Thanks to everyone who gave their support after Oreo passed away, it was really appreciated.



My journals never seem to be about happy things, I promise next time I will try and make it more happy but for now here is a little talk about last nights events;

Valborg- the holiday of doom.

I have noticed that I am growing more agoraphobic, crowds bother me and parties bother me even more. And it seems that my intuition about such things should be followed.

Valborg is a crazy holiday in Sweden, people basically light fires and get drunk, which is already a pretty bad premise. I try and avoid most of the festivities seeing as it is a religious holiday for me I try and go to some sort of pagan celebration. But living in the very uneducated pagan backwater of Sweden this isn't always an option, which is too bad because last night would really have been so much better if I would have been at a Beltane celebration instead.

First we where at a park with a enormous amount of crazy drunk people, cue me freaking out a bit. Internally of course, I never show my emotions on the outside, cold as ice It was pretty crazy like a festival but with normal people instead of the traditional festival crowd, and with everyone being ten times drunker.

Then we went to a party at a friends apartment, a close friend who we often hang out with and who my bf grew up with. This "friend" of ours kicked the crap out of me, I kicked his ass more but my shoulder is fucked. He also tried to hit on my and was really really inappropriate. Like trying to strangle, pulling my hair threatening to kill me and telling me how I am the hottest and how I wouldn't say no to him inappropriate. No to mention his sarcastic "awhs" and "why don't you call your boyfriend" when I told him he was a dick and to fuck of. I am already going into denial about last nights events. I can't believe that a person could be so different when drunk. Then again I never really trusted or liked him the way my bf did. Female intuition is underrated. At least I kicked his ass in public, no more macho points for him.

So not a great Beltane for me, I am definitely going to stick to religious festivities from now on.

Did you have a nice Valborg/Beltane?

R.I.P Sweetheart, I wish I could have said goodbye, you where the sweetest puppy ever. I can't believe you where taken from us so soon.





I probably won't be answering for a while.

I haven't updated in a while and sorry to those I haven't replied. I have been out of commission for a bit. But I am sick of seeing that old post and I am feeling better so here is an update;

I have been sick for 6+ weeks and had surgery. The whole thing sucked the major donkey balls but I am feeling better now.

I am taking Genusvetenskap this spring, basically that translates into genders studies. Sadly I am a bit behind now due to illness but other than that it's quite amusing albeit very biased towards a Marxist perspective.

I am running for office; a spot in Lunds Samhällsvetarkår kårfullmäktige. Basically it's a spot in the group that leads the "kår" which is an organization that is supposed to protect student interests and mine focuses on students studying "societal" subjects. This is the first time I actually run for office, I really no nothing about how to run in a race like this because it was a spur of the moment sort of deal. But even if I don't get elected I have decided to become more active in the political side of the "kår". It's right up my ally and it may be the last time I get an opportunity like this. Since...

I might have to move away to some other EU country after next year due to the Bologna process mess. Hepp.

I finally put an ad out for help with my horse, nobody has replied yet though, I may have to give up my request for financial assistance. I used to share her with my sister and although I have a lot of help she needs to be ridden much more. I also work my butt of to support her and hence don't have time to be with her. It's a vicious circle.

In other news; oh happy day I am allowed to have a dog! The man who cleans my apartment finally relented. Too bad the kind of dog I want is way out of my league budget wise right now and seeing as I might have to move to another country it's probably not realistic at the moment. My heart still aches for a puppy, I never realized how lonely I would be without one.

My set shot by the lovely Nemesis was rejected, but we will be giving it another go later on

Cupcakes are yummy, true story. But in Sweden people insist on calling cupcakes muffins even when they clearly aren't, its just wrong I tell you.

Semi happy news; I heard a rumor that could mean I will be getting student money next term without hassle. I will have to check with the authorities on the subject a couple times first to make sure before I celebrate. Would be a really nice way to start the New Year and put all the crap from the fall behind. I would really like to put some of my debts behind me, visit Jason and the boys in England in the spring and start saving for a new NY trip so here's hoping.

The Bologna process is freaking me out, my plans have gone out the window and my guidance counselour is in South Africa, grats.


Christmas was good, a bit more relaxed because my family decided to skip presents. I got to se my family and the puppies!


I miss them all like crazy /cryface
I ate some yummy food and took it easy at home away from my domestic mess, and this month alone I have probably inhaled over one hundred lussekatter. At least I can share my crazy love for the things with lovely Elf who also has an explanation of them in her journal.


However the dude I live with did give me a present ^^

I think it is a gift due to guilt, and as bribery for future fuckups, but that's fine with me.


I finally put up the pictures of my tattoos in my body mods folder, tattoos by and pictures stolen from ymonster.

I am actually starting to be a bit more active here, yey for me. Being active is better than lurking around like a perv. Well, to be fair I am a lurky perv.

Speaking of being pervy I have been consuming way to much porn, but I am broke so I am being a very bad girl and downloading/borrowing but I have to say when I get money I will be investing in some of Eon_McKais stuff. Feel free to give me more recommendations!

Hello!

I got to meet the awesome Nemesis a while back, I bet you are jealous and you should be because she is an awesome person. I always hang out with dudes and rarely get to meet cool girls like that and actually talk to them. It kind of makes you realize that maybe SGs aren't fictional. The reason I got to meet her was because she shot my first set. Yeap, I have officially tossed my hat in the ring and I am extremely happy with the way the set turned out so let's hope SG feels the same way.

