This is going to be a bit of a long read, and a complicated topic to write. I wanna give you all some sort of peek at what it is to be a Hopeful from a third world country.
So far, I think there's only one SuicideGirl from the Philippines (dokurochan), and two hopefuls (me and sazuke). I know SG is big in other countries, but it's still sort of underground here. The Philippines is a very conservative country and it's kinda scary how the state works hand in hand with the churches (although we have a law of separation of church and state).
I would love to be a SuicideGirl, I've been wanting it since I was 17. Of course I couldn't back then 'cause I was still underage, and since then I've been getting negativity from people around me about being a SuicideGirl. Well, 4 years later, here I am - a hopeful. I've finally found the courage in me to go against society's strict rules against girls posing nude. I bet some of my friends think ill of me because I do this, but that's a-okay by me. I'm not living for them, I'm living for me. I'm doing this for me. I love it.
Even though I'm still a hopeful, I've learned a lot through SG. I've learned to love myself for who I am. I've developed confidence and courage to push through what I want to do in life. I have a business degree, and my family and (some) friends think that I should be pursuing a career towards that. I've tried it before - I did well, but it didn't make me happy. It just didn't work for me. In one year of my working career, I've worked for 3 companies. That's highly unusual here. I just didn't find happiness and satisfaction in any of them. I've realized SG is really what I wanna do, that and be a real writer.
One day, I'd write a book about my experiences here in SuicideGirl.
p.s. random sidenote I worked for WWF and UNICEF - Philippines before
So far, I think there's only one SuicideGirl from the Philippines (dokurochan), and two hopefuls (me and sazuke). I know SG is big in other countries, but it's still sort of underground here. The Philippines is a very conservative country and it's kinda scary how the state works hand in hand with the churches (although we have a law of separation of church and state).
I would love to be a SuicideGirl, I've been wanting it since I was 17. Of course I couldn't back then 'cause I was still underage, and since then I've been getting negativity from people around me about being a SuicideGirl. Well, 4 years later, here I am - a hopeful. I've finally found the courage in me to go against society's strict rules against girls posing nude. I bet some of my friends think ill of me because I do this, but that's a-okay by me. I'm not living for them, I'm living for me. I'm doing this for me. I love it.
Even though I'm still a hopeful, I've learned a lot through SG. I've learned to love myself for who I am. I've developed confidence and courage to push through what I want to do in life. I have a business degree, and my family and (some) friends think that I should be pursuing a career towards that. I've tried it before - I did well, but it didn't make me happy. It just didn't work for me. In one year of my working career, I've worked for 3 companies. That's highly unusual here. I just didn't find happiness and satisfaction in any of them. I've realized SG is really what I wanna do, that and be a real writer.
One day, I'd write a book about my experiences here in SuicideGirl.
p.s. random sidenote I worked for WWF and UNICEF - Philippines before
I mentioned in my previous blog I'm trying to write. Well I kinda need inspiration for a short film due on February. I need help really bad, my brain's blank and I'm kinda soupy hahaha!
I need me my meat!!
Leave a comment if you have ideas for a short film
I need me my meat!!
Leave a comment if you have ideas for a short film
I'm an SG Hopeful and I really hope I get in.
I'm from the Philippines and I'm half Chinese by blood but pure Filipino in heart. I love books, and I'm a frustrated writer. I like grim stories. I like a lotta things
This is my first post and I'm still testing the waters so my apologies if it's all bleh. Hahaha! I'll update this blog very soon. Yay!
Follow me on twitter @freesupernova woohooo!
I'm from the Philippines and I'm half Chinese by blood but pure Filipino in heart. I love books, and I'm a frustrated writer. I like grim stories. I like a lotta things
This is my first post and I'm still testing the waters so my apologies if it's all bleh. Hahaha! I'll update this blog very soon. Yay!
Follow me on twitter @freesupernova woohooo!
