Okay, I'm going to share some video today. I can't even believe I found this on YouTube. This is video of my former bellydance teacher, Nataj. She was also the studio owner. She is literally, one of the best bellydancers in the world. If you know who Hossam Ramzy is, he was floored by her. I had no idea when I started there how lucky I was, I was in Ohio for chrissakes. Anyway, for your enjoyment. The lighting isn't great, and it's hard to see the subleties, but Pheme, I know you'll totally dig this.

I'm feeling an asshole day coming on.

I made the mistake of spilling my guts on the board in the middle of the night with lack of sleep and feel like I got attacked. I should have known better. Spilling guts is for blogs not boards. I also inadvertently put something depressing on a what is most always a very fun place to be. My apologies to everyone. Truthfully, I'm scared shitless right now because I'm in a place I've never been in and frankly, never thought I'd be in. Thanks for being understanding.

Still fucking sick! B actually has pnuemonia. No health insurance, but I do have tons of breathing treatments so we're fighting it off, but it's going away slowly. Did get a call last week about one of the jobs at the university. It would be in HR. She is going to call me back to set up an interview...I hope. I really want this to happen for a number of reasons. Awesome job that I can retire from, good money, awesome benefits, including six credit hours a semester. So I can finish Arabic and maybe do my Phd. I can't even tell you how useful Arabic would be. I could instantly get a job with the Feds training others in Arabic and translating newspapers, etc. Maybe by then there will be someone decent in the White House. The sword-rattling policies seriously have to stop. It doesn't work over there. Most of those guys are just trying to show how big their dicks are by swinging them around (Ahmadinejad) so they can feel like they can play with the big dogs. All they want is for us to say "O my, yes, you do have quite a large penis, I'm sorry I didn't notice it before." It really is true, simplified, but true.

Hey, Guys. Been out super sick with bronchitis. Just wanted to get drunk on a selection of cute little mixed drinks for Christmas but have been feeling too bad to enjoy it. Hopefully by next week. The girls are happy, they got exactly what they wanted and we spent Christmas at home instead of running around.

Still no news on the job front. Since I haven't heard from any of the five departments at the university I was recommended to I'm guessing that they are waiting until after the holiday to contact me. Keep your fingers crossed, say prayers, pay a deity, whatever, I need all the help I can get.

Anyway, I'm glad to spend time with my babies and B. Even got the dogs toys for Christmas and they were like little babies with them. So, that was all the fun I needed for now.

Hope everyone had a great holiday, will be catching up on the Geezer boards soon. Missed everyone.


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Grading. Grading. Grading. I know I'm going to be sooo sorry I stayed up to grade when I have to go to work in a few hours. No calls for an interview, but I received an email that the university sent my information to four other departments that have that position open. One already responded that they've decided to hold filling the position. Trying not to feel like the kiss of death.

I caught the show "The Girls Next Door" purely by accident and then couldn't turn it off. I think in complete puzzlement that a) people can be so incredibly dumb b) that there really are real live women who are able to have sex with someone revolting purely for financial reasons (I know this is naive, but it is so against my realm of personality and thought that I have trouble comprehending it even when its in my face) c) that there are parents who allow their little girls to look up to these women as role models - incredibly frightening segment

Hope everyone is doing well, I'll be more chatty in a few days.

I hope everyone is doing well. We are hanging in there at my house. I'm thinking of telling my parents that we are going to stay home Christmas Day and relax. My kids and their Dad and I don't have a lot of time together with all of the jobs we are working, school,etc. My parents are divorced, so Xmas is split between their homes with no time for us to just relax. Frankly, my mother's is boring and she's a crazy old woman. My children even think so which floors me because I keep my thoughts about her quiet. I'll probably see my Dad Christmas Eve after I work. I'm pretty sure B will have to work too. And now the club might be open Christmas night so he'll be working then too. I would just like to have a nice dinner, stay in my pajamas and relax with each other. That would be really nice. So, I'm thinking about how to tell my mom we're not coming over. Has anybody else gone through something like this before?

Z has karate tonight. She goes to the greatest dojo with the most amazing instructor. He's one of those people you meet that you can just tell they are genuinely good human beings...very rare. He happened to have all four girls at her belt level together for a class and he was giving them advice on boys. He said, "Never listen to what boys say because they will say anything to get what they want. Watch what a boy does and that will tell you what kind of a person he is." So true.

It snowed. Just enough to be pretty. I wanted to stay in and enjoy it, but alas, I had to work. B lost one of his jobs so I'm starting to freak out a little bit. We were paying the mortgage with my jobs and everything else with his. So now we literally have nothing for gas and food until he gets another job. I'm soooo sick of this. I wish they would hurry and call me about the job I tested for.

I am so glad that is over. Stood in a line with my kids for over an hour so we could confess to a priest. Hopefully, that is the last time I have to do that. Wasn't fun, waste of an evening. But, it was really important to Z and that's what counts. She's happy and got a little sheep ornament for the Xmas tree.

I'm wrapping up my semester teaching. Gave my last lecture this morning. Now I just have to give the final and grade exams and papers, and the last of the presentations my other class is giving this week. Because of my upcoming job, I can't teach during the day so as of right now I won't be teaching next semester unless an evening or Saturday slot opens. I would kind of like the extra money. 1) to pay bills, 2) for vacation and 3) it seems silly, but I've been keeping a wish list for years on Trashy.com. I've worked so hard the last couple of years and I always said I would reward myself with a few things from the site. Every since I was a little girl I have always wanted a really beautiful robe and nightgown just like in the movies. They have some beautiful sets that are very 30s and 40s. So, that's my plan, plus a whoooole list of other more yummy things. Out of all the things I could want, that's what I want. Besides, they make everything to order which is great for me. I'm short (5'3") but I have a curvy figure (36-27-36) and things don't usually fit me right off the rack. They are almost always too long, and if they fit my boobs, the waist is too big and vice versa. So, love Trashy. Anyway, I know it's not a mind blowing write today, but a girl has to have incentives and that's what on my mind to keep me going right now.

Oh, yeah.....snow, snow, snow!

Waiting....waiting....waiting....to hear about an interview for what I know will be my new job. I'm not a patient person.

Today feels kinda weird. Worked at the dog store this morning. Have to teach tomorrow. Want to just put my pajamas on and relax the rest of the day, but I can't. Z has her First Reconciliation tonight and because I wanted her to have the best education possible I have to go to confession with her tonite. I have no idea what to confess about. I haven't stolen anything. Anything I've lied about has been absolutely ridiculous. Example, late for work, said traffic was bad instead of that I found it difficult to remove myself from the mattress. Not exactly the kind of stuff that would warrant a confession. I remember having to go as a kid. It was always the same, lying to your parents, beating the crap out of your brothers, etc. I've only been having sex with B, and even though we're divorced, the Church still coniders us married, so not a sin...conveniently.
Should I make something up for entertainment purposes? The priest is going to have to see 40 - 50 sets of parents and kids. So you feel bad knowing that he's probably pretty bored. Do you say something like..."Yeah, I picked up a hitchhiker down on the AA and cut him into little pieces before burying him in the woods near the river." It certainly would make the evening a little more interesting.

I'll let you know how it goes...

MUCH better today. Thank you all for weathering my ranting.

I picked up a new winter coat, and some comfy new pajamas after work, and tonight a bunch of my shows are on. So, I am just going to relax.

P.S. I do still feel like I really need to have angry sex, but I've buried it for now. I will probably end up killing the next person I have sex with in the process.