SAYING GOODBYE TO A CLOSE FRIEND: Well, now comes the day that I once again get shipped off to the Big Sandbox. By the end of this year I'll most likely be in the thick of danger in Afghanistan, never knowing if my return is assured. Yet this doesn't seem to faze me as I've really nothing and no one other than blood family to entice me to return. Photography can only hold one so far when the fun gets trammeled by one's ex. It isn't well known about me here on this site, but I've always been a very cautious yet generous man.
Even after the ex flipped the switch off her life and lost her identity entirely, out of the remaining Love in me was still enough generosity to help her try to keep her head above the bloody waters of this economy. Unfortunately, as is usual for a Virgo in this situation, she took advantage of this help and showed no remorse in cutting off the communication she had initially begged to maintain without notice. My concern was that being suicidal she may have offed herself for whatever useless reason, or that someone had abused her own trust and new off-the-chain wild lifestyle and hurt or even killed her. So like anyone who has concern for another person I kept trying to contact her, and after a long while contacted others able to stop by her place to check on her. The horror stories of her living arrangements were enough to alarm me that something had flipped in her. I won't even go into the description other than to say that her place belonged on that TV show "Clean House", where they go to rescue the worst homes in America. *shivers*
Don't get me wrong, I still harbor guarded Love for her, but her betrayal of my aid and actually keeping my promises to her from when we separated inflamed my anger enough to burn down most of my sadness and concern about her hoped for improvement. What she's done has been far, far, far worse than any aches or sadness I may have ever given her during our nearly seven years together. Communication was all that was really sought, even if all of her promises to do other things for me while I was in the Sandbox were expected to be false. I didn't expect her to keep her words, simply contact as she begged me to do for her. As she claimed that she 'couldn't bear to have me erase her from my life', as 'we had many good memories together' and I 'was the only guy who treated her nicely'. Well, I knew I'd end up the sucker in this, but because I still cared and held some Love for her I knowingly allowed her to abuse me. There is another four-letter word that might apply to that type of abuse, but she'd simply get mad at me if I said it since the literal doesn't compare to the non-literal in her lost mind.
Well, the end result is that I have given her numerous chances to respond to me to at least keep an amicable separation, as I've originally allowed her to keep my name. She has failed to do so, and I no longer have anyone who wants to try to find her to see if she's alright. Nobody wants to be the go-between anymore with her crazy issues and my concern for her well-being. Understandably. Supremely sad was I since the separation as she spiraled lower. She has always rejected anyone's pity, so none was volunteered. There was a time where she would've been concerned over the sabotage that injured me in the Middle East, now there appears to be a blank where the emptiness left an impression.
So as I return to the Sandbox and later risk of combat action, I bid her adieu (she has access to blogs on this site) and expect to never hear from her again. Before I gave her the advice, since it was so hard to move on, to only move forward one step at a time. It is far easier to focus on the immediate step there before you than to try taking on the big picture at once. Move forward, and some day enough steps have been taken to smooth the transition towards moving on. She hasn't moved on it seems, though being in denial while moving forward might work for her twisty thinking now, so who am I to question how she treats those in her past? Nah, instead I had already taken enough steps to move on myself. She's closed her mind(s) to any thought that I really wanted to help her, possibly to put all of the blame on me. Whatever helps her heal, even if she hates me in the end.
While I no longer care about a thing called Love, it is an experience everyone should try at least once. That way when it bites them in the ass they can actually grow up and look at relationships like contracts. But damn does it feel good to finally rant about it where she can read my thoughts. She doesn't like the honesty that she tried so hard to gather while we were together. Guess honesty wasn't enough to maintain the closest Friendship I've ever had. *shrugs mercilessly* *plucks a petal* She loves me, she Loves me not...lol!
Even after the ex flipped the switch off her life and lost her identity entirely, out of the remaining Love in me was still enough generosity to help her try to keep her head above the bloody waters of this economy. Unfortunately, as is usual for a Virgo in this situation, she took advantage of this help and showed no remorse in cutting off the communication she had initially begged to maintain without notice. My concern was that being suicidal she may have offed herself for whatever useless reason, or that someone had abused her own trust and new off-the-chain wild lifestyle and hurt or even killed her. So like anyone who has concern for another person I kept trying to contact her, and after a long while contacted others able to stop by her place to check on her. The horror stories of her living arrangements were enough to alarm me that something had flipped in her. I won't even go into the description other than to say that her place belonged on that TV show "Clean House", where they go to rescue the worst homes in America. *shivers*
Don't get me wrong, I still harbor guarded Love for her, but her betrayal of my aid and actually keeping my promises to her from when we separated inflamed my anger enough to burn down most of my sadness and concern about her hoped for improvement. What she's done has been far, far, far worse than any aches or sadness I may have ever given her during our nearly seven years together. Communication was all that was really sought, even if all of her promises to do other things for me while I was in the Sandbox were expected to be false. I didn't expect her to keep her words, simply contact as she begged me to do for her. As she claimed that she 'couldn't bear to have me erase her from my life', as 'we had many good memories together' and I 'was the only guy who treated her nicely'. Well, I knew I'd end up the sucker in this, but because I still cared and held some Love for her I knowingly allowed her to abuse me. There is another four-letter word that might apply to that type of abuse, but she'd simply get mad at me if I said it since the literal doesn't compare to the non-literal in her lost mind.
