The day has been productive and eventful. At least according to my mere existence. *sigh* I spent the day paying bills, which sucks in general. However, to make matters worse, I found out that my parental units I not been sending the money to the utilities companies. Each utility company had not received a payment since May of the is year. I was aware that they were behind and knew each was around $400-600, which was ridiculous and appalling to me, since I handle everything financially in the household. 
So the parental units were caught in something they could not get out of. I had these companies on the phone telling me this information and there was no denying the payments had not been made. The story given to me by my parents was that a water leak, which we did have, caused all the utilities to skyrocket. The referred to it as some kind of domino effect like thing. *laughs* I was stupid for believing it and continuing to give them money each month. Now however, I know the truth. The bills are paid up to date. Since they are in my name, the delinquencies over the past have affected my credit score somewhat but I contacted the credit bureau and they assured my that with time and making future payments when due, then my score will improve. Not to mention that the fact that I have paid off several negative things that were on my credit report. I also switched banks including the option to where my disability is directly deposited. I no longer carry cash and everything is password protected. My parental units have no financial access this way. It is just up to me to not hand them cash. This will be hard since I have been supporting them since I have been 16. I am working so hard to make a better life for Kenny aka Pezmaster and I, hence all the financial improvements and purchasing the vehicle and such. I just have to put up with the parental units I a little longer. That is until we can get our own home. Once the credit changes report within the next few weeks, we should be able to apply for a mortgage for a new home. This will allow me to be leave them behind and be independent and with the one who love me and wants to take of me, instead of the the reverse. I am used to that as it is apparent over the course of my past. So I hope things continue to improve. All I can do is hanging by each moment of freedom, each hug, each "I love you." Right now, it is more than enough to make me smile. 
So the parental units were caught in something they could not get out of. I had these companies on the phone telling me this information and there was no denying the payments had not been made. The story given to me by my parents was that a water leak, which we did have, caused all the utilities to skyrocket. The referred to it as some kind of domino effect like thing. *laughs* I was stupid for believing it and continuing to give them money each month. Now however, I know the truth. The bills are paid up to date. Since they are in my name, the delinquencies over the past have affected my credit score somewhat but I contacted the credit bureau and they assured my that with time and making future payments when due, then my score will improve. Not to mention that the fact that I have paid off several negative things that were on my credit report. I also switched banks including the option to where my disability is directly deposited. I no longer carry cash and everything is password protected. My parental units have no financial access this way. It is just up to me to not hand them cash. This will be hard since I have been supporting them since I have been 16. I am working so hard to make a better life for Kenny aka Pezmaster and I, hence all the financial improvements and purchasing the vehicle and such. I just have to put up with the parental units I a little longer. That is until we can get our own home. Once the credit changes report within the next few weeks, we should be able to apply for a mortgage for a new home. This will allow me to be leave them behind and be independent and with the one who love me and wants to take of me, instead of the the reverse. I am used to that as it is apparent over the course of my past. So I hope things continue to improve. All I can do is hanging by each moment of freedom, each hug, each "I love you." Right now, it is more than enough to make me smile. So we did it. Kenny and I made our first big purchase together. We bought a 98 model Jeep Grand Cherokee. It is used but it really nice. It is green but except for a few minor things it is really nice vehicle. For example, the cigarette lighter has a short in it so it works at random. Also someone tried to steal it once from the dealership so there is a small piece of the steering wheel that has a scratch in it. The back hatch also doesn't like to stay open when you use it all the time. This could be problematic when loading my wheelchair These are minor things, however. Being the weird person I am, I also think it smells funny, so I bought some Febreeze. Kenny just laughed at me and suggested one of those manly console contraptions. So I guess that is what will end up being the solution. I took a quick picture of it for you guys to see. It was taken in the dark at CVS, so it isn't the best quality. Kenny hasn't even seen the real thing yet. My parents picked it up at the dealership for us. He is picking it up later this week when he doesn't have to work. On a brighter note, we got a $200 dollar discount on the insurance policy. We only had to pay $700 and something for six months since we are driving around a gimp. Yes, I called myself a "gimp." I am joking. *giggles* 
I often make fun of myself. If I can't laugh at myself, then who can right? I am comfortable with myself. It is no biggie. Finally, being disabled has a perk. YAY! Well, there are others, but this one just really helped out at the moment. FINANCIALLY! Anyway, I am happy. I hope he is too! I hope things work out for us. I want our future to be a good one. I am trying to make it work, So far, so good...Step one complete...
