its been ages since i was here, we have been moving house and buying fridges and wardrobes. i still hate my job, i still hate the people i work with, its still raining.

hair cut, holiday, kitten very soon - very very excited.

Have been making lots of pen pals - i love writing letters. bought lots of charlie & lola goodies and lots of other wasteful things i dont need. i dont care though, colouring books make me smile.

i think i hate my job.

i very much wish that i could be breathtakingly beautiful.

We saw Jimmy Carr tonight, he was incredibly funny. The gig also showed us that alot of Plymouth Residents are painfully stupid. I enjoyed it, laughed so much.

Busy week ahead now, got the keys to our clean and airy new flat, so need to organise moving, need to figure out a way of blagging enough money to pay overpriced removal firms.

I stumbled across an amazing website - its dedicated to photographing and reporting on derelict and abandoned buildings - some of the pics are fabulous.

It makes me wish i was better at taking photos. I love photographs, of anything - i love looking at other peoples photos, i love having photos in a box or album and looking through them. Id love to really get into it as a hobby, but im just not that good.

This is a view from the top of our road, its the river and docks - we are moving in a week though, so no longer will i be able to lean really far out of my back window to see the sea.



cant frigging wait to get out of here though..

I have been playing guitar hero tonight.
Im getting pretty good at it, my ps2 is pink, i got it last year with singstar.



I also got my nails done today.



I have a headache. also i smashed the crap out of my wrist yesterday it hurts rather alot.

edit. god my hands are massive.

Neil and I were looking at some personal ads today, so i am curious.

What would your personal ad say?

answers on a postcard.

p.s. doctor who rocked tonight.

x

This weekend was Neils Birthday - this is what we did:



We went to Torquay to Living Coasts to see the Penguins, Penguins are one of my favourite animals, last year Neil adopted one for me - its called Fishbiscuit.



After harrassing penguins for some time, i decided to check out peoples balconys using the telescope, unfortunatly the most i saw was a seagull.



There wasnt much that was exciting at Living Coasts - the seal was pretty cool though and he was incredibly noisy, there were 3 baby seals too



I also decided to pet prehistoric sea creatures. looks like a hippo.



Neil also bought me a massive cuddly penguin - we already have a number of small penguins that reside in our bathroom. The new one is called Fishbiscwit.



This is me giving him a kiss, excuse the fat belly. (im wearing a SG tshirt!!)



Today we went on Dartmoor to Cadover Bridge.



We had a picnic and read books and things. It was really nice.



Neil decided to take pictures of his birthday presents.



He also lets me paint his toenails. He is a regular Superman.



It started to rain so we came home and lazed around.



And that was my weekend.

We also saw Mary Poppins on Friday - which was so good, i adore musicals. On Saturday we saw Shout! which sucked really. We also played lots of Guitar Hero - which i kick ass at.

urgh. why am i so jealous of all the girls he talks too. i know he wont ever ever do anything, so why does it bother me so much

I had my new tattoo done a few weeks ago, this is what it looked like a few hours after it was finished



i love them

The other week it was my birthday, it was also the day that Neils great Nan died. She was very old (in her 90's, despite how many times she told me, i can never remember how old she was) and she'd had a really good life, and she died very peacefully from what i gather. This got me thinking about families. Neils family is very odd - as far as i can see, nobody talks to anybody about anything, its like life is one big secret.

Nobody talks to Neil about his mum - he doesnt know anything about her, and this makes me sad for him, i think that he should ask, he should find out, but i also think his family should tell him things, they should celebrate her life and talk about her. - Obviously im an outsider to this and ive always been one to see things in a clear cut way, and maybe it isnt so simple as all that. Nobody talks about his dad too - it also makes me sad that his family make him feel guilty for talking to his dad - he shouldnt have to lose two parents, its all so very strange, i have never really understood what happened with his dad, neil is always very vague about it, and any tidbits of information his nan has dropped have always been full of confusion. then when we see his dad and janet, they also have another vague version of events, its incredibly hard to fathom whats going on at all.

I half wonder if the death of his great nan will unearth memories and photos and eventually they will all find a way to talk about everything frankly, honestly and openly.

I again am only opinionating, and i dont mean to cause upset by this


Finally, an apology of sorts, ive made lots of friends on here (as such) and i do so want to begin conversations with all of you, but i find it hard to regularly check to read this. It would be nice to correspond with people and if anyone woul;d like to chat with me, please let me know and we can exchange emails. dont worry though, i dont tend to stalk people - unless i think you might have a kitten i can half inch.