well i bought a motorcycle yesterday. i got to pick it up today since they had to assemble it since it was in a crate at the time i was rang up for my purchase. i rode it around town this afternoon and had a fucking blast. i can't wait to ride it some more. praise jesus for 70mpg. fuck you chevron. pictures will come in a bit. i am currently getting ready to go to sacramento to see a friend of mine. unfortunately i'm not taking my bike since i don't have a license yet, and my only real experience riding has been today. i do plan to ride to SC in a week and a half though once i have a permit as long as my bike can handle it. well, time to eat and then leave. ciao!

i shot a wedding yesterday. it was a lot of fun. i took roughly 1,500 pictures in 5 hours. that's 300 pics an hour, or 5 pics every minute..... that's if you want to break it down that way. i decided officially that i need to do photography for a living. even if i'm a fucking wedding photographer. i don't care anymore. i haven't felt as good as i did yesterday in a long time. i want to take pictures for a living. i'm going to add stuff to my website in the next week or so since i'm still in the process of moving. i'm also going to change my photo site name. i'm going to stray from DisposableImaging. i love the name but professionally i don't think it will nab me any clients. i think i've decided on H&S Photography since i have a partner in crime now. we'll see how things go.

I just applied to work for Apple in SF. I really hope I get the job. It is for an Assistant Manager position there. Hopefully my management experience with Starbucks will be enough to get my foot in the door for an interview. I need to GTFO of Modesto. I'm still on vacation right now. I don't have to go back until the 21st. It's been fun having my friend Hans here. We've just been hanging out having a grand 'ol time.

I ordered 2 new lenses for my Rebel. One will be showing up today. It is a 50mm f/1.8 lens. My other lens should be here by Friday. It is a 28-105mm f/3.5 lens. I got these because of the wedding that I have to shoot at the end of this month. I'm excited and nervous about it. I've never shot a wedding, but I can't wait to do it. Well, wish me luck I suppose.

i'm getting a new tattoo today. pictures will hopefully come later.

alright, my few days of depression are over. i haven't felt shitty like that in a long time. i suppose it's good for me to feel down sometimes. now i have a better appreciation for everything else. well, i'm torn at the moment. i'm thinking of getting another tattoo. i would love something scientific or atheistic. i'm thinking of either a pair of atoms, an equation of some sort (possibly equation for theory of relativity), or some atheistic or scientific quote. any suggestions? whatever i get i think it will be on my chest since i've already had 4 arm tattoos, and the other big planned tattoo is on my arm as well. anyway, i must get ready for work now. Katy, if you read this, i'll get back to you soon about hanging out. have a lovely day everyone.

i think i have been lonely recently. just lonely in a general sense. i'm not longing for that special someone or anything like that. i wish my close friends lived closer to me. they have all moved away. i feel like nobody that really knows who i am is left around these parts. i wish i also had friends around here that at least shared common interests with me. i also wish it was easier for me to make friends with guys. i can seem to befriend any female with the greatest of ease. i need some gamer guy friends in my area. my roommates somewhat count. if we're not smoking weed together, then we kinda do our own thing. i almost feel like sometimes that weed is a requirement for hanging out in the same room. i know that's not true, but you can't help but think that way around here sometimes. anyway, i'm going to try to stop moping around and eat some food. maybe i'll play some more Doom when i'm done.

so, i'im sitting here feeling sorry for myself. when something seems too good to be true it probably is. i recently was given an opportunity to move into an awesome home here in town. it is basically a mansion that myself and my roommates could live in. the best part of the deal is that it is rent free. after waiting for over 2 weeks for confirmation that we could live there, i just learned that we can move in on one condition. we have to get rid of our cats. the one snag about the house is that we aren't sure how long we would get to live there. it could be 2 months, or it could be 9 months. we don't know. i don't think it is worth giving up my cat. i love my kitty too much. i thought up to today that it wasn't an issue that we have cats. i'm going to try to see if we can work something out, but i'm not too optimistic about it.

my grandfather has been in the hospital for at least the last month now. last saturday night i got a call from my step-dad saying that my grandfather wouldn't make it through the night. i haven't been close with him in quite some time now, but it didn't help to hold back the rush of emotion that smacked me in the face. my grandfather is still living right now. i don't know how to feel about that because of the state that it has my entire family in. his health keeps going back and forth from bad to not so bad. the only way in which his condition improved is that the doctors don't think he's going to die tonight. i feel somewhat emotionless as i write this right now. i've just had a lot on my mind and i don't like constantly having to waiver back and forth between emotions.

i'm writing this all from my balcony right now. it's kinda chilly out here. according to the weather widget on my dashboard it's 67 degrees out right now. i've been thinking of writing an essay recently. the topic will be on coming to terms with atheism. i want to write it in support for atheists and people who wish to understand atheists. i've just been having a lot of conversations with some friends that i've made recently that are of the christian faith and i'd like to have some way of putting all of my philosophies and beliefs together in one place. i've been terrified to get close to anyone of faith because of how i've been treated or perceived in the past. i believe i'm getting over that now.

i still need to go out and take some pictures. i have tomorrow off but i'm sure i'll be too lazy since i've been working my butt off and i'm closing tonight. sunday is a possibility though. i wonder what i can wrastle up by then. i suppose i should get ready for work soon. maybe i can squeeze some portal in there somewhere.

i'm still laying in bed right now. i've been awake and laying here for the last 2 hours going in and out of sleep. i have to work tonight. i'm not so much a fan of that. at least i get to work with some of my favorite people. i really need to take photos again soon. everyone that volunteers to do portraits for me always leaves me hanging. i get plenty of volunteers but nobody actually calls me when they say they will and i end up sitting home wishing i was taking pictures. i also need to find somewhere else to go take pictures if i'm going to be sans model. maybe i'll do some more self portraits if i can come up with some good ideas. well, i really got nothing else right now. i think i'll go have a cigarette on my balcony and think about stuff. oh, if anyone is interested in talking about the creation of the universe or anything abstract and philosophical you know where to reach me. haha.