I often make fun of myself. If I can't laugh at myself, then who can right? I am comfortable with myself. It is no biggie. Finally, being disabled has a perk. YAY! Well, there are others, but this one just really helped out at the moment. FINANCIALLY! Anyway, I am happy. I hope he is too! I hope things work out for us. I want our future to be a good one. I am trying to make it work, So far, so good...Step one complete...
So it appears as if I have been slacking. I was at the point of updating this thing really regularly and enjoying it quite thoroughly. I love keeping a blog I always have. You get a creative outlet and people get to give their thoughts and opinions as to what they think as to what you have been up to. It is like you are having a big huge family dinner without having to deal with those annoying family members that you didn't want to invite but were forced to out of guilt. *giggles* With that said..Can someone please pass the mashed potatoes?
An update? Hmmm. It is Sunday. I think. I have been in sort of a fog lately. Thanks to all of the medications from the infections and complications from the stroke, so it is a wonder I am even awake. Since my last entry not a lot as happened. I am making more of an effort to separate myself from the evil parental units and make a better life for Pezmaster and I. I started a new bank account and transferred my Social Security to it, complete with a password of course. Also I now started no longer carrying cash. This means my parents no longer have access to my money. For those who are unaware. They have stolen thousands of dollars from me in the past. This is so not cool. Obviously, Considering the fact, that it is I who have supported the entire family since I have been sixteen. In addition, on the 3rd I am purchasing my first vehicle. I can not drive so, Pezmaster gets to be my driver. YAY! I do not mind. The car will be ours. It will be in both of our names and both of us will be making payments and paying on the insurance. As long as everything benefits making our lives better, then I am happy.
I am in love and life couldn't be better. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He takes such good care of me. He knows how to help me when something isn't accessible. He knows how to apply my pain patches. He puts on my braces, which is something even I haven't even mastered. Those things are like a Rubik cube or something *giggles* He offers to buy me stuff all the time and I refuse. I do not like being spoiled. I am not used to it. To me, just making sure I am taken care of properly and truly showing me love is more than enough. He doesn't realize that in my opinion, money means nothing. I grew up without it. I do not need expensive gifts. In all honesty, money is not even in my vocabulary. Yes, it is nice. You need it for food or to pay bills. I would not complain if I had it. However, I would prefer if someone gave me a post-it not with a heart on it or a rock that you saw as we walked down the road holding hands. I do not care if I lived in a mud puddle versus a mansion with the person I was in love with. As long as we were together. That is the important thing. Money does not buy happiness. Love does. At least in my reality.
When I am upset, he says something so random it makes me giggle. It is just the little things.Take for example, I sometimes have a hard time dealing with the fact that I have a disability. This is for lack of a better word "normal." One night I was upset because my mother (keep in mind this is my mother I am talking about) called me "abnormal." I went to bed very upset, crying even. I awoke the next morning to a text on my phone from none other than Pezmaster. I will not quote it because it was awhile ago, but it said something to fact that "I love you and you will be never be disabled in my eyes." Knowing that someone who isn't disabled would say something like that just at the right moment, not to mention someone who loves me on top of it, makes me absolutely LOVE everything about that man. UNDERSTAND? No matter his faults, he is perfect. I do not care who says. To me he is. I will never feel any differently. I hope he knows it too! I try my best to tell him every chance I get. Ok, enough about my love. It is enough mush for anyone to start gagging. *giggles*
Back to the update. I went to the doctor on Friday at the request of none another than Pezmaster, since my feet where still swollen. They figured out what caused the stroke. Are you ready for this people? It was my birth control. I was on Seasonique! So girls. I do not recommend this at all. Yes, there is risk of stroke with any oral birth control, but this and Yaz is esecially dangerous. If I would have know, then I would have never have taken it! Of course, I have other risk factors that contributed, but it still never should have been prescribed to me in the first place. So now, I have to make a big decision. As a disabled female, I have the option of a voluntary hysterectomy. I am 28 years old. Being on the medications I am on, such a morphine for pain as well as other strong pain medications, and muscle relaxers, carry a child would be difficult for me. Not by any means impossible, because I am able to get pregnant, just if I did I would have to stop all the medication that make me comfortable and be on bed rest the entire time. I would have to REALLY want a child severely. At this point in my life however, I do not want children. I love those around me, such as my niece Lacy, Garrett,Victoria, and Anna (My best friend Andrea's children), and Brandon (Pezmaster's little boy). So this doesn't seem like an awful idea. I can always adopt. Pezmaster and I do not particularly want any other children so this would be fine for us. If for some reason, we didn't work out, then adoption would work with someone else as well. If another person couldn't deal with that idea, then in my opinion they would not be worth being with. I have always had this dream anyhow of adopting an older child and giving them the opportunity of going to school such as college and stuff. Older children are rarely adopted. People always want babies. There are millions of older children that need homes, so this would benefit me and a homeless adolescent as well.
