Yes, this is a rant.
I am tired of all the stares and glares from people who willfully choose to remain ignorant. I am tired of people avoiding me or saying they'll pray for me as if I have some disease.
What gives you the right to classify me as a second class citizen or less moral because I lack similar beliefs, political views, and because I choose not to define what is right and wrong based on some religious book that does more to separate us than unite us?
I am done listening to the threats of fire and brimstone. I am done siting by and watching as political and religious leaders, who use their ignorant beliefs to force laws and moral standards upon others, because they fear change. I am through watching amazing people being demonized and treated as less than human because of what some ignorant person wrote in a book thousands of years ago.
You may have the right to believe in a divine creator, but you do not have the right to force me or other people to do the same. You do not have the right to make laws that define what is normal human behavior based on unfounded religious claims. You do not have the right to force children to learn myth rather than fact or force them to fear that they will suffer a horrific end if they don't accept your beliefs. You do not have the right to treat women as less than equal to men, or make two people in love think they are mentally ill or anything but normal because they are of the same gender.
If you continue down this path, the secular community will have no choice but to take a stand that ultimately leads to the end of your beliefs. If you continue to use ancient beliefs and prophecies to justify killing, imprisoning, or limiting the rights of other people, don't be surprised if those same people decide to fight back. We will no longer allow you to preach hate and ignorance, while you hide behind the pages of some book.
I am tired of all the stares and glares from people who willfully choose to remain ignorant. I am tired of people avoiding me or saying they'll pray for me as if I have some disease.
What gives you the right to classify me as a second class citizen or less moral because I lack similar beliefs, political views, and because I choose not to define what is right and wrong based on some religious book that does more to separate us than unite us?
I am done listening to the threats of fire and brimstone. I am done siting by and watching as political and religious leaders, who use their ignorant beliefs to force laws and moral standards upon others, because they fear change. I am through watching amazing people being demonized and treated as less than human because of what some ignorant person wrote in a book thousands of years ago.
You may have the right to believe in a divine creator, but you do not have the right to force me or other people to do the same. You do not have the right to make laws that define what is normal human behavior based on unfounded religious claims. You do not have the right to force children to learn myth rather than fact or force them to fear that they will suffer a horrific end if they don't accept your beliefs. You do not have the right to treat women as less than equal to men, or make two people in love think they are mentally ill or anything but normal because they are of the same gender.
If you continue down this path, the secular community will have no choice but to take a stand that ultimately leads to the end of your beliefs. If you continue to use ancient beliefs and prophecies to justify killing, imprisoning, or limiting the rights of other people, don't be surprised if those same people decide to fight back. We will no longer allow you to preach hate and ignorance, while you hide behind the pages of some book.
My fiance broke up last Wednesday. It all happened because I let some jerk who she thought was a friend got into my head and fed me lies. He twisted conversations they had together to make me jealous or scared of losing her. I made several mistakes over a years time. I regret ever listening to this guy. It turns out all he ever wanted to do was break us up so he could have sex with her if he ever broke up with his girlfriend. Awesome guy!!!
So we are done. It breaks my heart. I really love her. i told her that I would always love her. Last Friday she got this letter from an old man that sees her thinking about life under a bridge by a river. She goes there from time to time when she needs to unwind and think.
The following is the letter she got. Sadly, this letter did not work. His words touched both of us, but she doesn't love me. She doesn't believe in true love. She has never experienced real love. Her parents never really gave it to her. My loss will be another mans gain. I will forever miss her and sadly wait for the only girl that I have ever really loved.
THE LETTER:
Scooter Girl,
This is a spot for the broken hearted
If you’re here, your love has parted
Let it go and you’re the dunce
I found true love, but let it go
My name is Charles,
I see you here now and then, always deep in thought, sometimes with tears in your eyes, and it appears a broken heart. I know how you feel. I once let true love go. I didn’t know what true love was until it was too late.
You see, I let my true love go 59 years ago. She told me she would always love me. I didn’t want to be tied down when I was only 23 years old. After her I dated many women. I never had the same connection with any of them. I found out three months ago that Carol died last year. She was unmarried and alone. I received a box of letters she wrote me, but never mailed and some trinkets that I gave her. She stayed true to her word until she died.
I saw her a few times over the years, never said anything. I wanted to tell her I was sorry and how much I missed her every time. I assumed she had moved on. I saw her about two years ago on the day that would have been our anniversary. She was standing in front of the Garland Theater all dressed up and waiting. She looked amazing. I wish I would have walked up to her and told her that I loved her with all my heart and that not a day has gone by that I didn’t regret my decision. I let love go because I was afraid. Whenever I saw her my heart would come to life again. I would get butterflies in my stomach each time. Time had aged us both, but my heart still held the beauty she was 59 years ago.
Her name was Carol and you remind me of her; she had a hat just like yours. Wore flowers in her hair, loved bright colors, and she loved to dance. She had two left feet and had no rhythm, but she didn’t care. She never cared what anyone else thought of her, aside from me.
I saw you with your true love once, the day you came to ponder. I saw him come running down the stairs and prayed he wouldn’t fall. When he reached you, he grabbed you and said something that made you cry. I don’t know what he said, but I can tell that man loves you. He’s handsome, strong, and looks to be in absolutely in love with you. When the two of you hugged, it brought tears to my eyes and made me think of how much I missed Carol.
