Well all good things must come to an end.
Since I rarely ever speak on this site I cannot justify continuing my acct at this time. Thank you to as_we_whisper, deeznuts723, and SweetIyvie for being my friends. I enjoyed meeting everyone I did even though life wouldnt permit me to hook up with PunkNiteMike ever.
Another round of cancer drugs and shit for me ... yay.
Thank you to SG.Com for existing for people like me. The quiet ones in the back with the guns hidden ready to kill. Thank you for allowing me to be myself.
IF ANYONE WANTS TO CONTACT ME OUTSIDE SG.COM ... CONTACT INFO BELOW!!
I found and then lost love on this great site. I will be sure to send some people your way and maybe even return ... but never as DarkestAngel. I need to start over in all aspects of my life. I will soon be working 3 jobs and be moving out ASAP. If anyones moving to the Dayton Ohio area soon and looking for a roomate look me up.
Even a geek like me fits in at SG. And for that I am greatful.
To all the girls in SG and the PSW areas:
You are all beautiful girls and had I been able to I would've loved to meet you all. Some I have but not all I woudl've liked to.
Oh and to Quinne ... good luck in the future ... I hope you get those fruads on myspace lol.
Good Luck and Be Safe.
AOL: DarkAngel2k3
YAHOO: ASpence2k3@Yahoo.com
MSN: GrandWarlord@Hotmail.com
LiveJournal: http://www.livejournal.com/users/darkestangel2k3/
Friendster:
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=22422624
To any enemies I have made .. I am sorry for whatever I did to earn your hatred and ask that you forgive me. It was never intentional.
Aluve' ...
Since I rarely ever speak on this site I cannot justify continuing my acct at this time. Thank you to as_we_whisper, deeznuts723, and SweetIyvie for being my friends. I enjoyed meeting everyone I did even though life wouldnt permit me to hook up with PunkNiteMike ever.
Another round of cancer drugs and shit for me ... yay.
Thank you to SG.Com for existing for people like me. The quiet ones in the back with the guns hidden ready to kill. Thank you for allowing me to be myself.
IF ANYONE WANTS TO CONTACT ME OUTSIDE SG.COM ... CONTACT INFO BELOW!!
I found and then lost love on this great site. I will be sure to send some people your way and maybe even return ... but never as DarkestAngel. I need to start over in all aspects of my life. I will soon be working 3 jobs and be moving out ASAP. If anyones moving to the Dayton Ohio area soon and looking for a roomate look me up.
Even a geek like me fits in at SG. And for that I am greatful.
To all the girls in SG and the PSW areas:
You are all beautiful girls and had I been able to I would've loved to meet you all. Some I have but not all I woudl've liked to.
Oh and to Quinne ... good luck in the future ... I hope you get those fruads on myspace lol.
Good Luck and Be Safe.
AOL: DarkAngel2k3
YAHOO: ASpence2k3@Yahoo.com
MSN: GrandWarlord@Hotmail.com
LiveJournal: http://www.livejournal.com/users/darkestangel2k3/
Friendster:
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=22422624
To any enemies I have made .. I am sorry for whatever I did to earn your hatred and ask that you forgive me. It was never intentional.
Aluve' ...
Hey there everyone I am back for another update of my life.
Life is ok for the most part. I am co-exsisting with the slug as much as I can. I shouldn't be so mean even to her but DAMN she needs to get a job. I am attempting to get a job at K-Mart in Huber Hts on the weekends from 700p-1000p ... yeah it sucks but its anouther 110.00 a month and I can really use it.
Me and the GF are ok. We talk a little bit more but not much. I guess it will have to do for now. Being 3 time zones apart sucks. I love her to death it;s just really hard. Shes with friends alot which I don't have a problem with but you know what I am saying. Enough about that.
I am 10 Lbs. lighter and I feel good I want to get down to 220. I am at 277. Yeah I kinda ballooned with my last depression bout but I am back on top so it should come down soon and I have set up my finances to not give me much free money to spend on the foods I don't need anyway. So far so good ... I Just got paid this weekend and no withdrawal like syumptons yet lol. Technically I should weight like 180 ... yeah that will never happen.
My sinuses have been draining soo bad I am hardly able to work .. on the days they give away OVERTIME I can't work them because my nose is a snot rocket ... go team.
Life is ok for the most part. I am co-exsisting with the slug as much as I can. I shouldn't be so mean even to her but DAMN she needs to get a job. I am attempting to get a job at K-Mart in Huber Hts on the weekends from 700p-1000p ... yeah it sucks but its anouther 110.00 a month and I can really use it.
