I would like to not be sick anymore please. My nose hurts from blowing my nose every millisecond :'(

For the people that are our has been in a really long relationship, have you ever been tempted on sneaking around ? Even if you're happy and satisfied has anyone been tempted on being bad?

i actually feel guilty for thinking this lol.

but just an fyi , I couldn't or wouldn't cheat or mess around I'm too guilty conscience and honest to mess around.

Gee golly. I've been posting a lot today.

anyways, whenever I think of the statement(?) " live at first sight" I always like to claim BULLSHIT ! unless of course you're one of those people that actually fall fast. But I like to think it's more of "lust at first sight" a lot of people like to say physical appearance is important. Not quite I think, more like it's what "attracts" you or what piques your interest in that person.




I don't know what I'm saying... I'm just blabbering now. I guess what I'm saying is, love at first sight does not exist. I mean, how can you claim to live someone you just met. What can you base your love on?

If there is anyone that supposedly has fallen in love at first sight, what did you feel. And whatever it is you were feeling what was going through your mind when you saw that person.

So, my roots are coming in. I'm in need of redying. I really loved how I looked with pink hair but I want to try something new .. any suggestions on what color would look good on me ?

Just watching my big gypsy wedding and I'm wondering. When did this:


become this:


not bashing their community just wondering where the bling'd out dresses come in to their gypsy tradition.

Oh. My. Glob... it has been AWHILE... I finally got to post up more recent pictures of me... Makes me feel a little better. Don't think i changed much. I would like to think i did. Anyways, i've been feeling iffy about whether to pursue my ego boosting wish to be a suicide girl or just forget about it. I was going with the latter thought. But, narcissisticly(?) thinking, it makes me feel a little better when i take a picture of myself and see it turn out nicely. Hehe, stroking my ego... I also get the urge to want to seek out beautiful ladies, or gents, and dress them up and take instagramic photos with my phone, cause I'm too cheap and rough to buy a camera ;D. Anyways, for those of you that enjoy looking at my mug shots, please enjoy my new pictures with more to come soon.... I think

Later days !

I took a three day motorcycle class... I found out. I have no coordination skills



Maybe that's why I suck at playing video games.
Oh well, practice makes perfect !

That's why I'm so good at certain things
lol

Recently, I been trying to stretch my guages from a '0' to '00' and everyone keeps telling me that jump is going to be the most painful. So, since I don't take kindly to pain, I purchased some tapers for the stretching from one site and some "skin healing" oils and ear stretching balm. The tapers come first, thinking, what the hell, stretched them before with just regular lotion, shouldn't be any different now. Put them in, almost went all the way. Cool. I go to sleep, take a shower and try to push the rest of the way. It goes. Yay. No tear, no problem just soreness. (that's what she said ) anyways. Couple days pass, do signs of swelling just the normal soreness but finally the balm comes in the mail. I thought, maybe it'll heal faster. I lube it up, slips on nicely. Couple days later, its swelling like a mother fucker and hurting like hell. I take it out and some weird crystallized shit is crusted around the lobe... Never happened before. I'm sad now. So close to getting my lovely '00' now I'm probably back to 2's after the swelling goes away.... What have a learned? If it worked before one way, why try a different way.... Fucking lobe lube. I feel naked now =-=*

Feelings conflicted
Thoughts in a twist
Don't know how to feel
Don't know what to think

I wonder what beauty is
What beauty means
What beauty represents
What beauty I see

Is it perfection?
Media?
Society?
Picture perfect

The beauty I see
Lost
Unknown
Unconvinced

"And a flower,
doesn't even know it's own beauty
It's entire life.
Sad, huh?"

I never found being in a relationship or looking to be in one important. I guess I'm just really choosy of who I want to be with; like if I don't get "the feeling" I won't do anything or if I know you're not into me I just keep my attraction to myself. When I do find a potential, I'm looking to go long term. With that being said, i don't want to get married nor do i find the need to. I strong believe, getting married is too much of a hassle. All the paper work, if it doesn't work out, even more paper work and all that money you possibly spent on the wedding is down the shitter of you need to get a divorce. I don't know. Why get married and go through all that? If it doesn't work out we could just go out separate ways and be done with it. Is that weird? I just never really dreamed of "my wedding day" more like planning for "when the day comes to an end"
Whenever I tell people this, they all tell me the same thing, " you just haven't found The one'" :/ .....

Oh well, agree to disagree?

Anyways, don't get me wrong, I find weddings beautiful.... Well, only if you fast forward to the day of the wedding and mute the bridezillas. Picture perfect !

Well, the day I WANT to get married is the day the zombie or the "infected" will roam the streets.

Is there anyone here that been with someone for like ever and mutually decide to say you're married but actually not? Or something of the sort...
thanks for spending your time reading this if you did