*sigh* How this month has just been so bad. *sigh* One of my very best friends, my sisters long time boyfriend Kurt Sgalio passed away on Thursday. He was like a brother to me and somebody I looked up to and cared very much about. Back in March he had a minor heart attack and seizure. Upon getting to the hospital they found in his blood stream as many as 15 different supplements. They are sure this is what led to his heart attack. The day of the heart attack was Mother's Day and he was over our house, but my parents and sister noticed him acting very strangely as if he was drugged. We had never seen him like this before. Later that evening once he got home we found out about the heart attack. He did recover and was able to go home. However upon doing a brain scan of him they noticed that his brain was showing some abnormal activity. Over the next few months some days he would perfectly fine and seem just like his old self. Kurt, my father, and I all worked together on repairing a wall over the course of 6 hours the one day and even doing all this hard labor he was still okay and seemed no different. It was probably the longest I ever got to spend with him and it was very nice to have that day. He did however have some days where he would act very sluggish like he was sleepy and was slurring his speech. We are unsure as to what was a cause of this and I am going to try my best to find out what had happened. He never would admit he even had a heart attack and we are unsure if he was taking the medicines they had given him or if he was continuing to take the supplements. He may have even just been tired as he was having sleeping problems after that point and had to take some medicines to sleep. He complained about having disturbing nightmares as well. My sister also noticed that on one occasion his arm was swollen which was something that happened from his supplements he had taken before. Anyways on Thursday in the afternoon while with a friend he ended up having a massive heart attack and passed away. His parents decided not to have an autopsy done as if it was anything other than a heart attack they did not care to know. Kurt was only 28.

R.I.P. Kurt Sgalio - September 22,1981 - June 10, 2010

So today my dad says he doesn't expect me to move out anytime soon... He says not for another 10-15 years. he says I haven't had a g/f in 5 years, he can't see me getting married, I have no money so why bother moving out ever? My god is my life that far off course that I'm going to be single for the rest of my life and not more out of my parents house until I am 40? Gosh growing up I had plans of being married by 25 now I'm 25 and haven't even had a g/f in 5 years what happened to me? In high school I was looked at as one of the most likely guys to succeed and was top 10 in my graduating class... now I can't even find a job or a catch a break. *sigh* Idk sometimes...

Sorry I haven't been around much. I have been super depressed and it kinda all get a crescendo this past weekend when my friend Andrea passed away. She was only 27 years old. She died in her sleep peacefully. After an autopsy it was determined she had am under developed heart valve. Anyways after this happened it kinda put some things in perspective for me and after a few days I have really started to get out of my funk. Anyways I just completed this drawing of Noel. Unfortunately I don't have a scanner right now so I was only able to take a picture of the drawing using my cell phone. I'll upload a better picture was I can get one.

OMG I just typed this long fucking thing and then my computer fucked up so now I have to retype the entire fucking thing... grrr... I am not a happy one right now -_-

Anyways I suppose I'll try and type this out again. This past weekend I went to a gaming convention that I got to twice a year in Pittsburgh.Its called CosCon which stands for Circle of Swords Convention nothing to do with cosplay. Anyways there is table top games, miniatures, and larps that go on. I participate in only the one larp personally, Vampire: The Masquerade. Its a gaming made by gaming company White Wolf and while it is out of print now for the new Vampire series we still prefer the Old World of Darkness as it is called.

Anyways the game totally fucking rocked. We had kinda a partial game reset as there was some problems with the game before with some players taking advantage of the rules and their characters so that most other players couldn't enjoy the game. Well most of those players are gone and a ton of new players have joined. We had about 50 players. It was pretty awesome.I have been playing for 5 years now and finally think I have a handle of the game. I actually was able to receive a major position in the city.I am pretty pumped. Its one of the toughest positions in the city and one of the most influential so I am pretty pumped to see what's going to go on from here on. The position I got is called the Chief Harpy encase you know anything about the game.

Anywho enough about the game and time to get to the major part of the story.