I can tell you love him and that he loves you. You come here to question love. If there is a question like that in your heart, you love him more than you know. I know it’s not my place and I don’t mean to intrude. Give love a chance, run after him and never let him go. It’s a hard thing to let love go, so don’t. Relationships have their ups and downs, they have their trials. If you stick together and communicate there is nothing you two cannot overcome.
This Wednesday would have been out 63d anniversary. I’m not sure how much life I have left in me. But it would bring joy to my heart if I could see true love prevail one more time. I game this necklace to her on our first anniversary. I think she would want you to have it.
Love is patient, just don’t keep it waiting.
Best wishes,
Charles
So we are done. It breaks my heart. I really love her. i told her that I would always love her. Last Friday she got this letter from an old man that sees her thinking about life under a bridge by a river. She goes there from time to time when she needs to unwind and think.
The following is the letter she got. Sadly, this letter did not work. His words touched both of us, but she doesn't love me. She doesn't believe in true love. She has never experienced real love. Her parents never really gave it to her. My loss will be another mans gain. I will forever miss her and sadly wait for the only girl that I have ever really loved.
THE LETTER:
Scooter Girl,
This is a spot for the broken hearted
If you’re here, your love has parted
Let it go and you’re the dunce
I found true love, but let it go
My name is Charles,
I see you here now and then, always deep in thought, sometimes with tears in your eyes, and it appears a broken heart. I know how you feel. I once let true love go. I didn’t know what true love was until it was too late.
You see, I let my true love go 59 years ago. She told me she would always love me. I didn’t want to be tied down when I was only 23 years old. After her I dated many women. I never had the same connection with any of them. I found out three months ago that Carol died last year. She was unmarried and alone. I received a box of letters she wrote me, but never mailed and some trinkets that I gave her. She stayed true to her word until she died.
I saw her a few times over the years, never said anything. I wanted to tell her I was sorry and how much I missed her every time. I assumed she had moved on. I saw her about two years ago on the day that would have been our anniversary. She was standing in front of the Garland Theater all dressed up and waiting. She looked amazing. I wish I would have walked up to her and told her that I loved her with all my heart and that not a day has gone by that I didn’t regret my decision. I let love go because I was afraid. Whenever I saw her my heart would come to life again. I would get butterflies in my stomach each time. Time had aged us both, but my heart still held the beauty she was 59 years ago.
Her name was Carol and you remind me of her; she had a hat just like yours. Wore flowers in her hair, loved bright colors, and she loved to dance. She had two left feet and had no rhythm, but she didn’t care. She never cared what anyone else thought of her, aside from me.
I saw you with your true love once, the day you came to ponder. I saw him come running down the stairs and prayed he wouldn’t fall. When he reached you, he grabbed you and said something that made you cry. I don’t know what he said, but I can tell that man loves you. He’s handsome, strong, and looks to be in absolutely in love with you. When the two of you hugged, it brought tears to my eyes and made me think of how much I missed Carol.
I can tell you love him and that he loves you. You come here to question love. If there is a question like that in your heart, you love him more than you know. I know it’s not my place and I don’t mean to intrude. Give love a chance, run after him and never let him go. It’s a hard thing to let love go, so don’t. Relationships have their ups and downs, they have their trials. If you stick together and communicate there is nothing you two cannot overcome.
This Wednesday would have been out 63d anniversary. I’m not sure how much life I have left in me. But it would bring joy to my heart if I could see true love prevail one more time. I game this necklace to her on our first anniversary. I think she would want you to have it.
Love is patient, just don’t keep it waiting.
Best wishes,
Charles
Okay I would like to offer some advice to those who find themselves wanting someone else. Whether it is a crush or someone you were/are in a relationship with and you have grown apart.
1st: Back off. People need their space if you crowd them there is only one place for them to go and that is away. If you give them space then you give them room to approach you.
2nd. No pressure. If you find yourself crushing on someone the only place you can start is as a friend. I know what some of you are thinking, that the friend zone is not somewhere you want to be. WRONG! That is exactly where you want to be. Ask any couple that has made it past 5, 10, 20 years they are friends first and lovers second.
If you’re in a relationship that is on rocky ground then you have to till that ground gently. If you pressure them they WILL only push them away.
3rd. BE FRIENDS. I know I might sound like I am repeating myself. However, you have to be friends first. Friends have things in common, friends do thing together. Not too much needs to be explained here.
4th. TIME. Time is important one of the most important things there is. Ever noticed that when you’re running late for a meeting or work that when you rush you mess up more? That is because you are doing something that is working against your goals. Patience is key, especially in relationships.
5th. Sacrifice. Relationships take a sacrifice but nothing too demanding. You should be willing to change for someone but they should never ask you to. It is a team sport. It is not 50/50 it is 100/100 when it comes to this.
6th. Be complete. Society has told us that we need someone in our lives to "complete" us or make us "whole". That is the biggest load of horse crap I have ever heard. You need to be complete by yourself. You need to know who you are 100% before you go looking for someone else.
