For the first time in the longest time I didn't actually turn my PC on once over the entire weekend! Which feels weird for some reason!
I ended up finally going to Ikea to get some new bookcases... slight problem being that in the years since I last bought my bookcases Ikea has redefined what they class as "beech"... of course in the place it looks right - you get it home and compare it to the ones you bought years ago and they're a different colour! Still I'm not too bothered but it did annoy me slightly on the day.
Anyway it's valentines day tomorrow and I've finally persuaded my Dad to actually do something this year... yes you read that right I has to talk him into doing something for valentines day! He basically just ignores it every year and my Mum gets seriously pissed off about it... unfortunately my Dad isn't the most perceptive of people and this goes over his head every year. So I finally persuaded him to book a table at a restaurant and get her a card... two relatively small gestures but I'm hoping they will at least put a smile on her face. I'm just hoping nothing goes wrong that I'll end up getting the blame for!
As for my valentines day it will be spent reading old Judge Dredd strips from the 70's... ahhh it's good being a geek!
I ended up finally going to Ikea to get some new bookcases... slight problem being that in the years since I last bought my bookcases Ikea has redefined what they class as "beech"... of course in the place it looks right - you get it home and compare it to the ones you bought years ago and they're a different colour! Still I'm not too bothered but it did annoy me slightly on the day.
Anyway it's valentines day tomorrow and I've finally persuaded my Dad to actually do something this year... yes you read that right I has to talk him into doing something for valentines day! He basically just ignores it every year and my Mum gets seriously pissed off about it... unfortunately my Dad isn't the most perceptive of people and this goes over his head every year. So I finally persuaded him to book a table at a restaurant and get her a card... two relatively small gestures but I'm hoping they will at least put a smile on her face. I'm just hoping nothing goes wrong that I'll end up getting the blame for!
As for my valentines day it will be spent reading old Judge Dredd strips from the 70's... ahhh it's good being a geek!
Isn't it funny when the lyrics to one of your favourite songs suddenly seems so relevant...
I guess sometimes you can't help the way the world turns...
Sorry this a totally half-hearted update I actually wrote like a fuckin' essay and then deleted it. This update represents an hours work!
I guess sometimes you can't help the way the world turns...
Sorry this a totally half-hearted update I actually wrote like a fuckin' essay and then deleted it. This update represents an hours work!
An Apology To fpkk and Perdy...
Something you should know about me is that I consider myself a borderline sociophobe... it's important that you understand I'm naturally a very truthful person and by saying I consider myself a borderline sociophobe I am not being flippant.
I have a trick to deal with it and that is to never dwell on things... my main problem is that I can often worry about something so much that just avoiding it is easier. So after many years I have developed a method wherein I can plan a social event and then forget about it until it happens so it's more of a spur of the moment thing.
Anyway the thing with the meet up in Liverpool was I was nervous anyway but once fpkk had told me we'd meet up first for a drink I was good to go... but of course nothing was arranged beyond that and by the time it got to Friday night and I didn't know what was happening my fucked up mind was already spriralling out of control...
I'm not laying the blame on anyone other than myself I know a normal person should be able to meet up in a pub without much incident... so I apologise.
If it's any consolation my mother has been deeply unhappy recently (I think mental problems may run in the family... not that I'd ever tell her that!) and tonight we had a chinese, watched a movie and had a good laugh - which is something she hasn't done for a long time. So in a way I'm glad I didn't waste my night fretting about being an idiot (which I'm doing now!)... but I do also owe you both an apology...
I hope next time I can make it and fpkk I know the odds on you coming to Liverpool again are slim so maybe we can meet up another time.
Again apologies...
Something you should know about me is that I consider myself a borderline sociophobe... it's important that you understand I'm naturally a very truthful person and by saying I consider myself a borderline sociophobe I am not being flippant.
I have a trick to deal with it and that is to never dwell on things... my main problem is that I can often worry about something so much that just avoiding it is easier. So after many years I have developed a method wherein I can plan a social event and then forget about it until it happens so it's more of a spur of the moment thing.
Anyway the thing with the meet up in Liverpool was I was nervous anyway but once fpkk had told me we'd meet up first for a drink I was good to go... but of course nothing was arranged beyond that and by the time it got to Friday night and I didn't know what was happening my fucked up mind was already spriralling out of control...
I'm not laying the blame on anyone other than myself I know a normal person should be able to meet up in a pub without much incident... so I apologise.
If it's any consolation my mother has been deeply unhappy recently (I think mental problems may run in the family... not that I'd ever tell her that!) and tonight we had a chinese, watched a movie and had a good laugh - which is something she hasn't done for a long time. So in a way I'm glad I didn't waste my night fretting about being an idiot (which I'm doing now!)... but I do also owe you both an apology...