So only half the weekend is about the gaming, the other half and what many people consider the better half, is crazy after dark parties and all night drinking. Unfortunately because I had school on Saturday I was unable to party on Friday night so I was all excited for the partying that was to go down on Saturday and into Sunday. So I made this awesome strawberry slushie that is vodka based that you mix with Sprite. Unfortunately I had to run home to get it so I had to leave game about an hour early so I could get it. My house is able an hour from the hotel we play in and we all get rooms in the hotel so we can drink and party and game. Anyways I drive the 2 hours home and back, then I try and call everybody and not a single fucking person is willing to answer their phone or party with me. I was fucking pissed so I did all this work, let the game early, and got this awesome shit only to be screwed out of every party. For the past two years this has been happening to me so I guess I should just take a clue? So anyways I decide to just go to my room and pass out and there was not just else to do.So after about an hour of being depressed and drinking alone I decide to just pass out which is when my one roommate shows up with a guy and a girl. So I am trying to sleep and nearly am passed out and they come in and start talking. It was pretty sexual but I was trying to ignore it. However when they started actually having a bisexual threesome right beside me in my room that I paid for b/c My roommate decided he couldn't last minute... well that ws just fucking wondering! So I am fucking pissed but wtf can I do I'm wearing just boxers and nobody has invited me to go anywhere so I pretty much have to lay in bed during all this shit. I have to hear all the sucking, and fucking, and panting and it was so fucking uncomfortable. They didn't even care about my feelings. So I eventually said like one thing not even sure what it is, and the next day my roommate has the fucking audacity to say he was pissed at ME and shit like wtf. He says I ruined the moment for a second and didn't give a damn that he was just fucking in the bed next to me... God I hate my life and my friends sometime... He is actually supposed to be my only friend but what the fuck, what can I do.

Well heres a few pictures of the final meeting of the gamers. I forgot to take pictures throughout the weekend so this is as good as I got.

So I have class on Saturday's and Pittsburgh was celebrating St. Patty's Day. There was a parade and everything right outside of the school. You could hear the bagpipes from the class. Anyways this is how I spent the time between classes.

So I learned an important lesson yesterday. Sometimes even nights that seem to go okay... really don't. Lots of hurt feelings and bad blood. At least its over and I can move on from it.

So yesterday I had my first day of the newest 7 week term of class. Class for me is kinda weird and super intense. We have class only on Saturdays. Two of them at a time for 4 hours each. So in 7 classes we learn as much about a subject as any normal student would for an entire spring term. Its called accelerated for a reason I guess LoL. Anyways I'm going for Information Technology and so far its going well have around a 3.5 which is right about where I'm hoping to be at. This term might be crazy though.

My first class is about computer Security and honestly it seems freaking awesome! I really can't wait. The teacher seems really good and really knows his shit. The class also doesn't seem that difficult either. Lots of the assignments are group related and the tests are all online at home. Easy as pie to be honest but I also feel I am going to learn a lot.

My other class though... Wow its going to be hell! It's Intermediate Programming. Which is all about Java. The teacher is foreign and while she doesn't have the worst accent programming is hell and I am unsure how much I remember of it LoL. Programming was never my best subject and I am deff not going to enjoy this class. On the plus side the assignments are done in groups of two and I got the guy in the class that has had a hell of a lot of programming experience from past classes from another school... unfortunately even he says this class is going to be fucking hell. So yeah if anybody knows Java and such and wants to help me you know not fail that would be sweet lol. I really am trying for a B in that class but that might be hard blah oh well. We also have to take 3 quizzes and a final so there is a lot of points I have to get on my own as well and not sure how well it'll go. Oh well I guess I'll actually have to study for once.

Wow what a night! This has to be be one of the best nights I have had in my life in a long long while. I got to meet two old friends of mine that I haven't seen in like 5 years. We were all mall rats back in the day. It was our thing and I met some great friends, unfortunately like all good things we drifted and such and I only talk to one or two of them now. But the other day I got in contact with one and found out with have a lot in common so we were going to meet up. Only to have her meet up another one of the old crew as well. Long story short we all god together and it was just awesome. The old stories that we laughed so hard over before were just as funny now, and some new ones that I have happened since were just as special. It makes me want to get in contact with all of the old crew, which I am probably going to try and do start tomorrow. Now it got me thinking about holding a big huge party in like a year whenever I get my own house and such so we can either have one last big get together and goodbye or we can rekindle some old friendships as we carry on into adulthood.

Anyways after tonight all I have to say to everybody is if you have an old friend or friends that you miss and are unsure of trying to talk to again omg please do. I had one of the best nights of my life reconnecting with some old friends and I am guessing this would very likely happen to you as well. Now I just can't wait until the big party and the amount of booze I'm going to have to buy lol.

This is just a few pieces of art I bought this past weekend at the Steel City Con in Pittsburgh. Its called the largest toy convention in the country as well as the largest comic book and pop culture convention in PA. Anyways Hope you enjoy!







Forgot to add the artists names.

The first piece is by Darrell "Cupps" O'Riley - Artwork by Cupps O'Riley

The other two pieces are by Jay E. Fife - Artwork by Jay Fife

Blah I'm pissed!!!!

Art supplies are freaking expensive and yet I can't find ANY of mine. What the fuck happened to them. I was really hoping to get started on some sketches to get my skills up so I can begin doing some oil paint but of course I can't find any of my damn supplies.

So how much is this going to cost me? Couple hundred I guess... ugh.