Well, the end result is that I have given her numerous chances to respond to me to at least keep an amicable separation, as I've originally allowed her to keep my name. She has failed to do so, and I no longer have anyone who wants to try to find her to see if she's alright. Nobody wants to be the go-between anymore with her crazy issues and my concern for her well-being. Understandably. Supremely sad was I since the separation as she spiraled lower. She has always rejected anyone's pity, so none was volunteered. There was a time where she would've been concerned over the sabotage that injured me in the Middle East, now there appears to be a blank where the emptiness left an impression.
So as I return to the Sandbox and later risk of combat action, I bid her adieu (she has access to blogs on this site) and expect to never hear from her again. Before I gave her the advice, since it was so hard to move on, to only move forward one step at a time. It is far easier to focus on the immediate step there before you than to try taking on the big picture at once. Move forward, and some day enough steps have been taken to smooth the transition towards moving on. She hasn't moved on it seems, though being in denial while moving forward might work for her twisty thinking now, so who am I to question how she treats those in her past? Nah, instead I had already taken enough steps to move on myself. She's closed her mind(s) to any thought that I really wanted to help her, possibly to put all of the blame on me. Whatever helps her heal, even if she hates me in the end.
While I no longer care about a thing called Love, it is an experience everyone should try at least once. That way when it bites them in the ass they can actually grow up and look at relationships like contracts. But damn does it feel good to finally rant about it where she can read my thoughts. She doesn't like the honesty that she tried so hard to gather while we were together. Guess honesty wasn't enough to maintain the closest Friendship I've ever had. *shrugs mercilessly* *plucks a petal* She loves me, she Loves me not...lol!
Personal Status Update: Okay, the nuts and bolts of the reason for currently being Stateside have been duly recorded herein. So now for a personal moment. 
Roughly two weeks prior to flying Stateside (State of New Mexico), in the Arabic country across from Iran that I was working in, a foreign national(s) sabotaged the porch section of the villa that I was staying in. Security for the compound containing these villas was supposed to fall on my employer, yet as of April of 2008 they've made the excuse that they were on a "bridge contract" and that meant there was no guarantee they had the contract thereafter so they didn't have to provide us any security. Before they removed the security, we used to have both a host country police officer and a private guard. So without security our front gates were left wide open 24/7 so that we constantly had foreign nationals wandering around claiming to be doing maintenance. As most of us don't speak any of the Persian, Arabic, Indian, Pakistani, Afghani, or Sri Lankan dialects, we had to shrug and leave them alone.
Roughly two weeks prior to flying Stateside (State of New Mexico), in the Arabic country across from Iran that I was working in, a foreign national(s) sabotaged the porch section of the villa that I was staying in. Security for the compound containing these villas was supposed to fall on my employer, yet as of April of 2008 they've made the excuse that they were on a "bridge contract" and that meant there was no guarantee they had the contract thereafter so they didn't have to provide us any security. Before they removed the security, we used to have both a host country police officer and a private guard. So without security our front gates were left wide open 24/7 so that we constantly had foreign nationals wandering around claiming to be doing maintenance. As most of us don't speak any of the Persian, Arabic, Indian, Pakistani, Afghani, or Sri Lankan dialects, we had to shrug and leave them alone.
As soon as I completed my 36-hour flight from the Middle East to the USA (flying directly 100 miles INSIDE of Iran and up their western coast for some reason), my sister was found to be bleeding rectally even though nothing should be passing through there since she has a colonostomy (sp?) stuck directly into her system to pass stuff. So I spent most of the first day at the emergency room waiting for her to be seen past her vitals. She wasn't seen, so my mother and I took turns waiting with her all day and most of the next. She was finally admitted when a male nurse who had a colonostomy for two years realized what the bleeding meant (since she was on blood thinners) and prioritized her admission.
She was later put into a room in one of the departments upstairs, and there she sat for the last two days waiting for tests, procedures, more tests, more procedures and surgeries, and all of the while complaining about how much she hates being in the hospital and refuses to come back again and will get everything over with now so she doesn't have to. She was told to drink a gallon of sodium solution to clear out her system so they could operate on a multi-polyp growing on a stalk inside. I tried to convince her that the taste had nothing on the sea salt flush done during the Master Cleanse lemonade diet, so that she should finish it overnight and be clear in the morning to complete her surgery in just this one visit. I just found out now as her boyfriend brought her here to my mother's that she 'just didn't like the taste 'cause it made me think I was going to be sick' and didn't finish but a tiny portion of it in rebellion of having to take it in the first place. So...now she has to go back again Monday, but was allowed to go home and try a clear liquids-only diet until they can schedule her a whole new day to get the procedure done.