Me and the GF are ok. We talk a little bit more but not much. I guess it will have to do for now. Being 3 time zones apart sucks. I love her to death it;s just really hard. Shes with friends alot which I don't have a problem with but you know what I am saying. Enough about that.
I am 10 Lbs. lighter and I feel good I want to get down to 220. I am at 277. Yeah I kinda ballooned with my last depression bout but I am back on top so it should come down soon and I have set up my finances to not give me much free money to spend on the foods I don't need anyway. So far so good ... I Just got paid this weekend and no withdrawal like syumptons yet lol. Technically I should weight like 180 ... yeah that will never happen.
My sinuses have been draining soo bad I am hardly able to work .. on the days they give away OVERTIME I can't work them because my nose is a snot rocket ... go team.
Sleep is overrated...
anyone on World of Warcraft im on Stormscale server
Sigmar, 44 Pally
anyone on World of Warcraft im on Stormscale server
Sigmar, 44 Pally
Well I figure since its been roughly a week to date since my last entry I might as well update you the viewer at the chunk of the universe that I currently claim as my own.
The girl that I have fallen for and myself had a series of discussions over the last week and we have fallen for each other. So we're going to give it a go. I truly care for her. I am planning on visiting her as soon as I can afford it so hopefully sometime next month. It was an instant connection on both parts and well seems like I may have hit it big this time. It's about time I won lol. LOVE YOU GIRL!
Nice guys don't always finish last...
Other than that life is pretty much the same as it was a week ago. Work is getting alittle bit better I can now play my Gameboy DS on the call center floor so I have something to keep me busy in between the hundreds of phone calls I make a day. Overall I am starting to enjoy my job on a basic mundane level. I have ways to improve it but no one in the high command is listening. And no, that is not a play on words since I work for the Deaf ... lol ...
Me and a co-worker are planning on entering the US Robot Wars Competition and hoping to be able to enter the Robot Wars in England. In thoery our bot would be very tough to beat but I am having trouble with a efficient design. I am such a geek I know.
Until Next Time ...
Drew
The girl that I have fallen for and myself had a series of discussions over the last week and we have fallen for each other. So we're going to give it a go. I truly care for her. I am planning on visiting her as soon as I can afford it so hopefully sometime next month. It was an instant connection on both parts and well seems like I may have hit it big this time. It's about time I won lol. LOVE YOU GIRL!
Nice guys don't always finish last...
Other than that life is pretty much the same as it was a week ago. Work is getting alittle bit better I can now play my Gameboy DS on the call center floor so I have something to keep me busy in between the hundreds of phone calls I make a day. Overall I am starting to enjoy my job on a basic mundane level. I have ways to improve it but no one in the high command is listening. And no, that is not a play on words since I work for the Deaf ... lol ...
Me and a co-worker are planning on entering the US Robot Wars Competition and hoping to be able to enter the Robot Wars in England. In thoery our bot would be very tough to beat but I am having trouble with a efficient design. I am such a geek I know.
Until Next Time ...
Drew
Well today was very "blah" in nature.
Woke up.
Listened to Bob and Tom. (Not a bad thing mind you)
Went to work.
Clocked in.
Worked.
Took a Break.
Worked some more.
Clocked out and went home early.
So how the world where you are? Had a not such a cool afternoon? That girl told me she was single ... but that she wanted to stay single ... WTF? I am so making distance between her and me. I cannot handle another broken heart. Tina, you understand what I am talking about ... *sigh*. Whatever. Moving On. If you read this -} Girl in question. {- Yeah I am a bit mad but I am not going to argue over it. I feel a little used, don't bring it up because I won't talk to you about it.
Thankfully it's almost the weekend and I am going to find SOMETHING to do! Probably not but you never know. I will probably stay in my room and play World of Warcraft all day or more likely I will go out with my friens and watch them get drunk and then slide out of their minds and head home to play World of Warcraft all night, lol *sigh*.
I wish I could be someone other than who I am some of the time ... hope that makes sense. I mean I wish I could just light up a joint and spread it around. I wish I could get drunk and be an idiot. DISCLAIMER =} Now I am only talking about my friends who get drunk and turn into stupid morons, not drunks in general. I wish I weren
t so damn honorable. Sometimes I wish I could turn off my feelings and just forget about everything. I believe everyone has this kind of day ... I am just having them more and more lately. Sometimes I wish the above.
