I CANNOT figure out how to update my journal and photos from my phone! I've followed all the right steps and it still won't work! I am mentally delayed. Oh well, it's in the past now. So I've been sick to death for the past few days, couldn't even get out of bed. I've missed 3 days of work and I couldn't cam to try and make up for it. So I'm going to cam as much as possible this week. Come see me!!
http://profiles.myfreecams.com/delta_dawn
I might try to get online tonight! I'm still a bit sick but I could suck it up.
Don't forget to check my tumblr and twitter!
xxooDD
http://profiles.myfreecams.com/delta_dawn
I might try to get online tonight! I'm still a bit sick but I could suck it up.
Don't forget to check my tumblr and twitter!
xxooDD
Things have changed a lot since my best friend Joey died just before Christmas. My anger has subsided now and I've been dealing with my greif in a much more healthy way.
For a while now, years even, I've come to accept that my life took many detours and I missed many stops. I would never call it wasted time, but the silence in my life has been deafening in the past few months. It's been so much easier to feel helpless and victimized, which in turn makes it easier to turn to booze.
The news of Joey's death was for me followed by unbearable guilt. Even now just typing out his name i think of all the reasons he would have had to type out his name. Amazing job aplications, scholarships, love affairs, any number of things. I've taken this feeling of guilt and within it found oppertunity. Joey was my mentor, idol, and hero, and he was also always my biggest fan, always the one who believed most in my potential. Yet, while he was living a life full enough for 5 people to share, I continued to just inch along. Maybe it's just guilt, maybe I've been inspired, or maybe it's just a desperate last ditch effort and keeping myself from drowning. Maybe it's one of those things, but I like to think of it as picking up where he left off. I like to think of it as keeping with the cosmic balance of people who are really, really, ridiculously awesome.
So, without furthur ado, I shall escort you away from the dreary part of this blog entry, to the fun, goofy, typical me part of this blog entry! To ease your transition, here is a photo of my boobs.
My guitar and I have been very busy. I've been playing a show a week for the past 2 months and it's been amazing! I never thought I would be playing this often, but here I am! Someone from one of the venues even liked me so much they want me to come back and play a three hour set. So at the moment I'm tring to build up a bit larger of a repetoir of songs. This weekend I'm playing a charity show. I'm playing again next weekend, then again on march 15th, and I'm going to try to get another one in there somewhere. I did a song this past weekend at a burlesque show, and it was one of my favorite performances yet. I felt so much more theatrical, I want to take my performances to that level all the time.
Speaking of burlesque, our small sceen here has taken an amazing turn. Were hoping to get things running on a little more of a professional basis. Our show on saturday was unbelievable. huge huge turnout, amazing response from the crowd, and some of the best performances yet. We've had some people come to us with new oppertunities, and were also thinking about looking for a bigger venue. Lot's of new things coming up, and I'm hoping to work on a few solo's and a few numbers with two of my favorites. Yay Burlesque!
I've also started working for myfreecams. It's been a lot of fun, and I've met some really interesting people. Definitely made some friends. I really do love the internet. I feel as though I've conected myself through a lot of great oulets; Tumblr, Twitter, MFC, SG. It's something I really really enjoy doing. It's really a hobby, but I think it would be great if in the future I could have my music, dancing, and my internet life as my career. It's a dream, but it's also entirely possible. I'd like to start writing and submitting articles to different sites, blogs, and papers or magazines. Just about my experiences with internet sex culture and anything else I have something to say on.
A set for Suicide Girls is my next goal. I'm really just waiting for my photographer to have time to set a date with me. It's something I've wanted to do since I was 16 and first found out about the site. I'm crazy crazy excited about this. It would mean so so much to me to be a suicide girl.
That's most of what is interesting in my life now. I'm back at work making good money, trying to get back on the yoga train, and going to start at the gym as soon as I get myself financially situated. I'm hoping my future is full of spa services and nice restaurants, and maybe some booty. I havn't gotten laid in FOREVER. The more I stay away from sex the better. I got to deal with these evil sex demons.
So, tl;dr right? Well, heres more boobs.
THE END!
