Alexander....

My heart burned for you
I writhed in pain an uncertainty waiting for you to have me, to make me yours
I wanted you more than any man I have ever known
I wanted your chaos and your torture
I knew you would always keep me alive,and anguished
Your world is the darkest I have ever seen and been inside
You let me in and I took into myself all of your own depths of Hell, and fear, and madness
I became a dark entity within myself for you, and burned for you, and you alone
You torturned and tormented me, raging, and breaking me
I lived in a prison cell of my own making in assisting this ritual
Your ruined me
Everything I was
Everything that I wasn't
You took away
I could not save you
Instead of saving you, I allowed you to drag me down into your Hell
You finally let me go
I looked back too many times, always wishing to save you
Perhaps saving you was saving me in a way
I cut off the part of me that was you
You were a cancerous limb
You were killing me inside
No one has ever made me feel as dead
I laid you to rest in my head
There was a funeral for you in my heart
This letter is your eulogy
You are now dead to me
You will never come back to life
There is no sadness, no regret, I will move on
I will never forget
Sometimes one part of us has to die, so a new part can be born, and live
The part of me that you killed died with you
Now I am something else
And to the something else I am, you are nothing.