Alone in the house for tonight with my 3 pitts, 2 orange cats & my 9 y/o baby boy.

Daddy is at a friends house doing HVAC work for them. Too long of a drive to make it a 1 day thing.

Kid & I are gonna do either burgers on the grill or tacos. Whatever he wants.

Maybe pull some weeds in the new yard and get stuff ready for yard waste pick-up day.

If I feel like it, I'm gonna bleach his hair out to get rid of the blue remnants still left. Then prob put some color on the tips. (He is growing his mohawk out into a Faith No More pony tail like Daddy used to have, so he keeps it comb'd to one side.)

Internet image to describe his hair after it grows out:


I'll post later.

Good Morning! Feeling MUCH better. No vodka since last Saturday. Had 3 glasses of wine on Easter at the in-laws house and it took the edge off and I was able to make it through the night and be ok the next morning. Started my diet Monday and am feeling better and have lost 4.5 lbs. Hubbie & I are getting along so much better! I'm actually being productive and cleaning the house and doing dishes & laundry. Still a LOT to clean up but I'm making a dent. Hard part has been going out places by myself because everywhere I go I know where the liquor stores are. But I've resisted. I started taking my medication again and one of them does help with cravings.

Feeling MUCH better!

UUUGGGHHH ... I feel like crap ...

I don't know how to do this ... whether I drink or not or take my meds or not I am always accused of drinking ... what, I can't be or act or fake happy without being drunk?! ... Or I can't have stupid moments while my brain is re-generating (look it up, it's common) ... It's like I'm supposed to be perfect all the time ... cleaning the house, doing the laundry, taking care of the kid and the pets ...

I am just having a really shitty day ...

♥ Smooches ♥

this whole thing seems stupid ... why do people even get married anyways? ...

I guess this has been an ok weekend ... Friday morning was a little bumpy ... Everything else has been good ... Have no clue what I'm doing today ...

( Today is Hubbies B-Day ) :
Grumble, grumble ... The french toast was more brown than golden & the bacon I served was not from the bottom of the 5 lbs I cooked where it would have drained better, but that doesn't matter anyways because I stacked all 5 lbs on top of each other in between the paper towels so the grease was just draining onto the other bacon anyways ... I fucking give up

Just got "sent to bed" by my husband for my attitude. WTFE. How F-ing stupid. Like I'm really going to sleep when I'm pissed off for being told what to do. I'm just gonna lay here & be attitudey.

Hey all ... Not to whine about life, but all the recent events, over the past 6 months have led me back to drinking ... this has happened multiple times... I have family issues, my doc I saw Sunday (who has been GREAT for years, but I stopped seeing, due to said issues... ) said I need therapy for "emotional trauma" ...

He gave me a list of people to call and said don't stop until I find someone that fits with me... ( Told him I tried therapy B4 and all they did was talk about themselves ... maybe they need therapy??? "

What a blower ...

I REALLY wanna get better (AGAIN)

I was doing GREAT until these "issues/past trauma" came into play ...