oh me oh my. iz now july... almost august! I have not posted for over two months!
i am ill my babies, ill. a little sick catty.

I am still in limbo with my classical guitar player... sigh.. why is the course of true love never smooth? me no wants to be sad anymore!

I am sehr busy, catties, sehr busy, and I am hoping to get a new jobby in the sexy posh mall near me, so i will have spondoolies again!

much love and smooshes to you all sweets, *smoosh*

I'll *try* being more gooder and posting again sooN!

I am a bad kitty. I do not post. Iz pretty bad akshully.
Heh I am in love with the lolcatz, I found myself spending way too much time on the site Icanhascheezburger? and it is gooood!.
Though in other news, I am mucho MUCHO sad that my lower belly button piercing has decided to up and pack its bags and migrate off my belly....its bummish. I pulled it slightly a few weeks ago and it has just been getting redder and redder and sorer and sorer, and the other night in the bath it felt really tight across my belly, so I took it out, and kissed it goodbye, and watched as my belly shed a tear!
Its a little angry scar now, but i am nice to it, and moisturise it and i make it better, then I get repierced! woop!
On the up side, I have new snakebites! *oooh shimmy shimmy* and they are so pretty, but i am actually a metal face now! Never mind we likes..
In other news, the actor turned out to be a homicidal stalkerish maniac and I thank god! came to my senses and cut loose. Hence the stalkerishness. But seriously, violent people and me just dont get along.
Is it wrong that I like to be with someone? That i like to be involved. Some would say no, but I am worried I am not letting ,yself get over the One properly. I dont think I will ever stop lloving him, but its from a distance i think. And in the meantime, i can have as many friends and slash or partners as i like, as long as i know i am being careful with my feelings.
I must seem such a whore lol!
There are a couple of dates in the future but i think friendship is al ot more important than anything.I am so exctied I feel so nervous!!!!!! More to come on this one anyway.
I hope everyone is feeling good.
Oh...illness updaate. well lets not go there shall we? No change. Still Mucho Poo Compadres.
love and kisses (and who doesnt want those?)

this is me this is life this is the start and the end and all of the beginning and the end of the worm but the life goes on and what do i do do i move do i stay i dont know and my mind rambles and my head spins and i fade to black....

happy easter peoples! its raining again here, and im not really feeling all that celebratory.
im still sick, apparantly i had a urine infection, so had antibiotics for tht, and its cleared up, but the tired/sick/aching/pain is still there and it sucks major moneky bum. still waiting for the blood tests to get back so they can tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
I hate it, and i feel decidedly unsexy. i dont have the energy to get up in the morning, let alone put on makeup and pretty clothes.
But on the upside, i got my period today.heyho.
Much love to everyone at this special time of year, even if youre christian, which Im not, but its a great way to celebrate the festival of Eostre, the goddess of springtime. Blessed be all!!

I ma becoming the worst blogger ever. I am so lazy. Of course, my life is shite at the moment so I dont really feel like it.
My ex boyfriend who Im still kind of in love with has decided to find someone else, and apparantly she is so LOVELY| and so NICE and so WONDERFUL and so PRETTY and im like I DONT WANT TO KNOW. even though i screwed someone else after we broke up, my heart belonged to him and up til 2 days ago he was telling me oh how much he loved me, oh how much he wanted to get back with me.... now its all SHE'S SO NIIIICE, and i odnt GIVE A FUCK. well clearly i do, im pretty cut up about it but i have to pretend. I just want to scream and cry and shout and cut myself up....fuck promises, what do they mean anyway, he broke enough of them to me.
apart from that, i collapsed the other day and have been feeling so tired and my joints ache and my head hurts and im sick and the fucking list goes on, so im having all sorts of tests done right now and i dont really have the energy to do anything. adding the stress that ex just brought into my life, well arnt i just SUPER FUCKING PEACHY KEEN!
Im so sick of people having power over me and my feelings.
Sometimes i just want to end it all, maybe it would be worth it to see whats on the other side..
my head just feels well and truly fucked at the moment and i guess i could use as much looking after as possible.
Anyhoo...speak soon oh great computer in the sky that links me to SG!

i have only one thing to say:

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Oh and that i cant get online much SUCKY SUCKY BUM BUM!

I am so mad. Mad at myself for being so self destructive, mad at the chain of events that have somehow conspired to come about when I feel most vulnerable. Life is not at all like Friends, or Sex in the City or any type of trashy comedy that I like to lose myself in. I hate this and there is nothing that I can do to change it.
I FUCKING hate romantic comedies. ok, i need to rant. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. thats better.
I hope the actor is for real. (oh the irony)

get me with the old english!
The fanny fair, the divine monosyllable, the prescious pudendum, the cunnus, l'aautre chose, the aunt, the arbor, the attic, the bath o' birth, the belle chose, best-worst part, bit o fish or bit o mutton, the bottomless pit, the bower o bliss, the brown madam, the earl of rochester's bull's eye, the shakespeare's circle, cock-alley, the confessional, the crack, the cranny, the cream-jug, the cuckoo's nest, the cuntkin, the cupid's alley, the diddley-pont, doodle-case, dormouse, duck-pond, dumb-oracle, the sweet et cetera, the everlasting wound, the eye that weeps most when best pleased, the flapdoodle, the fly-trap, the fountain of love, the funniment, the furrow, the gravy-giver, the garen of eden, happy hunting grounds, the ivory gate, the itching jenny, the jampot, the jewel of jewels, lamp o love, a lucky-bag, a thankless mouth, a nether eye, a palace of pleasure, a pen-wiper, a seed plot, the sperm-sucker....
and I could go on!
God bless Victorian england! Abridged from "Fanny" which is an excellent book. to me, it is just my cunnykin, and i love it!
*by the way i am so horny and in love with my pussy!*