Well no new news. I haven't heard much back from that girl Vee all week. I'm starting to think i WAS stood up I hate this. I have been stood up for more dates than actual dates i have been out on (HS dating doesn't count lol) I have more female friends than male and none of them can understand how i get stood up so often. My last count. in the last 2 years. I have been stood up with little or no explaination..... at least 12 times. Thats not counting when a girl would stand me up and then give me an excuse and make plans for a redo on the date and stood me up.... it just fucking pisses me off. WHY? why the fuck do i get stood up so often? Hell some of them i have straight out ASKED why and of course i have never gotten a fucking answer.............

So outside of my bitching nothing major in life has happened. I haven't gotten to see Dark Knight yet cause of work but i plan on seeing it tomorrow during the day so there shouldn't be to much of a problem with crowds or selling out.

So....... I am trying to ... i guess figure out something in not just my life but in the world in general............. As a few of you may know. I am pretty much an Athiest. No belief in a "God" or a higher power or anything. Well .... I lately have decided i want to try to understand the belief in god/a higher power. Now i am not talking about the history of religion and god and what not cause i know enough of it and how it has evolved into what it is today. I want to know HOW someone believes in god? What its like? Why? all of that and more.
I try to look into it internally and understand it and even TRY to believe but.... it just doesn't make sense. I can't understand the true internal logic of it. It just doesn't fit or work out in my head.

Well this weekend was filled with disappointment and frustration. (although the first one ended up not being that bad by the end of the weekend )

As you all remember i had that date that went really well last Saturday. Me and her (Vee) were planning to have a second date to the movies Saturday. We had been messaging on and off through myspace all week and i was REALLY looking forward to saturday. Well Saturday night comes and..... nothing. I called and nothing. I called a few hours later and still nothing. I sadly have been stood up a shit load of times and while i was sad i wasn't upset cause i had a fear and feeling it would happen.
Well i Sent her a message today on Myspace and when i got back from going out tonight. There was a message back from her. Turns out she has Epilepsy and was a bit embarrassed to tell me, having just met me. Well she had an attack and was very sorry about saturday. I don't know when but hopefully we will be going out again soon

Then there was TONIGHT.............. I went out with My friends Sam and Tabby to a local rockabilly show. When they picked me up at my place Tabs was already kinda drunk lol. Well we went to the show had a great time. Tab ended up getting REALLY drunk so me and her decided it might be best if she went and rested it off in the car (especially since she was VERY lacking on sleep for like 2 days) so i get the keys from Sam and i walk Tabby over to the car. I lay her down in the back seat. As i lay her down some woman on a building stoop calls out to me asking if she could bum a smoke. Tabby didn't care so i gave her one and lit it up for her. I decided i should at least wait like 20 minutes before i went back to make sure that she was gonna be OK in the car.
Well Tabby is laying in the back on the phone with her BF and i am in the passenger seat on my knees leaning over the seat with my hand resting on her back making sure she was doing and feeling ok. Well all of a sudden i hear a knocking on the window. Its the same woman with two younger guys (like 15 and 17) I figure they wanna bum more smokes so i open the door and WAM the one guy fucking jumps on me his arm ON my fucking throat all of them shouting What the fuck are you doing trying to fucking rape her............. WTF?????????????????? We struggle back and forth they end up getting her purse and i call Sam since its her car and tell her to get the fuck over there. They come back saying they called the cops on me. I got her ID and purse back. Sam gets there and almost got in a fight with the one guy. We leave and go back to the parking lot by my place only to find out they stole not only 200 dollars out or Tabbys purse. but when i was pushed over onto the drivers seat they had stolen Sams iPod out of the car.
So we ended up having to file a fucking police report.
Frustrating fucking weekend.

So i ended up having a quite amazing weekend that actually kinda started earlier this week.

The Prologue to this weekend is that earlier this week i got a message on Myspace from someone i didn't know. I actually almost ignored it but i decided what the hell and read it. It was from a woman in the chicago land area who just thought my page looked cool and so did my pictures. So we became Myspace friends and messaged back and forth. Talked about things we like and that we both enjoy going to Neo. She said she might be going this saturday and i told her if she did end up going i would see here there.

I worked Saturday and had some pretty decent sales. My plans then were to go home rest and then head out to Neo with R0nin and meet the girl i had talked to on Myspace. Well Ronin ended up missing the last train in so i was going SOLO lol and as many of you know i have my big anxiety problems so i was kinda nervous about going. But by the time i had found out I was going alone i was already out and on my way over so i said fuck it worse comes to worth if i hate it i leave.
Well i got there around 1130 said Hi to my bartender Angelena got a drink and headed to stand overlooking the dance floor.... Out of the corner of my eye i thought i saw a girl that kinda looked like the one i was meeting. I couldn't tell 100% so i stood there and waited a bit. I had been smart and i sent a picture of her from her myspace to my phone so i knew kinda who i was looking for. I eventually determined it was more than likely her and got the courage to go up and talk to her. So i walked over, tapped her on the shoulder and asked "Are you......?" It was her. So we ended up standing there and talking. Turns out her friend flaked out on her too lol. She was about as nervous as i was which for me actually made me alot less nervous. We talked for a while and we were standing closer and closer to each other..... she leaned in a bit extra close to tell me a few things in my ear(so i could hear her over the music) and as she pulled away i looked her in the eyes, leaned in and kissed her. ....... we ended up kissing and talking all night lol. She eventually had to go home for work sunday but we are going out again next sunday Possibly a movie or maybe neo again but we will figure that out later. She's a sweet, shy, cute, pretty hot, Punk/Industrial little Puerto Rican girl