I hope next time I can make it and fpkk I know the odds on you coming to Liverpool again are slim so maybe we can meet up another time.
Again apologies...
Well I had a great weekend at my mate's house surrounded by his ever-increasing army of babies! The really nice thing was that they got me a Christmas present to say thanks for all the things I've got for them since they started procreating so proficiently - which caught me totally off-guard (the present that is... not the procreating)!
Kaya, the only one whose old enought to talk semi-coherantly, kept telling me that this lone present on the mantlepiece was for me and I had to open it... because it was the last thing I was expecting I didn't actually believe her and it wasn't until Lee & Kellie came back in the room and I mentioned that Kaya wanted me to open the present that they told me it was a surprise for me! I mean it wasn't much (it was a Toy Biz "Figure Factory" Wolverine toy) but because it was so unexpected it really put a smile on my face!
Typical isn't it - I get into the Christmas spirit mid-January!
Kaya, the only one whose old enought to talk semi-coherantly, kept telling me that this lone present on the mantlepiece was for me and I had to open it... because it was the last thing I was expecting I didn't actually believe her and it wasn't until Lee & Kellie came back in the room and I mentioned that Kaya wanted me to open the present that they told me it was a surprise for me! I mean it wasn't much (it was a Toy Biz "Figure Factory" Wolverine toy) but because it was so unexpected it really put a smile on my face!
Typical isn't it - I get into the Christmas spirit mid-January!
I think that last post was a little unfair of me - I guess after a few drinks my desperate need for attention raised it's ugly little head!
So I don't normally do New Year's resolutions but I'm going to try and do my best to post at least semi-regular non-dramatic journal updates. So let's get on with the banality...
I've been spending so little time here these last few weeks because I've been watching Smallville all the hours God sends! I bought Seasons 1 & 2 on DVD last year, watched them at a fairly leisurely pace and really enjoyed them. Then at Christmas I picked up Seasons 2 & 3 with plans to watch them at the same leisurely pace... until I found out E4 were getting ready to start airing Season 5 here in the UK! So I've been watching several episodes every night so I'll be ready to watch Season 5 (it actually started last night but as long as I'm caught up by Sunday I can watch the repeat... finally cable tv has it's uses)!
So I don't normally do New Year's resolutions but I'm going to try and do my best to post at least semi-regular non-dramatic journal updates. So let's get on with the banality...
I've been spending so little time here these last few weeks because I've been watching Smallville all the hours God sends! I bought Seasons 1 & 2 on DVD last year, watched them at a fairly leisurely pace and really enjoyed them. Then at Christmas I picked up Seasons 2 & 3 with plans to watch them at the same leisurely pace... until I found out E4 were getting ready to start airing Season 5 here in the UK! So I've been watching several episodes every night so I'll be ready to watch Season 5 (it actually started last night but as long as I'm caught up by Sunday I can watch the repeat... finally cable tv has it's uses)!
I feel like shouting a big FUCK YOU to the world, trying to convince the puppet-masters that I know my place and I am well and truly beaten, that all hope has long since been bled from me... but sadly I'm too stupid for that to even be true... there's still a little beacon of light burning and the coward in me wishes it would blow out so I could give up because having just enough hope to get through each day is just so fucking hard...
That said if anyone reads this and you buy into the fake sentiment of New Years... Happy New Year! If you don't and you're like me... you'll be in my prayers... but I wouldn't hold your breath on that helping you.
It's all so very wrong
It shouldn't be this way
Incresingly more complicated
Each successive day
That said if anyone reads this and you buy into the fake sentiment of New Years... Happy New Year! If you don't and you're like me... you'll be in my prayers... but I wouldn't hold your breath on that helping you.
It's all so very wrong
It shouldn't be this way
Incresingly more complicated
Each successive day
So last week I went to see Miles Hunt (of The Wonder Stuff) in Liverpool and it was great... I was dateless but fuck it - I don't think I would have enjoyed it as much had I not been alone.
I really am increcibly lazy but I mentioned in fpkk's journal a week or so ago that I'd come up with a new character and was going to do a webstrip with him... of course my initial gusto (basically a lunch hour spent with a biro and a notepad!) wore off but I like the idea of trying to do something so hopefully, if I can find time, I will do something with the two guys I doodled into existence... Badly Drawn Goth and Steve (his flatmate)...
Now for anyone who thinks I may be making fun of goths - I'm not! If anything I'm making fun of myself (even though I'm not technically a goth). Essentially the strip (if I ever do it) is basically a one-joke kinda thing... basically Badly Drawn Goth expressing himself and his interests in his own thoughts but when he comes to express himself verbally it goes tits up... essentially he is me! Will the idea work??? Who knows - but I already have a few written it's just a matter of drawing them!...
