I made some weapons models for Oblivion tonight. A hand and a half sword and a stilleto. I'm trying to figure out UV mapping so I can get textures on them, right now they're just base white. But at least they're in game. : )

I figure I can use the same process to make my own shields, too, and maybe some other things. The physics are kind of wonky right now.

I don't trust religions or governments. Most religions don't give a damn about me, all they want is my soul and my money and my unswerving adherance to their bullshit dictums. I know that no governments give a damn about me, as I'm not wealthy enough to merit notice or protection. But they still want my money, my unswerving adherence to their bullshit dictums, and even my life if their wars go badly enough. Fuck em both. Organized Government and Organized religion are both really fucking bad ideas. I'm not saying their is any particularly good alternative, but Religion and Government don't exactly have... well... anything going for them.

Every morning, when I wake up, I feel crippled, because I can no longer fly.

I'm reading Thank you for Smoking. I've not had anything significant to eat today. I am wearing a comforter. I am still not particularly enthused with 'The world, generally' but I'm doing okay otherwise. I could probably use a hug and/or a good veggie sandwhiche.

I'm declaring "National the Government is made of Stupid and couldn't protect you for an ornery skunk, so wear armor everywhere day". NGMSCPOSSWAED Day will be celebrated on the first Friday of May. You should wear bike helmets, dust masks, knee protectors, and maybe tape a couple of pillows to your chest, incase you fall down the stairs onto some tacks or something. You should also wear a a lot of orange, so everyone can see you clearly and tell that you're not a terrorist.

Lot's of people are lying to you about a lot of very important things, like how the world works and why, and the reasons people do some things and don't do others. It may or may not be a malicious lie. In fact, I think most people don't really realize it's a lie, they've been telling it for so long they've forgotten it's not true. But you know, now, so don't forget. The world is not a good place. It never has been and it never will be. Most people, in most places, most of the time, will live short, brutal, horrid lives so that other people can profit by their suffering. And it won't ever change because the people who stand to profit have guns and bombs and swords and they'll kill you or throw you in a hole to die if you try to stop them. They'll let you pretend just as long as you don't actually do anything that might threaten them.

I got employed. I am a busser. I have been elbow deep in other peoples food for the last three hours. My head kind of hurts. I'm on break. In half an hour I go back to the elbow deep thing again until nine. So far the job seems Okay. I'm not sure how I feel about having effectively zero responsibility, but whatever. Better things will come, but for now the money is good and the hours are flexible.

I got employed. I am a busser. I have been elbow deep in other peoples food for the last three hours. My head kind of hurts. I'm on break. In half an hour I go back to the elbow deep thing again until nine. So far the job seems Okay. I'm not sure how I feel about having effectively zero responsibility, but whatever. Better things will come, but for now the money is good and the hours are flexible.

Fuck. The Cultists are back. My life is about nine times more interesting than is particularly reasonable.

This is underscored by the fact that a cult... Or christian youth group, two words, same meaning... is meeiting in my house on a weekly basis.

I've been attacked by ninjas. Twice. This year. This isn't an exaggeration. This isn't a joke. Men in masks and japanese clothing have twice leapt at me from the darkness in attack. One group of them fired a rocket at me. I'm not making this up.

I found a mountain in Minnesota. That was pretty cool. I liked that. It was better than the ninjas, really.

So, yeah, My life? My life is interesting. This has good parts and bad parts, but they're just about always interesting parts.

Two things.

1. I am disatisfied with my life, so I'm going to change.

2. Everything I need to know about life I can learn from Conan, of Cimmeria.

And then everything started to happen at once, except for all of the things I'd wanted to happen. They never happened at all.