I'm feeling uncharacteristically nostalgic, so here's a blog of sharing and looking back through some of my time.
As many of you know, I 'm a lil bit of a hair and beauty junkie. Partly through my profession, partly through girly curiosity. Though I had forgotten, just how many colours I've had my hair. I've yet to do blue or green, but there's still time
I used to party HARD. From the age of about 14 I was all about getting drunk, having fun and partying hard. (And dressing up as a leopard...)
I guess I only really stopped going out so much when I found out I was pregnant. I actually still managed to party, just sober.
I also wish I had more photos of when I was pregnant. I'm never doing it again, so seems a shame not to have more photographs of that time. Anyway.
Then I had a mini-me and everything changed. Most for the better. I love that boy to death.
Here he is, all newborn cute to the banana-welding crazy monkey he is now. 18 months and keeping me more on my toes every day.
I did my first ever nude photos in Feb this year with Lavezzaro, and only 6 months later, I feel at least a little more confident in front of a camera and with my own body. From my first SG set to my most recent, I notice a big difference to how much more at ease I was. I'm especially proud of this, as my body changed so dramatically with and after pregnancy. Women rock and our bodies are pretty incredible with what they can cope with and go through.
I've changed a lot, especially in the last few years. I used to be incredibly selfish, and outgoing and into everything and a pain in the ass, and a bit of a bitch.
Just becoming older has matured me and calmed me a lot. I know my limits. I know when to walk away. I express myself better. I no longer need guys to tell me I'm hot to feel good about myself. I can talk a little less awkwardly. I'm slightly less shy with new people. I have higher hopes and more ambition.
This is all good.
I still love partying and dancing, and having a good night out, especially with my girls. But I appreciate more, and want more.
I can sit in the bath with a good book, and just enjoy my own company and just BE.
I guess you could say I'm at ease. There's a lot going on in my life right now that's a mess and that's really negative. But it will get sorted eventually. And writing this down, and seeing photos of how different things are, it makes me pretty pleased and inwardly happy.
Hope you enjoyed the big share, it doesn't happen often!
Lots of love.
Fische <3
AUG 03, 2012 02:57 PM
Fuschicho
HOPEFUL
United Kingdom
AUG 03, 2012 03:05 PM
I love this blog lots of happiness and smiley nostalgia about change and growth is good. And I love how much it makes me smile, and kind of makes me hopeful too
AUG 03, 2012 03:06 PM
What an awesome blog!
Hair, plum is my fav still, leopard is a sexy look too 
You're right, you should've managed more bubba bump pics, lovin the patterns 
And as for your monkeys t-shirt, well, they are lil monkeys
but as mentioned before, you think he's fun now..... just you wait!
Thanks again,
Me 
AUG 03, 2012 03:21 PM
AUG 03, 2012 03:31 PM
you're journey is nowhere near complete, but
I like the person who you've become.
AUG 03, 2012 03:34 PM
I love you, I love this blog, and I love everything you had to say. And StCyr said it best: Your journey is far from complete. You seriously make me so happy to know you. LET'S GET YOU PINK!
Oh, and I can totally understand this:
I've changed a lot, especially in the last few years. I used to be incredibly selfish, and outgoing and into everything and a pain in the ass, and a bit of a bitch.
Same here, sweetheart. But in the end, it's who we have become NOW that makes all the difference. Love you to bits, darling! <3 (and your little mini-me is so beautiful. I really, really can't wait for the day I become a mother too. 
)
AUG 03, 2012 03:46 PM
AUG 03, 2012 04:04 PM
AUG 03, 2012 04:06 PM
Wow, did you breastfeed? If so, your body did amazingly well with that pregnancy!!
Love the first hair colour up...of course, I could be biased... 
You are such a cutie Fische!! 
AUG 03, 2012 04:12 PM
AUG 03, 2012 04:36 PM
omgggg look at that second pic of munchkin...I want to just bite him lol.
What do you mean you're never doing it again?! Really?! Why???
I think we both know I am a hair freak too. lol We have that in common for sure. 
It is nice to see that you have sorta figured yourself out. I am 34 and have yet to learn to walk away, or how to calm myself down. I am always being told I need to "toughen up" and change...my response is always that at 34, I think I am who I am going to be. Ugh. I am having a shitty time again. 
Yes, everything will get sorted out...for both of us.
Glad i've got you as my friend. Love you lots xoxo
AUG 03, 2012 04:54 PM
Your boy is just the cutest!
As are you!!
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AUG 03, 2012 05:34 PM
Umm... THE RED *posts pic of us* 
Also.. Dexter is all... "Bananas mofo... fuck yeah"
AUG 03, 2012 05:37 PM
your boy is cute
i have a 22 month, harrison and an 8 month, george. hectic
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