Hey DistantCry, this one is for you and your mom.
I thought maybe a visual Aide would help. It's Michael Posey.
-Mith
I thought maybe a visual Aide would help. It's Michael Posey.
-Mith
Okay, So I've been without internet for like a Day, so i have been keeping a Journal of the major events of the Trip to ohio i am currenly On. Keep Checking this entry, I will update it when i get a chance.
Apr. 30 (On the Shuttle) Ok, so it's 3AM and i am on the Airport Express shuttle bus headed to San Fran. It's surprisingly comfortable. This is going to be a lot harder to enjoy than i orginally concieved, because my iPod has just died. So much for having my 7000 songs avaliable at any time for my trip. *sigh* Also, i found out this Powerbook has a fucked up Battery, and can only hold a 45 minute charge. So there go my two methods of entertainment for the flight. Will Write From Airport
Apr. 30 (SFO) Ok, so I made it to the Airport, and I basically slept on the Bus. "Fuck It!" I said! it was late, i was tired, and all i had was my PSP. I woke up at the SFO Terminal, and got my ticket at a self service machine.
Let me repeat that. A SELF... SERVICE... MACHINE. This means that if any of the 134 people i told i was flying from SFO to Columbus wanted to be malicious, they could have checked in as me, and flown on my dollar. So much for security. literally the only check that it was actually me was that they could spell my last name.
Apr. 30th - 'The SFO to DFW Flight: So i have landed in texas. That flight Sucked. it was very long and very... cramped. American Airlines are bastards... they fucking cram you all in there like sardines. they dont give two shits about your comfort, and they have absolutley no intention of making your flight comfortable. FUCKERS CHARGE FOR SNACKS NOW. I kept falling asleep and waking up, so the 2 and a half hour flight seemed like it took six hours. Dude next to me would NOT shut up about the golf course his brother bought. It was terrible.
APR. 30 - Texas Layover: I spent the whole damn time in texas looking for a fucking power outlet to plug this f*er in, so i could post. I found two but they were dead. While on my fervernt search I talked to DistantCry on the phone, back in cali. I miss her a lot, and I wish i could stop worrying about the stupid little things in the relationship. She really seems to be having fun, and i do know she would never try to hurt me, so why am i so sure she will?! If that makes any sense, I paid 6.50 for 25 minutes worth of internet to post comments on SG. Hope to talk to DistantCry again soon.
Apr 30 - The DFW to CMH Flight: This flight was almost IDENTICAL to the first. Same amount of time, i had the same thing to drink, i sat in the same spot, kept falling asleep then waking up... it was crappy as well. I simply could not get fucking comfy. Planes are totally bullshit, i swear to god. They need to get more comfy and they need to do it NOW. If flying was actually FUN (like trains) people would do it because they want to, not because it;s the only way to get from A to B, and the Airline Industry wouldnt be sinking so fast
APR 30 - In Columbus: Ok, so here i am. This Airport is a lot more forgiving and comfortable than the Dallas one. Frank, my hippie cousin (whom my girlfriend thinks is hot) picked me up at the airport. It was weird seeing him because just three weeks ago he was visiting ME in California. Well, we drove to a Wendys and I got a burger, he asked how my "Suicide Girl" was doing. I said she (and we) were doing great. We visited my other cousin (vinnie) who looks like a Jedi. That was funny to see. Hadnt seen vinnie in 5 years, so it was good to see him again. Anyway, Running over to Grandmas Now.
Apr 30 - Grandmas Backgorund: so grandma visited us last month along with frank. While she was there, Kelsey and I spent the afternoon with her. She was telling us about this one time she broker her hand in florida. She spent like 45 minutes telling the story to us. Then we went to class, and She (Grandma) Proceeds to turn around and break her hand. AGAIN! So she had a cast put on that healed the bone, but not straight, so she was kinda screwed. So just recently she had surgery to reset the bone so it would heal properly. This is why i stopped to see her.
