If you can't hold your own,
don't point your fucking finger at me!
Cough, spit, scream, HATRED,
all inclusive
and yes, it's a question of class and experience
consider yourself dismissed.

Lesson A: This lifestyle is not for sale.
Give it up, again, and again.
And that's how we do it!

To crush.
You must love.

No false pride
No fashion
No fake set of values
A primal force-to completely absorb.
Transforming, serpent-like.
Infernal and true.

Lesson B: Imitation equals failure
Surrender to this
and that's how we do it!

To crush
You must love.

Character grows from pain
Sealed and approved!
And the strength to overcome
Trial by fire!
No slackness.
No wasted chase.
This is the discipline.

To crush you must love
the fine art of crush

well its time to start a new chapter in my sad story. Im going to be moving out on my own in the next couple of days. I have never had to truly make it on my own and it stressing me out. I have always had some one there right beside me. At first it was living with my parents then i met a girl and we moved into the world together. Now Its just me paying my own way getting myself out of trouble and providing for my self. I will be living with a friend and his fam but i dont really know them ive only hung out with him a couple of time's but he wants to try to give me a hand up. So im going to take it i have to i have never taking a verry big leap of faith in my like. the time is now i have to do this for myself and make the best of it and hopefully come out the in the end stonger bolder and a better person. We will see what happen's i am 26 yrs old and i am just now really taking the first steps of my life will i sink or will i float. I am such a negative person all the time and i am try to drain my self of that hopefully this will be my kick in the ass!!!!

im back atleast for a little while. Life has been extremley stressfull as of late dont really want to get into to it. My living situation blows ass and im not at home most of the time because of it. I go in and out of my house through my bedroom window so to go unnoticed. i cant seem to keep a job for the life of me and my unemployment has run out. I dont have any friends in the this god forsaken city so i have no where to run too. Dont have a car so i cant go verry far either.I dont know what else to say except now im here sitting at my computer telling everyone how shitty life and no one will probly care our even read this and i dont know why i even bother!!

1. Spiral

My screams of fear and fury collide, a desperate
pattern I follow. Turn into silence, but still I hear
the silence scream. Oh how this fills me up.

Searching for a moment like this.
Raised with your act as a guidance. I cannot take it.

I have to break this. Ware it down in small pieces.
My dreams have stopped but only for the moment.
I can feel it now. I can see it now. I'm in a downfall spiral.

Searching for a moment like this.
Raised with your act as a guidance.
Lead by your words and your lies. I cannot take it.

Searching for a moment like this.
Raised with your act as a guidance. I cannot take it.

Oh how this parasite consumes my inner bliss.
I can't take this much more. Take me away.

Searching for a moment like this.
Raised with your act as a guidance.
Lead by the words and your lies.

Searching for a moment like this.
Raised with your act as a guidance. I cannot take it.

Searching for a moment like this.
Raised with your act as a guidance.
Lead by your words and your lies. I cannot take it.


by Nightrage

bare with me here this is my first ever blog any on any website so it probly just be short and sweet any ways im sitting here tired bored and pondering life like usual im getting frustrated being unemployed and living in this piece of shit state another thing i went to my nephews graduation yesterday and it made me realized how much i have missed in the last couple of years an d how old im getting and what little i have done with my life and it kind of just makes me angry and want to go to a concert and throw down in the pit which also makes me realize how long its been since i been to concert and thats just sad so yeah im just pretty much sick and tired of life right now and lonely,depressed and just want to just lash out at the world but just cant figure out how and that about sums it up not that any one is going to read this

1. Coil

[Mikael Akerfeldt:]
She told me
Why she told me lies
Always take care of this
I told her how I've always stayed
Always waiting for nothing

[x2]
When I get out of here
When I leave you behind
I'll find that the years passed us by

And I can see you
Running through the fields of sorrow
Yes I can, see you
Running through the fields of sorrow

[x2]
When you get out of here
When you leave me behind
You'll find that the years passed us by

And I can see you
Running through the fields of sorrow
Yes I can, see you
Running through the fields of sorrow


by Opeth