Ahh The super time delayed update, more than a month has passed since I graced these pages with the gift of my prose... HAHAHA that's the ultra arrogant artist in me talking, he's in there somewhere and doesn't get a chance to get out much...

I hope everyone had a decent holiday season... Mine pretty much sucked but Working Retail (and not just any retail, but the King of Retail) during Christmas pretty much sets the tone for the season... For the most part I dislike the seething masses, but these feelings quadruple during the holiday season. I hope the enjoy their Furbys and X-boxes and I-pods as the burn in Hell!! Ok maybe that's a little extreme but if you deal with these human stains as much as I have you might sympathize with my point of view...

Speaking of I-pod, my mp3 (not an I-pod though...) player shit out on me the other day, its hard to go through the day without your favorite 500+ songs instantly accessible... music is what saves me from succumbing to the madness of conformity, well not really but Its fun to make people stare at you funny when you say that...

Saw Disturbed Saturday in Seattle (almost a tongue Twister!) A decent show, even more so because I did pay for the tickets. They were like $40 a piece, and the supporting acts weren't all that great so I'm so glad I didn't pay, I don't think I woulda paid that to see Disturbed, there is only a hand full of acts I would pay that much to see...

I highly Recommend you all check out the Awesome and Breathtakingly Beautiful Pistolita, She's awesome and she's Pink, which of course means... well you know what that means!! Yeah!!!

Well the last few weeks have been interesting to say the least, But I have persevered much as I always do, Life may be able to totally kick my ass and leaving me lying in a ditch drowning in a pool of my own blood, but I always get back up and give that Bitch the finger....

Well Tootles... One and All, I really need to update more often...

Have you ever hit rock bottom? Have you ever fallen so far it is nearly crippling? Have you ever been at the very bottom looking for a way out when the floor falls out from beneath you?

I was there this last weekend...

Falling back into old habits when I am down only leads to worse things. Being so stupid you almost destroy the friendships of those who care about you because you are to dense to realize such things...

Thankfully they are there to kick my ass when I act like an ass... To hear your friends tellling you how miserable their lives would be without you, when you are drunk and mired deep in depression... Well it kind of wakes one up...

No matter how hard my life gets I realize that they are there for me as much as I am there for them. There are few Treasures as valuable as true friendship...

God is dead and no one cares.....

Will you be there when My sun sets?
Will you be there When Darkness falls?
Will ou be around when I am hurt?
Are you there at all?

There is no light in my view...
There is no hope shining through...
All I do Is long for you...
Is there any hope of Me and you?

There is not and I realize this..
All I need is just one Kiss...
Just a memory of you...
All I need is just one thought and then I am through...
But there is nothing....

Are you there when my Sun sets?
It is dark and it is cold,
Are you there to help me,
Find my way?

Where I see Beauty I am stricken,
Where I see Friendship I am tricken,
Where there is Love I belive,
Where there is hope I am Decived...

I'm bored and lonely and Drunk at 10:00 in the morning...sombody poke me with a stick and see if I can still feel...