Ok, so I'm trying real hard to not feel sorry for myself, but I'm afraid that I'm losing this battle. I keep trying to remind myself to focus on the positive instead of the negative, afterall things really could be alot worse! So why do I feel so glum? Well, it has to do with how boring and mundane my life is right now. I've let nearly every social circle in my life slowly slip away (my fault), I'm unhappy with my job, schools not panning out (again, my fault), and I have a complete lack of direction. Rather than just bury myself under the weight of "shoulds" ('Cause "should"ing all over yourself just ain't no fun), I'd like to find some other "positive motivation". Ok, maybe I should work off some of this excess "boredom" with a bike ride (hey, it's never too late as long as you can see - or if you are strong with the force ). My bike's been in the shop for about a week now, so I guess that's not an option (lacky employees like me get the bottom of the barrel for service... Thanks "team" :jackass: <--this should be a "smiley") Sometimes people tell me I need a girlfriend. I laugh and tell em that's a pretty tall order (no seriously, if you're pretty and tall, I take your order! ). Ok, enough I know that was corny, but hey, I'm a corny guy. Well, maybe I'd be a little more "available" if I didn't make myself so unavailable (thanks life). Sigh. It always seems that I meet someone who make me think, "Wow! Man! Woo-man! She's a knockout, and she's got brains too! !!!BRAINS!!! (I come from an area where most people - both sexes - are mentally deficient: America , Just Kidding, although there are alot of dumb people in my town).

And then I meet her husband or boyfriend.

Story of my life.

Ok, so I'm just like anyother guy, I like things that catch my eye. "Ooh! Ooh! A whirly-copter-thingy! Oooh! Shiney metal object!" (insert tool, automobile, bike, etc. here) and of course "Boobies!" -Just being honest.

But after awhile, that luster is bound to fade, so there has to be something more for me, something that I find more stimulating than looks alone. Intellect. Yep, I said it. Intelligence is the worlds biggest turn-on. Smart girls are sexy. As long as she's not afraid to show her smarts, I'll always find something to love about her. Simple as that. So where the hell is she? (Oh, right, working a job, going to school, trying to make ends meet, wondering where "Mr. Right" is...)