Apr. 30 - Grandmas: When i first showed up, she had NO idea I was coming, so when she realized it was me, there was a lot of shouting and a lot of "what are you doing here?" after the initial shock... (which was my favorite part) we all sat around like you would EXPECT a big italian family to do. Bickering and shooting Dry Wit back and forth at eachother, taking friendly jabs between the "I love you"s and the "so how are you, really"s. I think her seeing me really brightened up her day. But Frank and I have to leave now so i can get to the Party.
Apr 30th - "Rachel": Rachel is the name of Howard and Holly's Daughtger. Howard is the guys whos party this is, and Holly is his wife, and the one who arranged my arrival. I am the only member of my family to meet Rachel. She is nine. Many years ago, she would spend hours on end with me, watching Vegitales or reading Green Eggs and Ham. She always seemed to like my company, and my time with her was one of the reasons i decided i could make a good father. Well, she doesnt remember me now, years later, and I dont know wh that hurts so much.
Apr 30. HoRo Arrives: So I was the first one to the Party, and when all the other guests arrived, Holly hid me in the guest room. Howard came in and everyone yelled surprise. He was Quite surprised since his Birthday was 4 months ago. Anyway, Holly then said she had one more surprise for him. It was me, and he was really happy to see me, although he didnt seem very surprised... anyway, i sat down and had a beer with them, which i almost never do, since beer tastes like old, rotten soda. But now i should mingle. Will repost later
Apr 30 - The Party Pt. 2 - Holly is ecstatic that i am here, and these are great people, and yet i have spent the last two hours of this part sitting in the corner eating sloppy joes and humus. I want to know why i suk at this. A pretty Irish girl showed up, aparently we were in 5th grade together. Howard asked if Kelsey and I were stil together, and I told him no, since we're not. None of my Dad's other old friends showed up. So i dont know anyone. I came in here to start this entry. Broccoli and Fritos are really good together. I miss DistantCry. When i am with her, i feel i can be more social than ever
Apr 30 - The Party Pt 3 - Howard and I are getting along great, and the party pretty much wound down. We played with our Macs and talked shop. I think the cute irish girl left. I am so glad i am here in Minerva. Its been a long time. I got more social, and was talking to a large group of people, and they seemed really interested. Maybe i dont actually suck at this. Going to breakfast with the HoHos tomorrow (Howard and Holly) and howard sent a drunken email to my dad.
Apr 30 - The Rundown - Ok, so cute irish girl didnt leave, and Howard thinks she wants me. I talked to DistantCry on the phone, and im going to meet her online now, so she can give me something i really want
I miss her, and i have been Über lucky to have her around as much as i have. Im getting chewed out for never having seen "West Side Story." Oh well. Talked to my mom briefly on the phone. All is well, and I am really enjoying myself. Gonna go talk to DistantCry online
May 1st - Walking - K..that wasnt supposed to happen.. The irish girl had been drinking, so howard offered to walk her home. Well he wanted to go to bed, so I walked her home. I was supposed to rush back to talk to DistantCry online, which i REALLY wanted to do.. but i didn. Instead I stayed, we had wine, played with her dog, met her parents, and then we watched "Shaun of the Dead." I was there for like 3 hours. I dont know what happened. But everytime she looked at me like i was supposed to move in i pulled away. And i know why, too. Because my current partner is superior to her. In everyway. I had no reasoN to pursue anything. Not even for fun physicality. Because even when i tried to be attracted to her, it just didnt happen. It was very weird. I cant explain it. i thougt i would always be up for a no-strings roll in the hay, but even when the situation presented itself, i said "Naaa.. id rather hang out with DistantCry" Fuckin weir. But i have no guilt now... except for one thing:
May 1st: The Apology - I am sorry i was not there for you, even when i made you promise you would be. i am sorry i let you down, without so much as a word. I am sorry I ditched you. But i want you to know that what i did instead made me realise, without trying, how many wonderful things there are about you that i truly treasure. I will list them to you in person, shoudl you choose to accept my plea and call me. Remember. I am three hours later than you.