7. Understanding. As humans we are all different, we look, sound, and even smell different. We all like to do various things and I guarantee you that no two people enjoy everything the same way. In a relationship you both need to have your own friends and "your" friends. You need to do things together but understand that you need to do things apart and with others.
8. It is what it is. No matter what, you have to understand that we don’t always get what we want. It may seem like some people do but trust me they don’t. If your crush/SO just wants to be friends or doesn't want to be anything, you need to accept this.
9. All that matters is what they want and what you want. If you care about someone you must be willing to do what they want. But you also need to take into consideration your needs. If they don’t care about what you want then don’t get involved or find a way to work together to accomplish what both of you want.
10. Gift horse. Being single is a gift and marriage is a blessing. You need accept the gift of being single before you can receive the blessing of marriage. Think about it, you are born single and you will die single.
11. SEX = XXX. If all you want is sex then you’re not ready. Sex is something that is shared between two people who are in love. Sex should never be the basis for a relationship.
I am always looking for more input on this. But I just wanted to get this out there and see what you think.
1st: Back off. People need their space if you crowd them there is only one place for them to go and that is away. If you give them space then you give them room to approach you.
2nd. No pressure. If you find yourself crushing on someone the only place you can start is as a friend. I know what some of you are thinking, that the friend zone is not somewhere you want to be. WRONG! That is exactly where you want to be. Ask any couple that has made it past 5, 10, 20 years they are friends first and lovers second.
If you’re in a relationship that is on rocky ground then you have to till that ground gently. If you pressure them they WILL only push them away.
3rd. BE FRIENDS. I know I might sound like I am repeating myself. However, you have to be friends first. Friends have things in common, friends do thing together. Not too much needs to be explained here.
4th. TIME. Time is important one of the most important things there is. Ever noticed that when you’re running late for a meeting or work that when you rush you mess up more? That is because you are doing something that is working against your goals. Patience is key, especially in relationships.
5th. Sacrifice. Relationships take a sacrifice but nothing too demanding. You should be willing to change for someone but they should never ask you to. It is a team sport. It is not 50/50 it is 100/100 when it comes to this.
6th. Be complete. Society has told us that we need someone in our lives to "complete" us or make us "whole". That is the biggest load of horse crap I have ever heard. You need to be complete by yourself. You need to know who you are 100% before you go looking for someone else.
7. Understanding. As humans we are all different, we look, sound, and even smell different. We all like to do various things and I guarantee you that no two people enjoy everything the same way. In a relationship you both need to have your own friends and "your" friends. You need to do things together but understand that you need to do things apart and with others.
8. It is what it is. No matter what, you have to understand that we don’t always get what we want. It may seem like some people do but trust me they don’t. If your crush/SO just wants to be friends or doesn't want to be anything, you need to accept this.
9. All that matters is what they want and what you want. If you care about someone you must be willing to do what they want. But you also need to take into consideration your needs. If they don’t care about what you want then don’t get involved or find a way to work together to accomplish what both of you want.
10. Gift horse. Being single is a gift and marriage is a blessing. You need accept the gift of being single before you can receive the blessing of marriage. Think about it, you are born single and you will die single.
11. SEX = XXX. If all you want is sex then you’re not ready. Sex is something that is shared between two people who are in love. Sex should never be the basis for a relationship.
I am always looking for more input on this. But I just wanted to get this out there and see what you think.
Many of you have probably heard about Chelsea King's tragic death. I am so tired of hearing of cases like this, the man who killed her John Albert Gardner III has a record of this, and it should not have happened. Why does the law allow people like this to walk free? Rape and molestation have to be the worst crimes anyone can commit. These people do not deserve a second chance. They deserve the death penalty, yes I do think they deserve to die. They are a waste of a human and must not have a soul. How could someone do such a thing? No three strike law... no, it needs to be one strike, your dead. Same goes for murder and like crimes. Why do we waste our time with scum? Why do we try to help or save them? They are obviously all ready to far gone.
John Albert Gardner III should not have been able to do this. His life was for-fit the moment he raped the 13yo girl in his first known crime. There is a level 3 sex offender who just moved into my town. If you dont know what the levels are check out the link at the bottom. Im sorry but, if I encounter this man, I dont know what I will do. We need to start requesting that all sex offenders be given the death penalty. I am sorry if you dont think they deserve this fate, but I dont want to pay taxes to support their "recovery". And dont give me that crap about a mental illness. Sorry but they know what they are doing, they know it is wrong, mental illness is a copout.
So, do your part, let your congressman know we wont tolerate this anymore. Hell, write to the White house, Obama wants change, well we need to start letting him know what WE want changed.
http://www.mass.gov/?pageID=eopsterminal&L=3&L0=Home&L1=Crime+Prevention+%26+Personal+Safety&L2=Sex+Offenders&sid=Eeops&b=terminalcontent&f=sorb_levels&csid=Eeops
John Albert Gardner III should not have been able to do this. His life was for-fit the moment he raped the 13yo girl in his first known crime. There is a level 3 sex offender who just moved into my town. If you dont know what the levels are check out the link at the bottom. Im sorry but, if I encounter this man, I dont know what I will do. We need to start requesting that all sex offenders be given the death penalty. I am sorry if you dont think they deserve this fate, but I dont want to pay taxes to support their "recovery". And dont give me that crap about a mental illness. Sorry but they know what they are doing, they know it is wrong, mental illness is a copout.
