Art or Nothing like it.
I have got to get into the habit of posting more blogs. I need to write , think and share. Sometimes even hanging out with friends of mine I feel better when I have fleshed out , written and even drawn . It makes me feel like I have gotten the abstracts out of my brain and I can talk about ideas that are more tangible and simple way.
I watched two movies worth noting this weekend I watch the documentary PressPausePlay and I watched Prometheus. The documentary has two opposing ideas being discussed that digital art as we know is becoming nothing but a self replicating garbage. Since we can create copy and share quickly we untalented masses are in effect polluting culture. The other idea is that we are revolutionizing culture and changing the media landscape, there is no longer the barrier of money, access to instruments and recording studios . We now have the wonderful digital tools that make us artist without needing to know the technical ins and outs , but have democratized the creative world.
I also saw Prometheus which was good sci-fi in concept , but I felt it was a bit disjointed . I do not want to give anything away , but there is a scene when someone is given a black liquid that infects them and when a living organism is exposed to the liquid , it just mutates them.
In PressPausePlay they explain that culture is now this grey sludge that is just self reproductive and it consumes all. In the movie Prometheus the black sludge gives rise to nightmares and monsters when exposed to a host biology . The black sludge in the movie could be a wonderful metaphor for human creativity and how it gives shapes to our dreams and to our nightmares in the case of the movie. I love SG for that quality , for this intensely creative place where the girls , their sets , their blogs and their redefining of beauty are the flagship, but trailing them is a set of fans , friends and supporters that are inspired by them.
Now for my creativity and growth as creative person. I choose to draw and I like it , I was trained as a draftsman in high school and it shaped me . Drafting is a means of expression that I like and being a fan of comic books it pulled me a long.
Now for my SG fan art,
My subjects (or victims, willing ones ) have been ,
Zebrah
Stigmata
I have more experience with pencil , I did those sketches and they took me a while to create . I think I can get better and I am trying to do it in my spare time. I have also started to experiment with inking and brush work. I also wanted to experiment with water colors , but I was afraid to try. Until I saw an article on how to do it with coffee. It is a cheap plentiful and easy changed water coloring medium, plus is non-toxic and it smells great.
My first coffee painting was not so great , my second turned out better .
This results made want to do more and try with actual water colors , so I went to the Fan Art thread
http://suicidegirls.com/groups/Fan+Art/topics/238677/ and found the great SG's that would like some fan art done. I humbly asked one of the hopefuls there to let me try her likeness.
so here we are now.
Mylene
This is the hard part of trying something new. I honestly loved her set if you have not seen it , please check and give it love .
Summer Light
Now for my attempt at capturing her image.
I have got to get into the habit of posting more blogs. I need to write , think and share. Sometimes even hanging out with friends of mine I feel better when I have fleshed out , written and even drawn . It makes me feel like I have gotten the abstracts out of my brain and I can talk about ideas that are more tangible and simple way.
I watched two movies worth noting this weekend I watch the documentary PressPausePlay and I watched Prometheus. The documentary has two opposing ideas being discussed that digital art as we know is becoming nothing but a self replicating garbage. Since we can create copy and share quickly we untalented masses are in effect polluting culture. The other idea is that we are revolutionizing culture and changing the media landscape, there is no longer the barrier of money, access to instruments and recording studios . We now have the wonderful digital tools that make us artist without needing to know the technical ins and outs , but have democratized the creative world.
I also saw Prometheus which was good sci-fi in concept , but I felt it was a bit disjointed . I do not want to give anything away , but there is a scene when someone is given a black liquid that infects them and when a living organism is exposed to the liquid , it just mutates them.
In PressPausePlay they explain that culture is now this grey sludge that is just self reproductive and it consumes all. In the movie Prometheus the black sludge gives rise to nightmares and monsters when exposed to a host biology . The black sludge in the movie could be a wonderful metaphor for human creativity and how it gives shapes to our dreams and to our nightmares in the case of the movie. I love SG for that quality , for this intensely creative place where the girls , their sets , their blogs and their redefining of beauty are the flagship, but trailing them is a set of fans , friends and supporters that are inspired by them.
Now for my creativity and growth as creative person. I choose to draw and I like it , I was trained as a draftsman in high school and it shaped me . Drafting is a means of expression that I like and being a fan of comic books it pulled me a long.
Now for my SG fan art,
My subjects (or victims, willing ones ) have been ,
Zebrah
Stigmata
I have more experience with pencil , I did those sketches and they took me a while to create . I think I can get better and I am trying to do it in my spare time. I have also started to experiment with inking and brush work. I also wanted to experiment with water colors , but I was afraid to try. Until I saw an article on how to do it with coffee. It is a cheap plentiful and easy changed water coloring medium, plus is non-toxic and it smells great.