Don't get worried or anything this is just my only real form to let it out. So if I seem to vent about the same shit, just let me do it and be caring for me lol. *wink*
In other sad news, my dog Abby has about 50 small stones her in urinary tract so she has to go under the knife for stone removal. Poor little dog. She's not the smartest dog to begin with ... again Tina you know what I am talking about ... and now this which she does so NOT deserve. She is peeing everywhere normally I would get kinda upset but now that I know it's not her fault I just take pity and clean it up and then someone manage to step in the next puddle with a muted curse. -} Insert favorite explicative here {-
If you are worried about my darkness that I write take heed this is not my norm. I am just going through a lot of shit and I would hope it stays in this realm of cyber space than get to my parents or family members (bar Tina since this is the only way we communicate) and just let me find my own way out. God wisdom teeth suck. Sucks more I can't afford to get them removed.
+Until Next Time Dearies+
-Andrew
Woke up.
Listened to Bob and Tom. (Not a bad thing mind you)
Went to work.
Clocked in.
Worked.
Took a Break.
Worked some more.
Clocked out and went home early.
So how the world where you are? Had a not such a cool afternoon? That girl told me she was single ... but that she wanted to stay single ... WTF? I am so making distance between her and me. I cannot handle another broken heart. Tina, you understand what I am talking about ... *sigh*. Whatever. Moving On. If you read this -} Girl in question. {- Yeah I am a bit mad but I am not going to argue over it. I feel a little used, don't bring it up because I won't talk to you about it.
Thankfully it's almost the weekend and I am going to find SOMETHING to do! Probably not but you never know. I will probably stay in my room and play World of Warcraft all day or more likely I will go out with my friens and watch them get drunk and then slide out of their minds and head home to play World of Warcraft all night, lol *sigh*.
I wish I could be someone other than who I am some of the time ... hope that makes sense. I mean I wish I could just light up a joint and spread it around. I wish I could get drunk and be an idiot. DISCLAIMER =} Now I am only talking about my friends who get drunk and turn into stupid morons, not drunks in general. I wish I weren
t so damn honorable. Sometimes I wish I could turn off my feelings and just forget about everything. I believe everyone has this kind of day ... I am just having them more and more lately. Sometimes I wish the above.
Don't get worried or anything this is just my only real form to let it out. So if I seem to vent about the same shit, just let me do it and be caring for me lol. *wink*
In other sad news, my dog Abby has about 50 small stones her in urinary tract so she has to go under the knife for stone removal. Poor little dog. She's not the smartest dog to begin with ... again Tina you know what I am talking about ... and now this which she does so NOT deserve. She is peeing everywhere normally I would get kinda upset but now that I know it's not her fault I just take pity and clean it up and then someone manage to step in the next puddle with a muted curse. -} Insert favorite explicative here {-
If you are worried about my darkness that I write take heed this is not my norm. I am just going through a lot of shit and I would hope it stays in this realm of cyber space than get to my parents or family members (bar Tina since this is the only way we communicate) and just let me find my own way out. God wisdom teeth suck. Sucks more I can't afford to get them removed.
+Until Next Time Dearies+
-Andrew
Well today was very "blah" in nature.
Woke up.
Listened to Bob and Tom. (Not a bad thing mind you)
Went to work.
Clocked in.
Worked.
Took a Break.
Worked some more.
Clocked out and went home early.
So how the world where you are? Had a not such a cool afternoon? That girls told me she was single ... but that she wanted to stay single ... WTF? I am so making distance between her and me. I cannot handle another broken heart. Tina, you understand what I am talking about ... *sigh*. Whatever. Moving On. If you read this -} Girl in question. {- Yeah I am a bit mad but I am not going to argue over it. I feel a little used, don't bring it up because I won't talk to you about it.
Thankfully it's almost the weekend and I am going to find SOMETHING to do! Probably not but you never know. I will probably stay in my room and play World of Warcraft all day or more likely I will go out with my friens and watch them get drunk and then slide out of their minds and head home to play World of Warcraft all night, lol *sigh*.
I wish I could be someone other than who I am some of the time ... hope that makes sense. I mean I wish I could just light up a joint and spread it around. I wish I could get drunk and be an idiot. DISCLAIMER =} Now I am only talking about my friends who get drunk and turn into stupid morons, not drunks in general. I wish I were so damn honorable. Sometimes I wish I could turn off my feelings and just forget about everything. I believe everyone has this kind of day ... I am just having them more and more lately.
