a lot has changed since i last posted<br><br><br>

Things are good I suppose
School starts next month, and I'm going to start volunteering at a tv station. It'll give me some good experience for my resume. I've been thinking about doing another photoshoot, but everytime I would e-mail my photographer, she never responded to me. I don't really want to change photographers because A. I'm not paying and B. I don't really want to get to know anyone else really because its hard for me to get comfortable. Anyway. I had a picnic today.<br>

Thanks to everyone who has so far commented my new set
As you can see, this was is far more better, and I am more comfortable with the camera/my body.

As for life, it's slow. Ive been job hunting for about 2 months now applying everywhere downtown handing out resumes and going on interviews but still no luck. I DON'T think it's my personality, because everyone seems to like me when they meet me and although I don't have much experience, I do have the skills to take on these jobs. Maybe I'm blaming it too much on how I look, but it's so hard to get a job with tattoos and plugs to places downtown (I don't drive, so its hard for me to get around). If anyone has any advice or jobs offered let me know haha.

Tommorow I'm going up to the mountains in Santa Cruz to hike into the mountains and take pictures with the boyfriend.

Also, my mother is coming up in about a week to see my new studio and buy me lots of presents yay!


Here are some random photos for you to enjoy haha (the first one is the most recent)

my new photoshoot is up :]
its way better than the first one and i love it so much, but it's in the "hopefulls" section and i am pretty confused how that works. anyways i hope everyone is having a good day. i am too finally, after moving to a studio and dealing with old "friends" this is my first day alone and content

picture time

I haven't posted in a while
Mainly because I'm irritated for SuicideGirls taking so long for the next photoshoot to become live
I've read up that some girls have been waiting for a year.
I didn't think it was going to take this long. I shot the first shoot (which im not exactly happy of, considering I now have more tattoos and have lost weight and grown a pair of tits) around February and a few months later it was up. Last one I took was about June/July and it isn't up yet
So lame.
Anyway, starting a new quarter in school taking Anthropology, Sociology, and Nutrition

redefining
first day alone
i've exercised, clean, paid rent and now making a frozen dinner
the life i live is very boring, i wish i was famous. i might as well be. i think i'm cool enough haha.
people talk to me

new apartment!
all without the parents, and my two friends as my roomates.
first place getting it on my own
finally being able to put obey posters up in the living room, and not my room..which may i add is the master bedroom.
things are turning up pretty sweet for me
2 months till school and i've got plenty of time after all this to go on a roadtrip down south which i may do soon. Possibly see Dear and the Headlights with As Tall as Lions and Mae. pretty sweet.

New set will be up in a few months probably. I hope I get my check because since moving, I barely changed the address about 5 minutes ago and the check could have sent to the old address. I'm new to these things. Also, I changed my address at the post office, so I'm ok and it will redirect?

Around last week i did another photoshoot. So be prepared to see another one in about 6 months or so, ha. I am real happy with this one..I got to see some of the photos and it looks a lot more like me than the first set I did, not to mention I'm finally wearing my glasses and I'm about 10 pounds lighter.
On the way to the photoshoot my friend and i got completely lost, asked a random creepy guy in a car filled with avocados how to get to the place. I thought he was going to give us directions to his house but he actually found us the way and left us alone. I need to stop judging older people ha.
Then on the way back there was a bee in the car and almost died. All in all, a good day.
Also, I've got a job now at the mall, it's pretty sweet. Money finally, and my first job.
and a new tattoo

once again

every month a boy decides to leave
i need to find myself now, without the help of a boy/man around
because it's getting ridiculous
being heartbroken should not be one of my hobbies on my about me
so im dedicating my time to finding a job, finishing up the weeks i have left of this quarter, and spending time on my horrible health habits again like smoking and drinking ha. also, going to more shows because i realized how fun they were. went to see the banner, across five aprils, love hope and fear, and some other bands. the banner spent the night and kept me company after the day of hard crying so it was nice.