My first coffee painting was not so great , my second turned out better .
This results made want to do more and try with actual water colors , so I went to the Fan Art thread
http://suicidegirls.com/groups/Fan+Art/topics/238677/ and found the great SG's that would like some fan art done. I humbly asked one of the hopefuls there to let me try her likeness.
so here we are now.
Mylene
This is the hard part of trying something new. I honestly loved her set if you have not seen it , please check and give it love .
Summer Light
Now for my attempt at capturing her image.
I would like to apologize and say that I can try better and will try again, because I think her image deserves better . Her creativity and emotional risk deserves more of an effort in my behalf.
I honestly can tell you that when i finished I said : " oh fuck, oh fuck !, oh fuck!! oh fuck!!!!" each fuck was progressively louder and when I showed it to my brother and a friend . They gave me constructive criticism and I hope to take another pass a this water color painting.
I will scan it and post it in the art section of the site and will message let Mylene know that I have done my first pass and will try again.
Now in my next blog I will write a list of SG's or Hopefuls that I would like to try to paint or draw.
I keep trying to do this ,because it either makes me a better creative person ,and/or makes me appreciate those artist , those true artist that capture something beautiful and have mastered their medium.
My web-browser eat my blog.
I have spent the last hour with writer block in front of the computer trying to write , but it has not gone well and my browser just acted up and erased all the stuff that I had written. So now for honesty and rambling before I gets distracted by watching BSG on Netflix.
I spent that better part of last year in a tough project that taxed me mentally, physically and in my morale. I felt stressed out , with no time , and out of shape for the better part of last year. I was really hurt and now in the last two months I have finally being able to work out , hang out with my friends and even start to think about developing a social life once again.
I had lunch with a friend of mine this past weekend , I could not make it to his birthday celebration so we has lunch last Sunday. We talked about where we are in our lives , jobs, money and what we wanted to do in the future. In many ways it was a good conversation and I hope that my friend got something out of it . I will tell you about his story later when I can make better sense of it myself.
Then Monday morning at 2:00 a.m. I woke up and rushed to the rest room , I puked and proceeded to rinse my mouth and settle myself , get some water and then went back to bed. Then I started the procedure all over again. I only spent two hours at work and then went home sick.
I proceeded to spent the better part of the day resting , drinking plenty of fluids and watching/passing out in front of the Television. Then I also spent the rest of the week in a debilitated state. one of the things that I hate about being sick is that I get emotionally down or a little depressed.
I was driving home on Wednesday after a very unproductive and long day. I was feeling down, tired and felt down about my life. I had lunch with my friend of Saturday , but after recounting the events of last year. I felt a bit down about my life, the few savings I have and the lack of social contact I have had. I felt like a loser,
However with that realization , I felt okay and calm. I had this very strange feeling that things could get better from here. I felt that I was not chasing goals that would make me repeat the stresses of the year before. I felt strangely relaxed and hopeful. Maybe it was the fact that I was getting better better physically or the flu medication was making me feel woozy.
But now I am determined to get in better shape, to take care of my health , not stress and to see my friends more this year.
Being a Loser does not make you less of a fighter as proved by Rocky,
Being a Loser does not make you less of an artist as proved by Vincent van Gogh
Being a Loser does not make you less of a writer as proved by the Frustrated novelist Stan Lee
Being a Loser does not make you less creative or happy sometimes.
Now I have to figure out how I can be the best loser than I can be.
There is a great graphic novel called the new frontier , They have a section of the book with a world war 2 army teamed called " The Losers".
I loved the quote from the account of their final mission.
Johnny Cloud: "Ask my family and they'll tell you I was a Navajo. Ask the Army Air Force and they'll say I was an American. But if you ask my brothers, they'll set you straight. John Cloud was a Loser."
I have spent the last hour with writer block in front of the computer trying to write , but it has not gone well and my browser just acted up and erased all the stuff that I had written. So now for honesty and rambling before I gets distracted by watching BSG on Netflix.
I spent that better part of last year in a tough project that taxed me mentally, physically and in my morale. I felt stressed out , with no time , and out of shape for the better part of last year. I was really hurt and now in the last two months I have finally being able to work out , hang out with my friends and even start to think about developing a social life once again.