So this doesn't have to be a negative situation and I am trying not to think of it as one!
In other news, I have taken a three week break from Graduate school to get my health back in order. I also switched my major. Instead of focuses on Special Education, I am know doing Distance Learning. I was offered a position as college professor at an online university once I graduate. WOOT! That means I can work from home at my laptop in my pajamas or maybe even naked!
Can we say hot for teacher? RAWR!
Oh yeah, just for fun I thought I would share something I have been enjoying all weekend. I really despise the way most popular music has been turning out here recently. With some few exceptions. Pezmaster has really got me listening to MC Chris, who I absolutely love. He is a white rapper who often does parody type songs of popular music. Not always though. Not to mention is currently working on a song with one of the coolest directors of all time Kevin Smith, you know from Jay and Silent Boy! Anyhow, he did a song making fun of Kesha's "My Love is Your Drug, " which I hate! (PLEASE DON'T ATTACK ME!) Anyhow, it is so funny. Check it out. it is called "I Heart Drugs!" I so freaking love it! Enjoy!
And for those of you who also happen to love Jason Mraz, such as myself, He is coming to the Clay Center in Charleston, WV in August! WOOOOO! I am so excited. Anyone want to go? I want to go so bad. I may just go by myself. I am sure that Pezmaster doesn't like Jason Mraz. I can hear him making fun of him already. *giggles* It is all good though. We all have different tastes in music, clothes, television, and books. It is what makes the world go round!
Much love....*hugs* Until later.....
An update? Hmmm. It is Sunday. I think. I have been in sort of a fog lately. Thanks to all of the medications from the infections and complications from the stroke, so it is a wonder I am even awake. Since my last entry not a lot as happened. I am making more of an effort to separate myself from the evil parental units and make a better life for Pezmaster and I. I started a new bank account and transferred my Social Security to it, complete with a password of course. Also I now started no longer carrying cash. This means my parents no longer have access to my money. For those who are unaware. They have stolen thousands of dollars from me in the past. This is so not cool. Obviously, Considering the fact, that it is I who have supported the entire family since I have been sixteen. In addition, on the 3rd I am purchasing my first vehicle. I can not drive so, Pezmaster gets to be my driver. YAY! I do not mind. The car will be ours. It will be in both of our names and both of us will be making payments and paying on the insurance. As long as everything benefits making our lives better, then I am happy.
I am in love and life couldn't be better.
He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He takes such good care of me. He knows how to help me when something isn't accessible. He knows how to apply my pain patches. He puts on my braces, which is something even I haven't even mastered. Those things are like a Rubik cube or something *giggles* He offers to buy me stuff all the time and I refuse. I do not like being spoiled. I am not used to it. To me, just making sure I am taken care of properly and truly showing me love is more than enough. He doesn't realize that in my opinion, money means nothing. I grew up without it. I do not need expensive gifts. In all honesty, money is not even in my vocabulary. Yes, it is nice. You need it for food or to pay bills. I would not complain if I had it. However, I would prefer if someone gave me a post-it not with a heart on it or a rock that you saw as we walked down the road holding hands. I do not care if I lived in a mud puddle versus a mansion with the person I was in love with. As long as we were together. That is the important thing. Money does not buy happiness. Love does. At least in my reality. When I am upset, he says something so random it makes me giggle. It is just the little things.Take for example, I sometimes have a hard time dealing with the fact that I have a disability. This is for lack of a better word "normal." One night I was upset because my mother (keep in mind this is my mother I am talking about) called me "abnormal." I went to bed very upset, crying even. I awoke the next morning to a text on my phone from none other than Pezmaster. I will not quote it because it was awhile ago, but it said something to fact that "I love you and you will be never be disabled in my eyes." Knowing that someone who isn't disabled would say something like that just at the right moment, not to mention someone who loves me on top of it, makes me absolutely LOVE everything about that man. UNDERSTAND? No matter his faults, he is perfect. I do not care who says. To me he is. I will never feel any differently. I hope he knows it too! I try my best to tell him every chance I get.
