IPOD
RADIO
You'd think having had the uterus torched in February would stop the ovulation. NO. It doesn't. On top of that I'm having an issue with the whole cyst thing. This has only happened twice now and my doc says it that polycystic ovarian disease or whatever it's called. Fucking ouch!
Sure as hell hope everyone elses day is blessed.
Vice always makes my day brighter
One last thing. No one has to tell me just how absent I am from participation here. I know. I'm lame. Just too much RL stuff coming at me at once and on top of that I'm working both jobs everyday right now. I'm a big slacker in checking blogs and responding to them so I apologize. My love for my SG friends goes without saying and should any of you need a thing don't hesitate to shout!
Sure as hell hope everyone elses day is blessed.
Vice always makes my day brighter
One last thing. No one has to tell me just how absent I am from participation here. I know. I'm lame. Just too much RL stuff coming at me at once and on top of that I'm working both jobs everyday right now. I'm a big slacker in checking blogs and responding to them so I apologize. My love for my SG friends goes without saying and should any of you need a thing don't hesitate to shout!
There's enough work in real life so who the hell wants to sit down to SG and look at posts from the sick, dishonest, or otherwise reality challenged. Call me jaded and I'm not even involved. 
Well finally have time and energy to sit down and write a short blog about dad. We've dodged another bullet for right now it seems. After 5 days in CCU and aggressive treatments with steroids and breathing treatments they moved dad to a regular hospital room. Then after a couple of days there they let me bring him home.
He's got VERY limited mobility now just due to the pulse ox. This was not an episode it was the next stage of this ultimately fatal disease taking him away.
I just want to thank everyone who paid attention. Thanks to everyone who prayed, had good thoughts, and cared. There is only one person on this entire site that I know (not the whole site) who I expected to get a message from saying they hoped he died and they actually had the kindness not to say anything and I thank them too.
Hopefully when this happens again dad will continue to respond to treatments. Ultimately he won't and the respitory failure will take him to his Creator. I hope we can have another 2 or 3 years because he's the best dad in the entire world and I can't imagine my life without him.
Thanks again everyone. Seriously. I loves you each.
He's got VERY limited mobility now just due to the pulse ox. This was not an episode it was the next stage of this ultimately fatal disease taking him away.
I just want to thank everyone who paid attention. Thanks to everyone who prayed, had good thoughts, and cared. There is only one person on this entire site that I know (not the whole site) who I expected to get a message from saying they hoped he died and they actually had the kindness not to say anything and I thank them too.
Hopefully when this happens again dad will continue to respond to treatments. Ultimately he won't and the respitory failure will take him to his Creator. I hope we can have another 2 or 3 years because he's the best dad in the entire world and I can't imagine my life without him.
Thanks again everyone. Seriously. I loves you each.
Take a minute to read this please. Spread the word. And for Christ's sake if you smoke STOP!!! Watching my dad die is no fucking picnic and I'm certain that your loved ones don't want to have to watch you die like this, a slow, suffocating death. When you're done reading this please pray for my dad.
Dad 4 years before his diagnosis
Pulmonary Fibrosis, the Secret Killer
Each year more than 40,000 Americans die from Pulmonary Fibrosis. This is the same as those with Breast Cancer, but many more than those with Ovarian Cancer (14,000), those with Prostate Cancer (31,900) and Cystic Fibrosis (less than 1000).
Despite these numbers, victims of Pulmonary Fibrosis continue to be under represented in medical research protocols. There are currently 200,000 sufferers from Pulmonary Fibrosis in the United States compared to 340,000 victims of AIDS. In terms of visibility, everyone is familiar with AIDS, but very few people have heard about Pulmonary Fibrosis. At this time there is no effective treatment for Pulmonary Fibrosis. It is therefore a terminal illness in which the victim succumbs within two to four years after diagnosis.
Pulmonary Fibrosis is a disease in which the air sacs of the lungs are gradually replaced by scar tissue. As the disease progresses, the increase in scar tissue interferes with the ability of the lungs to transfer oxygen to the blood stream. Breathing becomes increasingly difficult and the patient dies of respiratory failure. The age of onset is usually between 40 and 70 but we are currently witnessing patients of a younger age becoming affected. To add to the problem, the condition is often misdiagnosed as asthma, emphysema or one of the many forms of pneumonia. The symptoms are shortness of breath upon physical exertion and later on difficulty in talking on the phone.
The Pulmonary Fibrosis Foundation was established to help confront the many problems faced by victims of the disease. Its mission is manifold. First, is to increase awareness of Pulmonary Fibrosis as a disease entity in both the medical community and the general public. This is important since early diagnosis and treatment may halt the disease's progression and increase the longevity of the patient. Second, is to increase funding for research that will find a cure for Pulmonary Fibrosis. This will be accomplished through direct funding by the foundation and advocacy of an increase in funding by the National Institute of Health for lung research.