The decks are stacked against me, yet this unplanned 'vacation' is a family event that I must complete for their sakes. My original vacation plans were to visit the Philippines or simply travel around the more liberal Arab countries in the Gulf with my girlfriend. Que sera sera...
She was later put into a room in one of the departments upstairs, and there she sat for the last two days waiting for tests, procedures, more tests, more procedures and surgeries, and all of the while complaining about how much she hates being in the hospital and refuses to come back again and will get everything over with now so she doesn't have to. She was told to drink a gallon of sodium solution to clear out her system so they could operate on a multi-polyp growing on a stalk inside. I tried to convince her that the taste had nothing on the sea salt flush done during the Master Cleanse lemonade diet, so that she should finish it overnight and be clear in the morning to complete her surgery in just this one visit. I just found out now as her boyfriend brought her here to my mother's that she 'just didn't like the taste 'cause it made me think I was going to be sick' and didn't finish but a tiny portion of it in rebellion of having to take it in the first place. So...now she has to go back again Monday, but was allowed to go home and try a clear liquids-only diet until they can schedule her a whole new day to get the procedure done.
The decks are stacked against me, yet this unplanned 'vacation' is a family event that I must complete for their sakes. My original vacation plans were to visit the Philippines or simply travel around the more liberal Arab countries in the Gulf with my girlfriend. Que sera sera...
Alas, my return to the SG Land will be short-lived, as proxy access is almost impossible to keep up in the Middle East. They have censors for their censors for Saddam's sake! They have an entire staff that joins all of the proxy suggestion groups online to automatically begin to block any new website or IP address someone posts so that their lovely customers can't access pr0n or other objectionable stuff. And they know that Americans are big purveyors of that kind of stuff.
STATUS: I'm currently back in the States for Emergency Leave due to both death in the family (unborn 8-month old niece was killed), and my sister being in a horrible accident (causing said death), with my mother needing someone to take care of her so she can rest between her busy 12+ hour schedule working as a nurse. My sister was stopped at a stop sign coming out of a business center when some crackhead asshole ramped the curb and T-boned her car...with his truck parked INSIDE of her little car. Her two small kids were strapped into the car seats in the rear, and both car seats were destroyed
STATUS: I'm currently back in the States for Emergency Leave due to both death in the family (unborn 8-month old niece was killed), and my sister being in a horrible accident (causing said death), with my mother needing someone to take care of her so she can rest between her busy 12+ hour schedule working as a nurse. My sister was stopped at a stop sign coming out of a business center when some crackhead asshole ramped the curb and T-boned her car...with his truck parked INSIDE of her little car. Her two small kids were strapped into the car seats in the rear, and both car seats were destroyed
FINAL UPDATE!!!
My new and final travel date is on November 11th (Sunday) for certain. Tickets are in the mail, passport has arrived, and packing commences at a frantic pace with multiple interruptions. Et fine!
Due to the nature of the country that I will be serving with the military in (Qatar is an Islamic country), and having to use said local country's government-run internet, I will henceforth be UNABLE TO ACCESS SG. Their country prohibits untold numbers of so-called porn sites or anything skintimate in nature. ALL new journals will thereby be posted on my new LiveJournal.com account. http://chaindogqatar.livejournal.com/ This journal can be viewed w/o having to create an LJ account. (I was going to use Facebook but viewers had to register...).
It has been wonderful being here on the SG community, and once I get non-Islamic internet access I shall again return to login to this account. Any pictures I've promised to post I will do so once I get internet access safely. Once again, to view further journal entries please go to:
http://chaindogqatar.livejournal.com/
My new and final travel date is on November 11th (Sunday) for certain. Tickets are in the mail, passport has arrived, and packing commences at a frantic pace with multiple interruptions. Et fine!
Due to the nature of the country that I will be serving with the military in (Qatar is an Islamic country), and having to use said local country's government-run internet, I will henceforth be UNABLE TO ACCESS SG. Their country prohibits untold numbers of so-called porn sites or anything skintimate in nature. ALL new journals will thereby be posted on my new LiveJournal.com account. http://chaindogqatar.livejournal.com/ This journal can be viewed w/o having to create an LJ account. (I was going to use Facebook but viewers had to register...).