So, do your part, let your congressman know we wont tolerate this anymore. Hell, write to the White house, Obama wants change, well we need to start letting him know what WE want changed.
http://www.mass.gov/?pageID=eopsterminal&L=3&L0=Home&L1=Crime+Prevention+%26+Personal+Safety&L2=Sex+Offenders&sid=Eeops&b=terminalcontent&f=sorb_levels&csid=Eeops
This is me.
Hi my name is Tom. I'm 26, single(divorced) and my life is a mess that I am constantly trying to put back together. I have made some big mistakes in my life, some I regret and some I dont. I like all sorts of music except the majority of rap, but I dont know much about the artists i listen to. I dont pay attention to trends, i just dont care. I am a bit on the bigger side, I wouldnt say fat, but it is something I am working on. I am a picky eater when it comes to veggies. cant stand most of them. I love warm weather, hate cold. I love the rain and playing in it. I hate the internet but only use it because that is the only way I can stay connected and socialize with people these days. I am completely random. I dont really care what your opinion of me is. I am what I consider and artist, you may not like or understand my art, but its not for you but me. I love to read and learn. But hate school. I dont have a car right now but am working on it. I have what I consider an old soul I am believer in love at first sight, I dont think we choose who we love. I think that the heart(emotional) is a real thing and it is something that we can think with and should fallow. I express my feelings openly and honestly.If I tell you I like you, I really do. I cry, I laugh, I love. I think kids are the greatest and cant wait to be a father. They can teach us more than a lifetime of wandering could. My sense of humor is not an easy one to grip, what I think is funny most do not. I love going to the park and playing on the swings. I love playing sports but hate running. I love going out with friends but sometimes would rather stay in and watch a movie or play a board game or poker. I play pool, bowl, and darts but suck at all three. I dont really know where my life is heading and dont care. I love to make people laugh and smile, to me there is no better drug.
If you have any other questions...just ask, I am an open book.
Hi my name is Tom. I'm 26, single(divorced) and my life is a mess that I am constantly trying to put back together. I have made some big mistakes in my life, some I regret and some I dont. I like all sorts of music except the majority of rap, but I dont know much about the artists i listen to. I dont pay attention to trends, i just dont care. I am a bit on the bigger side, I wouldnt say fat, but it is something I am working on. I am a picky eater when it comes to veggies. cant stand most of them. I love warm weather, hate cold. I love the rain and playing in it. I hate the internet but only use it because that is the only way I can stay connected and socialize with people these days. I am completely random. I dont really care what your opinion of me is. I am what I consider and artist, you may not like or understand my art, but its not for you but me. I love to read and learn. But hate school. I dont have a car right now but am working on it. I have what I consider an old soul I am believer in love at first sight, I dont think we choose who we love. I think that the heart(emotional) is a real thing and it is something that we can think with and should fallow. I express my feelings openly and honestly.If I tell you I like you, I really do. I cry, I laugh, I love. I think kids are the greatest and cant wait to be a father. They can teach us more than a lifetime of wandering could. My sense of humor is not an easy one to grip, what I think is funny most do not. I love going to the park and playing on the swings. I love playing sports but hate running. I love going out with friends but sometimes would rather stay in and watch a movie or play a board game or poker. I play pool, bowl, and darts but suck at all three. I dont really know where my life is heading and dont care. I love to make people laugh and smile, to me there is no better drug.
If you have any other questions...just ask, I am an open book.
So, sitting here today casually browsing the interwebs and I started thinking, how does anyone know who they are these days? With pressure coming in from all sides and all aspects of life how can one find the time to discover who they are. There is no escaping outside influances these days. There is no originality left in the world. You can either fallow a pack, one of many out there, or get outcasted by all of them.
You have the pop culture group, these people are pretty bad, if you dont know whats going on with every singer or actor/actress with this group you cant be apart of it. If you dont know what the latest fashion trend is your out as well.
With the Sports group, you have to know about all sports all the time.
With the religious groups you have to see eye to eye and cater to all their needs and wants before your own. You have to do what they say when they say it.
Even subculture has its rules, You have to dress a certain way, but not like anyone else, You have to be unique but not too unique so that you stand above anyone else.
You have the art groups who these days... well lets face it, if you dont use a computer for art it is no longer art. Sorry but art via the computer these days is nowhere near as good as with the hand and brush, pen, pencil, or marker.
So, you either have to bow to one of life's groups or be an outcast. You have to fallow to belong. This is not right. Maybe this isnt the way it is. Maybe I am wrong, but I am yet to be proven wrong.
What ever happened to socializing of the internet? With out texting? what ever happened to going to a 24 hour restaurant with a group of random friends on any given night and just talking while drinking coffee for hours? Its not that expensive. What has happened to the world these days?