That's all for now!
I really am increcibly lazy but I mentioned in fpkk's journal a week or so ago that I'd come up with a new character and was going to do a webstrip with him... of course my initial gusto (basically a lunch hour spent with a biro and a notepad!) wore off but I like the idea of trying to do something so hopefully, if I can find time, I will do something with the two guys I doodled into existence... Badly Drawn Goth and Steve (his flatmate)...
Now for anyone who thinks I may be making fun of goths - I'm not! If anything I'm making fun of myself (even though I'm not technically a goth). Essentially the strip (if I ever do it) is basically a one-joke kinda thing... basically Badly Drawn Goth expressing himself and his interests in his own thoughts but when he comes to express himself verbally it goes tits up... essentially he is me! Will the idea work??? Who knows - but I already have a few written it's just a matter of drawing them!...
That's all for now!
Well my mind is back - hence no proper updates!
Today I got in touch with an old work colleague to brag about my new Alex Ross artwork (it's only fun bragging about something like that with someone who actually understands what it is!) and we ended up arranging to meet up for a drink - it's funny I can get a date with a gay guy no problem - it's just the ladies I seem to have the problem with!
Dissapointment of the week - the Star Wars Episode III DVD which although contains the superior of the prequel movies is let down by the least impressive collection of extras compared to the other prequel DVDs (there is so much missing that you can't help but think that ol' Georgey boy is holding on to it for the inevitable "Complete Saga" box set!
But life is good... well it's better than it was...
Today I got in touch with an old work colleague to brag about my new Alex Ross artwork (it's only fun bragging about something like that with someone who actually understands what it is!) and we ended up arranging to meet up for a drink - it's funny I can get a date with a gay guy no problem - it's just the ladies I seem to have the problem with!
Dissapointment of the week - the Star Wars Episode III DVD which although contains the superior of the prequel movies is let down by the least impressive collection of extras compared to the other prequel DVDs (there is so much missing that you can't help but think that ol' Georgey boy is holding on to it for the inevitable "Complete Saga" box set!
But life is good... well it's better than it was...
So I had a day off from everything, did no exercise, ate lots of chinese food, even had a can of lager (woooo a whole can!), watched Doctor Who... and generally did very little for the whole day... and today I've put on 3½lbs! But it felt good!
I also spent $855 (just uner £500) on a piece of artwork by Alex Ross (see above)! What's the point of having £9k in the bank if you can't buy the occassional extravagant purchase! Of course this means that my new tattoo will go on the back burner for a while!
I also had the weirdest dream about apologising to Heather - I'm not sure if that's a good sign or a bad one... I guess I'll find out when I next see her!
EDIT: I just realised the moral of this update... saving money and losing weight is great but spending money and putting on weight is fuckin' awesome! Yin and yang and all that!
I also spent $855 (just uner £500) on a piece of artwork by Alex Ross (see above)! What's the point of having £9k in the bank if you can't buy the occassional extravagant purchase! Of course this means that my new tattoo will go on the back burner for a while!
I also had the weirdest dream about apologising to Heather - I'm not sure if that's a good sign or a bad one... I guess I'll find out when I next see her!
EDIT: I just realised the moral of this update... saving money and losing weight is great but spending money and putting on weight is fuckin' awesome!
Yin and yang and all that! I suppose one of the good things about being unattached is being able to unashamedly be a complete nerd... so I can boast that I got this in the post today...
Aside from the recent updated Christopher Eccleston (and soon to be David Tennant) version I haven't watched Doctor Who since I was a teenager (actually that's not true as I did watch the Paul McGann TV-movie when it came out back in my University days but technically the series-proper ended in '89 so I would have been 13)!
Anyway Jon Pertwee was always my favourite (I was also a huge Worzel Gummidge fan!) and seeing as "The Green Death" DVD also features a spoof mockumentary featuring Mark Gatiss from the League of Gentlemen I picked that one!
So anwyay this weekend I will be re-visiting classic Who for the first time in over 16 years and geeking out... I may even get a Chinese because I've lost another few pounds this week so I think I can treat myself!
Aside from the recent updated Christopher Eccleston (and soon to be David Tennant) version I haven't watched Doctor Who since I was a teenager (actually that's not true as I did watch the Paul McGann TV-movie when it came out back in my University days but technically the series-proper ended in '89 so I would have been 13)!
Anyway Jon Pertwee was always my favourite (I was also a huge Worzel Gummidge fan!) and seeing as "The Green Death" DVD also features a spoof mockumentary featuring Mark Gatiss from the League of Gentlemen I picked that one!
So anwyay this weekend I will be re-visiting classic Who for the first time in over 16 years and geeking out... I may even get a Chinese because I've lost another few pounds this week so I think I can treat myself!