May 1st - Sleeping In - Dammit, I never made it to breakfast today I was up at 9AM ohio time, which is 6am mine, and was ready to go.. then fell asleep again some how, cause it was 1pm when i woke up again. So that kind of sucked. Also, my cuz Frank called cause i was supposed to go hang out with the Family, but of course I have no transportation. Even when i am on "vacation" i give myself too much to do in too little time. I am going to go to the Ohio Apple Store, and show Howie around... Maybe see what their genius bar situation is Still hoping you'll call me
[[:Last Update Was At 2:10 Eastern, 11:10 Pacific:]]
Apr. 30 (On the Shuttle) Ok, so it's 3AM and i am on the Airport Express shuttle bus headed to San Fran. It's surprisingly comfortable. This is going to be a lot harder to enjoy than i orginally concieved, because my iPod has just died. So much for having my 7000 songs avaliable at any time for my trip. *sigh* Also, i found out this Powerbook has a fucked up Battery, and can only hold a 45 minute charge. So there go my two methods of entertainment for the flight. Will Write From Airport
Apr. 30 (SFO) Ok, so I made it to the Airport, and I basically slept on the Bus. "Fuck It!" I said! it was late, i was tired, and all i had was my PSP. I woke up at the SFO Terminal, and got my ticket at a self service machine.
Let me repeat that. A SELF... SERVICE... MACHINE. This means that if any of the 134 people i told i was flying from SFO to Columbus wanted to be malicious, they could have checked in as me, and flown on my dollar. So much for security. literally the only check that it was actually me was that they could spell my last name.
Apr. 30th - 'The SFO to DFW Flight: So i have landed in texas. That flight Sucked. it was very long and very... cramped. American Airlines are bastards... they fucking cram you all in there like sardines. they dont give two shits about your comfort, and they have absolutley no intention of making your flight comfortable. FUCKERS CHARGE FOR SNACKS NOW. I kept falling asleep and waking up, so the 2 and a half hour flight seemed like it took six hours. Dude next to me would NOT shut up about the golf course his brother bought. It was terrible.
APR. 30 - Texas Layover: I spent the whole damn time in texas looking for a fucking power outlet to plug this f*er in, so i could post. I found two but they were dead. While on my fervernt search I talked to DistantCry on the phone, back in cali. I miss her a lot, and I wish i could stop worrying about the stupid little things in the relationship. She really seems to be having fun, and i do know she would never try to hurt me, so why am i so sure she will?! If that makes any sense, I paid 6.50 for 25 minutes worth of internet to post comments on SG. Hope to talk to DistantCry again soon.
Apr 30 - The DFW to CMH Flight: This flight was almost IDENTICAL to the first. Same amount of time, i had the same thing to drink, i sat in the same spot, kept falling asleep then waking up... it was crappy as well. I simply could not get fucking comfy. Planes are totally bullshit, i swear to god. They need to get more comfy and they need to do it NOW. If flying was actually FUN (like trains) people would do it because they want to, not because it;s the only way to get from A to B, and the Airline Industry wouldnt be sinking so fast
APR 30 - In Columbus: Ok, so here i am. This Airport is a lot more forgiving and comfortable than the Dallas one. Frank, my hippie cousin (whom my girlfriend thinks is hot) picked me up at the airport. It was weird seeing him because just three weeks ago he was visiting ME in California. Well, we drove to a Wendys and I got a burger, he asked how my "Suicide Girl" was doing. I said she (and we) were doing great. We visited my other cousin (vinnie) who looks like a Jedi. That was funny to see. Hadnt seen vinnie in 5 years, so it was good to see him again. Anyway, Running over to Grandmas Now.
Apr 30 - Grandmas Backgorund: so grandma visited us last month along with frank. While she was there, Kelsey and I spent the afternoon with her. She was telling us about this one time she broker her hand in florida. She spent like 45 minutes telling the story to us. Then we went to class, and She (Grandma) Proceeds to turn around and break her hand. AGAIN! So she had a cast put on that healed the bone, but not straight, so she was kinda screwed. So just recently she had surgery to reset the bone so it would heal properly. This is why i stopped to see her.
Apr. 30 - Grandmas: When i first showed up, she had NO idea I was coming, so when she realized it was me, there was a lot of shouting and a lot of "what are you doing here?" after the initial shock... (which was my favorite part) we all sat around like you would EXPECT a big italian family to do. Bickering and shooting Dry Wit back and forth at eachother, taking friendly jabs between the "I love you"s and the "so how are you, really"s. I think her seeing me really brightened up her day. But Frank and I have to leave now so i can get to the Party.
