I want someone special to touch me but have to settle for touching myself.

Last night my love came to bed disturbed and it is sticking in my gut I'm worried about the state of things could be I'm just being paranoid but there is a disturbance in the force I wish I knew what it was.

Today my work schedule got messed up, I walked into a pole and I think I broke my knuckcle again and this time I wasn't even punching anything. On the bright said I made pasta and made new connects on suicide girls and I'm going to perform at the Hip-Hop Buffet in Pittsburgh. Life is still ok. And I just got accepted in the Fem Dom group here so maybe my dream of finding a Domme will come true....Yes I am weird that way.

Good Morning all...Its a sunny day in the windy city and I'm preparing to take flight. Work needs me it'll be slow and I will read a bunch of Punisher comics to pass the time. Write in my rhyme notebook and think about my next ink. I'm definitely gonna get a big piece done by yhe summer but I got smaller ones to get first. By mid summer I should have at least 3 more done. If any of my Chicago people have someone they would like to refer me to let me know as I don't have a particular artist to go to my ink was done at 2 different places. I also want you guys to tell me what kind of sets I should take as I am gonna brave the the camera and take a set or 2 myself to post

So here it is my second day as a member of the suicide girls community and it feel s grand never before have I found a place where my views on sex and women and life are shared by so many others. Here I have faced no ridicule or jokes. I have even found a group for me where being a large guy is acceptable and even found sexy some of gals out there are down right randy when it comes to a big brother. So thanks everyone who befriended me and all the new friends to come. Remember to support your local music whereever you are in the world, respect everyone and smoke the stickiest of the icky.

Greetings Sunday morning. I awoke this morning to a strange feeling. Well 2 strange feelings. One was my cat sleeping on my back and the other was a feeling of things are really gonna be ok. After turmoil with the woman I love and a lot of self doubt I have a renewed sense of purpose. I'm still in financial quandry and need to find a way to actively make more money but I felt at peace this morning. I looked over at my girl and she was sleeping peacefully and our son awoke bright eyed and full of energy it made me think that we don't have it so bad. It could be a lot worse and I need to step back and appreciate the good things that I have. My family my music my best friend and kinky sex. Yes I listed kinky sex because I could not be me without it if you don't think its that important go without it. Anyway this blog has no true rhyme or reason its just me talking as time goes on my blogging will get more focused and address a lot things.

Peace
Cochise Soulstar

After many drinks and viewing the horrible movie "black Dhalia" I think its blog time. Lets get a few things out of the way so you the reader know what you are getting into. The first is I'm drunk the second is I'm horny and the third is that I'm an open book at this point with all sorts of thoughts flowing through my head. For example I have a ghot girlfriend who loves me and is almost as smashed as I am but not as in the mood as I am. Should I just wait until shes more sober or jump her bones and give her all the sexual energy I have built up by looking at you fine examples counter culture sexuality. I mean what red blooded man wouldn't be fired up after viewing the contents of this site. Hell what woman isn't riled up after viewing this site. Lets just be honest in 2008 their is something about a pin up girl that is way more exciting than any video vixen. If I had my way I would have all my videos include girls like the ones on this site. And guess what I don't need them naked to express themselves. So many of the women I have viewed on this site are at their sexiest fully clothed or that moment before the first article of clothing is removed. Their is something about the anticipation that is more exciting than the pay off. Don't get me wrong I love the naked female body but the moments before it happens are the best. I think I got off track somewhere but oh well its the rum talking at this point I'm just a vessel of inhibition. So moving on to this pointless blog that I am typing I think this site is the greatest place for people like myself who appreciate a different type of beauty that mtv does not promote. I feel like I can express my inner thoughts and desires here and not be made fun of because I'm different in what I think is beauty oh damn I'm drunk...U*ntil 7 p.m. tomorrow I bid you farewell...

Well here it is I'm all signed up and what do I do first I'm unsure. I have seen a lot on this site already so I am gonna blog a lot and be one of those annoying people who write all the time. This is a short blog because I'm a little drunk and don't want to ramble and say something stupid.

Hello I'm Cochise Soulstar artist and free thinker thanks for letting me in to this wonderful community....