Nervous, excited, determined, apprehensive, confused and mostly happy. Emotions are funny things.

Tomorrow awaits.

I am very, very tired. The Brighton meet was excellent and I had a great time. It was nice to catch up with old friends and to meet new people. Hopefully everyone else had as good a time as I did.

Friday was nice and quiet, a good chilled out start to the meet. Me, Rael and Killa_ went to get something to eat and then to Great Eastern. I was the only one who was drinking but I think I did enough for 3 people. Later that night foundry came and found us and joined me on the drinking. It was good to meet him concious

Saturday Mark_plus_Beer turned up at mine looking every bit as hungover as I felt so we headed into town to get a burger and recover a bit. Then we headed to the Brunswick for the meet. We sat in the garden and pretended it was summer for a while because it's July and it bloody well should be warm. Spoke to far too many people to list here but everyone was ace and I had a cracking time. Hopefully I didn't do anything too embarrassing.

Engine Rooms was suitably terrible as always but it is a giggle. Creative use of a pole was made by quite a few people.

Today I've been eating as much greasy food as possible.

Time zones suck. At the very least everyone I want to talk to could be in the same one. That way I'd be less tired right now. 1 hours sleep is not big or clever. Some conversations are too good to put down though

Other news.

Wesnt to a BBQ at Miyo's on Saturday. Had loads of fun but it seems I wasn't brightly coloured enough to be in any photos thankfully. Somehow I ended up being the chef and only narrowly avoided killing everyone with under cooked burgers because someone who knew what they were doing was stood next to me. BBQing is not easy in the dark.

This Saturday is the Brighton meet. Hopefully it goes ok. There's no reason it won't be great but I always fear the worst so that I'm pleasantly suprised

There's 2 more meets on the next 2 Saturdays and my timezone criminal from the first paragraph is so in the same timezone as me next week she'll be in my house. Mind you all of our clocks say different times so she'll have to stay in the same room as me.

Apparently I'm going to university. I have a certificate and a letter saying I'm going to get a grant and everything.

I also gave a desperate need for greasy food.



Very nice.

I don't want to be at work now though.

The sun is shining, it's Friday and I've got a lazy weekend ahead yet being stuck in the office is getting to me. I just can't work up any motivation when I know this ends in 2 months. I need the money but I am really struggling to care right now. At least I'm never alone here anymore

Handed in my notice. Officially only 2 months more of this shit.

I seem to have found someone else's luck, there's no way this is my life going this well. If it's your luck I've found I apologise but you can't have it back. I'm having too much fun. sorry.

So why is life so great I hear you ask? Well I'm sure I heard one of you ask and even if no one did I'm going to tell you anyway.

For starters I seem to have passed my college course. I handed my final essay in last Saturday and the external examiner was in college looking at everyone's portfolios on Wednesday. We were all told that if we didn't hear anything by Thursday at the latest then we had passed. Well it is Sunday last time I checked and I haven't heard anything so I can only assume that everything is fine. Now all I have to do is turn up at college to pick up my certificate, find out what I have to do to let Kings College know and celebrate in grand style.

I am really chuffed and a little big headed because I've managed to do this. It has been really hard work and I've learnt loads. Just getting to class after work was difficult so it isn't something I'd have finished without a huge commitment. The final essay was also probably the hardest project I have ever done and I seriously thought I was losing my mind with stress towards the end. However it's all done now and on top of going to university I have made some excellent friends which would have made the whole thing worth while even if I hadn't passed.

Speaking of friends I am seeing many of you lot later this month and many of you I'll see three weeks running. If you weren't all so wonderful I'd get sick of you. As it is I'm really looking forward to all three meets as I'm sure much fun will be had by all. Hopefully the Brighton meet goes without a hitch, I think me and Miyo have it all sorted but you never know what might happen. The only worry here is if my liver can survive.

Football has also been making me happy. We've been training for just over a month now and turn out has been really good. A lot of new lads have come along so we should be able to strengthen the second team quite considerably, it'd be nice if both teams could have winning seasons.We've just stepped it up a gear this morning an my legs are beginning to ache as the adrenalin wear off. I think it's going to be bad tomorrow. Hopefully I'll still be able to travel down from London and play most Sundays.

Of course all of this football related stuff is just to give us a good excuse to drink and we've also had a couple of really good nights out to celebrate last season. They are a lovely bunch of guys and again regardless of the football I'm glad I've met them, at times they keep me sane when I start to take everything a little too seriously.