For a while now, years even, I've come to accept that my life took many detours and I missed many stops. I would never call it wasted time, but the silence in my life has been deafening in the past few months. It's been so much easier to feel helpless and victimized, which in turn makes it easier to turn to booze.
The news of Joey's death was for me followed by unbearable guilt. Even now just typing out his name i think of all the reasons he would have had to type out his name. Amazing job aplications, scholarships, love affairs, any number of things. I've taken this feeling of guilt and within it found oppertunity. Joey was my mentor, idol, and hero, and he was also always my biggest fan, always the one who believed most in my potential. Yet, while he was living a life full enough for 5 people to share, I continued to just inch along. Maybe it's just guilt, maybe I've been inspired, or maybe it's just a desperate last ditch effort and keeping myself from drowning. Maybe it's one of those things, but I like to think of it as picking up where he left off. I like to think of it as keeping with the cosmic balance of people who are really, really, ridiculously awesome.
So, without furthur ado, I shall escort you away from the dreary part of this blog entry, to the fun, goofy, typical me part of this blog entry! To ease your transition, here is a photo of my boobs.
My guitar and I have been very busy. I've been playing a show a week for the past 2 months and it's been amazing! I never thought I would be playing this often, but here I am! Someone from one of the venues even liked me so much they want me to come back and play a three hour set. So at the moment I'm tring to build up a bit larger of a repetoir of songs. This weekend I'm playing a charity show. I'm playing again next weekend, then again on march 15th, and I'm going to try to get another one in there somewhere. I did a song this past weekend at a burlesque show, and it was one of my favorite performances yet. I felt so much more theatrical, I want to take my performances to that level all the time.
Speaking of burlesque, our small sceen here has taken an amazing turn. Were hoping to get things running on a little more of a professional basis. Our show on saturday was unbelievable. huge huge turnout, amazing response from the crowd, and some of the best performances yet. We've had some people come to us with new oppertunities, and were also thinking about looking for a bigger venue. Lot's of new things coming up, and I'm hoping to work on a few solo's and a few numbers with two of my favorites. Yay Burlesque!
I've also started working for myfreecams. It's been a lot of fun, and I've met some really interesting people. Definitely made some friends. I really do love the internet. I feel as though I've conected myself through a lot of great oulets; Tumblr, Twitter, MFC, SG. It's something I really really enjoy doing. It's really a hobby, but I think it would be great if in the future I could have my music, dancing, and my internet life as my career. It's a dream, but it's also entirely possible. I'd like to start writing and submitting articles to different sites, blogs, and papers or magazines. Just about my experiences with internet sex culture and anything else I have something to say on.
A set for Suicide Girls is my next goal. I'm really just waiting for my photographer to have time to set a date with me. It's something I've wanted to do since I was 16 and first found out about the site. I'm crazy crazy excited about this. It would mean so so much to me to be a suicide girl.
That's most of what is interesting in my life now. I'm back at work making good money, trying to get back on the yoga train, and going to start at the gym as soon as I get myself financially situated. I'm hoping my future is full of spa services and nice restaurants, and maybe some booty. I havn't gotten laid in FOREVER. The more I stay away from sex the better. I got to deal with these evil sex demons.
So, tl;dr right? Well, heres more boobs.
THE END!
Shit got fucked. My best friend died. It still feels weird writing those words. He had been living in hong kong for the past 4 years. I found out on dec 23rd that he had been missing. We did everything we could to find him. His sister went to hong kong so she could make sure the police were doing everything. A few days later she identified his body in the morgue. He had been dead since a few hours after he was last seen on the 21st. We don't know yet how he died or why. It doesn't really feel like it matters anymore. We don't even know when he will be cremated and sent home. We all need a memorial.
I really let my life get away. I started drinking really bad again. Lost all my money, went off my meds, fucked my head up really good. Once I had blacked out enough and realized I couldn't pay my rent I got scared sober. I havnt touched a thing since the tenth, and I plan to stay clean until the 10th of February. Hopefully by then I can be working again and be a bit stable. In the meantime, I have to make some money. I'm hopefully going to submit a set soon, I've been wanting to explore this option for a while, and there no time like this time. I've also picked up playing guitar again. I'd like to be writing songs but I don't seem to have it in me anymore. With any luck I can maybe pick up a few gigs and get enough cash to pay at least one bill.