You know what? If you want to fallow the crowds, if you want to live a boring life, if you want to never laugh or truly experience life, go ahead. I am going to start living mine. I am a mix of all the groups I just mentioned. I dont know everything about the bands I listen to, the fact that I listen to them should be enough. I dont know the stats to all the teams I like, I just like the energy of the game/sport. I honestly dont know what to believe these day when it comes to religion. Doesnt mean I dont pray before I go to bed every night. When it comes to subculture, I love tattoos and piercing, I love the art that is self expression, but I have my limits. I may not be all that good when it comes to computer art, but I can express myself on a canvas or piece of paper using most mediums, I dont care if you dont like my art, its not for you, its for me. I hate conversing via the internet and through texting, if you want to talk to me, lets meet up and talk over coffee or even a beer or two.
Im just going to be me, if you dont like it, I could care less. If you dont like the way I live my life in some way, guess what? Its my life, not yours. Forgive me if I dont fallow your trends. If you have an opinion or advice for me, do me a favor... keep it to yourself. This is who I am deal with it, except it, or move on.
You have the pop culture group, these people are pretty bad, if you dont know whats going on with every singer or actor/actress with this group you cant be apart of it. If you dont know what the latest fashion trend is your out as well.
With the Sports group, you have to know about all sports all the time.
With the religious groups you have to see eye to eye and cater to all their needs and wants before your own. You have to do what they say when they say it.
Even subculture has its rules, You have to dress a certain way, but not like anyone else, You have to be unique but not too unique so that you stand above anyone else.
You have the art groups who these days... well lets face it, if you dont use a computer for art it is no longer art. Sorry but art via the computer these days is nowhere near as good as with the hand and brush, pen, pencil, or marker.
So, you either have to bow to one of life's groups or be an outcast. You have to fallow to belong. This is not right. Maybe this isnt the way it is. Maybe I am wrong, but I am yet to be proven wrong.
What ever happened to socializing of the internet? With out texting? what ever happened to going to a 24 hour restaurant with a group of random friends on any given night and just talking while drinking coffee for hours? Its not that expensive. What has happened to the world these days?
You know what? If you want to fallow the crowds, if you want to live a boring life, if you want to never laugh or truly experience life, go ahead. I am going to start living mine. I am a mix of all the groups I just mentioned. I dont know everything about the bands I listen to, the fact that I listen to them should be enough. I dont know the stats to all the teams I like, I just like the energy of the game/sport. I honestly dont know what to believe these day when it comes to religion. Doesnt mean I dont pray before I go to bed every night. When it comes to subculture, I love tattoos and piercing, I love the art that is self expression, but I have my limits. I may not be all that good when it comes to computer art, but I can express myself on a canvas or piece of paper using most mediums, I dont care if you dont like my art, its not for you, its for me. I hate conversing via the internet and through texting, if you want to talk to me, lets meet up and talk over coffee or even a beer or two.
Im just going to be me, if you dont like it, I could care less. If you dont like the way I live my life in some way, guess what? Its my life, not yours. Forgive me if I dont fallow your trends. If you have an opinion or advice for me, do me a favor... keep it to yourself. This is who I am deal with it, except it, or move on.
I wrote this paper when I was a freshman at Mt. Spokane High School. I wrote it word for word, grammar error for grammar error.
My thoughts - By Thomas Beer
In theory, I believe that life is not too short.It is often said that life is too short. I believe that life is just as long as it is intended to be. People often blame God, their Job, kids, parents, when they are the ones to blame. Another saying is that "life is what you make of it". That one Is true but the sayings contradict each other, life cannot be too short and be what you make of it. Because if its what you make of it then you should know how your going to die and how, Right? And if life is too short than we dont have time to make it what we want.
I believe life can be short in years lived, but your life goes on. I dont mean by being in your children or anything else. Each of us leaves more than just a legacy, we all leave a ripple one that will go on forever. Every action you do has a ripple effect. They can be both good and bad, we decided what ripples to leave.
I often say life is an unwritten book with endless pages, which you write a single page every moment in which you live, with every memory and emotion. At anytime someone who shared that memory can relive it even after your gone. They can pass it on to their friends and family. But even if they dont pass it on verbally, the impact it had on that person will ripple on to another person. Remember, life is what you make of it, so make it great.
In those exact thoughts I have been encouraged to do something I have always tried but never done, Speak my mind.
I have not always thanked the lord for giving me such a wonderful life, I have three great brothers, cool friends, and an awesome Mom. Nobody could ever replace them. So from now on in order to show my appreciation to God, I will be a better brother, son and friend.
I am a complicated person, because people are always asking me what im on. I simply reply I am high on life. What nobody sees is that I have a sensitive side. I cry in movies, I feel bad when I someone in pain or agony. Especially when that pain is in the heart, for a bruise will heal and wounds will fade, but when your heart is broken, even if it heals... it leaves a scar.
You may laugh at me but I dont understand why more people dont enjoy a walk in the park or a brisk autumn morning surrounded by the beauty that is mother nature. The countless leaves are almost like a red carpet that mother nature places before our feet. I love the smell of the air in the fall, the wind, the sound of the leaves crunching between my feet and the ground with every step. I love the idea of going to an outdoors skating rink, just to skate with that special person, smiling only to see her smile.
That is probably the funniest thing you have ever read in your life. I dont care, I dont care what anyone thinks of me.
I wish everyone could see the beauty which every person holds.
