So I have left Ft Campbell, no more ground pounding deployments with the infantry. Now I am in the sweltering southern Alabama base known as Ft Rucker. Working out of the rotary wing beast (Flight Medic). So next time I grace a battlefield it will be from above I will be the Dustoff.

sitting with my friend jim beam wondering if i am the only one who thinks like me....
wants to be something great but thinks in the impossible,,,
wants to be man without killing the kid inside
wants to be free but bound by contract
wants to be happy but burdened with loss and pessamissim
wants to know how to spell ...lol

So turns out patrolling with all the weight we have to carry has destroyed my shoulder. Well my labrum to be specific. Now I need surgery to repair and the SF Doc I talked to say it took 18 months to fully recover..........
18 months wtf!!!! I can not do it till I PCS to ft rucker or i am stuck here...... I am not sure what to do. This sucks

Sitting at North Shore enjoying the great waves, weather, and Mai Tai's!!!!!!!!!!!!

So lost a Soldier Spc Johnaton Hall, 22, Fort Campbell died April 7th 2010 Yosuf Kel, Afghanistan ied strike. Great human being, Solid Medic will be missed by all Markie Mark Rip...................

So not sure if anybody will actually read this but i appreciate the ladies of suicide girls and would love to continue to follow but i have to deploy again and will be on restricted internet which totally blows! I wish i didnt have to leave my friends and family especially my daughter whom i adore even if she doesn't know it. I hope to be catching up on all i have missed in about 12 months. Dueces bitches!

SO i managed to ruin everything I had been working for in one stupid moment. Good intentions do not count for anything. I am lost and have no idea where to go from here. It was finally working out what the fuck!

So now i am approximately one month out from deploying again. I have a lot of mixed emotions leaving for war again, some are the same as before, some are completely new. I think i am dealing with stress a little better then before, spent a lot more time with my family which we will see how that effects everyone. Different country, different role, same enemy, same fears of a violent demise, same fears of failure costing one there life. Ah what does 2010 hold for us.

I try to think we as a people have made huge advancements socially but I go to any mall and it seems to be the complete opposite. Its has became a place where poor parents drop their children off to roam and act in utter disarray.

I have notice that life is hard, to gain respect, social status, wealth, security, it really is a day to day battle to make the right decisions to end up at the place we want to be at the end of the night. Most youths want to take the easy way rather then fight for it take it by force then the right way it seems to be a growing trend. people need to start taking an active role in society ass the lowest levels this not something that can be fixed from the top down and soon.

Meanwhile I'll be in trying to fix a country across the world where half the populus doesn't want help in the first place.

so its been a minute since my last entry been wrapping up are training for deployment, went to promotion board, and now enjoying some well deserved leave before deployment. I just wish are brigade commander didnt think running 10 miles wass a good way to celebrate damn my knees hurt. Hope i make points within the next decade deploying as a staff sergeant should would be nice for my jet ski fund. well time to go tie one on.