The sun shining through my window my eye open like a new born child.
Turning over to sit on the edge of my bed searching for my morning fix, with the flame of a battered old lighter that help open last nights beer it ignites my first of many cancer sticks for the day.
Inhaling the satisfaction through my throat down into my lungs smelling the burn from in between my fingers my morning is bliss.
As i enjoy that flavour, that burn of nicotine in my lungs i stare at the mirror as i would stare at a stranger in the street.
I look at this product of a destroyed world, a mistake in evolution.
This feral freak.
This social outcast.
I begin to realise it is only myself i hate.
The hate i see in my eyes is far more dangerous then i could even imagine towards my far worst enemy in the world.
This product.
This freak.
This disappointment.
to be continued.........
Turning over to sit on the edge of my bed searching for my morning fix, with the flame of a battered old lighter that help open last nights beer it ignites my first of many cancer sticks for the day.
Inhaling the satisfaction through my throat down into my lungs smelling the burn from in between my fingers my morning is bliss.
As i enjoy that flavour, that burn of nicotine in my lungs i stare at the mirror as i would stare at a stranger in the street.
I look at this product of a destroyed world, a mistake in evolution.
This feral freak.
This social outcast.
I begin to realise it is only myself i hate.
The hate i see in my eyes is far more dangerous then i could even imagine towards my far worst enemy in the world.
This product.
This freak.
This disappointment.
to be continued.........
You tell me you love me
You say yes when i ask you to marry me
You say you want me
When i offer myself to you, you can't give me an answer.
p.s Vlogs will come back if you ask for them.
You say yes when i ask you to marry me
You say you want me
When i offer myself to you, you can't give me an answer.
p.s Vlogs will come back if you ask for them.
I keep things for the right reasons and the wrongs reasons. But this was something left for me a long time ago that i still read.
I want to cry and smile every time i do.
A letter that was to me.
"In my experience you meet some people in your life that truly make an impact, at times we don't realize it until the imprint has been made, but with you i knew it from the start."
"Ah love! could thou and i with fate conspire to grasp this sorry scheme of things entire
Would not we shatter it to bits and the remould it *nearer* to the hearts desire"
I keep these letters for reasons i cannot explain.
Well thats about it.
Think it is true better to be loved then never loved at all.
I want to cry and smile every time i do.
A letter that was to me.
"In my experience you meet some people in your life that truly make an impact, at times we don't realize it until the imprint has been made, but with you i knew it from the start."
"Ah love! could thou and i with fate conspire to grasp this sorry scheme of things entire
Would not we shatter it to bits and the remould it *nearer* to the hearts desire"
I keep these letters for reasons i cannot explain.
Well thats about it.
Think it is true better to be loved then never loved at all.
Im no writer
Im no artist
Im no musician
I limbo through the life like the snail you step over on the way to work
I once called you my girl
Now with my heart in my gut ill just let you go
I'm no good at at what i try but failure leads to lessons
All i've learnt through my life is to not bother
I'm sorry that i even became a memory
Forgive me as i didn't mean to poison your heart with my love
Im no artist
Im no musician
I limbo through the life like the snail you step over on the way to work
I once called you my girl
Now with my heart in my gut ill just let you go
I'm no good at at what i try but failure leads to lessons
All i've learnt through my life is to not bother
I'm sorry that i even became a memory
Forgive me as i didn't mean to poison your heart with my love
