably the single most exciting car purchase I've ever made! How come no one told me it's just plain AWESOME to own an SUV (aside from gas mileage)??!!
Hooray for Jeeps, and all people who own Jeeps are automatically awesome
Bah-Humbug
I'm glad that Christmas is over. Not because I'm a Scrooge or anything, but I've realized that the level of idiocy increases during the holiday season. No one seems to know where their going, and if they do they seem completely oblivious to the fact that the mall is not open for them alone.
Let's hope 2008 is full of wonder and excitement (and less anger and hostility!)
I'm glad that Christmas is over. Not because I'm a Scrooge or anything, but I've realized that the level of idiocy increases during the holiday season. No one seems to know where their going, and if they do they seem completely oblivious to the fact that the mall is not open for them alone.
Let's hope 2008 is full of wonder and excitement (and less anger and hostility!)
OMFG I'M ALMOST 30!!!!
Well folks, tomorrow (Wednesday) I will be turning the big 3-0!! Holy cow!! I certainly hope the 30s are much better than the 20s. I do feel hopeful which is always a good thing. Send good vibes my way...I'm gonna need 'em!!
Well folks, tomorrow (Wednesday) I will be turning the big 3-0!! Holy cow!! I certainly hope the 30s are much better than the 20s. I do feel hopeful which is always a good thing. Send good vibes my way...I'm gonna need 'em!!
Time to Reflect
I've been feeling very bla lately...actually it's been more like depressed. I feel like my world is closing in on me and I'm losing the freedom I once had. I'm not sure when I changed from being the carefree hippie chick to the uber-serious woman, but I'm not liking it. I need to go back to a simpler time. I've abandoned my photography (which was my passion in life) for 24-hour seriousness and early bedtimes. I've abandoned my art (which was also my passion in life) for aches and pains and no ambition. How can I get this back? I remember when I used to be super happy walking through nature, photographing its sights and sounds. When picking sunflowers made me joyful beyond belief. Now I face everyday thinking less of myself, feeling stupid when I have so many intelligent people around me. I feel like I know nothing, like I should wipe my ass with my college degree because it means nothing. My fiancee doesn't even know the real me because I've been living in this bubble which has sucked the life out of me for the past 9 years. Now some people may say it's because I'm getting older, but I refuse to accept that. I still desire to do the things I did as a younger person. I haven't given up on seeing the beauty of life, I'm just not sure how to go about refocusing my eyes
P.S. I refuse to give up on myself...I am starting over and that's that!
I've been feeling very bla lately...actually it's been more like depressed. I feel like my world is closing in on me and I'm losing the freedom I once had. I'm not sure when I changed from being the carefree hippie chick to the uber-serious woman, but I'm not liking it. I need to go back to a simpler time. I've abandoned my photography (which was my passion in life) for 24-hour seriousness and early bedtimes. I've abandoned my art (which was also my passion in life) for aches and pains and no ambition. How can I get this back? I remember when I used to be super happy walking through nature, photographing its sights and sounds. When picking sunflowers made me joyful beyond belief. Now I face everyday thinking less of myself, feeling stupid when I have so many intelligent people around me. I feel like I know nothing, like I should wipe my ass with my college degree because it means nothing. My fiancee doesn't even know the real me because I've been living in this bubble which has sucked the life out of me for the past 9 years. Now some people may say it's because I'm getting older, but I refuse to accept that. I still desire to do the things I did as a younger person. I haven't given up on seeing the beauty of life, I'm just not sure how to go about refocusing my eyes
P.S. I refuse to give up on myself...I am starting over and that's that!
Long Time, No Post
I just can't seem to get in the mood to post anything lately. Probably because I'm feeling a little melancholy that summer is ending and I didn't really do too much. I'm also a little sad that I have to go back to educating America's youth. Although I haven't been teaching for long, I feel as though I'm not making a difference. It's today's society! Too much technology and not enough of the good old-fashioned book. Kids can't even write a proper sentence without some type of slang (i.e. wanna, gonna, LOL, OMG, etc). I feel a mixture of sadness and frustration.