Ok, enough about my love. It is enough mush for anyone to start gagging. *giggles* Back to the update. I went to the doctor on Friday at the request of none another than Pezmaster, since my feet where still swollen. They figured out what caused the stroke. Are you ready for this people? It was my birth control. I was on Seasonique! So girls. I do not recommend this at all. Yes, there is risk of stroke with any oral birth control, but this and Yaz is esecially dangerous. If I would have know, then I would have never have taken it! Of course, I have other risk factors that contributed, but it still never should have been prescribed to me in the first place. So now, I have to make a big decision. As a disabled female, I have the option of a voluntary hysterectomy. I am 28 years old. Being on the medications I am on, such a morphine for pain as well as other strong pain medications, and muscle relaxers, carry a child would be difficult for me. Not by any means impossible, because I am able to get pregnant, just if I did I would have to stop all the medication that make me comfortable and be on bed rest the entire time. I would have to REALLY want a child severely. At this point in my life however, I do not want children. I love those around me, such as my niece Lacy, Garrett,Victoria, and Anna (My best friend Andrea's children), and Brandon (Pezmaster's little boy). So this doesn't seem like an awful idea. I can always adopt. Pezmaster and I do not particularly want any other children so this would be fine for us. If for some reason, we didn't work out, then adoption would work with someone else as well. If another person couldn't deal with that idea, then in my opinion they would not be worth being with. I have always had this dream anyhow of adopting an older child and giving them the opportunity of going to school such as college and stuff. Older children are rarely adopted. People always want babies. There are millions of older children that need homes, so this would benefit me and a homeless adolescent as well.
So this doesn't have to be a negative situation and I am trying not to think of it as one! In other news, I have taken a three week break from Graduate school to get my health back in order. I also switched my major. Instead of focuses on Special Education, I am know doing Distance Learning. I was offered a position as college professor at an online university once I graduate. WOOT! That means I can work from home at my laptop in my pajamas or maybe even naked!
Can we say hot for teacher? RAWR! Oh yeah, just for fun I thought I would share something I have been enjoying all weekend. I really despise the way most popular music has been turning out here recently. With some few exceptions. Pezmaster has really got me listening to MC Chris, who I absolutely love. He is a white rapper who often does parody type songs of popular music. Not always though. Not to mention is currently working on a song with one of the coolest directors of all time Kevin Smith, you know from Jay and Silent Boy! Anyhow, he did a song making fun of Kesha's "My Love is Your Drug, " which I hate!
(PLEASE DON'T ATTACK ME!) Anyhow, it is so funny. Check it out. it is called "I Heart Drugs!" I so freaking love it! Enjoy!And for those of you who also happen to love Jason Mraz, such as myself,
He is coming to the Clay Center in Charleston, WV in August! WOOOOO! I am so excited. Anyone want to go? I want to go so bad. I may just go by myself. I am sure that Pezmaster doesn't like Jason Mraz. I can hear him making fun of him already. *giggles* It is all good though. We all have different tastes in music, clothes, television, and books. It is what makes the world go round!Much love....*hugs* Until later.....
Oh my what a day! Ahhhhh! I do not know even know what emotion to express what I am feeling right now. I am so overwhelmed with something, but what? Is that wierd? Yes. I can answer that one myself. I do not need audience participation for that one obviously! *giggles* It started this morning really. I awoke with a huge foot. What? 
Yes! You heard me correctly. I said, I have a "VERY HUGE FOOT!"
Now I am a whale. Or a gimpy whale. Kenny and I joked about it earlier. I tried to imitate a whale, but he said I sounded like a seal. *giggles* So I guess, maybe I am a seal. However, either doesn't really work because a real whale or a seal does not have feet. So I am an unknown.