Don't get worried or anything this is just my only real form to let it out. So if I seem to vent about the same shit, just let me do it and be caring for me lol. *wink*
In other sad news, my dog Abby has about 50 small stones her in urinary tract so she has to go under the knife for stone removal. Poor little dog. She's not the smartest dog to begin with ... again Tina you know what I am talking about ... and now this which she does so NOT deserve. She is peeing everywhere normally I would get kinda upset but now that I know it's not her fault I just take pity and clean it up and then someone manage to step in the next puddle with a muted curse. -}Insert favorite explicative here {-
If you are worried about my darkness that I write take heed this is not my norm. I am just going through a lot of shit and I would hope it stays in this realm of cyber space than get to my parents or family members (bar Tina since this is the only way we communicate) and just let me find my own way out. God wisdom teeth suck. Sucks more I can't afford to get them removed.
+Until Next Time Dearies+
-Andrew
Woke up.
Listened to Bob and Tom. (Not a bad thing mind you)
Went to work.
Clocked in.
Worked.
Took a Break.
Worked some more.
Clocked out and went home early.
So how the world where you are? Had a not such a cool afternoon? That girls told me she was single ... but that she wanted to stay single ... WTF? I am so making distance between her and me. I cannot handle another broken heart. Tina, you understand what I am talking about ... *sigh*. Whatever. Moving On. If you read this -} Girl in question. {- Yeah I am a bit mad but I am not going to argue over it. I feel a little used, don't bring it up because I won't talk to you about it.
Thankfully it's almost the weekend and I am going to find SOMETHING to do! Probably not but you never know. I will probably stay in my room and play World of Warcraft all day or more likely I will go out with my friens and watch them get drunk and then slide out of their minds and head home to play World of Warcraft all night, lol *sigh*.
I wish I could be someone other than who I am some of the time ... hope that makes sense. I mean I wish I could just light up a joint and spread it around. I wish I could get drunk and be an idiot. DISCLAIMER =} Now I am only talking about my friends who get drunk and turn into stupid morons, not drunks in general. I wish I were so damn honorable. Sometimes I wish I could turn off my feelings and just forget about everything. I believe everyone has this kind of day ... I am just having them more and more lately.
Don't get worried or anything this is just my only real form to let it out. So if I seem to vent about the same shit, just let me do it and be caring for me lol. *wink*
In other sad news, my dog Abby has about 50 small stones her in urinary tract so she has to go under the knife for stone removal. Poor little dog. She's not the smartest dog to begin with ... again Tina you know what I am talking about ... and now this which she does so NOT deserve. She is peeing everywhere normally I would get kinda upset but now that I know it's not her fault I just take pity and clean it up and then someone manage to step in the next puddle with a muted curse. -}Insert favorite explicative here {-
If you are worried about my darkness that I write take heed this is not my norm. I am just going through a lot of shit and I would hope it stays in this realm of cyber space than get to my parents or family members (bar Tina since this is the only way we communicate) and just let me find my own way out. God wisdom teeth suck. Sucks more I can't afford to get them removed.
+Until Next Time Dearies+
-Andrew
Hey everyone another world renown entry from me Andrew S.
Well I met this girl and we really dug each other but then she decided that she may still like her ex, who was trying to win her back or some crap like that, whatever. Anyway, I told he she needed to talk to him and decided what she wanted to be with him and I respectfully removed my claim to any relationship at this time.
Not sure how to really feel about this one but I am not going to worry. She's happy and I should be ok with that. What do you all think?
I momentarilly had a My Space account but decided to give it up. Live Journal is just as nice and I can customize it to my hears content without getting into the coding texts that I have no time or patient to try and perfect. I will occaisionally update but I still much prefer LJ ... and those I have met through it.
I talk to my awesome cousin Tina finally today, caught her offguard with my sudden phone call. We talked for about 30 minutes before I handed off the phone to my mom and went about getting ready for the new work week. Hurricance Katrina and Rita wiped out the Call Centers for CSD in both New Orleans and Chorpus Christi for the most part because of evacuations so work is uber busy ... might have to pull out some double shifts to make up for the slack ... I can use the money.
My bouts with depression come and go like a weather report gone terribly wrong. Sunny skies and I get clouds. Light Rains and I get torrential Down Pours. I have found ways of dealing with my blue days, don't worry I am not harming myself or anyone else.
I am trying to think what else I should add ... well I suppose that does it for now.
Good Night, Sweet Dreams, and Be Safe.
-Andrew S.
Well I met this girl and we really dug each other but then she decided that she may still like her ex, who was trying to win her back or some crap like that, whatever. Anyway, I told he she needed to talk to him and decided what she wanted to be with him and I respectfully removed my claim to any relationship at this time.