It has been wonderful being here on the SG community, and once I get non-Islamic internet access I shall again return to login to this account. Any pictures I've promised to post I will do so once I get internet access safely. Once again, to view further journal entries please go to:
http://chaindogqatar.livejournal.com/
This past weekend I got the chance to zoom up to Dallas for xcdat's weekend party. By the time I had left the party, I was surprised with an invitation to a wedding before I left overseas for Qatar. It'll be a blast, and I will definitely be there. Ended up getting to the party close to 2:30am due to getting out of work really late, and not leaving the home area until closer to 11pm. Since I had to work at around 7am less than 5 hours later, I had to leave about 3:45 in order to make it on time. I drove safely, legally, and did indeed get there with 15 mins to spare (had just enough time to stop home in my costume and get my steel-toed work boots). I ended up working while in costume to the joy of others as well as the sly glances from various ages of women. I'll be posting some of those pics in one of my photo albums, as well as the few I managed to squeak out at the party (I got there kind of late and missed a number of folks, not to mention it was a busy weekend for other Halloween activities to go to...).
On the overseas news front, I've been given differing travel dates due to constantly changing training class dates. The latest date is for the 4th of November, but I'm really thinking that it'll be later as originally planned. Not to mention that the Houston passport agency wouldn't have sent my newest passport until after that date anyhow. Interestingly enough, the Transportation Security Administration (TSA) called me this morning while I was at the Veterans Hospital in Temple to offer me a position at the regional airport as an Airport Screener. The pay is good but the job was only part-time, and I really need to get away from this area and my dead love life. So I respectfully turned it down, and was notified that if in the future I do decide to go through the process again, provided I don't screw up somewhere and get it put on record, I'll have a slightly faster recruitment time than the 1 1/2 years it took them to get back to me. Yay, Government!
On the overseas news front, I've been given differing travel dates due to constantly changing training class dates. The latest date is for the 4th of November, but I'm really thinking that it'll be later as originally planned. Not to mention that the Houston passport agency wouldn't have sent my newest passport until after that date anyhow. Interestingly enough, the Transportation Security Administration (TSA) called me this morning while I was at the Veterans Hospital in Temple to offer me a position at the regional airport as an Airport Screener. The pay is good but the job was only part-time, and I really need to get away from this area and my dead love life. So I respectfully turned it down, and was notified that if in the future I do decide to go through the process again, provided I don't screw up somewhere and get it put on record, I'll have a slightly faster recruitment time than the 1 1/2 years it took them to get back to me. Yay, Government!
What Came Before...
After dealing with intense emotional trauma, supposedly winning the girl back after her toy soldier dumped her (for what later turned out to be a Tgirl - trans-gender genetically-born male cross-dresser who wants to be a woman), then being betrayed by her once again when he comes begging her forgiveness and giving the usual lies about how much he really loves her, etc., lies, etc....I finally decided last week that I had no choice but to cut myself off emotionally and mentally in order to dampen the pain of the loss of such a long-term relationship. Unfortunately this makes for great drama because the physical side is wary of cooperation. It doesn't help when women who've lusted after me forever and a day suddenly come forward out of the shadows and try to scoop me up for their private parlors. But without the mental component, the physical just may not feel as good as it should. Perhaps if I found someone who was intellectually stimulating as well as physically I'd probably be knocking boots all of the time. Sex is known as a great way to heal after being intentionally kept from it for so long. And the emotional high that should be the result of the physical is also notably keeping a tight rein on everything. I know that this will pass once I am away from my current sunk relationship situation. Heh, of course it won't slow my performance down any. Care for a spin?
ULTIMATE UPDATE STATUS
Seems like yesterday since I last posted a journal, so I haven't been here to update anyone on my status in between what went before and what has occurred since. Upon being betrayed for the second time and realizing that I was being played for a fool in order to yo-yo my emotions (being kept as a backup BF to provide emotional equilibrium for infidelity can just tick me off...), I have applied and was immediately hired to serve a deployment overseas in the Kingdom of Qatar, just east of Saudi Arabia. Over the past weeks since the final straw, I've packed over 60% of my personal belongings, and have put my gaming desktop and other items up for sale to the first person to pay me. I leave for overseas quite soon, and will be unable to do anymore photo shoots until my return, at which time I will have opened up a studio of my own somewhere. Sometime next year I plan to flip contracts to the highest bidder in the Middle East. Money or death, choose both. The stats for the desktop are available below.
During my trip I will be trying to scrounge up the money to purchase a gaming laptop for my use on their slower internet, so I can actually play online while deployed. My duties will be as Force Protection Security for DynCorp International, and I will possibly be serving there for about two years. I hereby offer SG fans ANYWHERE the chance to purchase my current desktop gaming PC, of which stats are as follows. I will ship anywhere as long as exact (not inflated) shipping costs are paid.
NOTE: Computer must be sold and will be shipped to you by November 10th!!!