Today i ended up hanging out with LittleMenace and my new friend Zack. We walked around went to grab a bite to eat and being as Zack is new to chicago i showed him a few local cool places like 99th floor. it was a good night.... but not as good as last night

I hope everyone had a great 4th of July. I went to watch fireworks out in the north burbs with my mom like i do every year. (missed it last year cause i was out of town )
Going out tonight to Neo. Other than that no major news that i can think of.

So as not to be boring. If you have ANY questions to ask me about ANYTHING about me go ahead and ask it and i will answer to the best of my ability.

What the hell is it with EVERYTHING i want to do happening all in one weekend? Not only that but on a weekend where i HAVE to work so i can't do any of them?
This weekend here in chicago there was
1 Chicago Wizard World. I have wanted to go to this all year. I was hoping i would have had AT LEAST one day this weekend off so i could enjoy it but sadly i did not.
2 The Body Art Expo. While no i sadly do not have any tats and only one real piercing (i don't really count my ears since they are just normal like 18g or so i got done with a stupid piercing gun when i was younger) I really would have loved to have gone to even one or half a day of this to see all the art and beautiful piercings going on there.
3. Gay Pride weekend. This is the thing i do EVERY FUCKING YEAR.Last year was the first year in a long time i missed it because i was sadly out of town. Luckly with GP i did get to somewhat experience it
On saturday when i worked I got out in time to see just the tail end of the festivities. Then on sunday was when the parade was. I was very upset originally at the idea of missing it.... then i found out the store i was scheduled at............ The HALSTED AND BELMONT STORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For those of you who don't know chicago or about pridefest that is where the parade STARTS so my original shitty weekend turned into AWESOMENESS!!!!!!!!!!! We were of course DEAD at the store. So me and the manager pretty much got to enjoy the Gay Pride Parade..... and got fucking paid for it I got beads and schwag and pictures with my cell phone and everything I uploaded all my pictures i took into a new gay pride folder on here so go check them out and comment or what ever.
Here is a little taste of them

When you look at the folder some of them are alot smaller than the rest and i am sorry. My phone does that sometimes with pictures and i can't stop it. it sucks but its better than nothing.

R.I.P.Michael Turner. You were much to young. Your beautiful art will be missed.

There are times i FUCKING HATE public transit.
So last night after work there was a big meeting with all the managers from the region. We have one every other week so its no big deal. We talk about changes in the company, Problems in the company or anything else going on(we found out that prices are all going up cause of the rising gas/oil prices last night) Well the meeting starts at about 9:30 and got out at around 10:10 or so. The store its at isn't that far from my house and it usually takes me under an hour to get home. Still time to get home relax watch tv and do what ever. Well its a two bus trip ride home. The first bus (Western St. for those of you in chicago) I had to wait OVER A FUCKING HOUR for it. Then i had to wait almost half an hour for my second bus(Irving park). I didn't end up getting home till almost 12:30!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so fucking pissed. I am still pissed because not only did it cut into my sleep time BUT I also slept like shit cause i was in a bad mood so now i am at work on my laptop and fucking pissed. The CTA (Chicago Transit Authority) has a request/Complaint email line on their website and believe me you i am going to give them a fucking ear full.

Well all i have to say is that i now have a fucking amazing awesome laptop. its so fast so smooth so amazing i can actually..... do things on it lol

*does a random little dance*............ oh hey didn't see you there SG.
I went to see my friend Corals husbands band saturday night and it was great. I haven't actually seen Coral in almost 3 years. We talk but we just could never get our schedules to work out. Since the last time i saw her she has gotten married and had a little baby boy It was so nice to see them again ( i had met him right after they started dating once) We talked most of the night and remembered old good times from when me and coral hung out ALL the time and even dated for like a month lol. I am so far the only ex bf of hers NOT trying to cause problems with them lol.
Other than that I just chilled most of the weekend. i went to see Incredible HULK on sunday and it was so fucking awesome. It was ALMOST as good as IRON MAN and i was in love with that movie.

Well nothing really new going on. I am still very pissed off at Manni about what happened in my last journal.

Since i have nothing big to talk about. I am gonna entertain everyone. ENJOY



Oh and i have for everyone who reads this a gift.... a gift of