That describes me. The html says surreal. That sounds hot! Positive thinking, Jen! That is the key. I am trying. I really am. I don't want to complain to anyone. I am in pain. I really am. Those around me I am certain are sick of hearing about it. I do hurt a lot. So guys, I apologize in advance. Being a person who has a disability never is an easy task. You just deal as the days come. So just be patient. That is all I ask.
So the question is...*Intense silence* Why I am this surreal creature? According to my doctor, I am allergic to the class of antibiotics that they prescribed me when I was released from the hospital last week. HA! Just my luck. Imagine that. Leave the hospital sick. Arrive home sick. *sings in very bad tone, "Isn't it ironic, don't ya think? Yeah I really do think!" *giggles* Now I am Alanis Morrissette!
See a resemblance? Nah. Not so much? *giggles* I am just being a geek. I do not look like anyone really. I wish I did. That would be cool. Like a doppleganger, just not evil. Yeah! So cool.
The rest of my day, I spent paying bills and fixing my credit report which was ruined due to my parental units. Life as an adult sucks. I accomplished a lot actually! So I am proud of myself. *pats her own back* So yay! Hopefully, soon Kenny and I can purchase a vehicle and get the house we want and life will be a little brighter.
Other than being an adult, I managed to play with my new digital camera I purchased the other day. I am by no means a photographer, so excuse the poor image quality, but I will share a few mugshots of myself. I apologize in advance for any cracks that may occur to your monitor. *giggles* Prepare yourself.
Yes! You heard me correctly. I said, I have a "VERY HUGE FOOT!" Now I am a whale. Or a gimpy whale. Kenny and I joked about it earlier. I tried to imitate a whale, but he said I sounded like a seal. *giggles* So I guess, maybe I am a seal. However, either doesn't really work because a real whale or a seal does not have feet. So I am an unknown.
That describes me. The html says surreal. That sounds hot! Positive thinking, Jen! That is the key. I am trying. I really am. I don't want to complain to anyone. I am in pain. I really am. Those around me I am certain are sick of hearing about it. I do hurt a lot. So guys, I apologize in advance. Being a person who has a disability never is an easy task. You just deal as the days come. So just be patient. That is all I ask. So the question is...*Intense silence* Why I am this surreal creature? According to my doctor, I am allergic to the class of antibiotics that they prescribed me when I was released from the hospital last week. HA! Just my luck. Imagine that. Leave the hospital sick. Arrive home sick. *sings in very bad tone, "Isn't it ironic, don't ya think? Yeah I really do think!" *giggles* Now I am Alanis Morrissette!
See a resemblance? Nah. Not so much? *giggles* I am just being a geek. I do not look like anyone really. I wish I did. That would be cool. Like a doppleganger, just not evil. Yeah! So cool.
The rest of my day, I spent paying bills and fixing my credit report which was ruined due to my parental units. Life as an adult sucks. I accomplished a lot actually! So I am proud of myself. *pats her own back*
So yay! Hopefully, soon Kenny and I can purchase a vehicle and get the house we want and life will be a little brighter. Other than being an adult, I managed to play with my new digital camera I purchased the other day. I am by no means a photographer, so excuse the poor image quality, but I will share a few mugshots of myself. I apologize in advance for any cracks that may occur to your monitor. *giggles* Prepare yourself.
And just for fun and to prove that I am not just a a boring geek. I am going to be brave and go out on a limb and post an older pic of myself that happens to be a favorite of Kenny's or as he is known to you guy's Pezmaster. It is a picture of my being adventurous. Well, I was just bored. I think I look stupid, but for some reason some indivuals find it enjoyable. *shrugs* Actually, there is a story to it as well, but only special people know the story. *evil laugh* 
Well, now that my novel blog is complete, I am off to watch the new anime channel I subscribed to on my television. WOOT! Take care all.....
Since a friend here on SG said it was worthy, Swimthrough, I decided to post one of my poems. I write a lot actually. It is my release. I personally do not think they are any good, but that is for others to judge, I suppose. I tend to write about a situation, person, or idea. It is usually something surrounding my life at the moment. I have to be inspired. I can not just write at random. Although I have been known to write a few quips about funny things between friends and I. With permission from said friends, I may share one of those someday. Those are quite funny. *giggle* Even I giggle about those. They have hilarious stories behind them. So this my friends is my art. Or what I consider to be art according to the mind of Jen. I hope you enjoy.