DEFAULT SPECIFICATIONS (not including my modifications/enhancements):
* Operating System: Genuine Microsoft® Windows® XP Home SP2
* CPU: AMD Athlon XP 3200+ Processor
~> QuantiSpeed Architecture operates at 2.200GHz
* Motherboard: 512KB L2 cache & 400MHz FSB
* Chipset: NVIDIA nForce 2
* Memory/RAM: 512MB DDR (PC 2700)*!*
* Hard Drive: 160GB HDD (7200rpm)
* Optical Drives:
~> DVD ± RW Drive (Write Max: 8x DVD±R, 4x DVD±RW, 32x CD-R, 16x CD-RW; Reads 40x CD, 12x DVD and DVD+R DL, CD+G, C2 Errors, CD Text, Buffer Underrun Protection);
~> 48x Max. CD-ROM Drive (Read 52x: CD-R, CD-RW, VCD, buffer 128KB)
* Media Reader: 8-in-1 digital media manager
~> USB 2.0,
~> Secure Digital (SD),
~> Smart Media,
~> Compact Flash (all CF),
~> Memory Stick®,
~> Memory Stick PRO,
~> Micro Drive,
~> Multimedia Card (MMC)
* Onboard Video: NVIDIA GeForce MX graphics (1 AGP 8x slot available)*!*
* Onboard Sound: nForce 6-channel Audio*!*
* Network/NIC: 10/100Mbps built-in Ethernet
* Modem: 56K ITU v.92-ready Fax/Modem
* Peripherals:
~> Premium Plus Multimedia Keyboard,
~> 2-Button Wheel Mouse,
~> Amplified Stereo Side Speakers (2)
* Ports/Other:
~> 5 USB 2.0 ports (4 in back; 1 in Media Reader),
~> 1 Serial,
~> 1 Parallel,
~> 2 PS/2,
~> Audio-In & Out
* Dimensions: 7.25"W x 14.125"H x 16"D
===eMachines website specs.===
!!!NOTE: MODIFICATIONS AND ENHANCEMENTS ARE SHOWN IN THE POST BELOW!!!
After dealing with intense emotional trauma, supposedly winning the girl back after her toy soldier dumped her (for what later turned out to be a Tgirl - trans-gender genetically-born male cross-dresser who wants to be a woman), then being betrayed by her once again when he comes begging her forgiveness and giving the usual lies about how much he really loves her, etc., lies, etc....I finally decided last week that I had no choice but to cut myself off emotionally and mentally in order to dampen the pain of the loss of such a long-term relationship. Unfortunately this makes for great drama because the physical side is wary of cooperation. It doesn't help when women who've lusted after me forever and a day suddenly come forward out of the shadows and try to scoop me up for their private parlors. But without the mental component, the physical just may not feel as good as it should. Perhaps if I found someone who was intellectually stimulating as well as physically I'd probably be knocking boots all of the time. Sex is known as a great way to heal after being intentionally kept from it for so long. And the emotional high that should be the result of the physical is also notably keeping a tight rein on everything. I know that this will pass once I am away from my current sunk relationship situation. Heh, of course it won't slow my performance down any. Care for a spin?
ULTIMATE UPDATE STATUS
Seems like yesterday since I last posted a journal, so I haven't been here to update anyone on my status in between what went before and what has occurred since. Upon being betrayed for the second time and realizing that I was being played for a fool in order to yo-yo my emotions (being kept as a backup BF to provide emotional equilibrium for infidelity can just tick me off...), I have applied and was immediately hired to serve a deployment overseas in the Kingdom of Qatar, just east of Saudi Arabia. Over the past weeks since the final straw, I've packed over 60% of my personal belongings, and have put my gaming desktop and other items up for sale to the first person to pay me. I leave for overseas quite soon, and will be unable to do anymore photo shoots until my return, at which time I will have opened up a studio of my own somewhere. Sometime next year I plan to flip contracts to the highest bidder in the Middle East. Money or death, choose both. The stats for the desktop are available below.
During my trip I will be trying to scrounge up the money to purchase a gaming laptop for my use on their slower internet, so I can actually play online while deployed. My duties will be as Force Protection Security for DynCorp International, and I will possibly be serving there for about two years. I hereby offer SG fans ANYWHERE the chance to purchase my current desktop gaming PC, of which stats are as follows. I will ship anywhere as long as exact (not inflated) shipping costs are paid.
NOTE: Computer must be sold and will be shipped to you by November 10th!!!