Apr 30th - "Rachel": Rachel is the name of Howard and Holly's Daughtger. Howard is the guys whos party this is, and Holly is his wife, and the one who arranged my arrival. I am the only member of my family to meet Rachel. She is nine. Many years ago, she would spend hours on end with me, watching Vegitales or reading Green Eggs and Ham. She always seemed to like my company, and my time with her was one of the reasons i decided i could make a good father. Well, she doesnt remember me now, years later, and I dont know wh that hurts so much.
Apr 30. HoRo Arrives: So I was the first one to the Party, and when all the other guests arrived, Holly hid me in the guest room. Howard came in and everyone yelled surprise. He was Quite surprised since his Birthday was 4 months ago. Anyway, Holly then said she had one more surprise for him. It was me, and he was really happy to see me, although he didnt seem very surprised... anyway, i sat down and had a beer with them, which i almost never do, since beer tastes like old, rotten soda. But now i should mingle. Will repost later
Apr 30 - The Party Pt. 2 - Holly is ecstatic that i am here, and these are great people, and yet i have spent the last two hours of this part sitting in the corner eating sloppy joes and humus. I want to know why i suk at this. A pretty Irish girl showed up, aparently we were in 5th grade together. Howard asked if Kelsey and I were stil together, and I told him no, since we're not. None of my Dad's other old friends showed up. So i dont know anyone. I came in here to start this entry. Broccoli and Fritos are really good together. I miss DistantCry. When i am with her, i feel i can be more social than ever
Apr 30 - The Party Pt 3 - Howard and I are getting along great, and the party pretty much wound down. We played with our Macs and talked shop. I think the cute irish girl left. I am so glad i am here in Minerva. Its been a long time. I got more social, and was talking to a large group of people, and they seemed really interested. Maybe i dont actually suck at this. Going to breakfast with the HoHos tomorrow (Howard and Holly) and howard sent a drunken email to my dad.
Apr 30 - The Rundown - Ok, so cute irish girl didnt leave, and Howard thinks she wants me. I talked to DistantCry on the phone, and im going to meet her online now, so she can give me something i really want
I miss her, and i have been Über lucky to have her around as much as i have. Im getting chewed out for never having seen "West Side Story." Oh well. Talked to my mom briefly on the phone. All is well, and I am really enjoying myself. Gonna go talk to DistantCry online
May 1st - Walking - K..that wasnt supposed to happen.. The irish girl had been drinking, so howard offered to walk her home. Well he wanted to go to bed, so I walked her home. I was supposed to rush back to talk to DistantCry online, which i REALLY wanted to do.. but i didn. Instead I stayed, we had wine, played with her dog, met her parents, and then we watched "Shaun of the Dead." I was there for like 3 hours. I dont know what happened. But everytime she looked at me like i was supposed to move in i pulled away. And i know why, too. Because my current partner is superior to her. In everyway. I had no reasoN to pursue anything. Not even for fun physicality. Because even when i tried to be attracted to her, it just didnt happen. It was very weird. I cant explain it. i thougt i would always be up for a no-strings roll in the hay, but even when the situation presented itself, i said "Naaa.. id rather hang out with DistantCry" Fuckin weir. But i have no guilt now... except for one thing:
May 1st: The Apology - I am sorry i was not there for you, even when i made you promise you would be. i am sorry i let you down, without so much as a word. I am sorry I ditched you. But i want you to know that what i did instead made me realise, without trying, how many wonderful things there are about you that i truly treasure. I will list them to you in person, shoudl you choose to accept my plea and call me. Remember. I am three hours later than you.
