I swear, women confuse me. I get along so well with them, but then I date them and everything goes to hell.

Oh well, I guess time to start over.

Ok so life is just full of surprises. My favorite one, car failure! So my car would not start this morning. The mechanic will not be able to look at it until tomorrow. And if you know anything about car shops on Fridays when you need your car for this weekend... Yes I will probably be carless this weekend. That means I might not be able to do the SCSac meet up on Friday.

So whats next life?

Ok so it is official, I was not stood up! She was in the ER. She is doing fine. Life really can be crazy some times.

Here I sit at home alone, stood up again. At least being poly I have my wife and don't feel completely unwanted. But is still sucks. Now I remember why I hated being single. My heart goes out to all the single people out there. I have no idea how you do it.

So just back from the karaoke bar. I had a lot of fun even though I went alone. I had several girls talk to me. It was a nice boost to my self esteem.

And I really love to sing. I was a little off tonight. I need more constant practice. I really want be able to nail the songs I sing. I will get there.

WOOT! Three day weekend!!!!

Now what to do....

So have plans for the 4th but the rest of the weekend is open. So I am thinking Karaoke tomorrow or even Sunday night. (Because yes I am that addicted.) But what to do tonight.... Well I guess time to spin that wheel and see what comes up.

I know long time no post. I know. Well I am moved. I now live in a apartment in West Sac and the house is officially not our problem anymore! The apartment is nice and it is close to work for me. It is a two bedroom so my wife and I each get a room to make our own.

Have had a few thing socially going on. A wedding, a graduation, and we had a friend from the bay come and stay with us for a few days with her new baby! And I have been doing a lot of karaoke lately. What can I say I like to sing. .

So as some of you may know, my wife and I are in a open relationship. It is complicated but does feel natural for us. I love my wife, but she is so in another place right now and has no desire for intimacy or even cuddling. I am a big cuddler and need that physical part of a relationship. Hell I hug people I have just met. I feel lonely. I am in an open relationship so I do have options. But most of the women I know are monogamous and dating them is not an option. So I have to start from scratch. My problem is I have a real hard time reading women. And I am pretty shy at making advances on them (one of the things I really hate about myself). And then I have to broach the subject of my relationship. That usually shuts things down quickly. And sometimes they are not nice about it. I had one girl come up to me and start the conversation. Eventually she asked if I was single. I explained my situation and she said "Well don't talk to me unless you are single" and walked off. ARG!

I give up.

I had a great time at the SGSAC BBQ on Sat. We really do have a cool group of people.

So I am moving. Getting a nice two bedroom apartment in West Sac. Of course the first available is on the third floor. Sounds good at the time but moving stuff into it is hell. But it will be cool once we are all in. so this is the weekend of the move. Friday night after work we are moving the big stuff via truck and what ever else we can fit. I have a couple of friends that I bribed with pizza and beer to help. Suckers! It is still going to be a big job. I cannot wait to be moved in.

So a few months ago I had a customer try and start a fight with me. He shoved me, cornered me, and yelled at me so loud that everyone in the building came to see what was up. He left and his boss told me he would never be sent back here. Well who was at my work this morning? None other then the same ass hat that tried to start shit. Needless to say not a good day so far.


I seriously need to go drink tonight. Anyone want to join me?

So I am still in a haze today. Like i have a dark cloud hovering over me. I really do not know what is wrong. I have no desire to be a work or even not to be at work. And that is usually not me at all. I really do not think it has anything to do with the house, I was very happy to be rid of it (we found out last week). I should try and go out tomorrow night and try to shake off this funk.