Whats good to do in Tucson? I am finding myself still traveling up to Phoenix to see shows and go to events... am I missing something? Am I just not giving the city a chance? Prove me wrong here...
Ever get that feeling you're being watched at work? Not in that good, "Hey, the cute intern is checking me out again." sort of way. In the that weird guy who eats a bag of doritos while at the urinal(true story), and never washes his hands is staring at you when he walks past your cube EVERY time? I cannot even fucking express how much I don't want to be made into a skin suit. This one does NOT put the lotion on its skin!
Wow... it's been a long time, but I'm back. Well, sort of... back but down south of Tucson now.
I don't know wtf they are talking about when they say married men live longer... not if I had stayed with my now Ex. Fuck... it feels good to be free of that headache and drama.
Okay sooo... I just got done cracking open a beer and taking a shower, and contemplating. Yes, I said I drank a beer in the shower... if you haven't tried it when stressed out, it is so choice, and I recommend it.
After the fireworks and drama Friday night, I'm seriously considering dusting off the 'ol bachelor card again. I just don't understand how you're supposed to function in a relationship with no trust, or wild mood swings and accusations.
I had a late meeting @ work, and then had a business dinner afterward that ran until about 8:30pm.... so meeting ended around 6:30-7pm, dinner for an hr and a half. She knew about it well in advance. But I didn't respond to her text messages for 2.5 hours. Obviously I'm a complete bastard and was fucking someone else. Obviously.
I woke up in the morning though, and thought to myself... self, I said, lets be a bastard today, what are the top two choices? It was close between tossing kittens into volcanoes, or not responding to text messages for 2.5 hours. The texting won out in the end. A hell-worthy offense to be sure...
Then today I'm being cold-shouldered and ignored even when i'm trying to be the bigger person in spite of having done absolutely nothing wrong. Maybe being too nice about things is the problem, and I should meet wild accusations with the same, and scream and pout and stomp my feet? But I just really try to minimize drama and fighting... wish others felt the same. :\
Staying just for the sake of trying to make someone whose life is already falling apart around them a little brighter and make sure they smile at least once in a while seems admirable, but I think I'm just being naieve waiting for an end to said drama. Can't be everything to everyone, or even everything to one person.
I really do wish sometimes I could just wildly go around flipping out on people and being surprised when they don't want to talk. I don't know how people in life function like that, irrationality FTW.
Ohhhh well... it's Saturday night in a city i'm still learning, and I think it may be time to prowl around soon... hope everyone else is having a good one.
p.s. I got my secret clearance finalized this week! I'm stoked about THAT one to be sure.
After the fireworks and drama Friday night, I'm seriously considering dusting off the 'ol bachelor card again. I just don't understand how you're supposed to function in a relationship with no trust, or wild mood swings and accusations.
I had a late meeting @ work, and then had a business dinner afterward that ran until about 8:30pm.... so meeting ended around 6:30-7pm, dinner for an hr and a half. She knew about it well in advance. But I didn't respond to her text messages for 2.5 hours. Obviously I'm a complete bastard and was fucking someone else. Obviously.
I woke up in the morning though, and thought to myself... self, I said, lets be a bastard today, what are the top two choices? It was close between tossing kittens into volcanoes, or not responding to text messages for 2.5 hours. The texting won out in the end. A hell-worthy offense to be sure...
Then today I'm being cold-shouldered and ignored even when i'm trying to be the bigger person in spite of having done absolutely nothing wrong. Maybe being too nice about things is the problem, and I should meet wild accusations with the same, and scream and pout and stomp my feet? But I just really try to minimize drama and fighting... wish others felt the same. :\
Staying just for the sake of trying to make someone whose life is already falling apart around them a little brighter and make sure they smile at least once in a while seems admirable, but I think I'm just being naieve waiting for an end to said drama. Can't be everything to everyone, or even everything to one person.
I really do wish sometimes I could just wildly go around flipping out on people and being surprised when they don't want to talk. I don't know how people in life function like that, irrationality FTW.
Ohhhh well... it's Saturday night in a city i'm still learning, and I think it may be time to prowl around soon... hope everyone else is having a good one.
p.s. I got my secret clearance finalized this week! I'm stoked about THAT one to be sure.
On another note... does anyone else find mustaches creepy? fuckin creepy like clowns... *shiver*
Work is good, the house I am renting is more um... lived in... than I expected it to be, but whatever.