Not sure how to really feel about this one but I am not going to worry. She's happy and I should be ok with that. What do you all think?
I momentarilly had a My Space account but decided to give it up. Live Journal is just as nice and I can customize it to my hears content without getting into the coding texts that I have no time or patient to try and perfect. I will occaisionally update but I still much prefer LJ ... and those I have met through it.
I talk to my awesome cousin Tina finally today, caught her offguard with my sudden phone call. We talked for about 30 minutes before I handed off the phone to my mom and went about getting ready for the new work week. Hurricance Katrina and Rita wiped out the Call Centers for CSD in both New Orleans and Chorpus Christi for the most part because of evacuations so work is uber busy ... might have to pull out some double shifts to make up for the slack ... I can use the money.
My bouts with depression come and go like a weather report gone terribly wrong. Sunny skies and I get clouds. Light Rains and I get torrential Down Pours. I have found ways of dealing with my blue days, don't worry I am not harming myself or anyone else.
I am trying to think what else I should add ... well I suppose that does it for now.
Good Night, Sweet Dreams, and Be Safe.
-Andrew S.
Well another day of wonder in the world of ACS.
Could be worse but not by much.
Trying to find new employment really sucks. I can't afford to get a job making under 8.50 an hour which sucks. I got a job offer form Primerica Insurance Co. But you have to fork out around $200.00 to take the training and the test. The money is Non-Refundable which sucks if you fail the test and get nothing for your monetary sacrifice.
I might take a part time job at kmart again ... sure it's not the highest aspiring job out there but it'll help pay the bills. I want to move out of my parents house but with my bills I can't do that until they are pretty much taken care of. So, another job it will be.
I breifly contemplated purchasing a Mega Million Lotto Ticket or 3. $250,000,000.00 is a lot of money even after the standard taxes. I could live forever without working and still set up all the foundations I would like to see come to fruition. I tried to find a group to pay my bills for 4 months and I would head down to help in the Hurricane Relief but to no avail.
Not much else to add really.
I could add my thoughts on the President and the Government in general but I would rather not open that Pandora's Box tonight ... maybe next time.
To Tina and all the Antioch travellers ... GOOD LUCK AND BE SAFE!
Could be worse but not by much.
Trying to find new employment really sucks. I can't afford to get a job making under 8.50 an hour which sucks. I got a job offer form Primerica Insurance Co. But you have to fork out around $200.00 to take the training and the test. The money is Non-Refundable which sucks if you fail the test and get nothing for your monetary sacrifice.
I might take a part time job at kmart again ... sure it's not the highest aspiring job out there but it'll help pay the bills. I want to move out of my parents house but with my bills I can't do that until they are pretty much taken care of. So, another job it will be.
I breifly contemplated purchasing a Mega Million Lotto Ticket or 3. $250,000,000.00 is a lot of money even after the standard taxes. I could live forever without working and still set up all the foundations I would like to see come to fruition. I tried to find a group to pay my bills for 4 months and I would head down to help in the Hurricane Relief but to no avail.
Not much else to add really.
I could add my thoughts on the President and the Government in general but I would rather not open that Pandora's Box tonight ... maybe next time.
To Tina and all the Antioch travellers ... GOOD LUCK AND BE SAFE!
Well this weekend was enjoyable, except for my Dell (tm) Computer deciding this weekend was a good weekend to die on me. I still have to reformat the hard drive and hope i can resusictate it before giving up and taking it to PC Club for repairs.
Met up with my friend jeff today. His moms not doing well so I thought today would ve been a good time to let him unwind and well it seem to do him some good to get away from the hospice and seeing his mom fading away. We drank a lot and played some Ghost Recon II. Its a hard game the AI adapts to your style so you can't just stand and shoot at everyone... well not from the same position anyway.
Ordered me a new laptop for just about 900.00 from PC Club ... PCClub.com ... I recommend this site to anyone looking for a computer.
Until next time ... laters.
Met up with my friend jeff today. His moms not doing well so I thought today would ve been a good time to let him unwind and well it seem to do him some good to get away from the hospice and seeing his mom fading away. We drank a lot and played some Ghost Recon II. Its a hard game the AI adapts to your style so you can't just stand and shoot at everyone... well not from the same position anyway.
Ordered me a new laptop for just about 900.00 from PC Club ... PCClub.com ... I recommend this site to anyone looking for a computer.
Until next time ... laters.