If you would like additional information about Pulmonary Fibrosis or the Foundation call 312-377-6895 or write to: Pulmonary Fibrosis Foundation, 1440 West Washington Blvd., Chicago, IL 60607. We can be reached by email at:
breathe@pulmonaryfibrosis.org or on the internet at: www.pulmonaryfibrosis.org.
Dad 4 years before his diagnosis
Pulmonary Fibrosis, the Secret Killer
Each year more than 40,000 Americans die from Pulmonary Fibrosis. This is the same as those with Breast Cancer, but many more than those with Ovarian Cancer (14,000), those with Prostate Cancer (31,900) and Cystic Fibrosis (less than 1000).
Despite these numbers, victims of Pulmonary Fibrosis continue to be under represented in medical research protocols. There are currently 200,000 sufferers from Pulmonary Fibrosis in the United States compared to 340,000 victims of AIDS. In terms of visibility, everyone is familiar with AIDS, but very few people have heard about Pulmonary Fibrosis. At this time there is no effective treatment for Pulmonary Fibrosis. It is therefore a terminal illness in which the victim succumbs within two to four years after diagnosis.
Pulmonary Fibrosis is a disease in which the air sacs of the lungs are gradually replaced by scar tissue. As the disease progresses, the increase in scar tissue interferes with the ability of the lungs to transfer oxygen to the blood stream. Breathing becomes increasingly difficult and the patient dies of respiratory failure. The age of onset is usually between 40 and 70 but we are currently witnessing patients of a younger age becoming affected. To add to the problem, the condition is often misdiagnosed as asthma, emphysema or one of the many forms of pneumonia. The symptoms are shortness of breath upon physical exertion and later on difficulty in talking on the phone.
The Pulmonary Fibrosis Foundation was established to help confront the many problems faced by victims of the disease. Its mission is manifold. First, is to increase awareness of Pulmonary Fibrosis as a disease entity in both the medical community and the general public. This is important since early diagnosis and treatment may halt the disease's progression and increase the longevity of the patient. Second, is to increase funding for research that will find a cure for Pulmonary Fibrosis. This will be accomplished through direct funding by the foundation and advocacy of an increase in funding by the National Institute of Health for lung research.
If you would like additional information about Pulmonary Fibrosis or the Foundation call 312-377-6895 or write to: Pulmonary Fibrosis Foundation, 1440 West Washington Blvd., Chicago, IL 60607. We can be reached by email at:
breathe@pulmonaryfibrosis.org or on the internet at: www.pulmonaryfibrosis.org.
For reference to this blog see the last blog.
Two words:
HEAVY FUCKING METAL
ok, three.
Now a couple of more word:
Judas MOTHER FUCKING Priest
ok, one last thing:
ROB FUCKING HALFORD!!!
He's the METAL GOD!
He is diverse!!!
Check Glenn's fucking guitar solo in this...fuck me!
Two words:
HEAVY FUCKING METAL
ok, three.
Now a couple of more word:
Judas MOTHER FUCKING Priest
ok, one last thing:
ROB FUCKING HALFORD!!!
He's the METAL GOD!
He is diverse!!!
Check Glenn's fucking guitar solo in this...fuck me!
I know I haven't been to active on here and I'm not going to be much this weekend either. I'll be in Pittsburg lounging in the sun at THIS EVENT.
With well over 200 probably 250+ show since my first Iron Maiden show in 82 I've never seen
with Halford. My
is raging hard for this reason!
Also, the love of my life Lemmy Kilmister and this posse will be there. Never seen em. Can you belive that shit? They've been on the Young Ones but I've never seen em live. The world is a fucked up place.
Not a big fan o' these guys but hey, I do own a disc and I can appreciate, ya know? This is probably my favorite song by them. It'll be good to say I've seen em.
And can you belive this fucking opening act? I've seen Ozzy and I've seen Dio both seperately and several times each but this? This I've never seen. It'll be great. Seems that out of respect for the Ozzman they've retired the name "Black Sabbath" and now call themselves "Heaven and Hell." You know, since that was one of the albums Dio did with them back in the day? Yeah, whatever...enjoy. Dio is one of my favorite singers on the face of the planet even if he is only about 2' 2" tall. Love him.
OK! I can't find one single video on YouTube of these clowns together that I like that's not from like 82. I'm not posting shit videos from people's cell phones either so you'll just have to fish through the sea of Sabbath vids out there to check the ones you like. I thought they all blew.
Anywho, I'll have fun looking at
And hopefully not have to look at any of these
Should be a great day, all in all!
