since the age of around 6 i've been attracted to women, and of course when i was young i panicked because i liked both women and men, and how would that help me fit into society?
at the age of 13 i was introduced to the notion of bisexuality.
this was a positive moment in my life, because the confusion ended and i finally understood myself. i was happy to be labelled, and even happier that my friends accepted it and still do to this day.
i have never had a real relationship with a girl. okay when i was younger i had a girlfriend or two, but they were nothing serious (mainly because the girls i picked were so confused about their own sexuality).
so here's my current dilemma. i'm getting overwhelming urges (urges that i've never had due to knowing how women are in relationships and due to past experiences) to explore the female of the species a little more than i have done.
i've been so hung up on men and the perfect partnership that i guess i totally ruled out being with a woman.
and now i'm finding myself more and more attracted to the idea of being with a woman.
it's hard to explain, but it's like coming out all over again, it's like my sexuality has reached a new level, and although i feel comfortable and ready i also feel worried and confused.
halp!
SEP 04, 2009 02:32 AM
SEP 04, 2009 02:44 AM
Woot x
SEP 04, 2009 02:56 AM
Cause im off to work,i'll talk to you soon ok x
SEP 04, 2009 05:10 AM
Hey grrl, go with it, at least for you it's not new, just coming on strong. Maybe you had a recent taste and now the urges have surfaced in a real way. Hopefully you will be able to explore your feelings fully so that you can be fulfilled whatever the sex. Glad to know that society has a level of acceptance these days....so go for it!!!
Emya
United Kingdom
August 2008
SEP 04, 2009 07:23 AM
Ohhh yesss!!! Hehehe!! Awesome! Dont be worried and confused silly! Explore! Try it out and fuckin enjoy it love! Being with a woman is unreal and I really miss it sometimes now i'm all married and stuff... right, me and you are going for a night out in Canal Street when you're back!! hahaha! I think it's MINT!!! Satisfy your urges ladycakes! Mmmwa!!! xXx
SEP 04, 2009 09:12 AM
Sexuality is pliable. Do what makes you happy.
SEP 04, 2009 09:34 AM
I'm pretty good, doll. Trying to get a bunch of reading done. I missed my 9am class today, because I set my alarm wrong, and I think the teacher's gonna eat my face. *scared*
Women. I'm scared of dating one too, but they're so yummy! I say start out slow with this new exploration, but definitely explore.
SEP 04, 2009 12:01 PM
it IS pretty awesome
and yes, i am still living in manchester!! 
woo woo x
SEP 04, 2009 12:12 PM
sounds goooood sucka! who else are we going to get in on this venture? or are we gonna go it alone? 
SilasPhotos
United Kingdom
July 2009
SEP 04, 2009 03:02 PM
SEP 04, 2009 04:35 PM
Heheh. If I ever bought that house I would throw the biggest party.
I'm okay. Very busy at the moment with work on my house. I have a plasterer coming round tomorrow morning at 8am. Not cool. And then same time Sunday. Also not cool. It'll be good to get it done though.
When you back to Manchester?
SEP 05, 2009 03:11 AM
another year of studentness - awesome. and you know everything you'll learn so you wont need to go to anything and you can still pass the exams. awesome
i am yet to enter the world of work and intend to remain snugly in the bosom of education until i am old and wrinkled... by which i mean i am starting a masters in 3 weeks, then i am planning for my PhD and once all that is done i will become a full time lecturer/researcher in medical sociology, yaaay more studentness for me too.
hope all is well- i dont think you should label yourself as one way or the other or inbetween, just come to terms with the fact that you like men and women, and keep an open mind with everyone you meet so if the opportunity for something great comes along, you're not too confused in your head to deal with it and you can concentrate on what actually goes n rather than your internal battles
if me and the boy ever split up, im coming after you (in a non-stalker way) xxxxxxxxxxxx
SEP 05, 2009 05:46 AM
The fact that you are ready to explore is a good thing - just go for it I did, and although i'm with a guy atm i've never regretted my past girlfriends. If you don't try to pursue this you will regret it 
xx