On top of all this someone brilliant has wandered into my life who I am sure is far too good for me. She keeps telling me she's not though and I've never liked a confrontation so I go along with her. She's been making me feel incredibly special and I can only hope I've been doing the same too her. I'm sure she's brainwashed me though, I don't seem to be able to think about anything else.

I actually think there's more I should write about but I don't want to overwhelm you all with how great everything is so I'll stop now. It strikes me that all of this good in my life has come from being prepared to let others into my life and being prepared to take a chance or two. Three years ago none of this would have happened to me as I'd have shut it out or worried about what could go wrong until it was too late. with the help of a lot of people my outlook has really changed since then and I can;t get over how much better it's made everything.

Now I'm off to nurse these aches would a steady infusion of alcohol. have fun everybody.

So it appears that I am done with college. My presentation went well and my portfolio has been handed in. All I do now is wait and if I don't here anything this week my next contact with college is when I turn up on July 9th to pick up my certificate. I'm pretty confident. Unless I've left something out of my portfolio I can't see that my final essay is going to not pass so that should be it.

And then it's on to university which is both quite scary and incredibly exciting.

I'll only be 10 years late

These last few weeks have been incredibly stressful but I'm glad I've done it. It's been an incredible year and I've met some really wonderful people. If all I end up with from this year is a bunch of new friends then it will have been worth all of the stress regardless of anything else.

I've got a few incredible things lined up for my last summer with regular money. I'm meant to be saving and paying off credit cards and the like but that doesn't sound like fun at all.

The 3rd week in July may become the greatest week in the history of me for all sorts of reasons. All of them related to this lovely site here. The first weekend in August apparently sees me dressing up in sparkly things. The things SGUK get me doing. More people I wouldn't swap for the world there as well.

Actually in top of another incredible night with the lads from my football team I think the biggest thing that I've learned over the last year or 18 months or so is that people are generally pretty awesome. I think I always knew that but it's really been drummer home to me now and I've started to appreciate the times I have with people.

Cor, that's soppy isn't it?

True though

Oh and Dr Who is teh awesome.

Today I start the fightback against the arch blogpire AesirR. All of my blogs ahve been really short of late but stuff has been happening. Much of it stressful but nearly all of it good. Sometimes you just need to put in an awful lot of effort to get get to the really good stuff.

So things then. If you've been paying attention (wake up at the back) you'll have noticed that I took last wek off in order to get my last essay done for my course. I'd been stressing about it quite a lot and there was no way with the way work was going that i was going to be able to do it in the evening so a week off was needed. The week was havoc, I did lots of reading but really struggled to get anything down on paper. I wasn't helped by UEFAs malicious decision to schedule the start of the a major football tournamount for the same week the bastards.

It got to Saturday and I was strating to go into panic mode as it was due on Monday and I only had about half of it together. Unfortunately that night was the football clubs end of year awards bash which I really had to go to. I threw a pathectic hissy fit at my Dad (sorry Dad ) about not being able to leave the house ever again but in the end went down there for what was meant to be just acouple of drinks. It turned out to be the best thing I could have done. I drank far too much, was dragged out of the pub at closing and even managed to play football on Sunday morning. The lads in my football team are the bollocks.

After that all stress was gone and the essay was easy. I really am the number 1 for winding me up. Such an idiot.

Anyway I got the presentation done during Monday day time and headed up to college for the evening. Got to college with my memory stick and none of it would load. Apparently Open Office, which I'd newly downloaded onto my laptop has different documenrt default settings to Microsoft office and they don't recognise each other. Brilliant. So now I'm heading back to college on Saturday with everything in the right format. I'm not too bothered about that as it's given me the chance to iron out some small errors.

The presentation is bound to go well as it starts with this clip

After that how can it go wrong?

So yeah Saturday has sort of put an end to my plans to get completely wasted at the Brighton Small Mercies show tomorrow night. I will still have a damn good time though. Then I will get completely wasted on Saturday with the people from college. Of that there is no doubt.

My parents are away from Saturday, of to Scotland for a week. My healthy balanced on my own diet eating only sausages and pizzas on alternate night will be in effect from Saturday night

E for epic fail. Apparently the file type OpenOffice Impress automatically saves in isn't compatible with Microsoft Powerpoint. When I arrived at college was probably not the best time to discover this. Oh well, theres another group making their presentations on Saturday so I am now first on at 10am Saturday morning.

'm not worried by the presentation though, I have plenty of other peoples jokes in it so i'll get some laughs. I'm so not worried I'm going down to see The Small Mercies on Firday night.