I've only realised that it's been a year since I've last written a blog, so here's a little update. I took severance pay from my employers last September, so I used the money to pay off my loan, home improvements, and I travelled to Barcelona, my grandfather's home city before he emigrated to Jamaica in the 1930s. I got to see distance relatives for the first time, and I also got to meet my grandad's sister who's in her 90s. She was in tears saying that I had grandad's eyes and confident swagger. I never met my grandad, and my father never talks much about him, yet during those two weeks it was great to finally piece together this grandparent's history. It was a great holiday.

I still have problems with my health, I was told that it'll be a while before I'm back at work, but I got very bored not having to work, so despite my chronic health condition, I've been able to get myself a part-time job at the petrol station at the end of my street. It's great I don't have to walk far, plus it doesn't interfere with my hospital appointments.

I hope my health improves because, my wife and I want to start a family. My mother spoke to me last week saying that she wants to see my children before she gets too old, and I'm the only one of her children who hasn't got kids of my own. Before I get the wife pregnant, I there's a few places I want to visit first, and I hope this coming year I can do so.

Since I had my operation a few months back, I've decided to make some changes in my life. I have been offered to take severance pay from my employers, due to medical reasons preventing me doing my old job. I'm not particularly bothered, because I hate the stinking job. At the moment I'm receiving incapacity benefit, because my employers no longer pay me except my national insurance contribution, so here's what I'm going to do. When I'm feeling better, hopefully soon, I'm going to take advantage of the social security's offer of job retraining. I'm very tempted with my employers offer of £16,000 severance pay. If I take the money, I can pay off my bank loan, plus the money will come in handy because my wife and I are ready to start a family after 10 years of marriage.

We're talking about having kids after my visit to hospital last week. I was sent by my GP after discovering a huge lump in my left testicle. After many I was relieved it wasn't cancer, but my wife and I was asked by the urologist if we had any children, if not are we trying for some. The questions were embarrassing but necessary. If we wanted kids, I was advised to leave the lump as it is, because any operation could possibly make me infertile.

( I may be infertile for all I know. With all the sex we had in 10 years we haven't any kids yet. lol . )

I'm due to go back to hospital again in September, so I have some time to think about it. If we decide to have kids, my wife's employers are excellent when it comes to maternity leave, so we don't need to worry on the financial front, as our outgoing are very good.

Apart from my stinking health, life is pretty good.

I've only been on this site a few weeks, and I must say I'm enjoying myself while recovering after major surgery. A huge thank you to the Suicide Girls, Hopefuls, and members who make this site very interesting. Cheers!