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I wrote this when I was in 7th grade. Wow, just...wow. It a bunch of random thoughts... what I wouldnt give to be that kid again. So happy, untainted, and so... fresh with life. Now, Im just used goods left in the thrift store waiting for someone, anyone to pick me up. But who would want me now? I'm torn, beaten, and colorless. I need a good refurbishing. I need someone to restore me to my original glory... as close as I can at least. I want to think like this again. I want to be happy again.
My thoughts - By Thomas Beer
In theory, I believe that life is not too short.It is often said that life is too short. I believe that life is just as long as it is intended to be. People often blame God, their Job, kids, parents, when they are the ones to blame. Another saying is that "life is what you make of it". That one Is true but the sayings contradict each other, life cannot be too short and be what you make of it. Because if its what you make of it then you should know how your going to die and how, Right? And if life is too short than we dont have time to make it what we want.
I believe life can be short in years lived, but your life goes on. I dont mean by being in your children or anything else. Each of us leaves more than just a legacy, we all leave a ripple one that will go on forever. Every action you do has a ripple effect. They can be both good and bad, we decided what ripples to leave.
I often say life is an unwritten book with endless pages, which you write a single page every moment in which you live, with every memory and emotion. At anytime someone who shared that memory can relive it even after your gone. They can pass it on to their friends and family. But even if they dont pass it on verbally, the impact it had on that person will ripple on to another person. Remember, life is what you make of it, so make it great.
In those exact thoughts I have been encouraged to do something I have always tried but never done, Speak my mind.
I have not always thanked the lord for giving me such a wonderful life, I have three great brothers, cool friends, and an awesome Mom. Nobody could ever replace them. So from now on in order to show my appreciation to God, I will be a better brother, son and friend.
I am a complicated person, because people are always asking me what im on. I simply reply I am high on life. What nobody sees is that I have a sensitive side. I cry in movies, I feel bad when I someone in pain or agony. Especially when that pain is in the heart, for a bruise will heal and wounds will fade, but when your heart is broken, even if it heals... it leaves a scar.
You may laugh at me but I dont understand why more people dont enjoy a walk in the park or a brisk autumn morning surrounded by the beauty that is mother nature. The countless leaves are almost like a red carpet that mother nature places before our feet. I love the smell of the air in the fall, the wind, the sound of the leaves crunching between my feet and the ground with every step. I love the idea of going to an outdoors skating rink, just to skate with that special person, smiling only to see her smile.
That is probably the funniest thing you have ever read in your life. I dont care, I dont care what anyone thinks of me.
I wish everyone could see the beauty which every person holds.
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I wrote this when I was in 7th grade. Wow, just...wow. It a bunch of random thoughts... what I wouldnt give to be that kid again. So happy, untainted, and so... fresh with life. Now, Im just used goods left in the thrift store waiting for someone, anyone to pick me up. But who would want me now? I'm torn, beaten, and colorless. I need a good refurbishing. I need someone to restore me to my original glory... as close as I can at least. I want to think like this again. I want to be happy again.
On Valentines day a person is supposed to be able to express to someone how they feel. It is a day of love and friendship. So how did I end up drinking alone by the end of the night? Because Im an idiot. If your ready for a long drawn out story stick aroud.
So in Oct of 2009 I started a new job(current job) I really didnt want to work there but I knew what the job market was like so I dealt with it. After training for a few days they threw me on a new shift. On my first Closing shift I came in early to get to know some of the people I would be working with. As I sat there waiting to clock on, she walked through the door and into my heart. I knew nothing about her except that because of her at that moment I was feeling something I hadnt felt in a long time, my heart.
Now I know some of you are calling BS, thinking there is no such thing as love at first sight and yadda yadda yadda. But in 2003 I got married and thought I was in love, I thought she love me also. I didnt find out until after we bought a house, two cars and many many more toys that she didnt really love me. She only said yes to marrying me because she felt bad and only married me out of pity. Our divorce was finalized Jan 19 2005. Since then I havent felt butterflies(yes guys do get them) or anything that could feel like love. Sure I dated a few girls but I only dated girls I knew I had a chance with or what I call safe bets. After the last girl I dated went psyco I decided to call it good for awhile, two years.
So there I was, looking at this beautiful girl who I knew nothing about, falling in love. I must have looked like an idiot that day. But at the same moment saw here another muscle started working again, my brain. I knew that If I wanted to have the slightest chance with this girl that I would have to change everything. Normally changing for someone else is a bad thing. But let me tell you that I was a loser, no goals, dreams, ambitions. My clothes lacked...color and style. My hygiene was not as good as it should have been and my life was a complete mess. I didnt care, I had no reason to care. As soon as I saw her, I cared and new I had to change.
It took forever for me to even talk to this girl and Im not the type of person who has a hard time talking to people I dont know. So, after getting to know her for a few months I decided to ask her if she wanted to go to a show with me, as friends. I figured this way it would help her get to know me more and help me learn more about her. The day we were going to the show, she canceled. She told me that she had to watch her cousin or something. At first I felt like crap, but I gave her the benefit of the doubt and just went about things like normal, I went to the show alone and had a blast.