DEFAULT SPECIFICATIONS (not including my modifications/enhancements):
* Operating System: Genuine Microsoft® Windows® XP Home SP2
* CPU: AMD Athlon XP 3200+ Processor
~> QuantiSpeed Architecture operates at 2.200GHz
* Motherboard: 512KB L2 cache & 400MHz FSB
* Chipset: NVIDIA nForce 2
* Memory/RAM: 512MB DDR (PC 2700)*!*
* Hard Drive: 160GB HDD (7200rpm)
* Optical Drives:
~> DVD ± RW Drive (Write Max: 8x DVD±R, 4x DVD±RW, 32x CD-R, 16x CD-RW; Reads 40x CD, 12x DVD and DVD+R DL, CD+G, C2 Errors, CD Text, Buffer Underrun Protection);
~> 48x Max. CD-ROM Drive (Read 52x: CD-R, CD-RW, VCD, buffer 128KB)
* Media Reader: 8-in-1 digital media manager
~> USB 2.0,
~> Secure Digital (SD),
~> Smart Media,
~> Compact Flash (all CF),
~> Memory Stick®,
~> Memory Stick PRO,
~> Micro Drive,
~> Multimedia Card (MMC)
* Onboard Video: NVIDIA GeForce MX graphics (1 AGP 8x slot available)*!*
* Onboard Sound: nForce 6-channel Audio*!*
* Network/NIC: 10/100Mbps built-in Ethernet
* Modem: 56K ITU v.92-ready Fax/Modem
* Peripherals:
~> Premium Plus Multimedia Keyboard,
~> 2-Button Wheel Mouse,
~> Amplified Stereo Side Speakers (2)
* Ports/Other:
~> 5 USB 2.0 ports (4 in back; 1 in Media Reader),
~> 1 Serial,
~> 1 Parallel,
~> 2 PS/2,
~> Audio-In & Out
* Dimensions: 7.25"W x 14.125"H x 16"D
===eMachines website specs.===
!!!NOTE: MODIFICATIONS AND ENHANCEMENTS ARE SHOWN IN THE POST BELOW!!!
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Modifications and Enhancements to the above defaults:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
* AGP Graphics Card: nVidia PNY Verto GeForce FX 5700 Limited Edition OPTIMA/ULTIMA 128MB DDR AGP 8x (Performance Model)
~> ORIGINAL PACKAGING!!!
~> VGA + DVI + S-Video ports
~> 500 MHz Memory Data Rate
~> 2D + 3D Graphics Card
~> nVidia CineFX 2.0 Engine
~> 128-bit Studio-Precision Color
~> nVidia UltraShadow Technology
~> 256-bit Graphics Core
~> 250 MHz Core Clock
~> 128-bit DDR memory interface
~> 8.0GB/sec. memory bandwidth
~> 188 million vertices/sec. setup
~> nVidia Intellisample Hi-resolution Compression Technology (HCT)
~> 4 pixels per clock
~> 16 textures per pixel with 8 textures applied per clock
~> nVidia Digital Vibrance Control 3.0 Technology
~> Dual 400 MHz RAMDACs
~> Maximum display resolution 2048 x 1536 x 32 bpp at 85Hz
~> nVidia nView Multi-display Technology
~> Integrated full hardware MPEG-2 Decoder for full-frame-rate + full-screen video
~> Integrated TV Encoder provides TV-out up to 1024 x 768 resolutions
~> Microsoft DirectX 9.* Optimizations
~> OpenGL 1.5 Optimizations and Support
~> Quick Installation Guide
~> CD which includes detailed installation PDF, GeForce FX drivers, DirectX 9 software, GeForce FX demos, Verto 3D World desktop software
~> DVI-to-VGA adapter
~> S-Video Cable
~> Lifetime Replacement Warranty
~> Toll-free tech and web support
===nVidia basic info.===
* Audio Card: 24-bit Creative Labs ADVANCED HD Audigy 2 ZS Gamer PCI
~> ORIGINAL PACKAGING!!!
~> THX-certified with THX Setup Calibration Console
~> 24-bit ADVANCED HD Audio at 192kHz DACs and EAX ADVANCED HD
~> Windows Media Player 9+ content support
~> Advanced Resolution 24-bit DVD-Audio Playback
~> Creative CMSS 3D Audio Technology (MP3/WMA/CDs/VCD/etc) for 5.1, 6.1, or 7.1 surround sound
~> Cinematic Surround with DTS-ES and Dolby Digital EX movies and games
~> Digital CD Audio Cable
~> 24-bit Digital-to-Analog playback conversion
~> 24-bit Analog-to-Digital recording conversion
~> SPDIF (Sony/Phillips Digital Interface) input up to 24-bit
~> SPDIF output up to 24-bit with BASS BOOST and AUDIO CLEAN-UP
~> ASIO drivers for low latency multi-track playback and recording
~> Hardware acceleration of EAX and EAX ADVANCED HD audio for games
~> 32-bit Professional Quality Effects Engine for real-time digital effects (reverb/chorus)
~> Wave-table Synthesis and MIDI features
~> Creative Hardware synthesizer (2x16 channels) with 64-voice polyphony with E-MU's 8-point interpolation technology
~> Creative Software synthesizer for 16 channels of multi-timbral wave-table
~> FireWire (IEEE 1394)/ i-Link connectivity up to 400Mbps transfer rate
~> Joystick/MIDI bracket (YOU CAN'T FIND THIS ON MODERN AUDIO CARDS!!!)