I had lunch with a friend of mine this past weekend , I could not make it to his birthday celebration so we has lunch last Sunday. We talked about where we are in our lives , jobs, money and what we wanted to do in the future. In many ways it was a good conversation and I hope that my friend got something out of it . I will tell you about his story later when I can make better sense of it myself.
Then Monday morning at 2:00 a.m. I woke up and rushed to the rest room , I puked and proceeded to rinse my mouth and settle myself , get some water and then went back to bed. Then I started the procedure all over again. I only spent two hours at work and then went home sick.
I proceeded to spent the better part of the day resting , drinking plenty of fluids and watching/passing out in front of the Television. Then I also spent the rest of the week in a debilitated state. one of the things that I hate about being sick is that I get emotionally down or a little depressed.
I was driving home on Wednesday after a very unproductive and long day. I was feeling down, tired and felt down about my life. I had lunch with my friend of Saturday , but after recounting the events of last year. I felt a bit down about my life, the few savings I have and the lack of social contact I have had. I felt like a loser,
However with that realization , I felt okay and calm. I had this very strange feeling that things could get better from here. I felt that I was not chasing goals that would make me repeat the stresses of the year before. I felt strangely relaxed and hopeful. Maybe it was the fact that I was getting better better physically or the flu medication was making me feel woozy.
But now I am determined to get in better shape, to take care of my health , not stress and to see my friends more this year.
Being a Loser does not make you less of a fighter as proved by Rocky,
Being a Loser does not make you less of an artist as proved by Vincent van Gogh
Being a Loser does not make you less of a writer as proved by the Frustrated novelist Stan Lee
Being a Loser does not make you less creative or happy sometimes.
Now I have to figure out how I can be the best loser than I can be.
There is a great graphic novel called the new frontier , They have a section of the book with a world war 2 army teamed called " The Losers".
I loved the quote from the account of their final mission.
Johnny Cloud: "Ask my family and they'll tell you I was a Navajo. Ask the Army Air Force and they'll say I was an American. But if you ask my brothers, they'll set you straight. John Cloud was a Loser."
I was going to write about the fact that personalities and expression are defined by our language and means of expression , but that seems like a dry subject at best and like an exercise in philosophy that is best left to better , more lucid and eloquent minds to pontificate upon.. or maybe I will do it later.
Here something slightly more present in my life.
A Chinese Lion Dance costume particularly the head of the lion.
Did you know that they are made of a bamboo or sometimes ratan frame?
Did you know that they are then silk and and painted?
Did you know that they have a series of patterns painted on them and then fur and other materials are added to give them their final look ?
Did you also know that they are constructed in rural places in China and that the Chinese Lion Dancing troops will sometimes require sponsorship to acquire one?
The adventure in this case was shared by my brother and I . The adventure was restoring an old Lion head. My brother and I ended up restoring it after it was given as a gift to a martial school and they decided that they would start Lion Dancing. The Sifu would like the students to have a nice head to practice before acquiring a new one or while the school board looks for sponsors.
So the conversation went a little like this:
Sifu : Do you guys think the Lion head can be restored ?
Drafstman : I think so , there is a lot of damage , but it can be repaired .
Sifu : okay , do you think you and your brother can fix it and get it ready for the practice ?
Draftsman : sure ( with a really long "Su" sound and with a trailing "re".
so this is the unofficial Green Fire Creature Shop studio.
I am glad to say that the Lion Head is now done and is ready to return to the temple school of the school.
However the experience of working on a the Lion head made me wonder about the role of mythical creatures in eastern religions and philosophy. The lion , the dragon and the monkey are all divine in some way in their art and writing. In a lot of the western world and in our mythology creatures are monsters are to be killed destroyed and defeated by the hero.
Is it maybe that since these creatures no longer have room in our faith, in our dreams for a better tomorrow that they are then left to be the stuff of nightmares?
I want to remember to wish you all a happy 4th of July and tell you all that I am happy to live in a country that allows me such freedoms in expression and imagination. I am also happy to have been able to take the day off from work, but they first one makes me really happy.
Here something slightly more present in my life.
A Chinese Lion Dance costume particularly the head of the lion.
Did you know that they are made of a bamboo or sometimes ratan frame?
Did you know that they are then silk and and painted?
Did you know that they have a series of patterns painted on them and then fur and other materials are added to give them their final look ?
Did you also know that they are constructed in rural places in China and that the Chinese Lion Dancing troops will sometimes require sponsorship to acquire one?
The adventure in this case was shared by my brother and I . The adventure was restoring an old Lion head. My brother and I ended up restoring it after it was given as a gift to a martial school and they decided that they would start Lion Dancing. The Sifu would like the students to have a nice head to practice before acquiring a new one or while the school board looks for sponsors.
