If being a starving artist doesn't pan out I think I'll get a job in air brushing...
Original Picture: Standard fixes for tone and texture: "I'm going to make you look like a celebrity" airbrushing
I hate that I can do this. However, I do like the middle one best, so maybe it's not so bad...
Original Picture: Standard fixes for tone and texture: "I'm going to make you look like a celebrity" airbrushing
I hate that I can do this. However, I do like the middle one best, so maybe it's not so bad...
Running makes everything better...
Horfrost is the reason I go running in the winter
Post run picture...
It was my last day of classes yesterday...
I have left is some tests then vacation
My doodle from logic class...
If you don't know I like crystals...
I've been using them a lot lately
My platinum quartz cleansing in the window...
Horfrost is the reason I go running in the winter
Post run picture...
It was my last day of classes yesterday...
I have left is some tests then vacation
My doodle from logic class...
If you don't know I like crystals...
I've been using them a lot lately
My platinum quartz cleansing in the window...
I was having an OK day.
Then I got my paper back, 97%, great day.
Then I checked my e-mail and His mom had sent me an e-mail asking how I was and where I got something that He and I used to share that she wants to buy Him for Christmas.
A lovely reminder that I will be alone during this three week break from school. Nothing to distract me anymore and I cannot be with him and the fantastic family that I was once a part of.
Now my day is horrible.
Truthfully I did not deal with it right: I cried in my loneliness and hopelessness then I went and got drunk in the University bar preceding my night class.
I really want to be done school because I am burnt out. but I have no idea what I will do to get my mind off the ravaging pain of being alone during the holidays...
BAH HUMBUG!
Like seriously... how am I supposed to reply to this!?
Then I got my paper back, 97%, great day.
Then I checked my e-mail and His mom had sent me an e-mail asking how I was and where I got something that He and I used to share that she wants to buy Him for Christmas.
A lovely reminder that I will be alone during this three week break from school. Nothing to distract me anymore and I cannot be with him and the fantastic family that I was once a part of.
Now my day is horrible.
Truthfully I did not deal with it right: I cried in my loneliness and hopelessness then I went and got drunk in the University bar preceding my night class.
I really want to be done school because I am burnt out. but I have no idea what I will do to get my mind off the ravaging pain of being alone during the holidays...
BAH HUMBUG!
Like seriously... how am I supposed to reply to this!?
What do you do if you have found the man who you want to have a family with and you want to be a part of his family?
What if you have spent two years with him?
You two have never really had a fight, minus a few small disagreements.
Except of course when one, or both, of you were drunk.
Then things could sometimes get out of hand.
He's slowly killing himself with his drinking.
You've moved on with your life: cleaned up, started school(and your career) again, got out of debt
He's moved on, in that he started sleeping with his co-worker
But after 6 months you still think about him daily.
You can't think of anyone else, you've tried to be with other people, but you would rather be with him.
You still want him to be the father to your children.
And you think he still loves you too.
But he says it's better for you two not to be together.
He says you need to move on.
You honestly try. But you can't shake the feelings of guilt when you're with another man.
What do you do when the person who completes you needs help fighting addiction and you thought leaving would get them in the right direction--and it didn't seem to?
What if they still complete you, and in the brief moments you're together or talking to them again, you finally feel normal and any other time you feel like a husk who's going through the motions of life, waiting, for... SOMETHING...But you don't know what.
What do I do?
What if you have spent two years with him?
You two have never really had a fight, minus a few small disagreements.
Except of course when one, or both, of you were drunk.
Then things could sometimes get out of hand.
He's slowly killing himself with his drinking.
You've moved on with your life: cleaned up, started school(and your career) again, got out of debt
He's moved on, in that he started sleeping with his co-worker
But after 6 months you still think about him daily.
You can't think of anyone else, you've tried to be with other people, but you would rather be with him.
You still want him to be the father to your children.
And you think he still loves you too.
But he says it's better for you two not to be together.
He says you need to move on.
You honestly try. But you can't shake the feelings of guilt when you're with another man.
What do you do when the person who completes you needs help fighting addiction and you thought leaving would get them in the right direction--and it didn't seem to?
What if they still complete you, and in the brief moments you're together or talking to them again, you finally feel normal and any other time you feel like a husk who's going through the motions of life, waiting, for... SOMETHING...But you don't know what.
What do I do?
I'm having a really crappy day.
I don't know if it's all in my head, but I feel like people don't like me.
Some of the people in my life I think just associate with me out of kindness, not desire.
And people I don't know never want to talk to me.
This whole thing is making me feel really lonely and anti-social. The thing is I love socializing with people but it seems like no one wants to associate with me--it makes me think there's something wrong with me: and I don't know what.
I don't know if it's all in my head, but I feel like people don't like me.
Some of the people in my life I think just associate with me out of kindness, not desire.
And people I don't know never want to talk to me.
This whole thing is making me feel really lonely and anti-social. The thing is I love socializing with people but it seems like no one wants to associate with me--it makes me think there's something wrong with me: and I don't know what.
I miss DBZ marathons and Golden Girls. I miss throwing knives and shooting arrows. I miss staying up till 4 am just to go to bed. I miss Pokemon. I miss this song. I miss True Romance...
Conversation I just had with my roommate.
Him: Thanks dude
Me: I'm afraid I don't have a penis
Him: I don't know that!
Me: I believe you do...
Him: Yeah, but penises grow
Me: Oh, you're right, you caught me, I have a penis. It's already 7" long.
Him: Jesus that's fast!
Me: What can I say, I'm a natural
Him: You're the envy of most guys
Me: and the love of all women
Him: So it would seem!
Me: So.. what's your girlfriend doing tonight?
Him: You stay away!
Me: How about a team shower?
Him: I can dig it. Although, I'm not sure about you with a penis. You'll look funny. I may laugh.
I love that my roommate plays along with my crazy
Him: Thanks dude
Me: I'm afraid I don't have a penis
Him: I don't know that!
Me: I believe you do...
Him: Yeah, but penises grow
Me: Oh, you're right, you caught me, I have a penis. It's already 7" long.
Him: Jesus that's fast!
Me: What can I say, I'm a natural
Him: You're the envy of most guys
Me: and the love of all women
Him: So it would seem!
Me: So.. what's your girlfriend doing tonight?
Him: You stay away!
Me: How about a team shower?
Him: I can dig it. Although, I'm not sure about you with a penis. You'll look funny. I may laugh.
I love that my roommate plays along with my crazy