I've also been very interested in camming. Something else I've been thinking about for a while but never really persued. I'm not sure of how to get started with all and how to set something up for tips, so if anyone has any advice I'd be very greatful. It would be so wonderful to do these things everyday and pay my way doing things I'm interested in and passionate about. Ok enough about the dreary hand of been playing.
I am currently watching twin peaks in bed on a Saturday night, eating away my cravings for alcahol and cocaine. I really need to get back into a workout regimen if I'm going to keep passing the nights like this. Pilates and yoga were really doing it for me. I can get right back at the Pilates as ive always been doing it at home but I know almost nothing about yoga and I can't afford to get back into a class now. I'm wondering if there's a good free tutorial or YouTube type situation that could help me out. I'm going to have to ask the yoga group!
I've been watching tons of horror and gore lately. My late friend had a huge passion for it and turned me onto it a long time ago. If anyone reading this is a fan and has some good recommendations please post them. I would recommend to you a French film staring Beatrice dalle called "A L'interieur". It does not dissapoint.
I'm dying to get back into reading but I have at least four books started, and although none of them are easy reads, I'd feel silly starting a new one. Maybe instead of watching Clueless everyday I should pick up one of the books.
Nah.
I'm crazy about baths lately! I'll post some bath pics once I get my computer back from my friend. That also means I can't post any photos right now, as I'm writing this from my iPhone. But if you want to see all the photos I like to take check out my tumblr!
Steviedawn.tumblr.com
I also have a twitter that I like to update often with things I think are funny.
Twitter.com/stev0id
So if you're someone who has lots of luck please send me wishes of wealth and happiness. Ive never needed it this much in my life.
I really let my life get away. I started drinking really bad again. Lost all my money, went off my meds, fucked my head up really good. Once I had blacked out enough and realized I couldn't pay my rent I got scared sober. I havnt touched a thing since the tenth, and I plan to stay clean until the 10th of February. Hopefully by then I can be working again and be a bit stable. In the meantime, I have to make some money. I'm hopefully going to submit a set soon, I've been wanting to explore this option for a while, and there no time like this time. I've also picked up playing guitar again. I'd like to be writing songs but I don't seem to have it in me anymore. With any luck I can maybe pick up a few gigs and get enough cash to pay at least one bill.
I've also been very interested in camming. Something else I've been thinking about for a while but never really persued. I'm not sure of how to get started with all and how to set something up for tips, so if anyone has any advice I'd be very greatful. It would be so wonderful to do these things everyday and pay my way doing things I'm interested in and passionate about. Ok enough about the dreary hand of been playing.
I am currently watching twin peaks in bed on a Saturday night, eating away my cravings for alcahol and cocaine. I really need to get back into a workout regimen if I'm going to keep passing the nights like this. Pilates and yoga were really doing it for me. I can get right back at the Pilates as ive always been doing it at home but I know almost nothing about yoga and I can't afford to get back into a class now. I'm wondering if there's a good free tutorial or YouTube type situation that could help me out. I'm going to have to ask the yoga group!
I've been watching tons of horror and gore lately. My late friend had a huge passion for it and turned me onto it a long time ago. If anyone reading this is a fan and has some good recommendations please post them. I would recommend to you a French film staring Beatrice dalle called "A L'interieur". It does not dissapoint.
I'm dying to get back into reading but I have at least four books started, and although none of them are easy reads, I'd feel silly starting a new one. Maybe instead of watching Clueless everyday I should pick up one of the books.
Nah.
I'm crazy about baths lately! I'll post some bath pics once I get my computer back from my friend. That also means I can't post any photos right now, as I'm writing this from my iPhone. But if you want to see all the photos I like to take check out my tumblr!
Steviedawn.tumblr.com
I also have a twitter that I like to update often with things I think are funny.
Twitter.com/stev0id
So if you're someone who has lots of luck please send me wishes of wealth and happiness. Ive never needed it this much in my life.
SO! I have a few things to say! I'll get started by plugging my tumblr and twitter.
tumblr
twitter
Moving along, chaste is out the window, and all I really learned is that people rarely ever change. I will sumerize the rest of my thoughts on this matter with some quotes from Woody Alllen.