So the conversation went a little like this:
Sifu : Do you guys think the Lion head can be restored ?
Drafstman : I think so , there is a lot of damage , but it can be repaired .
Sifu : okay , do you think you and your brother can fix it and get it ready for the practice ?
Draftsman : sure ( with a really long "Su" sound and with a trailing "re".
so this is the unofficial Green Fire Creature Shop studio.
I am glad to say that the Lion Head is now done and is ready to return to the temple school of the school.
However the experience of working on a the Lion head made me wonder about the role of mythical creatures in eastern religions and philosophy. The lion , the dragon and the monkey are all divine in some way in their art and writing. In a lot of the western world and in our mythology creatures are monsters are to be killed destroyed and defeated by the hero.
Is it maybe that since these creatures no longer have room in our faith, in our dreams for a better tomorrow that they are then left to be the stuff of nightmares?
I want to remember to wish you all a happy 4th of July and tell you all that I am happy to live in a country that allows me such freedoms in expression and imagination. I am also happy to have been able to take the day off from work, but they first one makes me really happy.
Way too much has happened since the last time I blogged here.
I worked way hard on a project only to get more work thrown my way.
I went to C2E2 and met some really cool people that I should really take the time to email and hang out with.
My dad had a brain hemorrhage and had to have minor brain surgery to help him recover mobility of his right side.
My baby brother got his first job out of college and is finding out working for a living is hard and that money is nice.
I get home get some food and watch something on the computer as I have a very late dinner and then go to bed.
I have watched way too much Green Lantern , Young Justice and way too much Doctor Who rather than news or anything current on Television.
I am burnt out from work and the project is not anywhere near over.
I have been working super hard on a project since the start of the year and I have had to burn the midnight oil at couple of times in the last two months.
I was driving home one day after another long day at the office. I notice that the bill boards looked odd and as I kept driving I notice that it took a while and actual concentration for me to see the signs in the highway. My eyesight is tired form the long days and nights working . My eyes are just reacting like any other part of my body to exertion. I have not been working out , sleeping or eating well. This alone might make a regular person take stock and put their life in order, but to me the idea of not being able to see things clearly scared the hell out of me. I love images , art, colors, shapes and textures. I am a visual person and I get lost in art books, museums and websites. I love this site , because the body and images capture attention in a way that is almost hard to describe.
My goals are to get regular exercise in again, to blog , to sleep more and to hangout with some people.Maybe to have the luck to have lunch with them and geek out on a Saturday when I am not at work.
I have been on the site being a creep and not even commenting on the amazing sets that have gone up. I hope to change that.
I worked way hard on a project only to get more work thrown my way.
I went to C2E2 and met some really cool people that I should really take the time to email and hang out with.
My dad had a brain hemorrhage and had to have minor brain surgery to help him recover mobility of his right side.
My baby brother got his first job out of college and is finding out working for a living is hard and that money is nice.
I get home get some food and watch something on the computer as I have a very late dinner and then go to bed.
I have watched way too much Green Lantern , Young Justice and way too much Doctor Who rather than news or anything current on Television.
I am burnt out from work and the project is not anywhere near over.
I have been working super hard on a project since the start of the year and I have had to burn the midnight oil at couple of times in the last two months.
I was driving home one day after another long day at the office. I notice that the bill boards looked odd and as I kept driving I notice that it took a while and actual concentration for me to see the signs in the highway. My eyesight is tired form the long days and nights working . My eyes are just reacting like any other part of my body to exertion. I have not been working out , sleeping or eating well. This alone might make a regular person take stock and put their life in order, but to me the idea of not being able to see things clearly scared the hell out of me. I love images , art, colors, shapes and textures. I am a visual person and I get lost in art books, museums and websites. I love this site , because the body and images capture attention in a way that is almost hard to describe.
My goals are to get regular exercise in again, to blog , to sleep more and to hangout with some people.Maybe to have the luck to have lunch with them and geek out on a Saturday when I am not at work.
I have been on the site being a creep and not even commenting on the amazing sets that have gone up. I hope to change that.
I am at a loss for words, I can tall you all that work has been hectic, that I have been busy with just trivial things and that in all honesty I have been spending way too much time watching Hulu.
But I did do two drawings . I just like sketching and I lucky enough to do it sometimes and be inspired by something I see. I saw the fan art page and I decided to draw two of the girls that said they wanted drawings done.
Stigmata
and
Zebrah
hope you are all well and started the new year on the right foot.