Still trying to figure out where most people go out down here; went to a few places over the weekend, but the walk in between, I felt like I was gonna get stabbed in the neighborhood.
Still trying to figure out where most people go out down here; went to a few places over the weekend, but the walk in between, I felt like I was gonna get stabbed in the neighborhood.
Well its been a while... some anonymous benefactor has renewed my account for me! Lots and lots has changed, and I'm soon going to be on my way to Tucson!!! Yep... Tucson, peoples! So anyone down in Tucson... what are the hot spots? lol.
Sporadic posts for the win. Hmmm 3am boobies... good. Being out of vodka... bad. How much of a whore does it make me if the thing that tips the scales and motivates me to get out of the house and answer the bootie call that woke me up at this lovely 3am is the prospect of free booze? I mean I *KNOW* that basically makes me more of an alcoholic than a whore, but I'm selling myself in a way... hmmm. Oh well may as well, not like I have to go back to work for over a week still.
While I'm making up my mind on that, may as well throw this thought out to everyone else too...
I've been really attempting to be a less confrontational person. The problem there is that I'm still pretty vindictive, and I feel like that'd be harder to change than being confrontational. Besides the fact, I just enjoy the feeling of really getting back at someone so I don't have any paticular motivation to change that aspect of my personality. So anyway, I guess it's a multi-part question...
It's true that generally the easiest way out of a difficult situation is a smile.
However, is it the case that the easiest way is always the best way? Does anyone really ever learn anything from the easy way? I mean really.
Also, what is to be said about someone who smiles their way out of a situation then a second later starts plotting revenge? Seems kind of bullshit and sneaky. It also is less rewarding somehow if they don't even suspect who got em and why they deserve what they got.
Sooo... In a genuine attempt to cause less drama/stress/whatever you may call it, am I doing something worse by going against my nature? I know I certainly would rather have someone argue with me than just "agree to disagree" about somethign if I'm genuinely wrong. I'd also rather know than not know about something that is bothering someone lest it fester and become a larger problem. Soooo... I guess the answer is to find a happy medium?
Oh fuck it, enough thinking, its 3am and I have places to be... plus I just found my car keys. Later peeps.
-manwhore
*EDIT*
p.s. Anyone want to be my new gym partner? It's pretty easy, I change out the routines every 6 weeks or so, go 3 days a week for about 40 min(give or take depending on the routine and how many people are there.). It's pretty easy for novices and I help people learn. I also can probably get you signed up for their "special" that is $40... includes first and last month, then $15 per month.(ungodly cheap). Only thing is, I go out in Chandler... so uhh yeah.
While I'm making up my mind on that, may as well throw this thought out to everyone else too...
I've been really attempting to be a less confrontational person. The problem there is that I'm still pretty vindictive, and I feel like that'd be harder to change than being confrontational. Besides the fact, I just enjoy the feeling of really getting back at someone so I don't have any paticular motivation to change that aspect of my personality. So anyway, I guess it's a multi-part question...
It's true that generally the easiest way out of a difficult situation is a smile.
However, is it the case that the easiest way is always the best way? Does anyone really ever learn anything from the easy way? I mean really.
Also, what is to be said about someone who smiles their way out of a situation then a second later starts plotting revenge? Seems kind of bullshit and sneaky. It also is less rewarding somehow if they don't even suspect who got em and why they deserve what they got.
Sooo... In a genuine attempt to cause less drama/stress/whatever you may call it, am I doing something worse by going against my nature? I know I certainly would rather have someone argue with me than just "agree to disagree" about somethign if I'm genuinely wrong. I'd also rather know than not know about something that is bothering someone lest it fester and become a larger problem. Soooo... I guess the answer is to find a happy medium?
Oh fuck it, enough thinking, its 3am and I have places to be... plus I just found my car keys. Later peeps.
-manwhore
*EDIT*
p.s. Anyone want to be my new gym partner? It's pretty easy, I change out the routines every 6 weeks or so, go 3 days a week for about 40 min(give or take depending on the routine and how many people are there.). It's pretty easy for novices and I help people learn. I also can probably get you signed up for their "special" that is $40... includes first and last month, then $15 per month.(ungodly cheap). Only thing is, I go out in Chandler... so uhh yeah.