~> Line level out (Front / Side / Rear / Center / Subwoofer) ports
~> Digital Out for 5.1 support (6-channel SPDIF output)
~> Line In port
~> Microphone In port
~> FireWire port
~> Telephone Answering Device In port
~> Analog / Digital CD Audio In port
~> 15-pin MIDI / Joystick port extension header
~> Internal IEEE 1394 header to SB Audigy 2 ZS Internal I/O Drive (upgrade option)
~> AD EXT extension header to above I/O Drive (upgrade option)
~> Multilingual CD User Manual
~> Multilingual Quick Start Guide leaflet
~> Creative Software Pack
~> Drivers for Win98SE, Win ME, Win 2000 SP3, WinXP SP2
~> Creative Applications:
---- Creative MediaSource Go
---- Creative MediaSource Organizer
---- Creative MediaSource Player
---- Creative AudioHQ
---- Creative Diagnostics
---- Creative MiniDisc Center
---- Creative Restore Default
---- Creative WaveStudio
---- Creative SoundFont Bank Manager
---- Creative Speaker Calibrator
---- Creative Speaker Settings Manager
---- Creative Surround Sound Mixer
---- Creative MediaSource DVD-Audio Player
---- Creative EAX Music Console
---- Creative Graphic Equalizer
---- SoundFont Sample Banks
~> Audigy 2 ZS Feature Showcase Demonstration CD
~> Creative DVD-Audio Sampler Disc
~> Getting Started Demonstration
~> Includes Games to the following:
---- Star Wars Jedi Knight: Jedi Academy :liljawdrop:
---- Lara Croft Tomb Raider: Angel of Darkness :liljawdrop:
---- Tom Clancy's Rainbox Six 3: Raven Shield :liljawdrop:
---- Tom Clancy's Splinter Cell :liljawdrop:
===Audigy 2 ZS basic specifications===
===Audigy 2 ZS Gamer software to be included.===
* Corsair PC3200 1GB (2x512) True Dual-Channel DDR2 RAM sticks
~> Latency: 3-3-3-8 (if listed as the Kit model it is 2.5-3-3-8)
~> Pins: 184pin
~> Socket type: DIMM
===Corsair website===
]* 2 Ultra Aluminum DDR Memory Coolers (Gold)
~> Heatsink Material: Aluminum
~> Heatsink Dimensions: 4" x 4" x 1"
===Ultra coolers.===
* Internal PCI graphics card/CPU slot fan (black), 80mm size (this is in addition to the default case fans)
===Example picture.===
Price for this bundle is $400 USD + exact shipping cost. If you'd like a boatload of extra free games (worth over $150) loaded onto your computer on top of the clean XP installation, It'll only cost ya $50 more (same as my clients) and even includes free Lavasoft Ad-Aware SE Pro Edition, free anti-virus software by Avast!, and Nero 6.6 Ultra burning suite.
NOTE: I also have my Logitech 5.1 surround sound speakers (nice subwoofer), $45 + shipping if anyone is interested...
Modifications and Enhancements to the above defaults:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
* AGP Graphics Card: nVidia PNY Verto GeForce FX 5700 Limited Edition OPTIMA/ULTIMA 128MB DDR AGP 8x (Performance Model)
~> ORIGINAL PACKAGING!!!
~> VGA + DVI + S-Video ports
~> 500 MHz Memory Data Rate
~> 2D + 3D Graphics Card
~> nVidia CineFX 2.0 Engine
~> 128-bit Studio-Precision Color
~> nVidia UltraShadow Technology
~> 256-bit Graphics Core
~> 250 MHz Core Clock
~> 128-bit DDR memory interface
~> 8.0GB/sec. memory bandwidth
~> 188 million vertices/sec. setup
~> nVidia Intellisample Hi-resolution Compression Technology (HCT)
~> 4 pixels per clock
~> 16 textures per pixel with 8 textures applied per clock
~> nVidia Digital Vibrance Control 3.0 Technology
~> Dual 400 MHz RAMDACs
~> Maximum display resolution 2048 x 1536 x 32 bpp at 85Hz
~> nVidia nView Multi-display Technology
~> Integrated full hardware MPEG-2 Decoder for full-frame-rate + full-screen video
~> Integrated TV Encoder provides TV-out up to 1024 x 768 resolutions
~> Microsoft DirectX 9.* Optimizations
~> OpenGL 1.5 Optimizations and Support
~> Quick Installation Guide
~> CD which includes detailed installation PDF, GeForce FX drivers, DirectX 9 software, GeForce FX demos, Verto 3D World desktop software
~> DVI-to-VGA adapter
~> S-Video Cable
~> Lifetime Replacement Warranty
~> Toll-free tech and web support
===nVidia basic info.===
* Audio Card: 24-bit Creative Labs ADVANCED HD Audigy 2 ZS Gamer PCI
~> ORIGINAL PACKAGING!!!