But I did do two drawings . I just like sketching and I lucky enough to do it sometimes and be inspired by something I see. I saw the fan art page and I decided to draw two of the girls that said they wanted drawings done.
Stigmata
and
Zebrah
hope you are all well and started the new year on the right foot.
Apologize in advance for the transgressions of the year past and the year to come.
I am very bad a communication with human beings, I am insanely bad at communicating with people in general. I am possibly one of the most irreverently annoying human beings that tries to be pleasant and colossally fails to be so time and time again. I seem to lack that ability when I am stepping over the line or annoying , insulting and disturbing people in general. This is further compounded by the fact that I am an engineer and I deal with numbers not with people. I awkward as hell and the fact that engineering is not a social profession is not helping my predicament at all. I posted something to these affect earlier on so let me first warn you.
Warning "conversations and ideas that Draftsman has contain graphic displays on insanity, drug use, descriptions (pornographic not artistic ) nudity and violence. Any person easily offended , objectified , disturbed or embarrassed should not engage him in conversation, text messaging, or IM messaging. Discretion is advised.
The story behind the warning as it was written is simple. I pissed a very nice person, and would like to thanks facebook for help to make it public and lasting. Facebook making your private shame, public, lasting , and accessible to you, your friends , your acquaintances , companies and possible employers since 2004. How did people find out I was a douche before? They had to see me in person and wait for me to manage to be a douche and make an asshole out of myself at same time. Now all they have to do is friend me on facebook and other social media and wait. They not travel anywhere they can learn I am an idiot from home computer, and now smart phones.
The exchanges went as follows.
My friends ( I will refer to her as Elise) posted the following status update " Migraines are killing me. I think they are part of an evil ploy"
I posted the following comment "No, evil is seductive calm and alluring . I submit you are evil "
I know I am not only an idiot but I am creepy as well. This was bad and look back on this I wrote this out of turn and embarrassed about it. but it gets better. Elise's boyfriend did not like that comment. Now here is what happened next.
My Elise's little sister (now a 18 year fresh faced college freshman) status update "cannot decide what to wear to class today"
My friends boyfriend comment " go naked to class"
I simply stated that I agreed and second the motion.
I received a message from Elise later that day. I got from the gym and was checking facebook when I had turned on my netbook. I opened the message and as I read the last rays of sun left the room and I was so engrossed by the message that I did not stop reading until I was done. At the end I was sitting on a darkened room with only the glow of my netbook illuminating my face. In an unbelievably polite and diplomatic way she let me know my comments were appreciated , my way of communicating was proper and she was made uncomfortable by some other things I had said before. She went to a really good school and she has an English degree so has great command of the English language and used it.
I felt like awful and had such a sinking feeling on my chest all the way to the pit of my stomach. Elise very polite did not unfriend me on facebook and neither did her little sister. I send a reply message apologized and I have not commented on their status updates or even done the generic birthday wish on facebook since. I think it is better that way.
You would have thought after that episode . I would have learned my lesson and maybe taken stock of my behavior.After a while I decided that they had simply not gotten the joke or misunderstood me. I decided to compose the warning I posted at the start of this post and felt rather good about posting in front on my messages, emails and even a few texts. I decided like a sitcom character that I was on the right . Sarah Vowell described the best sitcom characters this way "they are cheerful at the same time that they're self-absorbed, and galling, and oblivious to the destruction left in their wake. Think Homer Simpson, Michael Scott on The Office, Ted Baxter from Mary Tyler Moore, Larry David, the entire cast of Seinfeld."
I could tell you that it was a bad time in my life. I could tell you that I had just gotten laid off about a month before this happened. After pouring my heart and soul into a project that not only was dead on delivery , but too a great toll on me personally. I could tell you that I was trying to find new ways to relate to the world after spending 15 months working and then three months waiting for the other shoe to drop and for my job to end. But those are just excuses and I should have known better.
I thought I had changed and grown since that episode . I had stopped kicking the joke of the warning around and tried my best to communicate with people. Now as I am approaching the end of the year. Well I can honestly tell you that I think I have missed the mark again. I have been creepy, unnerving and annoying to some of the most kind people I have ever had the pleasure of meeting, in real like and in this site as well.
Now I will ask you to please forgive me , but if you feel the slightest sense of me being creepy , annoying , or just plain wrong in something I say well please tell me, yell it , scream it, write it , and let know in any way.
I apologize and I mean it .
I would like to hope that I have something to say about it my life experience and I hope it is meaningful. I would like to start practicing the art of communication. I hope that just like Jackson Pollock conquered alcoholism through painting , like Frida Kahlo conquered social rejection through art and Alan Moore shared his ideas with the world through great story telling. I can try to become a better person by being edited and asked to express my ideas in a better way. The secret to writing is rewriting and I am hoping for a rewrite on my life.
