Well hello again.

Been feeling pretty blah as of late. I phoned my brother's boss at coca cola on thursday and he told me that they're still taking applications and he'll call me at the end of next week. I hate inconclusive phone conversations. I hate phones period. Also doesn't improve my mood that my car seems to be acting up.

Maybe I shouldn't have quit werner before I knew I had this next job, but on the other hand I was seriously hating what I was doing before, and If I hadn't quit It's quite possible I would not have been able to get the time for the interview and application so as to be able to escape my previous occupation.

Last night I went out and played some guitar again. The Smith chicks are coming back to northampton again after intersession, which is a fine thing. I could take two of them home and they'd add up to my age so that wouldn't be creepy, right? But anyway one of them played a couple of songs with us, and said she'd come back next week when someone asked her if she would, but I think she was looking a little exasperated at how disorganized it was. Actually last night two of the people who sort of form the backbone of the usual gathering weren't there so I was more or less one of the old guard after maybe my fifth time there. I did a couple of new songs I'd just learned. Pink by Aerosmith and Ball and chain by Social Distortion. I'm pretty sure noone's previously done Pink.

I've also been taking some photographs in my free time. My camera has a wide format setting that I really love, it's like shooting movie stills. It's actually a more efficient format, in my opinion, than the formats more toward square, because most things on the surface of the earth are more or less arraged laterally. But books have tended to have had a more vertical format, so as to prevent ink smudging. The SG format is also not great for showing parnoramic views given the fairly narrow window of active space. You could use the panoramic for verticals but they'd tend to run off the screen, and if you don't have perspective shift on you camera or feel like messing around in photoshop to correct it, you get what I find to be an awkward appearance

oh whatever.

I'd kind of like to get a 6x12 cm back for my speed graphic by my speed graphic just has a spring back that those kinds of backs won't fit. So I could get a different large format camera or just use the technique of cutting a darkslide in half and taking two panoramic photos on one sheet of 4x5. Which is of course way cheaper but a little awkward, and you'd have to work out some system for keeping track of which side of the 4x5 neg you'd already exposed.

For a couple of years now I've been wanting to take some pics of the ancient abandoned cars that are across the river from my house. I finally figured out how to get to them last weekend. I grossly miscalculated where I though they'd be from the road on the other side of the river, and bushwhacked maybe half an unneccesay mile before I got to them, and eventually found that they were fairly readily accessible if you know where they are. Which I guess makes me an "Experienced Photographer"

I also went out and got some pics in the latest, milder snowstorm. Driving drucks for family dollar, snow was something that caused me dread, and I hated that because I'm an aesthetically motivated person and I want snow to be an object of wonder and beauty. I guess now it may be both depending on what I'm doing at coca cola.

My brain like always still wants to run anxious and depressed, and like always, I'm working on it. playing out is actually therapeutic.







I have a feeling it wasn't the diamond sutra per se, or maybe it was, but there's a buddhist sort of thought-statement that every point in the universe is a diamond that reflects every other point in the universe. Everything mixes together freely and without distinction. The cars remind me of that, dissolving back into the dust that they were smelted from. Entropy is sort of a flow back into oneness.