Just thought I would announce that my application to be a Suicide Girl was accepted. Well, at least the first initial step. I still have to turn in an official set and some release forms, but as soon as that is done then I will be officially a hopeful! WOOT! They liked the first few photos I submitted so that must count for something! Wish me luck....
They liked the first few photos I submitted so that must count for something! Wish me luck....Ahhhh. It is Monday. What? I am excited. Relaxed and it is Monday? Is this a parallel universe? Nope. *giggles* I just got a lot accomplished today. First, for those of you who were unaware, I received my financial aid refund check last week while I was still in the wretched hospital. Getting a check is supposed to be a good thing, right? Not for Jen. Once I was released from the hell of medical procedures, I took my ass to the bank. Keep in mind that I have been with this same bank since I was three years old when my grandfather set up my college fund, which I drained as soon as I turned 18 and absolutely no money from it went to college *laughs*. Upon entering my bank I handed the teller the check. They then immediately said, "We must place a 10 day to 2 week hold." A hold I understand, but this long! WTF? Later today, which is now Monday, I found out that the bank that issues the checks to the school has had several fraudulent checks through their university. What is this? This is a school! This is nuts! I immediately called the school's financial aid department and let them know of the situation I also informed them that I found a bank, which gave me half my money and placed the remainder on a hold. The remaining funds on the check I will get on August 4th. If on this date the funds do not appear, I am prepared to file a lawsuit against the school. I have paid them in full and have credit card statements to vouch for this. I didn't take out a gazillion dollars in loans, to which I am going to have to pay back, to be robbed. This chick doesn't play games! Do not try to screw one over on me. NO NO! 
So where is all the good in all this. I got a little cash. What? Who cares, right? Well, I managed to pay some bills, take some stuff off my credit report that is there thanks to the abuse of my parental units, I bought a digital camera. and the greatest thing of all *dum, dum, dum, dum" I bought Japanese learning software and talked to a travel agent about actually going to Japan in September. Kenny and some friends and I really want to go to Japan. The culture is just so mesmerizing. The food, the traditions, the entertainment, the women, the art, anime, you name everything is so intriguing. I am so excited. I have never been out of the country, on a plane, or anything. Plus, it is Japan. It is going to be awesome. To see the look on Kenny's face will just make my life stop for a second and mean more to me than anything ever could and to me that is worth experiencing. To me that is love. I want every part of it!
I immediately called the school's financial aid department and let them know of the situation I also informed them that I found a bank, which gave me half my money and placed the remainder on a hold. The remaining funds on the check I will get on August 4th. If on this date the funds do not appear, I am prepared to file a lawsuit against the school. I have paid them in full and have credit card statements to vouch for this. I didn't take out a gazillion dollars in loans, to which I am going to have to pay back, to be robbed. This chick doesn't play games! Do not try to screw one over on me. NO NO! So where is all the good in all this. I got a little cash. What? Who cares, right? Well, I managed to pay some bills, take some stuff off my credit report that is there thanks to the abuse of my parental units, I bought a digital camera. and the greatest thing of all *dum, dum, dum, dum" I bought Japanese learning software and talked to a travel agent about actually going to Japan in September. Kenny and some friends and I really want to go to Japan. The culture is just so mesmerizing. The food, the traditions, the entertainment, the women
, the art, anime, you name everything is so intriguing. I am so excited. I have never been out of the country, on a plane, or anything. Plus, it is Japan. It is going to be awesome. To see the look on Kenny's face will just make my life stop for a second and mean more to me than anything ever could and to me that is worth experiencing. To me that is love. I want every part of it! So it is now Friday night at around 11:23pm Eastern Standard Time. LMAO! I am being a technical geek now. *giggles* I am just trying to be funny in the light or recent events. I have since been released from the hospital. Technically, as of 8:30pm in Charleston, WV where I regretfully reside. I am currently trying to change that. So they update is this folks. At the ripe old age of 28, Jen has managed to have a stroke. Yes, you heard me correctly! I had a stroke. A combination of stress and high blood pressure led to a very uncommon, yet unforunate stroke for moi! Luckily, I only have some minor weakness on my right side. Apparently, this said stroke occurred Sunday morning while I was at a friend's house and I mistook it for a low blood sugar attack. Ummm, let's just say I was quite wrong. I did not go to the emergency room until Tuesday at midnight. The hospital did not admit me, until 9am the next morning. Then I was put through multiple brain scans, MRI's, blood tests, urine analysis', x-rays, you name it they did it. So now, I am on an aspirin pill to reduce blood clots, high blood pressure medicine, b12 shots for energy, potassium for an unknown deficiency I had, and a very strict diabetic diet. On a brighter note, I no longer have to take diabetic medication. Just follow a better meal plan. So as of Wednesday, I know drink Diet Dr. Pepper, instead of Coca Cola, which I might add is pretty tasty. However, it might take me awhile to say goodbye to Reese's Cups and Slurpee's. I might splurge. Just don't tell on me, ok? So it appears as if I am going to be alright. I am going to appreciate life a little more now and love those who mean something to me a little tighter and realize than in a second it can all be gone. Life is too short to waste it people. Kiss those you love every chance you get. It just might be your last.