Thank you.
I am very bad a communication with human beings, I am insanely bad at communicating with people in general. I am possibly one of the most irreverently annoying human beings that tries to be pleasant and colossally fails to be so time and time again. I seem to lack that ability when I am stepping over the line or annoying , insulting and disturbing people in general. This is further compounded by the fact that I am an engineer and I deal with numbers not with people. I awkward as hell and the fact that engineering is not a social profession is not helping my predicament at all. I posted something to these affect earlier on so let me first warn you.
Warning "conversations and ideas that Draftsman has contain graphic displays on insanity, drug use, descriptions (pornographic not artistic ) nudity and violence. Any person easily offended , objectified , disturbed or embarrassed should not engage him in conversation, text messaging, or IM messaging. Discretion is advised.
The story behind the warning as it was written is simple. I pissed a very nice person, and would like to thanks facebook for help to make it public and lasting. Facebook making your private shame, public, lasting , and accessible to you, your friends , your acquaintances , companies and possible employers since 2004. How did people find out I was a douche before? They had to see me in person and wait for me to manage to be a douche and make an asshole out of myself at same time. Now all they have to do is friend me on facebook and other social media and wait. They not travel anywhere they can learn I am an idiot from home computer, and now smart phones.
The exchanges went as follows.
My friends ( I will refer to her as Elise) posted the following status update " Migraines are killing me. I think they are part of an evil ploy"
I posted the following comment "No, evil is seductive calm and alluring . I submit you are evil "
I know I am not only an idiot but I am creepy as well. This was bad and look back on this I wrote this out of turn and embarrassed about it. but it gets better. Elise's boyfriend did not like that comment. Now here is what happened next.
My Elise's little sister (now a 18 year fresh faced college freshman) status update "cannot decide what to wear to class today"
My friends boyfriend comment " go naked to class"
I simply stated that I agreed and second the motion.
I received a message from Elise later that day. I got from the gym and was checking facebook when I had turned on my netbook. I opened the message and as I read the last rays of sun left the room and I was so engrossed by the message that I did not stop reading until I was done. At the end I was sitting on a darkened room with only the glow of my netbook illuminating my face. In an unbelievably polite and diplomatic way she let me know my comments were appreciated , my way of communicating was proper and she was made uncomfortable by some other things I had said before. She went to a really good school and she has an English degree so has great command of the English language and used it.
I felt like awful and had such a sinking feeling on my chest all the way to the pit of my stomach. Elise very polite did not unfriend me on facebook and neither did her little sister. I send a reply message apologized and I have not commented on their status updates or even done the generic birthday wish on facebook since. I think it is better that way.
You would have thought after that episode . I would have learned my lesson and maybe taken stock of my behavior.After a while I decided that they had simply not gotten the joke or misunderstood me. I decided to compose the warning I posted at the start of this post and felt rather good about posting in front on my messages, emails and even a few texts. I decided like a sitcom character that I was on the right . Sarah Vowell described the best sitcom characters this way "they are cheerful at the same time that they're self-absorbed, and galling, and oblivious to the destruction left in their wake. Think Homer Simpson, Michael Scott on The Office, Ted Baxter from Mary Tyler Moore, Larry David, the entire cast of Seinfeld."
I could tell you that it was a bad time in my life. I could tell you that I had just gotten laid off about a month before this happened. After pouring my heart and soul into a project that not only was dead on delivery , but too a great toll on me personally. I could tell you that I was trying to find new ways to relate to the world after spending 15 months working and then three months waiting for the other shoe to drop and for my job to end. But those are just excuses and I should have known better.
I thought I had changed and grown since that episode . I had stopped kicking the joke of the warning around and tried my best to communicate with people. Now as I am approaching the end of the year. Well I can honestly tell you that I think I have missed the mark again. I have been creepy, unnerving and annoying to some of the most kind people I have ever had the pleasure of meeting, in real like and in this site as well.
Now I will ask you to please forgive me , but if you feel the slightest sense of me being creepy , annoying , or just plain wrong in something I say well please tell me, yell it , scream it, write it , and let know in any way.
I apologize and I mean it .
I would like to hope that I have something to say about it my life experience and I hope it is meaningful. I would like to start practicing the art of communication. I hope that just like Jackson Pollock conquered alcoholism through painting , like Frida Kahlo conquered social rejection through art and Alan Moore shared his ideas with the world through great story telling. I can try to become a better person by being edited and asked to express my ideas in a better way. The secret to writing is rewriting and I am hoping for a rewrite on my life.