Love is the answer, but while you are waiting for the answer, sex raises some pretty good questions.
Sex between a man and a woman can be absolutely wonderful - provided you get between the right man and the right woman.
Sex without love is an empty experience, but as empty experiences go it's one of the best.
Sex relieves tension - love causes it.
Next! Saturday night my burlesque troupe, the Burly Q Babies, put off a fabulouse show. i have a few pictures of the night, and also feel free to cheque us out on youtube!
Check out my main squeezes Honey Fury and Pepper Noir!
Yay! Today is a wife day for me. Cleaning and cooking and baking and festiveness! And muppet movies.
If you havn't already check out this set from one of my very favorite suicide girls, Aymi! Free Time
Hope your Monday isn't too awful! KISSEYS!!
tumblr
Moving along, chaste is out the window, and all I really learned is that people rarely ever change. I will sumerize the rest of my thoughts on this matter with some quotes from Woody Alllen.
Love is the answer, but while you are waiting for the answer, sex raises some pretty good questions.
Sex between a man and a woman can be absolutely wonderful - provided you get between the right man and the right woman.
Sex without love is an empty experience, but as empty experiences go it's one of the best.
Sex relieves tension - love causes it.
Next! Saturday night my burlesque troupe, the Burly Q Babies, put off a fabulouse show. i have a few pictures of the night, and also feel free to cheque us out on youtube!
Check out my main squeezes Honey Fury and Pepper Noir!
Yay! Today is a wife day for me. Cleaning and cooking and baking and festiveness! And muppet movies.
If you havn't already check out this set from one of my very favorite suicide girls, Aymi! Free Time
Hope your Monday isn't too awful! KISSEYS!!
Follow me on twitter and tumblr!
Twitter.com/stev0id
Steviedawn.tumblr.com
I promise you'll like me!
Twitter.com/stev0id
Steviedawn.tumblr.com
I promise you'll like me!
Oh how I love sundays. I'm snuggled on the couch in my favorite blanky watching roswell with one of my favorite homosexuals. We have bellys full of pasta(some of the best speghetti I've ever made!) and cute critters cuddled next to us.
A few days ago I went to a beautiful stable with my friend Julia. Her horse jack lives there. Shes had him since she was a little girl, and I've been visiting him and riding him for years.Jack has gone blind over the years, but he gets along just fine. When he goes outside he has to wear sunglasses so his eyes dont hurt.
There was a kitten at the barn as well! They keep barn cats to get rid of all the mice. Jack and the kitten really liked each other. Here are the pictures we took of them.
I have a tumblr! I post things I like and pictures I take. steviedawn.tumblr.com
Back to my sunday relaxation.
A few days ago I went to a beautiful stable with my friend Julia. Her horse jack lives there. Shes had him since she was a little girl, and I've been visiting him and riding him for years.Jack has gone blind over the years, but he gets along just fine. When he goes outside he has to wear sunglasses so his eyes dont hurt.
There was a kitten at the barn as well! They keep barn cats to get rid of all the mice. Jack and the kitten really liked each other. Here are the pictures we took of them.
I have a tumblr! I post things I like and pictures I take. steviedawn.tumblr.com
Back to my sunday relaxation.
Here are some exerpts from a book by a local author/writer/drunk.
All sexism and racism are for comedic purposes only.
All sexism and racism are for comedic purposes only.
I have a tumblr now!!
steviedawn.tumblr.com
I've been having tons of fun with it. It's national sandwich day! I love sandwiches more then anything type of food, so its an important day for me.
I had a great halloween. I got to run around in my underwear all evening, drink TONS of whiskey, meet a cute boy, AND go down on one of my girlfriends. Halloween success I think. The day after we ventured out into the world being hot messes.
Here is a video of some people being weird/awesome on youtube.
The song is also awesome
steviedawn.tumblr.com
I've been having tons of fun with it. It's national sandwich day! I love sandwiches more then anything type of food, so its an important day for me.
I had a great halloween. I got to run around in my underwear all evening, drink TONS of whiskey, meet a cute boy, AND go down on one of my girlfriends. Halloween success I think. The day after we ventured out into the world being hot messes.
Here is a video of some people being weird/awesome on youtube.
The song is also awesome
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