I want a kid. A girl (I think I'll be a better parent to a girl, but I'll be more than happy with a healthy child).
See V For Vendetta, it's a true work of art.
Lost my wallet Wednesday . Had to cancel my cards, get a new ID, such a hassel.
Being single sucks, but then so does my current financial status. Can't date while I'm broke, I know some who can but I just feel like crap when I don't have extra money. Issues.
Will be back in the money soon. Thinking about going to the SG five year anniversay in vegas. Always wanted to go to Vegas. My favorite vacation spot, New Orleans, is well........
Yes, I think I will go to Vegas.
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Niobe is gone
See V For Vendetta, it's a true work of art.
Lost my wallet Wednesday . Had to cancel my cards, get a new ID, such a hassel.
Being single sucks, but then so does my current financial status. Can't date while I'm broke, I know some who can but I just feel like crap when I don't have extra money. Issues.
Will be back in the money soon. Thinking about going to the SG five year anniversay in vegas. Always wanted to go to Vegas. My favorite vacation spot, New Orleans, is well........
Yes, I think I will go to Vegas.
More art by Juan Medina
Niobe is gone
Rejection sucks! Makes my fear of rejection feel totally justified. Bad enough I have to fight back all my inner demons, fears and insecurities, if only for a little while. Muster up the courage to put myself out there. And lets not forget the what did I do wrong or what is wrong with me and total right cross to the self esteem you go through after being rejected. Kind of makes you wonder if its all worth it.
Well, yes it is worth it (or it better be). Nothing worth having comes easily. But DAMN! It feels worst when youre starting in the negative and finishing even further behind. I feel like my whole life has been a game of Catch Up. Like going mountain climbing with others, only you have to start in the canyon while every one else are at ground level. And they still want to complain.
Job hunting sucks! I have a part time, but I need one more or a full time live on. And I dont want just any job. I spent the last eight years in a place I hated.
Remarkably, after saying all that, Im still in pretty good spirits. (THANKS, CITALOPRAM **gives thumbs up**) Will try to have MUCH fun this weekend. Beer, and chicks, here I come! (Get back, Insecurity who sonova )
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Well, yes it is worth it (or it better be). Nothing worth having comes easily. But DAMN! It feels worst when youre starting in the negative and finishing even further behind. I feel like my whole life has been a game of Catch Up. Like going mountain climbing with others, only you have to start in the canyon while every one else are at ground level. And they still want to complain.
Job hunting sucks! I have a part time, but I need one more or a full time live on. And I dont want just any job. I spent the last eight years in a place I hated.
Remarkably, after saying all that, Im still in pretty good spirits. (THANKS, CITALOPRAM **gives thumbs up**) Will try to have MUCH fun this weekend. Beer, and chicks, here I come! (Get back, Insecurity who sonova )
More art by Juan Medina
Visited my Granny. It's obvious she in her last days. She's in so much pain these days she is, literally, praying for death. Alzheimers has also set in. She know who everyone is, but is confused on a lot of things. She thinks I'm her son, but knows that's not right. I tell her it's ok, she was more of a mother to me than my mother was. And I was more respectful and appreciative than her children were.
It hurts me to see her this way. I feel bad that I don't go see her as often as I should, but it's so emotionaly taxing. I feel so guilty, I lived with her (off and on) for most of my childhood and teenage years. I would visit her, up until three years ago, at least twice a week. I was the only person she trust to do her grocery shopping, she's been in a wheel chair for over eight years.
They tell me not to feel bad, that I did all I could. That I have my own depression and life, that I put on hold for to long to help others, to deal with and it's time to focus on me. Even my Granny says this, but it only helps a little. She knows my life hasn't been the happiest and tells me "stop worrying about this old lady" But she's my Granny, what can I do? I love that lady.
It hurts me to see her this way. I feel bad that I don't go see her as often as I should, but it's so emotionaly taxing. I feel so guilty, I lived with her (off and on) for most of my childhood and teenage years. I would visit her, up until three years ago, at least twice a week. I was the only person she trust to do her grocery shopping, she's been in a wheel chair for over eight years.
They tell me not to feel bad, that I did all I could. That I have my own depression and life, that I put on hold for to long to help others, to deal with and it's time to focus on me. Even my Granny says this, but it only helps a little. She knows my life hasn't been the happiest and tells me "stop worrying about this old lady" But she's my Granny, what can I do? I love that lady.
Women Rock.
Great to look at.
Cool to talk to.
They smell awesome.
Holding them in my arms........
Damn it, they even tast good.
I love em all.
Great to look at.
Cool to talk to.
They smell awesome.
Holding them in my arms........
Damn it, they even tast good.
I love em all.