I'm also very frustrated with my mother. We don't exactly have a bad relationship, but everytime I talk to her she manages to make me angry. I'm not sure why. Ever since she got remarried and moved she's become helpless and needy. It annoys me because she used to be so independent...now she has to take a nap if she has company. Perhaps it's because she's getting older, but perhaps she just wants attention. Attention that I can't and won't give her. I have a hard enough time paying attention to myself.
Blah...
I just can't seem to get in the mood to post anything lately. Probably because I'm feeling a little melancholy that summer is ending and I didn't really do too much. I'm also a little sad that I have to go back to educating America's youth. Although I haven't been teaching for long, I feel as though I'm not making a difference. It's today's society! Too much technology and not enough of the good old-fashioned book. Kids can't even write a proper sentence without some type of slang (i.e. wanna, gonna, LOL, OMG, etc). I feel a mixture of sadness and frustration.
I'm also very frustrated with my mother. We don't exactly have a bad relationship, but everytime I talk to her she manages to make me angry. I'm not sure why. Ever since she got remarried and moved she's become helpless and needy. It annoys me because she used to be so independent...now she has to take a nap if she has company. Perhaps it's because she's getting older, but perhaps she just wants attention. Attention that I can't and won't give her. I have a hard enough time paying attention to myself.
Blah...
I Survived!!
I'm back from the dreaded trip to Florida with the madre! It was pretty rough and I'm just glad it's over. Disney World was fun, but of course Florida in July is always miserable. Crowds, heat, and just plain annoying people made for a sometimes less than enjoyable experience. We also saw two horrific accidents on the way back which made me thank my lucky stars that I wasn't going just a little bit faster or else we probably would have seen these accidents happen.
In other news, I'm thinking of cancelling my SG account. It's just not the same SG anymore. Too many things have changed and I really dislike the new set up. Plus I feel as though I only come on once in a blue moon...people just don't comment anymore. I barely even have an interest to look at any of the sets either.
Ho-hum
I'm back from the dreaded trip to Florida with the madre! It was pretty rough and I'm just glad it's over. Disney World was fun, but of course Florida in July is always miserable. Crowds, heat, and just plain annoying people made for a sometimes less than enjoyable experience. We also saw two horrific accidents on the way back which made me thank my lucky stars that I wasn't going just a little bit faster or else we probably would have seen these accidents happen.
In other news, I'm thinking of cancelling my SG account. It's just not the same SG anymore. Too many things have changed and I really dislike the new set up. Plus I feel as though I only come on once in a blue moon...people just don't comment anymore. I barely even have an interest to look at any of the sets either.
Ho-hum
I'm Baaaaack
Wow! It's been a looooooong time since I've made a new post! I dislike the new layout of SG. I would like to just sign on and see my own blog...not have to pick what I'd like to look at. Geez!
Anyhoo, I've been extremely busy but none of what I've been doing is exciting enough to post in a blog. Teaching summer school and dealing with my students' obnoxious parents is about all that's been going on. However, I am leaving for Florida in a week. I'm not really looking forward to it. My mother wants to go to Disneyworld before she's 60 (she's 58), but she doesn't want to fly. Somehow I signed myself up to drive. I must be out of my ever-lovin' mind. Twenty hours in the car with my mother. I don't really know how to feel about that. Plus, I've never been away from Walter for longer than a weekend
Ho-hum. Hope everyone's summer is going splendidly.
Wow! It's been a looooooong time since I've made a new post! I dislike the new layout of SG. I would like to just sign on and see my own blog...not have to pick what I'd like to look at. Geez!
Anyhoo, I've been extremely busy but none of what I've been doing is exciting enough to post in a blog. Teaching summer school and dealing with my students' obnoxious parents is about all that's been going on. However, I am leaving for Florida in a week. I'm not really looking forward to it. My mother wants to go to Disneyworld before she's 60 (she's 58), but she doesn't want to fly. Somehow I signed myself up to drive. I must be out of my ever-lovin' mind. Twenty hours in the car with my mother. I don't really know how to feel about that. Plus, I've never been away from Walter for longer than a weekend
Ho-hum. Hope everyone's summer is going splendidly.
28 Weeks Later...
And zombies are still funny!!
I have to say that this one was waaaaaay better than the first one!
Hostel II - June 8th!!
And zombies are still funny!!
I have to say that this one was waaaaaay better than the first one!
Hostel II - June 8th!!