Fast forward to Fab 14th 2010, By now my feeling for this girl had grown so strong I couldn't keep it to myself anymore. Her valentine had canceled on her and she looked miserable. She looked like she could use a hug, dont worry, I didnt and I glad I didnt. By the time I finally got off most places had closed exept for a few bars nearby. So on my way to one of these watering holes I sent this girl a message telling her how I felt. I told her everything. How she changed my life and that I have liked her since I first met her and yadda, yadda, yadda. I dont actually suggest doing this. I would have told her to her face or over the phone but that would have just been way too hard.
The thing is, she is younger than me by a few years 7 to be exact. Dont worry shes legal. And shes in love with someone else, who doesnt share her feelings. Thats the best part, she likes some guy, I like her, and I found out that same night that some girl really likes me. Talk about drama.
Anyways, a few nights before V-day(D-Day) I was talking to this dream girl of mine online. Telling her all about this girl I really liked(her), after it was all said and done, she said that it sounded like I was in love and that I should tell this girl what I told her. She said that even if she doesnt feel the same way, at least she'll know.
So I took her advice and told her on V-day or singles awareness day, which ever one you celebrate. I have never felt such pain in my life. I have stepped on a nail, been stabbed, burnt, and so on...but the feeling of the girl I "fell in love" with telling me that she only sees me as a friend was something unimaginable. I already thought she didnt feel the same way but I had to tell her. That night I had to walk home, a two hour walk in the rain on Valentines day with a broken heart. I wanted to walk into oncoming traffic.
Luckily I have had the last two days off and she doesnt wok on the day i go back, but the day we work together is coming, I may even call in sick that day. This girl changed my life, I know that I will never fully let go of her. You cant control how you feel about some people, especially the ones that changed your life.
I have a feeling, Im going to be lost for quite some time now.
Thats how I spent my Valentines day, how was yours?
Ps pardon the grammar.
So in Oct of 2009 I started a new job(current job) I really didnt want to work there but I knew what the job market was like so I dealt with it. After training for a few days they threw me on a new shift. On my first Closing shift I came in early to get to know some of the people I would be working with. As I sat there waiting to clock on, she walked through the door and into my heart. I knew nothing about her except that because of her at that moment I was feeling something I hadnt felt in a long time, my heart.
Now I know some of you are calling BS, thinking there is no such thing as love at first sight and yadda yadda yadda. But in 2003 I got married and thought I was in love, I thought she love me also. I didnt find out until after we bought a house, two cars and many many more toys that she didnt really love me. She only said yes to marrying me because she felt bad and only married me out of pity. Our divorce was finalized Jan 19 2005. Since then I havent felt butterflies(yes guys do get them) or anything that could feel like love. Sure I dated a few girls but I only dated girls I knew I had a chance with or what I call safe bets. After the last girl I dated went psyco I decided to call it good for awhile, two years.
So there I was, looking at this beautiful girl who I knew nothing about, falling in love. I must have looked like an idiot that day. But at the same moment saw here another muscle started working again, my brain. I knew that If I wanted to have the slightest chance with this girl that I would have to change everything. Normally changing for someone else is a bad thing. But let me tell you that I was a loser, no goals, dreams, ambitions. My clothes lacked...color and style. My hygiene was not as good as it should have been and my life was a complete mess. I didnt care, I had no reason to care. As soon as I saw her, I cared and new I had to change.
It took forever for me to even talk to this girl and Im not the type of person who has a hard time talking to people I dont know. So, after getting to know her for a few months I decided to ask her if she wanted to go to a show with me, as friends. I figured this way it would help her get to know me more and help me learn more about her. The day we were going to the show, she canceled. She told me that she had to watch her cousin or something. At first I felt like crap, but I gave her the benefit of the doubt and just went about things like normal, I went to the show alone and had a blast.
Fast forward to Fab 14th 2010, By now my feeling for this girl had grown so strong I couldn't keep it to myself anymore. Her valentine had canceled on her and she looked miserable. She looked like she could use a hug, dont worry, I didnt and I glad I didnt. By the time I finally got off most places had closed exept for a few bars nearby. So on my way to one of these watering holes I sent this girl a message telling her how I felt. I told her everything. How she changed my life and that I have liked her since I first met her and yadda, yadda, yadda. I dont actually suggest doing this. I would have told her to her face or over the phone but that would have just been way too hard.
The thing is, she is younger than me by a few years 7 to be exact. Dont worry shes legal. And shes in love with someone else, who doesnt share her feelings. Thats the best part, she likes some guy, I like her, and I found out that same night that some girl really likes me. Talk about drama.
Anyways, a few nights before V-day(D-Day) I was talking to this dream girl of mine online. Telling her all about this girl I really liked(her), after it was all said and done, she said that it sounded like I was in love and that I should tell this girl what I told her. She said that even if she doesnt feel the same way, at least she'll know.
So I took her advice and told her on V-day or singles awareness day, which ever one you celebrate. I have never felt such pain in my life. I have stepped on a nail, been stabbed, burnt, and so on...but the feeling of the girl I "fell in love" with telling me that she only sees me as a friend was something unimaginable. I already thought she didnt feel the same way but I had to tell her. That night I had to walk home, a two hour walk in the rain on Valentines day with a broken heart. I wanted to walk into oncoming traffic.
