Hey

Time for an update, mostly for chronological reasons.

I had a seriously craptastic day at work on friday. There's a little cord that you often need when your handheld computer needs to talk to the computer at the store you're delivering to. I needed it every day this week and I only remembered it one out of four days before I had left the DC. You'd think I'd remember it given how much I get bitten on the ass not having it. But I really do have ADD and I really am not a morning, as in wake up at 345 to arrive at work at 5am person, and I really totally don't remember it. But anyway on friday I remembered it a couple miles out from the DC and I turned at the first large parking lot I came across. Making that hard turn into a bumpy parking lot may have contributed to the two pallets of 2-liter bottles that I found I had tipped over when I arrived at my first stop. Picking all that shit up really cost me time. An then when I got to the stop where I needed that cord for the computers, the transmission from computer to computer didn't work (again!) and I got really fucked for time trying to get that sorted out. So by the time my first two stops were completed I was probably an hour and a half behind schedule, and at the end of the day I had to call my boss and tell him I wasn't going to be able to complete all of my stops. When they load your truck to the back of the trailer so that you can't close the door when your electric pallet jack is under one of the pallets, it is absolutely necessary that shit NOT happen, but shit always happens to me.

I had a much better time at the open mic that night, although I was so tired and mentally fried that I blanked on the chords to one of the songs I do all the time, but whatever.

One truth about life that buddhism recognizes is that you are where you most want to be. I chew on that one a lot. In a certain sense that is absolutely true, but on the other hand you can never be certain what's in a place until you get there, but however close to the mark it works out to be it's close enough to be relevant. Which is a telling point about your decision making habits when your life sucks.