Life has become a little more interesting. I did get a second chance with the girl I spoke about. And things were good, but. I am going to change my status back to single today when I see her. ....... Too many thoughts. I need to be single for a while I think. Maybe that might straighten out my head.

And for the good news. I got a new job!! I will be selling Red Bull in two weeks. Woo Hoo.

Damn. Why do I have to be so nice and polite? I was with a woman tonight and could stop thinking about kissing her. But I never did. I was sitting there talking to her, and I couldn't help but stare at her skin. looking at her neck and chest and her beautiful face. She was very beautiful. I wanted so much more from here but I couldn't bring myself to it. It just felt wierd. I'm not the kind of guy that goes out looking for some one to bring home. And I know this woman too. We went to school together. Why do I have to be so shy?!? I know I'll see her again. Maybe time will help me. well, I'm off to bed. Hopefully the beer wont bother me in the morning. LOL. I did have fun tonight. I look forward to a second chance.

Yet another day off. It feels so good to relax.

On another note I still feel a little stupid. I still miss my ex and it's been three months since we broke up. Hmm... Trying to think is not easy. I'm not afraid to date someone else. It just feels like all of it requires too much effort. And I haven't met anyone I like. I guess I should try to talk to people more. Being shy suxs. Oh, well. Enough for now. I'll go figure out what I can do tonight.

I'm really happy right now. I finaly got ahold of the guy I want to do my tattoo. He liked my design and said he could do it in two hours. So I'm going to get it done next month.

Ok, work sucked today. I'm glad I have the next two days off. Now if I could just make my Friday be as good as last Friday. But that would take more money .