Thank you.
I am a lazy , lazy man. I have spent the afternoons of my weekend being not very productive and watching way too much Television on the internet.
Today I am just going to rant for a bit. I have been listening to the WTF Podcast with Marc Maron. It is a really funny and insightful show. If you like comedians , sitcoms or creative people. I think you would probably dig the show. Two of my favorite episodes that I have listened to have been the episode with Paul Raiser and Christopher Titus. I grew up watching the two sitcoms and I really enjoyed listening to their conversations talking about being comedians.
When I first got to the U.S. when I was 12 . I learned a lot of language watching Television. It was this weird window into the world that existed beyond my neighborhood and Spanish Language Television. I could not relate to watching Television in Spanish while living in the U.S. All they played was Soap Operas , the news , some skit comedy shows and really old movies from Mexico. The programs were only interrupted by commercials for big box retailers, money sending services ,and long distance telephone services with great rates to Mexico and south America. It all seemed geared to people that wanted to go back and spent a lot of time yearning to be in the old country.
I watched a lot of sitcoms growing up and partially it was because they were in English , but t allowed me to see new places in this world that I was now becoming a part of. It was through a steady cultural diet of sitcoms ,comic books, science fiction movies, cartoons and pornography that I developed my American personality. If you ever see those movies in which people learned to speak the English and they speak like sport casters , sitcom characters and/or news casters.
I did not go through all those phases , but I learned my speaking style and with from watching sitcoms and then later on comedians. Humor is how I saw America and humor is how I speak American.
Completely tangential and irrelevant rant over.
I hope you all have a great holiday season. If nothing else be happy you get to make out like a bandit if you have people in your life that are generous and give you a gift.
Today I am just going to rant for a bit. I have been listening to the WTF Podcast with Marc Maron. It is a really funny and insightful show. If you like comedians , sitcoms or creative people. I think you would probably dig the show. Two of my favorite episodes that I have listened to have been the episode with Paul Raiser and Christopher Titus. I grew up watching the two sitcoms and I really enjoyed listening to their conversations talking about being comedians.
When I first got to the U.S. when I was 12 . I learned a lot of language watching Television. It was this weird window into the world that existed beyond my neighborhood and Spanish Language Television. I could not relate to watching Television in Spanish while living in the U.S. All they played was Soap Operas , the news , some skit comedy shows and really old movies from Mexico. The programs were only interrupted by commercials for big box retailers, money sending services ,and long distance telephone services with great rates to Mexico and south America. It all seemed geared to people that wanted to go back and spent a lot of time yearning to be in the old country.
I watched a lot of sitcoms growing up and partially it was because they were in English , but t allowed me to see new places in this world that I was now becoming a part of. It was through a steady cultural diet of sitcoms ,comic books, science fiction movies, cartoons and pornography that I developed my American personality. If you ever see those movies in which people learned to speak the English and they speak like sport casters , sitcom characters and/or news casters.
I did not go through all those phases , but I learned my speaking style and with from watching sitcoms and then later on comedians. Humor is how I saw America and humor is how I speak American.
Completely tangential and irrelevant rant over.
I hope you all have a great holiday season. If nothing else be happy you get to make out like a bandit if you have people in your life that are generous and give you a gift.
One of the national holidays in Mexico was the 12th of December.
It had a the amazing things associated with all the holidays listed above. It gave us the day free from school, it had it’s special televised programs and it was truly Mexican as it celebrated the clash of two cultures in the land that is now know as Mexico.
It marked the start of the holiday season for me and it was a great prelude to the posadas that would start a week after. I loved celebrating the day of the virgin of Guadalupe , because like many Mexicans I was raised with the image being the patron saint of the country and because like many other Mexicans “Guadalupe” is part of my name. It’s my middle name so I get to latch on to the holiday and sometimes even get money from my grandparents. Now as a more or less a lapsed catholic , I still enjoy the holiday as a sign of Latino cultural integration and the celebration of my heritage.
The one thing that is amazing is the amount of Tattoos that the Virgin of Guadalupe is featured in. I am amazed at the amount , colors , variations and interpretations that people have taken to that image. Specially with something like a tattoo. I was watching a documentary about Ed Hardy and he said that Tattoos are something for the here and now. The idea that you getting an image put on you permanently that speaks of an afterlife and hope for the future is an interesting one that I would like to discuss with someone.