May 1st - Sleeping In - Dammit, I never made it to breakfast today I was up at 9AM ohio time, which is 6am mine, and was ready to go.. then fell asleep again some how, cause it was 1pm when i woke up again. So that kind of sucked. Also, my cuz Frank called cause i was supposed to go hang out with the Family, but of course I have no transportation. Even when i am on "vacation" i give myself too much to do in too little time. I am going to go to the Ohio Apple Store, and show Howie around... Maybe see what their genius bar situation is
Still hoping you'll call me[[:Last Update Was At 2:10 Eastern, 11:10 Pacific:]]
a girl in my bed
should have left hours ago
but wants to remain
now she sleeps soundly
should i let her lay, tonight?
her mom will kill me
Love her company
but i am breaking the rule
did not drive her home
so close yet so far
her heart faded but present
like a distantcry
should have left hours ago
but wants to remain
now she sleeps soundly
should i let her lay, tonight?
her mom will kill me
Love her company
but i am breaking the rule
did not drive her home
so close yet so far
her heart faded but present
like a distantcry
I have to Finalize my top five suicide girls of all time before i leave for good.
I will determine this quickly.
Any suggestions?
Flux is pretty much the only one with a stable spot.
_mith
I will determine this quickly.
Any suggestions?
Flux is pretty much the only one with a stable spot.
_mith
what do you do.
what do you do when you care about someone enough to want to let them do whatever it will take to make them happy. but when you're so painfully human that you don't want them to walk out of your life forever.
when you know that this person will never be truly satisfied until they find their destiny. until they get to the end of the path they are currently on?
what do you do when there's no one to be mad at. when there's no one doing any wrong, but you're still sick to your stomach all the time.
what do you do when you have to watch someone you care about walk away from you forever, so they can march forever into the battleground of self-defeatism and potential heartbreak.
all of you who are lucky enough to have love in your life. to have someone who will look over at you and smile because they love the glint in your eye, or the smile creeping over in the corner of your mouth, Please take this moment to be happy. and feel loved.
nothing in the world is as devestating a force as lonliness
appreciate those who cherish you
cherish those who appreciate you
i am lost right now. i am torn because i don't even know what the right thing to do is. And if i did, i can't promise i would even do the right thing at all.
what i want seems inconsequential at this point, but i existed in a place of peace an acceptance of the new version of life that fate had ushered in for me.
here i am at the crossroads, lost and naked. I must do the right thing. But what is that?
_mith
what do you do when you care about someone enough to want to let them do whatever it will take to make them happy. but when you're so painfully human that you don't want them to walk out of your life forever.
when you know that this person will never be truly satisfied until they find their destiny. until they get to the end of the path they are currently on?
what do you do when there's no one to be mad at. when there's no one doing any wrong, but you're still sick to your stomach all the time.
what do you do when you have to watch someone you care about walk away from you forever, so they can march forever into the battleground of self-defeatism and potential heartbreak.
all of you who are lucky enough to have love in your life. to have someone who will look over at you and smile because they love the glint in your eye, or the smile creeping over in the corner of your mouth, Please take this moment to be happy. and feel loved.
nothing in the world is as devestating a force as lonliness
appreciate those who cherish you
cherish those who appreciate you
i am lost right now. i am torn because i don't even know what the right thing to do is. And if i did, i can't promise i would even do the right thing at all.
what i want seems inconsequential at this point, but i existed in a place of peace an acceptance of the new version of life that fate had ushered in for me.
here i am at the crossroads, lost and naked. I must do the right thing. But what is that?
_mith
Hey all,
I have an interesting question for everyone, it was posed to me by an interesting friend at an interesting time, while she was doing an interesting thing.
What is the most embarrassing thing you own?
_Mith
PS: If you live within 60 Miles of Santa Rosa, CA come to the Tiger Release Party @ Apple. We're giving shit away.
Apple
1072 Santa Rosa Plaza
Santa Rosa, CA
95401
Friday Apr. 29, 6PM to Midnight.
_Mith (Again) (again)
BTW: It was a dress.
I have an interesting question for everyone, it was posed to me by an interesting friend at an interesting time, while she was doing an interesting thing.
What is the most embarrassing thing you own?
_Mith
PS: If you live within 60 Miles of Santa Rosa, CA come to the Tiger Release Party @ Apple. We're giving shit away.
Apple
1072 Santa Rosa Plaza
Santa Rosa, CA
95401
Friday Apr. 29, 6PM to Midnight.
_Mith (Again)
(again)BTW: It was a dress.