Too bad I'll never see this man ever again!
Love you Dime! Still think of you whenever I think of heavy metal shredding!
Click to enlarge the above red x and the pic of the man will appear. Apparently SG is fucking the man over right now.
With well over 200 probably 250+ show since my first Iron Maiden show in 82 I've never seen
with Halford. My
is raging hard for this reason! Also, the love of my life Lemmy Kilmister and this posse will be there. Never seen em. Can you belive that shit? They've been on the Young Ones but I've never seen em live. The world is a fucked up place.
Not a big fan o' these guys but hey, I do own a disc and I can appreciate, ya know? This is probably my favorite song by them. It'll be good to say I've seen em.
And can you belive this fucking opening act? I've seen Ozzy and I've seen Dio both seperately and several times each but this? This I've never seen. It'll be great. Seems that out of respect for the Ozzman they've retired the name "Black Sabbath" and now call themselves "Heaven and Hell." You know, since that was one of the albums Dio did with them back in the day? Yeah, whatever...enjoy. Dio is one of my favorite singers on the face of the planet even if he is only about 2' 2" tall. Love him.
OK! I can't find one single video on YouTube of these clowns together that I like that's not from like 82. I'm not posting shit videos from people's cell phones either so you'll just have to fish through the sea of Sabbath vids out there to check the ones you like. I thought they all blew.
Anywho, I'll have fun looking at
And hopefully not have to look at any of these
Should be a great day, all in all!
Too bad I'll never see this man ever again!
Love you Dime! Still think of you whenever I think of heavy metal shredding!
Click to enlarge the above red x and the pic of the man will appear. Apparently SG is fucking the man over right now.
Funny, with dad being so ill with the emphysema we have discussions about his death. Mind you we had a huuuuuuuuuuuge incident last week and he went down with only my 10 year old nephew here as the boy accidently let two of our female chow chows out together that we NEVER let together because they have alpha female hatred for one another. He thought he could get them broken up. NOT! I happened to pull into the driveway with a friend who was bringing me home and could barely hear dad scream! You never seen a 300+ pound woman find her old moves and fly like I did. By the time I reached him he was down, not moving. My nephew was in full shock and the dogs were locked tight on each others faces.
I knew I had to break those girls up so paramedics would come to the backyard and I knew that cops would kill my dogs, who would never hurt a human or another animal for that matter, they just hate each other. I dove on the dog that weighs around 83 pounds and was punching her like she was a man to no avail. I finally had to put her in that sleeper hold I told you all about. She passed out and my friend had finally made it to the backyard and she grabbed my dog that weighs all of about 38 pounds and threw her in the house. In the meantime, my skinny dog Daisy was tearing at the dog I had pinned from behind because she thought she had me. I was screaming for my friend to get Daisy in the house too. She finally did but Daisy nipped her because she was so frightened. Didn't hurt her though.
In the meantime I saw dad starting to roll around on the ground, Joyce, my friend noticed his oxygen had come off and my nephew was screaming now should he call 911. Dad actually yelled call them before going out again. I ran in the house, got my 2 dogs locked in rooms and then got dad's 2 dogs in his room as the paramedic showed up WITH the 5-0. In a nutshell all was ok with the dogs once I showed proof of shots and licsenses and they understood that the bite I had and the one dad had was because of trying to break them up not because they attacked us.
Dad's pulse ox had dropped to like 68. We normally breath around 99% so he was totally depleated. I was scared to death he was having another heart attack. My nephew thought he'd killed his grandfather and was in total shock still, even after seeing dad sit up when the paramedics got his oxygen back up to around 92% (normal for dad). He wouldn't go in the squad so they got a chair and took him to his car and loaded him and me and Ellis took him to the hospital. My mom came in and met us to help out.
Within 4 hours he was home with a bite wound to his thumb and I to my left wrist. Both were thru and thru but will be fine. The next monday I got him to the doc to follow up with the thumb and discuss the passing out situation. He's been starved for air for sometime come to find out. She did her thing and had him walk with and without air and he's went from a mere 4 litres continuous air clear up to 9 litres in just that one visit. He still doesn't know how to gauge this disease yet. He suffers needlessly thinking it's just normal because he's got this disease. I had noticed purple tips of fingers and toes but hell I am still learning too.
At any rate, he's only got $2000 left to pay on the house and it's paid off and this incident spurred him to tell me he's quit claim deeding the house to me when it's paid off in 09 so he can teach me how to handle homeowner's insurance and property taxes and such before he progresses further.
I'm very fortunate to have the dad I have. I only wish I'd have paid more attention over the years but you never think things will come down to this, you know?