Everything is going forward here, or well it's still a mess but I am taking it one day at a time so as not to go crazy and start gunning down small children.

My horse is furry like a goat.

I am writing a paper on different democratic ideals, its interesting but not exactly my favorite subject. That doesn't sound very democratic. >_<

I am thinking of buying one of those camera phones, would be useful to record the crap I see and make this silly blog thing a bit less drab. They aren't that bad camera wise anymore. Then again tbh I don't know if I would actually use it, hard to tell.

W00t! my new guild downed Nef for the first time, ok that's not so big anymore but the same week of the first kill we got bwl down in one night which is awesome, under four hours even. I am very happy about that. I can't wait for AQ40, ok I know it's a time waster considering the gear you get vs the time you spend/you should go to naxx instead/wait for burning crusade. But I am looking forward to actually playing the game not just grinding around and I love raiding with my guys. My huntards are getting better now as well, I also got my Kayta back (one of the guys from last summer) so I am hopping he will be hunter elder instead, I don't really have time for it. Plus he is an awesome huntard, he pwns the damage meter.

Christmas is coming and I want a new pink or black DS Lite in my stocking PLX Santa kk? I know I am a pagan but I have been good...sort of.


Yeah, also...how the fuck do I answer the favorite video games question? Argh this is going to bug me for months.

Hello there!

Stuff has been a pain lately money issues with the government student agency and fun stuff like that. But I don't feel like talking about that bullshit anymore.

Our guild is moving forward and progressing despite our short existence which is nice and I am temporary hunter elder which I am completely unqualified for but I love the power. It's so nice to play with my darling Booty Bayer boys, I really miss them. I can't wait till next summer. Jason was here though for a couple of weeks which I didn't write about because I am the worst blogger ever. I miss him the most, also I renamed him, not to mention altered his species. He is now our pet; Pepe the multi-purpose Chihuahua. Orginally Pepe the attack Chihuahua.

Going to do something real interesting on Saturday but it's a secret.

Moving out has been "interesting"...heh, well the place is getting nicer and nicer. Living with someone has also been "interesting"...But I think I am just being extra pessimistic right now, emo-eru in full force /barf
Horsey is doing real good in her new home though, she loves her new home, big fields lots of grass, all a horse could ever want. But I need to find someone to share her with now that my sister lives to far away.

School has been great so far, although I need to steep up my reading though, my study habits have gone sour and its not good. We have case studied Venezuela and Iraq. And I pissed of all my Swedish classmates by pronouncing Iraq the American way...twas awesome.

Just because I was optimistic everything has gone to hell in a handbasket. Let that be a lesson for you kids.

Oh yeah, busy as fuck!

New job! Well sort of...

Gorgeous new stable! Massive breathtaking nature all around

Poli Sci starts on friday...

Apartment coming along

Paying back loans...awesomeness I love life atm!

Update! w00t! Sexyness ahoy! The awesome Twwly wrote in my journal, I feel starstruck and the gorgeous wonderful Nemesis just gave me some awesome fucking news! happy happy...now it's back to the homework dungeon for me...


ZOMG I am home!

So much going on these past weeks...and more to come.

I was at Roskilde the last week of June, it was the best festival I have ever been at, one of the best weeks of my life even. I am not the kind of person who gets along in a crowd, the odds are even less that the crowd will like me...but these where the best fucking guys ever! For those of you who don't know I went with my WOW Guild, or well the best part of it at least and it was teh awesome.
The week included; A crazy drinking game of "I have never", I have never laughed to hard in my life and me and Wease(in his army helmet) buying army men and wageing war in the mud, with Jason and Taru ofc, among other crazy crazy things. I have so many golden moments but one of the best ones is all of us dancing at Bob Dylan just happy and crazy, it struck me at that moment that it was going to be one of those moments you look back on in your life and that are just epic and perfect. Pictures will come for now here some tidbits from the first night in Copenhagen before the festival;

The whole gang (except Remna who is behind the camera);



Me and my fellow huntards;



Me and Ande looking mighty fine if I do say so myself;



I miss all my boys sooo much Luckily Jason is comming here in september, we are going to try and go to Birmingham in the fall to see Tom, Nick, Jason, Marky etc and maybe Holland in the spring to visit Luuk and the awesome Sean Connery erh I mean Jurian.


There has been and there still is buttloads of stuff to do with the apartment; I am on white wall strike so a repaint was in order...we still are not done with that crazyness. We have to get the bed down from Stockholm and the couch sorted not to mention every other stupid thing. Tired already.
"Want to hire sexy gnomes for moving in and doing all boring stuff plx"

Not to mention I have exams coming up in a couple weeks...study whore must get started now or she is going to be in trouble.

Material crap of the week; I sold my old DS now I want a DS lite but I have to wait for money and to see if the pink one is hot. The black one is damn cool though, you can't go wrong with black, well actually finger prints are really really visible on it...otherwise there would have been no questions. I also want Brain Training, Resident Evil, Metroid Prime and teh uber 1337 Advance Wars for it plx.

So,

I was right cosmic balance. I now have an apartment! Fancy shit, we move in as soon as we get back from Roskilde.

Was in Copenhagen Monday-Tuesday, had truck loads of fun. Shot a set while I was there but I didn't like it.

I am going to pack shit today...leaving on Saturday, my stomach hurts because I so nervous about meeting everyone. Come visist camp Booty Bay if you are at camp West at Roskilde!