If anyone has a tattoo of the virgin of Guadalupe please tell me the story, impulse or meaning of it to you. I hope you are all well people of SG and that you try to enjoy the season.
I meant to post this on Monday , but life got in the way.
I am a bit frustrated and annoyed . I am and is mostly at myself , but a little at you SG. I seriously spent the last hour trying to come up with anything clever well put together and somewhat entertaining to put on this blog and I have nothing. But when I do have some pretty strong convictions and I think this is the best place for them.
So here are a few sets that I think are really hot and that I think we should give some love to.
Why cause I have nothing else to say today? So when in doubt be a cheer leader for those people doing something you agree with.
First the hopefuls .
Delora has an amazing set that I think deserves a ton more love and attention. The color scheme and poses may seem simple , but I think that is in the effort to let us see more of her and not have our attention be drawn away from her.
So check out her Set True Blue
Two of my favorite shots.
that is one sweet looking booty.
Now a net sets that I just saw today and I truly like. In fact I saw it and instead of voting for it. I am blogging about it, because I want more people to see it and then I am voting for it.
SheilaSavage has a hot set . I will not spoil the surprise by trying to tell you why it is hot , I will just give you the link and encourage you to go check it out.
Quiet Time
Two of my favorite shots
Now you may have noticed from the last two recommendations that I love a good looking booty . If you have noticed you are quite astute and if you have voted for those two sets I commend your good taste.
Now for the two sets that have gotten a ton of love , but deserve to get bought alreay. This why I am pissed at SG.
But enough ranting.
Chrysis has an amazing. She has a gorgeous booty and I know for a fact that she has another sets with even more sweet booty shots . She took it down for personal reasons. But I am hoping that if this sets gets bought we might see her do another set.
So I am recommending.
Needful Things
Again two pics I like.
Now I know I recommended this set last week and it is a new week and it is still a great set.
Kraven's set Ruby Red
Please show it some love , please help it get to the front page. The set speaks for itself ,but in case you forgot.
Two pics.
Now in closing. I did not know that this site had a social aspect. I did not know it had blogs, groups and that I would have a profile here. I thought I was just going to be an anonymous fan and have no idea as to who the women behind the sets were. When I fist met the girls at the comic con I was surprised as to how warn, funny and sweet they were to me. I was thinking how cool are these people. If Suicide Girls hired them , they did one hell of a job. Then I got on the site and realized this is not just them working a show and trying to sell memberships, they really are that cool.
My favorite picture of that weekend is the following . It has SG's it has a booty shot and it has a lot of my favorite SG's in it.
So here are a few sets that I think are really hot and that I think we should give some love to.
Why cause I have nothing else to say today? So when in doubt be a cheer leader for those people doing something you agree with.
First the hopefuls .
Delora has an amazing set that I think deserves a ton more love and attention. The color scheme and poses may seem simple , but I think that is in the effort to let us see more of her and not have our attention be drawn away from her.
So check out her Set True Blue
Two of my favorite shots.
that is one sweet looking booty.
Now a net sets that I just saw today and I truly like. In fact I saw it and instead of voting for it. I am blogging about it, because I want more people to see it and then I am voting for it.
SheilaSavage has a hot set . I will not spoil the surprise by trying to tell you why it is hot , I will just give you the link and encourage you to go check it out.
Quiet Time
Two of my favorite shots
Now you may have noticed from the last two recommendations that I love a good looking booty . If you have noticed you are quite astute and if you have voted for those two sets I commend your good taste.
Now for the two sets that have gotten a ton of love , but deserve to get bought alreay. This why I am pissed at SG.
But enough ranting.
Chrysis has an amazing. She has a gorgeous booty and I know for a fact that she has another sets with even more sweet booty shots . She took it down for personal reasons. But I am hoping that if this sets gets bought we might see her do another set.
So I am recommending.
Needful Things
Again two pics I like.
Now I know I recommended this set last week and it is a new week and it is still a great set.
Kraven's set Ruby Red
Please show it some love , please help it get to the front page. The set speaks for itself ,but in case you forgot.
Two pics.
Now in closing. I did not know that this site had a social aspect. I did not know it had blogs, groups and that I would have a profile here. I thought I was just going to be an anonymous fan and have no idea as to who the women behind the sets were. When I fist met the girls at the comic con I was surprised as to how warn, funny and sweet they were to me. I was thinking how cool are these people. If Suicide Girls hired them , they did one hell of a job. Then I got on the site and realized this is not just them working a show and trying to sell memberships, they really are that cool.
My favorite picture of that weekend is the following . It has SG's it has a booty shot and it has a lot of my favorite SG's in it.