So I am writing from my hospital room at Charleston Area Medical Center! Sounds like fun, eh? Not so much! :I( I feel like crap. I have had MRI's, multiple brain scans, seizure tests, and numerous amounts of blood drawn! URRG1 latest update suggests that I am not a diabetic at all and have been taking a very high dose of insulin in pill form for no reason! WTF! My pancreas is probably on its death bed. Got to love government health care. *giggles* In other news, it seems as if I might have had seizure during the brain scan, but the doctor said it also could have been me falling asleep so for tomorrow I am scheduled for another MRI to see if I have nerve damage or a pinched nerve, which is causing me numbness and sometimes pararylis on my right? Oh well, I have a purpose in this life and I am determined to figure it out and and see it to fruition!
So I have made it until Tuesday. I have been sick since Saturday night. *groans* 
My diabetes have been giving me some problems. They adjusted my medication and now it all haywire. One minute it is high, then the next it is low. I am going unconscious here and there. Sometimes for up to an hour. When I awaken my speech is slurred. I do not remember anything from the time I drift off. Parts of my body is going numb for minutes at a time. Sometimes up to fifteen minutes. One minute I am cold. The next I am sweating like a whore in church. *giggles* Sorry I had to put some humor in there with all the dreary stuff. I have no energy. I am trying to avoid sugar completely, but at the same time maybe I need it. So I eat. Then I get sick too. My sugar levels are raising and dropping up to sixty points at a time, sometimes at random whether I have eaten or not. *moans* A friend of mine named Elizabeth is taking me to the emergency room tonight. I need to do something medical. I am sure this is not good. Diabetes can do so much damage to your body. It isn't something to play with it all. It is dangerous. Everything was going so well for me, then now I have to go and get sick. GREAT! Go Jen! I will feel better once I know what the problem is. I will keep everyone updated. For now, I am off to the hospital to sit for hours. Considering I am not bleeding to death I will not be the first one seen. Imagine that! Until next time...*hugs*
My diabetes have been giving me some problems. They adjusted my medication and now it all haywire. One minute it is high, then the next it is low. I am going unconscious here and there. Sometimes for up to an hour. When I awaken my speech is slurred. I do not remember anything from the time I drift off. Parts of my body is going numb for minutes at a time. Sometimes up to fifteen minutes. One minute I am cold. The next I am sweating like a whore in church. *giggles* Sorry I had to put some humor in there with all the dreary stuff. I have no energy. I am trying to avoid sugar completely, but at the same time maybe I need it. So I eat. Then I get sick too. My sugar levels are raising and dropping up to sixty points at a time, sometimes at random whether I have eaten or not. *moans* A friend of mine named Elizabeth is taking me to the emergency room tonight. I need to do something medical. I am sure this is not good. Diabetes can do so much damage to your body. It isn't something to play with it all. It is dangerous. Everything was going so well for me, then now I have to go and get sick. GREAT! Go Jen! I will feel better once I know what the problem is. I will keep everyone updated. For now, I am off to the hospital to sit for hours. Considering I am not bleeding to death I will not be the first one seen. Imagine that! Until next time...*hugs*