Luckily I have had the last two days off and she doesnt wok on the day i go back, but the day we work together is coming, I may even call in sick that day. This girl changed my life, I know that I will never fully let go of her. You cant control how you feel about some people, especially the ones that changed your life.
I have a feeling, Im going to be lost for quite some time now.
Thats how I spent my Valentines day, how was yours?
Ps pardon the grammar.
Whats your muse?
So this spawned from my recent discovery of the band Muse. These guys are awesome, never heard anything like them before.
But listening to their music over the last few days and it got me thinking, "What inspires these guys with every song and what keeps them going?" Then I started to wonder what have some of my muses been over the years. They seem to come in all shapes and sizes and at random times. I do have a few that I keep on the top shelf to save for later or to take buts and pieces from everyday.
With me already thinking about artistic muses it made me think of what inspires people to do anything. I would have to say lately my two biggest inspirations lately have been both fear and regret. Two thing I hate, fear because I feel vulnerable and it is rare but it has been happening recently. The other is regret, again one I dont like because who wants to look back and think, "I wish I had done that!"?
So Now I am wondering what are some of your muses and inspirations?
So this spawned from my recent discovery of the band Muse. These guys are awesome, never heard anything like them before.
But listening to their music over the last few days and it got me thinking, "What inspires these guys with every song and what keeps them going?" Then I started to wonder what have some of my muses been over the years. They seem to come in all shapes and sizes and at random times. I do have a few that I keep on the top shelf to save for later or to take buts and pieces from everyday.
With me already thinking about artistic muses it made me think of what inspires people to do anything. I would have to say lately my two biggest inspirations lately have been both fear and regret. Two thing I hate, fear because I feel vulnerable and it is rare but it has been happening recently. The other is regret, again one I dont like because who wants to look back and think, "I wish I had done that!"?
So Now I am wondering what are some of your muses and inspirations?
So yesterday I saw a post on craigslist for a part time mail room clerk at the Rosauers corp. office. I decided to send in a letter of interest and my resume. I saw an email from Rosauers in my inbox this morning and thought maybe they wanted to schedule and interview. I was wrong, this is what they sent.
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From: "Paul Van Gordon" ..
To: "Thomas Beer" ..
This guy wants full time...put him in the "do not
interview" stack.
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This email was obviously sent to me in error. After seeing
this I was pretty pissed off as you can imagine. So, I
replied with the fallowing email:
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From: "Paul Van Gordon" ..
To: "Thomas Beer" ..
Actually I will work part time. I find it odd that I would not be
considered for a job just because I desire a full time job. I am a hard
working, dependable person who believes in a hard days work. I am sorry
that your company does not desire this type of person. I never liked
you corporate types, most of you have never worked at the store level,
you probably went to college and earned a degree that says you would
make a great corporate manager. I have worked on the store level for 8
years, and could run a store better than all of you egotistical dicks
in the home office. Thank you for putting me in the "do not interview"
stack. I would not want to waste my time working for a company that
judges a person by their desire to work a full time job for a living. I bet
you've never had to steer a row of carts, stock shelves, or ring up a
customer with two full cart loads. You've never cleaned a spill, or
done a carryout. All you've experienced is the desk and chair, and you
think you know how to run a retail store because you can read the
numbers. It takes more than an education to run a successful business,
it takes dedication, passion, and a desire to work hard.
Thank you Paul, you have saved me from making a great mistake and waste of time.
Thank you
Thomas Beer
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If you dont think my response was appropriate, I could care less. I find
it appalling that a business would not consider hiring a person based on
their desire to work a full time job so they can survive in this over-priced
under appreciated world we live in.
_____________________________________________________________
From: "Paul Van Gordon" ..
To: "Thomas Beer" ..
This guy wants full time...put him in the "do not
interview" stack.
_____________________________________________________________
This email was obviously sent to me in error. After seeing
this I was pretty pissed off as you can imagine. So, I
replied with the fallowing email:
_____________________________________________________________
From: "Paul Van Gordon" ..
To: "Thomas Beer" ..
Actually I will work part time. I find it odd that I would not be
considered for a job just because I desire a full time job. I am a hard
working, dependable person who believes in a hard days work. I am sorry
that your company does not desire this type of person. I never liked
you corporate types, most of you have never worked at the store level,
you probably went to college and earned a degree that says you would
make a great corporate manager. I have worked on the store level for 8
years, and could run a store better than all of you egotistical dicks
in the home office. Thank you for putting me in the "do not interview"
stack. I would not want to waste my time working for a company that
judges a person by their desire to work a full time job for a living. I bet
you've never had to steer a row of carts, stock shelves, or ring up a
customer with two full cart loads. You've never cleaned a spill, or
done a carryout. All you've experienced is the desk and chair, and you
think you know how to run a retail store because you can read the
numbers. It takes more than an education to run a successful business,
it takes dedication, passion, and a desire to work hard.
Thank you Paul, you have saved me from making a great mistake and waste of time.
Thank you
Thomas Beer
____________________________________________________________
If you dont think my response was appropriate, I could care less. I find
it appalling that a business would not consider hiring a person based on
their desire to work a full time job so they can survive in this over-priced
under appreciated world we live in.
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