No one has commented on my daring new profile pic. My frail ego has been crushed. 
It WOULD have been nice, of course. In talking with a friend, I recently realized that I have a big ego, that I want to be hailed as fantastic and incredible in all things. Combined with my usual perfectionism, it may be at the root of my low self-esteem. Rather humbling realization, that.
It WOULD have been nice, of course. In talking with a friend, I recently realized that I have a big ego, that I want to be hailed as fantastic and incredible in all things. Combined with my usual perfectionism, it may be at the root of my low self-esteem. Rather humbling realization, that.
A non-unhappy journal for a change. Met an online friend I rarely get to see at a Mechwarrior tournament and had fun. A stressful week seems to be getting better.
I may be able to finally get a decenly proportioned pic in my profile!
I may be able to finally get a decenly proportioned pic in my profile!
I'm feeling very depressed now and I can't say why. Or explain why, rather.
Looking at my pic here doesn't help... aside from the way I look, I just couldnt' get it to edit to a non-distorted view.
Looking at my pic here doesn't help... aside from the way I look, I just couldnt' get it to edit to a non-distorted view.
My, I was stupid... a month or so ago I hit the limit on my credit card and when I came to SG, it wasn't working... I figured a payment had bounced and fretted while missing it... Yesterday I finally paid it down and came back... only to find it working! Whoops... should have checked more. It made me realize how much I like and missed the SG community though.
Speaking of community, I rode the bus to work today and many people on it were going to the college football game, wearing their shirts and talking with enthusiasm, even to people who got on wearing the other team's gear. They weren't being obnoxious or stupid, but somehow I found myself very annoyed, and then disturbed by it. They weren't bothering me... I have no use for sports, but there was no cause to get irate... I would be unhappy if someone else got bothered about what fun thing I might be doing.
Speaking of community, I rode the bus to work today and many people on it were going to the college football game, wearing their shirts and talking with enthusiasm, even to people who got on wearing the other team's gear. They weren't being obnoxious or stupid, but somehow I found myself very annoyed, and then disturbed by it. They weren't bothering me... I have no use for sports, but there was no cause to get irate... I would be unhappy if someone else got bothered about what fun thing I might be doing.
Happy birthday to me. Another year older and deeper in debt.
I had an interesting experience today... a bus friend I was talking with about tattoos asked me about Suicide Girls, and if it was worth joining. A tattoo artist she knows had pictures linked here, it seems. I told her yes, but that she might not get as much out of looking at nude tattooed women as I do. She surprised me by saying she thought she would!
I had an interesting experience today... a bus friend I was talking with about tattoos asked me about Suicide Girls, and if it was worth joining. A tattoo artist she knows had pictures linked here, it seems. I told her yes, but that she might not get as much out of looking at nude tattooed women as I do. She surprised me by saying she thought she would!
Back from San Diego! Back into the mad Phoenix heat that has friends and relatives calling to see if I'm OK. It's not THAT bad, but it sure isn't fun. Praise air conditioning and sports drinks!
Met lots of con friends at SDCC as usual and bought stuff... mainly sketchbooks by artists I like and exotic porn, cartoon and live.
Met lots of con friends at SDCC as usual and bought stuff... mainly sketchbooks by artists I like and exotic porn, cartoon and live.
Almost time for San Diego! My big trip for the year, a time geeking out like crazy! Is anyone else going?
WHY do people think it's amusing to scream out their windows at people on the street? This happens to me almost EVERY DAMN DAY, and I HATE IT. Riding my bike or waiting for a bus, some asshole things it's fun to lean out and scream "AAAAHHHHHH" or something. It's startling to me, since I'm usually reading a book or thinking, when I'm standing, or concentrating on riding safely.
I'm an even tempered person and it takes a lot to get me mad... except that. I scream right back, my blood pumping... or do something even more stupid... I try to chase them down if I'm on my bike and catch them at a light to give them a piece of my mind. Sometimes it works, but it's never productive, and one time the abortion followed me and threw a fork at me, which hit my elbow and dug in. Stupid and dagerous on my part, but I can't help myself. It just makes me FURIOUS. It's an act of such complete and utter mindlessness directed at me.
I'm an even tempered person and it takes a lot to get me mad... except that. I scream right back, my blood pumping... or do something even more stupid... I try to chase them down if I'm on my bike and catch them at a light to give them a piece of my mind. Sometimes it works, but it's never productive, and one time the abortion followed me and threw a fork at me, which hit my elbow and dug in. Stupid and dagerous on my part, but I can't help myself. It just makes me FURIOUS. It's an act of such complete and utter mindlessness directed at me.
I could never be a blogger... nothing interesting enough to mention online happens to me, and I'm bad at using this sort of forum to vent. When I feel sad, I keep it to myself, since telling people my problems just spreads them around. Better to keep it inside so only I am sad instead of others.
