so i finally started back to school and its just been sooo crazy. On tues and thrusdays im at that damn campus from 9-7 its like having another fucking job . oh did i forget to mention that i work full time as well... yea its been exhuasting but the one thing that gives me hope is that i only have two more years till i get that degree and bu god im taking a damn vacation after that. right now im tryign to meet more people in the columbia area cause my life is just boring with just going to school and work. so friendly people talk to me im usually able to check this everyday but i will get back to ya .

so i thought it would be appropriate to do an blog since i haven't done one it a bit...

a lot of stuff has changed first being i moved into my new apartment a few weeks and i absolutely love it . i moved in with my boy Chris and things there are a little bit better but hey I'm an optimistic and can only hope everything will work out in the end. i recently started finally hanging out with some people instead of staying inside all the time. I never really noticed or payed attention to how lonely i was without female interaction. you know the kind of being able to just go out with a bunch of females and shoot the shit about boys gossip the regular girls stuff. it was really nice. right now I'm in the process of just working and trying to get my apartment set up and let me tell ya my job has gotten a lot less friendlier i can stand the dumb ass there but anyways that is all thats going right now but i have to jet cause my bf is trying to whip me with wet towels in order to use the comp..


tatta for now!!!!!

my rant

so what does it mean when every ten minutes we are fighting.... why is it everytime i try and be joking with you , you take it the wrong way... dumbass i love you why hell if i know but i do and you are almost pusing me away. i used to know where i stood in your life but nowwwww.... just dont know . part of me is excited to be moving on with you and gettign back to the way things were but the other part, the reserved part, is scared to go on and have you hurt me again. i can never be L or S and though you may have not said i have to be them i feel liek i have to compare up to them it makes em pissed. ohh and i want our DAMN sex life back this every few weeks shit is pissin me off we have never been like that . im tired of always thinking about the what ifs i want you to tell me what you feel stop hiding and just tell me

so there is this new boss that i have to deal with at work. she seemed ok yet there was some bitchiness in her and i KNEW that we would get into it. she comes from one of our competitors and thinks that she knows everything. Bitch I've been with this company for 5 fucking years guess what you don't. anyways the other day she did something that made me think to tell my bf, a manager at another store to watch his back cause i saw her talking to our boss and then shut the door when i go by . i knew she was up to something. last night i get called into the managers office for sending faxes without paying is what they were saying. I was pissed first because that bitch has been trying to say ohh Ashley is stealing from the company by sending faxes without paying and we need to do something. my managers in return looked up employee purchases and didn't see that i had paid for it. but what they failed to fucking realize is that its for my dads company which i don't put in a damn employee discount becuase its for him company expenses. and the other ones i did pay for but at a later time cause i had to go ring up customers. I FUCKING STARTED CRYING BECAUSE I WAS SOOO PISSED. and now im expected to work with this bitch hell fucking no I'm going to make her life a hell !!! dumb ass fo0rgot that ive worked for the company for 5 years shit like that has to be factual and stick

so this is my first blog and i would like to say yea procrastination is a bitch but im loving the "free" time i haveill write more later telling about my oh so boring life.