I used to dabble in poetry when my mind was in happier times. Lately I have been in that frame of mind and working on some new stuff. Here is some of my old stuff for LittleBluePig.

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and maybe one last one.

So how is everyone's day going? I leave you with a goofy creepy yet awesome song from Oingo Biongo called Little Girls.

Cue complete randomness..................GO!!


Well, I'm off for few days, last night was nice as the gave me the first 4 hours off....which rocks.


Still trying to find a date for the Nightwish concert Friday. ...sigh


Had blood drawn this morning to try and figure out some health issues that have been bugging me for a while. Will update when I get the results back tonight or tomorrow.


I wonder why my ex's life is going so much greater than mine, must be universal I guess.


Started working on some poetry, had stopped doing it for a while but feel the need to dabble.


How is everyones week going?

- Josh

Note to self, when drinking like a true mad man on cinco de mayo, remember to eat food before you start drinking.

Everyone else, have a great drunken 5th.

- Finally have some days off after working 3 nights in a row. Had a few trying moments at work but overall everything went well.

- Just got back from another night of Jiu Jitsu, freaking tired, sore, but at the same time, so happy. I know that by this time next year, I will be more knowledgeable and a lot lighter.

- The weight loss is still going strong, down 82 pounds and still slowing coming off. I can't wait to hit 90 pounds lost as that means I will be even closer to 100.

- Really looking forward to June as I have some vacations days coming and will have my 27th birthday.

Sorry for the randomness, in a sore, tired, yet happy mood. How was every ones weekend?


Continuing with the total randomness

I'm on a island in the middle of the nowhere. I'm sitting in a chair on the beach. and there is a slight cool breeze. I'm the only soul on the whole island and the everything is perfect. I have no phone, no Internet, or any other modern conveniences. I have a little wooden shack where I sleep and it provides plenty of shade. Clean water is abundant and I have the means to catch and cook my my own food. The isolation feels normal and the thought of seeing or conversing with other people never enters my mind. I have found happiness and inner peace.


Ever just wanted to get away from it all?


Had a horrible night at work, wish I could just take off, travel and forget these worries. Oh well, thats life ain't it.

I have worked in the medical field for a while now. I've done my time in the trenches, almost 4 years, in an ER as a medic and come out with a lot of medical knowledge. The one great thing about being in this field is that everyday you learn something new. Here is something I learned at work one night.

When someone is about to have a procedure were they need to be put under sedation, they usually ask if the patient has any personal or family members with any psych issues. Even if the patient has none, they always ask about mom, dad, uncles....anyone.

Here's why, certain medications used for sedation can actually "awaken" dormant psychosis in a patient, because odds are if your family has issues, there is a chance you have issues too. It's weird to know that instead of you developing issues down the road, you could develop them when the medication kicked in.



Well, upon learning of this new tidbit, I remarked, "Man, that would be weird. Being put under and as soon as the meds kick in your screaming WHO ATE MY COOKIES AND WHERE IS MY BATH RUG!!!!"



There was a silence at the nurses station, followed by laughter. I had to excuse myself to conference room as I was laughing too hard. Yet another moment of enlightenment cut down by a moment of WTF.

1 am, chilling on the net, listening to some music........life is not so bad. But in a weird mood....a mood to slow dance. Haven't had that pleasure in a while, so here are a great song if you have that special someone.

Turn up the music and enjoy a slow dance on me.




and maybe add a little Jazz what ya say




and this is one of the greatest and most powerful pieces I have ever heard, from Queen



and know, for something completely different if your not in a slow dance frame of mind

Ok, so just got off work and man was it a nice night. Got to hold a sleeping toddler all night so it was rough lol.

I had my first Jiu Jitsu class monday night for 2 hours. 1 hour of working out/warming up and 1 hour of technique. That work out killed me, bear crawls, push ups, crawling on the ground......loved every back breaking moment of it. Technique was great too. Got paired up a dude who's not tiny so that was nice lol. Was shown some of the basics and can't wait to learn more. Frustrating as I wish I was a little lighter so I could do the moves better, but everyone was nice and reminded me that I wasn't gonna get it the first time as that is very rare. It's nice to know that maybe by this time next year I will be skinner and know a lot more.

So, I need to go soak in the tub for a little bit to see if I will be able to move tonight for class. Later guys.

- Josh

p.s. My dad really did something wonderful for my dog Pookie. After she passed away, he went to Home Depot, got some red bricks, a bird bath, and some mulch. He buried in the backyard under a pear tree made a oval shaped garden with the red bricks, added the mulch, and she now rests under the bird bath. Shes in her own private garden, and it looks amazing. A great resting place for a great dog. Plan to take a pic and post it when my camera gets a new battery

Well, looks like this year has potential for fun. I'm losing weight, getting in shape, taking Jiu Jitsu, trying to find a gal who likes a nice guy (harder than you think ), and doing some major traveling. I'm lucky that I make good money and only work 3 days a week, 12 hour night shifts....love em and can't image working 5 days a week.....freaks me out a little thinking about it lol.

Anyway, I have a 2 week vacation coming in starting June 1st and for the first time in, i don't know, a while, will actually have my birthday off.....weird

Just need to figure out where I wanna relax and enjoy my bday....hoping this year is better than last few.

Have a great week guy and gals

- Josh

Just got back from Jiu Jitsu and I am sore in place I didn't know I had. My Gi is 100% sweat, my toes are raw from mat burn, and I couldn't be happier. I look forward to the fun, discipline, and pain it's gonna bring. I can't wait to get in the tub and soak these bones lol.

But on a sad note, my puppy Pookie did pass away when I was at class. She was a great dog, a great member of the family, and always brought a smile to everyone's face. Goodbye Pookie.

Lots of love from your neighborhood penguin Opus