~> THX-certified with THX Setup Calibration Console
~> 24-bit ADVANCED HD Audio at 192kHz DACs and EAX ADVANCED HD
~> Windows Media Player 9+ content support
~> Advanced Resolution 24-bit DVD-Audio Playback
~> Creative CMSS 3D Audio Technology (MP3/WMA/CDs/VCD/etc) for 5.1, 6.1, or 7.1 surround sound
~> Cinematic Surround with DTS-ES and Dolby Digital EX movies and games
~> Digital CD Audio Cable
~> 24-bit Digital-to-Analog playback conversion
~> 24-bit Analog-to-Digital recording conversion
~> SPDIF (Sony/Phillips Digital Interface) input up to 24-bit
~> SPDIF output up to 24-bit with BASS BOOST and AUDIO CLEAN-UP
~> ASIO drivers for low latency multi-track playback and recording
~> Hardware acceleration of EAX and EAX ADVANCED HD audio for games
~> 32-bit Professional Quality Effects Engine for real-time digital effects (reverb/chorus)
~> Wave-table Synthesis and MIDI features
~> Creative Hardware synthesizer (2x16 channels) with 64-voice polyphony with E-MU's 8-point interpolation technology
~> Creative Software synthesizer for 16 channels of multi-timbral wave-table
~> FireWire (IEEE 1394)/ i-Link connectivity up to 400Mbps transfer rate
~> Joystick/MIDI bracket (YOU CAN'T FIND THIS ON MODERN AUDIO CARDS!!!)
~> Line level out (Front / Side / Rear / Center / Subwoofer) ports
~> Digital Out for 5.1 support (6-channel SPDIF output)
~> Line In port
~> Microphone In port
~> FireWire port
~> Telephone Answering Device In port
~> Analog / Digital CD Audio In port
~> 15-pin MIDI / Joystick port extension header
~> Internal IEEE 1394 header to SB Audigy 2 ZS Internal I/O Drive (upgrade option)
~> AD EXT extension header to above I/O Drive (upgrade option)
~> Multilingual CD User Manual
~> Multilingual Quick Start Guide leaflet
~> Creative Software Pack
~> Drivers for Win98SE, Win ME, Win 2000 SP3, WinXP SP2
~> Creative Applications:
---- Creative MediaSource Go
---- Creative MediaSource Organizer
---- Creative MediaSource Player
---- Creative AudioHQ
---- Creative Diagnostics
---- Creative MiniDisc Center
---- Creative Restore Default
---- Creative WaveStudio
---- Creative SoundFont Bank Manager
---- Creative Speaker Calibrator
---- Creative Speaker Settings Manager
---- Creative Surround Sound Mixer
---- Creative MediaSource DVD-Audio Player
---- Creative EAX Music Console
---- Creative Graphic Equalizer
---- SoundFont Sample Banks
~> Audigy 2 ZS Feature Showcase Demonstration CD
~> Creative DVD-Audio Sampler Disc
~> Getting Started Demonstration
~> Includes Games to the following:
---- Star Wars Jedi Knight: Jedi Academy :liljawdrop:
---- Lara Croft Tomb Raider: Angel of Darkness :liljawdrop:
---- Tom Clancy's Rainbox Six 3: Raven Shield :liljawdrop:
---- Tom Clancy's Splinter Cell :liljawdrop:
===Audigy 2 ZS basic specifications===
===Audigy 2 ZS Gamer software to be included.===
* Corsair PC3200 1GB (2x512) True Dual-Channel DDR2 RAM sticks
~> Latency: 3-3-3-8 (if listed as the Kit model it is 2.5-3-3-8)
~> Pins: 184pin
~> Socket type: DIMM
===Corsair website===
]* 2 Ultra Aluminum DDR Memory Coolers (Gold)
~> Heatsink Material: Aluminum
~> Heatsink Dimensions: 4" x 4" x 1"
===Ultra coolers.===
* Internal PCI graphics card/CPU slot fan (black), 80mm size (this is in addition to the default case fans)
===Example picture.===
Price for this bundle is $400 USD + exact shipping cost. If you'd like a boatload of extra free games (worth over $150) loaded onto your computer on top of the clean XP installation, It'll only cost ya $50 more (same as my clients) and even includes free Lavasoft Ad-Aware SE Pro Edition, free anti-virus software by Avast!, and Nero 6.6 Ultra burning suite.
NOTE: I also have my Logitech 5.1 surround sound speakers (nice subwoofer), $45 + shipping if anyone is interested...