The dad and the nephew hanging out at my sister's house recently
I knew I had to break those girls up so paramedics would come to the backyard and I knew that cops would kill my dogs, who would never hurt a human or another animal for that matter, they just hate each other. I dove on the dog that weighs around 83 pounds and was punching her like she was a man to no avail. I finally had to put her in that sleeper hold I told you all about. She passed out and my friend had finally made it to the backyard and she grabbed my dog that weighs all of about 38 pounds and threw her in the house. In the meantime, my skinny dog Daisy was tearing at the dog I had pinned from behind because she thought she had me. I was screaming for my friend to get Daisy in the house too. She finally did but Daisy nipped her because she was so frightened. Didn't hurt her though.
In the meantime I saw dad starting to roll around on the ground, Joyce, my friend noticed his oxygen had come off and my nephew was screaming now should he call 911. Dad actually yelled call them before going out again. I ran in the house, got my 2 dogs locked in rooms and then got dad's 2 dogs in his room as the paramedic showed up WITH the 5-0. In a nutshell all was ok with the dogs once I showed proof of shots and licsenses and they understood that the bite I had and the one dad had was because of trying to break them up not because they attacked us.
Dad's pulse ox had dropped to like 68. We normally breath around 99% so he was totally depleated. I was scared to death he was having another heart attack. My nephew thought he'd killed his grandfather and was in total shock still, even after seeing dad sit up when the paramedics got his oxygen back up to around 92% (normal for dad). He wouldn't go in the squad so they got a chair and took him to his car and loaded him and me and Ellis took him to the hospital. My mom came in and met us to help out.
Within 4 hours he was home with a bite wound to his thumb and I to my left wrist. Both were thru and thru but will be fine. The next monday I got him to the doc to follow up with the thumb and discuss the passing out situation. He's been starved for air for sometime come to find out. She did her thing and had him walk with and without air and he's went from a mere 4 litres continuous air clear up to 9 litres in just that one visit. He still doesn't know how to gauge this disease yet. He suffers needlessly thinking it's just normal because he's got this disease. I had noticed purple tips of fingers and toes but hell I am still learning too.
At any rate, he's only got $2000 left to pay on the house and it's paid off and this incident spurred him to tell me he's quit claim deeding the house to me when it's paid off in 09 so he can teach me how to handle homeowner's insurance and property taxes and such before he progresses further.
I'm very fortunate to have the dad I have. I only wish I'd have paid more attention over the years but you never think things will come down to this, you know?
The dad and the nephew hanging out at my sister's house recently
WORST.
RUSH SHOW.
EVER!
I'm sick about it too. I cried, literally. Geddy's voice was fucked. He has injured his chords or something and couldn't not hit higher notes. He even TOTALLY fucked up the keyboards at the end of Subdivisions. He knew it too. The look on his face was horror.
I think these guys need to take a couple of years off, regroup, write some new stuff and relax. They aren't spring chickens anymore and they've been touring for two fucking years. Any practical person would say TAKE TIME OFF YOU OLD FUCKS BEFORE YOU GET TO THE POINT OF NOT BEING ABLE TO BRING YOUR FUCKING AWESOME TALENT TO US LIVE ANYMORE!!!
Last night was a night of firsts for me and they were all bad! All bad. I can't even go into it here. It has much to do with age, weight, health. I will not share the depths of it on Suicide fucking Girls. Sorry. For that matter I'm considering letting my membership go when my 3 months it up. I've not decided but I'm losing interest here.
Anywho, don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I'm a fucked up mess right now but I've lived through alcoholism and drug addiction so I'm thinking God didn't bring me this far to drop me now. Fuck it.
RUSH SHOW.
EVER!
I'm sick about it too. I cried, literally. Geddy's voice was fucked. He has injured his chords or something and couldn't not hit higher notes. He even TOTALLY fucked up the keyboards at the end of Subdivisions. He knew it too. The look on his face was horror.
I think these guys need to take a couple of years off, regroup, write some new stuff and relax. They aren't spring chickens anymore and they've been touring for two fucking years. Any practical person would say TAKE TIME OFF YOU OLD FUCKS BEFORE YOU GET TO THE POINT OF NOT BEING ABLE TO BRING YOUR FUCKING AWESOME TALENT TO US LIVE ANYMORE!!!
Last night was a night of firsts for me and they were all bad! All bad. I can't even go into it here. It has much to do with age, weight, health. I will not share the depths of it on Suicide fucking Girls. Sorry. For that matter I'm considering letting my membership go when my 3 months it up. I've not decided but I'm losing interest here.
Anywho, don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I'm a fucked up mess right now but I've lived through alcoholism and drug addiction so I'm thinking God didn't bring me this far to drop me now. Fuck it.
OCTOBER 2008
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