the new house is fucking awesome. moved to irvine. with 5 other friends. we now have a 2 and a half story house. 6 people split 4 rooms. im sharing with my friend myles which is great cuz weve been friends for like going on 8 years now. so if he hasnt gotten sick of me yet, he probably wont. plus now we have a cute little puppy runnin around.

lots of really new good music came out/is comming out. im almost overwhelmed with new cds to listen to. i'll get caught up soon i hope.

lookin for a new job. the one i have now is day by day just turning into a big pile of bullshit drama. so im just sayin' fuck it. i hate that job anyways, this is just an excuse for me to finally quit it. fuck that place.

im gonna go watch ace ventura.

the holidays have been great. well when i wasnt working that is. 3 holidays back to back sent Bristol Farms(a super market) into complete chaos. and to tell you just what that means let me just say that we were doing $30,000 a day in my department(deli) ALONE. i swear to god cigarettes kept me alive.

but other than that the end of the year was quite nice. starting to make a lot of new friends out here. which is nice. the first couple months were kinda boring out in orange county, but now im really finding my place.

just bought a new guitar amp. and in really good timing too cuz my friend and i just started a band. its gonna be really crazy hopefully. a pretty full line-up; guitar(X2), bass, drums, violin, sax, trombone, trumpet, keyboard(i hope). sounds a lot like a ska band, but we're really not sure what style we want to be, if any. we just want to write music and how it comes out is how it comes out. i really dont want to fit into a genre because all genres do are make music scenes, then that leads to different scenes talking shit about each other, and that takes everyone away from what everything was based upon. the music. thats all we want to be in. the music scene.

so now its 3:30 in the morning and im up on dexadrin cigarettes and quite a few bong rips and im probably sounding pretty stupid, but oh well. i guess im just an idiot. im going to sleep. goodnight.



"keep looking at the bright side, well that just hurts my eyes" ~the vandals

1. What is the middle name of the first person you ever slept with or had sex with?
*jenny

2. What kind of underwear are you wearing and what color?
* blue plaid boxers

3. What is the song you want played at your funeral?
* "Dont take me for granted" by Social Distortion

4. What would your last meal be before getting executed?
* Bean and Cheese burrito double wrapped from alejandros

5. Beatles or Stones?
* not too big a fan of either. theyre both pretty over-rated(not untalented, just over rated) i guess if i had to pick one, it would be the stones

6. If you HAD to pick one person on earth who should die, who would it be?
* id probably find a way to bring hitler back from the dead then kill him again. then keep bringing him back till that mother fucker has died more times than the people he killed.

7. The person whose problems you would never want to hear again?
* I always have time to listen to anyones problems, if we cant help each other than whats the point of living?

8. What is the thing most important to you (physical) about the preferred sex?
*At least 6ft of height

9. Do you secretly hate some of your friends but are too nice to reject them?
*no

10. If you could have any super power what would it be?
*probably wanna be a jedi, that shit is tiight as fuck

11. Favorite hangover cure?
*Sleep

12. How many drinks does it take to get you drunk?
*sometimes 1, sometimes 1million

13. Favorite Song Lyric?
*There are so many! All of the lyrics from The Holy Bible by the Manics are amazing

14. Hair color you most like someone you're dating to have?
*and color of the rainbow

15. If you had to be blind or deaf?
*deaf. the world is way too beautiful to not be able to see

16. Do you have any psychiatric problems?
*a big case of being a party animal

17. Siblings that should go to rehab?
*No siblings at all

18. Least favorite month?
*any one that doesnt have my birthday in it?

19. First movie you can remember seeing as a kid?
*wizard of oz

20. Favorite person in the whole world?
*too many to choose from

21. When's the last time you went on a date?
*A couple of months ago?

22. Do you like violent movies or dirty movies?
*both are awesome

23. Fall or spring?
*fall baby

24. Person you most wish you hadn't made out with?
*no one really other than a few people that if i hadnt, i wouldnt have had to deal with a big heartbreak

25. If you are straight, what person of the same sex would you do it with?
*probably dan, cuz the gay community LOVES to think hes an attractive gay man even though hes straight

26. Where do you want to live when you are old and brittle?
*i plan to die by 60, before im old and brittle

27. Who is the person or persons you can count on the most?
*kylie

28. If you could date any celebrity past or present, time and age who would it be?
*id do joe strummer



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well, just got back from the hospital, diagnosis: a bruised bone and muscle, and the most bad ass skin bruise of all time.

its all good. they gave me drugs.

happy thanksgiving to all of SG!

now lets all go out and rape and pillage just like our pilgrim ancestors did!

"im the greatest, you'll ever have!
you dont believe it? well go and ask!
im the greatest, you ever know!
if you think otherwise,
hahahaha
hahahaha
hahahaha
No!"


~My dear friend jason butler of the band LETLIVE. (song: "Stigmother)


please check them out. they wont dissapoint

www.myspace.com/letlive

<3

so im doing much better now. i dont really care anymore. because i realized that i shouldnt be sad because its obvious how much i really meant to her. so...fuck it, i guess. time to move on. i have the best friends in the world. thats all i need. thats all i'll ever need.


Don't worry about me, I'm gonna make it alright
Got my enemies crossed out in my sight
I take a bad situation gonna make it right
In the shadows of darkness I stand in the light

You see it's our style to keep it true
I've had a bad year, a lot to go through
I've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue
She's not the one coming back for you
She's not the one coming back for you

If I fall back down, you're gonna help me back up again
If I fall back down, you're gonna be my friend

It takes disaster to learn a lesson
You're gonna make it through the darkest night
Some people betray one and cause treason
We're gonna make everything alright

Well the worst of times, now, they don't phase me
Even if I look and act really crazy
I went way down, she betrayed me
Now my vision is no longer hazy

I'm very lucky to have my crew
They stood by me when she flew
I've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue
She's not the one coming back for you
She's not the one coming back for you

If I fall back down, you're gonna help me back up again
If I fall back down, you're gonna be my friend

~Rancid - Fall Back Down



time heals all wounds.

well dealing with a break up is never fun. it turned me into a fucking chain smoker. haha well not really, but i smoke a hell of a lot more now than i did before. but i guess all wounds heal in time. i guess its just time to live my life for me. grab into a six pack and raise a can...towards the future.

"we laugh at the waves as they crash on us" ~final fight

what a shitty shitty day. this ones up there in the top 5

"I pick my heart up from the floor." ~social d

pretty much the best weekend in a long time. 36 straight hours at mikeys house. well...give or take, probably give. all with no body home. and of those 36+ hours we must have slept about 6? maybe 8? haha im super tired.

haha the first night me kyle madison and patrick all took bathing suit showers in mikeys moms steamshower/jacuzzi bath. we got soap EVERYWHERE. we used all of her shampoo, body soaps and bubble baths. it was out of control.then when we got out we put on all his moms make up on and dressed up in her clothes and ran around like strung out hookers. it was so funny. stayed up all night walked to the gas station at like 4:30 to get food and cigarettes.

come saturday about 6 bands and an irresponsible amount of people came over for a fuckin huge party. moshin in the living room and shit. tiight as hell. again, stayed up all night smokin on the roof playin punk songs and singin along. pretty much the best night in a while. made me so happy.

then packed up our shit and headed to a show by a band of my closest friends. The English Work Standard. really great band. just put out their racord label debut cd "Elvis Killed Sinatra" check them out at:

www.theenglishworkstandard.tk/

or

www.myspace.com/tews

their worth your time i promise.

"Don't forget that you are born free. Its better to die on your feet than to live on your knees." `The Bouncing Souls"