age: 41 (Oct 27, 1971)
MEMBER SINCE: July 2004
occupation: Systems Engineer, Lacky of the God's
sign: Scorpio, Human waste smells funny.
most humbling moment: The day I stopped doing drugs and alcohol. June 6th 1994
body mods: Pierced: Septum 4G, Ears 8G, Nipples 12G Tats: Have a few. Newest Order symbol from chaos cross.
fantasy: To meet DREAMSTAR.
crush: Shanna, She is a local girl who has stolen my heart. She is amazing.
gets me hot: Septum piercings on women, Metal, Ink, Leather, Skin, Nun outfits (WHAT you got something to say about that?). Shanna
makes me sad: The human race, Animal cruelty, Child abuse, Stupidity, When I hear the song played at my mothers funeral (The Rose). Not knowing where Gabriel went.
makes me happy: Smokes, Naps, When I look at a women and realize she was checking me out, Steak, Coffee, My cat Gabriel, Compliments given or recieved.
stats: Fujitsu N3010, P4 2.8G, 512M, 60G, Running Fedora Core 2. ---------------- Ultra 60 Clone Running Solaris 10.
i lost my virginity: You want it I am selling it cheap.
I met a woman recently who has stolen my heart and she scares the shit out of me. She is like no one I have ever met and she is constantly in my thoughts. All I can think about are ways to make her happy.
It is hard because I have been terribly burned by the people I have loved and trusted the most. (i.e. My Ex fiance got married to my ex Friend last month in the dress we got for our wedding.)
I am not going to let what they did to me make me hard inside. It is just very hard to let somone in.
Shanna makes me believe in people again and she is an amazing person. So I am slowly learning to trust again. I just hope that I am not setting myself up for another fall.
Bought myself a bass recently and have been spending time trying to learn it. I have wanted to learn the bass for years and hope that I have the ability to at least not suck on it. Shanna has been very helpfull and is trying to learn as well.
I am very unhappy with my company and I think they are none to happy with me right now either. I let them know that I am unwilling to move to Memphis. Since I have met Shanna I have decided that I don't want to miss the chance that we might have together. I think that what I have been building with Shanna is more important than any job. I do not want to lose what could be over money. My company does not feel the same way but oh well.
I think I need a job that is not so high stress anyway.
On the the 18th I had myself a little scare. I was at my desk on the phone with a customer. (I am tech support so when customers call they are not happy.) Well the left side of my chest had been bothering me since lunch. While on the phone it became unbearable to the point where I was on th verge of passing out. A coworker got worried and drove me to the emergency room. They thought I was having a heart attack. I spent 13 hours in a room where I was constantly watched having blood test and EKG's taken...
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NeuroticAnne