wowowow!! so much to say! i haven't been on here in forever for one, if you haven't noticed. And now i'm workin' full time at a hotel in my hometown :] as a bartender! i just recently got a raise and things are looking up. I lost my license due to drunk driving but it's giving me alot of opportunities, like seeing how many people in Madtown I actually know! Go networking skills. Also, I get to see friends I hadn't in awhile. And I never have to worry about a DD! It's nice to take things at a slower pace nowadays too.

So in a nutshell, things are well with me. I'm staying busy and out of too much trouble. I miss all of your lovely faces, and I hope to come on more soon!

Wow it has been too long. And I honestly miss this place. I wish there was a place we could all hang out all the time!!

Well my bartending job closed down. And I've been through hell and back through the last 3 months, and I think it's safe to say things are going to get better from here on out. I've been actually getting paid shoots now, and I'm loving it! It's possible I will get signed to Strut Agency in Madison, WI. Which would be insanely cool. I'm in such a rut still, just because so many of my friends moved away and I lost contact with alot of my friends. But I'm meeting more, and I love networking. I started drawing and writing again, which feels great. And I've gone on mad cleaning binges and have relived alot of perfect memories. Also when the time comes for me to move out, I can just go.
The ex and I finally came to an agreement to hate each other, when he decided to start talking shit about my modeling and then some. So I told him to grow a pair, and lose my number. finally.

I also got my first ticket, that's not related to parking or speeding and it was for paraphernalia. HAH. What a joke, but the cops were cool. But I need a job soon so I can pay this, or else I get a warrant for my arrest, and it goes up $100 a day I don't pay.

I'm enjoying life despite it all. I've had some of the best people enter my life.

So I totally landed this kickass bartending job at a really nice Taphaus in Madison, that over looks the Capital/Downtown, and the sun sets behind it all. It's gorgeous and I love it there, and I'm makin' alot of money And I've been getting alot of modeling shoots, and am pretty much one step away from doing an SG set!

As for my love life, I'm currently seeing-ish two guys, both really cool, both not ready for relationships, like me. Both are drummers, and with both I would have major trust issues with because, guy #1 has cheated on all his girlfriends pretty much, and guy #2 is my ex. haha I always get in the predicaments though.

I've reconnected with a few really good friends from back in the day and I'm loving how my life is right now, despite the uncertainties, and new change in scenery!

I'm going to Florida, Disney for a week!!! YAY Me and a friend are road trippin' down there the 13th-20th about. So if ya'll that live there wanna chillax & shit, lemme know we'll party it up!! HELL YES

what do you think??

i tried resizing it about 11 times, but it won't work so i'm sayin' fuck it. if you wanna see the full picture, you can look it up in my album! it's just a little side boob lol

Hey! I totally had a photoshoot with my good friend Patrick who is a photography student and such. So here's a few we had from the other day. Enjoy! Lemme know what you think!!

I think the second one is my fave! What do you think?!

ITS MY 21ST BIRTHDAYYY!!! YAY

My life is going to hell. I just tried to post a blog explaining all of it and ranting and I felt a little better, than my internet fucked up...and now I have to RETYPE ALL OF IT

IN SHORT: (yah this is short comparatively...)

My phone's screen is broken. Hopefully I can get my mom's old one and transfer info over to it.

My car door locks are broken and I can't get into my car unless I leave it unlocked and the window down. So I can't really go anywhere until I take anything and everything valuable out, and hope no one steals it.

School is conflicting with work hours, and they have no more hours to give me. So I can either find a new job or hope for the best, or well... hire an assassin to kill a coworker Which jobs are slim right now

Plus not having a working phone or working car really puts a damper on the whole finding a new job thing.

On top of everything school tuition is coming up and I'm not getting enough financial aid to cover it, tuition is 7000$ a semester. I start in less than a month. so I'm looking to anyway possible to get money, scholarships, anything! Though stripping, and prostitution are out of the question.
But becoming a Suicide Girl is not! That is it would help, but only if I win. And I was going to use my friends nice Nikon D80, but he can't find it, and he just left for Florida for 5 months!!

My laptop got fixed, new battery, video clamshell and motherboard for free. Thank you Apple.

And now I just found out that my friend won't be able to drop off my weed
THERES NO END TO THIS!

I've had a few moments that I've just started crying because it's all so overwhelming right now.